"Summer '09 Ends With A Gravitational Collapse"
by Patrick Keedy Brown
The air tastes wet: like a humidifier gone broke, like steamed shower air, like regret
in the passenger seat of the red Honda Civic parked on the side of the bridge looking over
the river we used to play in. And clutch a rosary to your chest
if you think it will be easy with one eye on the rear view mirror
looking back from where we came. Doesn’t the sky look beautiful
tonight? the driver says, probably in reference to the stars.
Galileo would think it is a good night: a city so deep in sleep you can almost count out the stars:
Orion and Sirius and Vega to your hand outstretched, like gramma taught, and regret
that you can only see the brightest. You remember a time when he called you beautiful
but now he turns to you says Summer ends We cannot We are over
His hand joins yours in the stars, pointing towards a moon, a mirror
image to your own. And only so many words can fit in your chest.
The first time you swam in it, all the air was knocked out of your lungs like a blow to the chest
he laughs and he tells you that everything in the world is the same, made from star
dust a thousand million years ago. You can see earth and river when you look in the mirror
and I wonder if God made a mistake making me human - Did he regret
that I was not a far away star or a mountain or a breeze through the forests that grow over
on the other side of town? At the end, he looks at the river, laughs, and names it Beauty.
Towel tossed hair with window cracked open highway air Little Trees called Belleza
because Joan Jett can’t save us now from his chest
even though he only listens to Bad Reputation & Crimson and Clover,
having rode female rock-star
fame into popularity Joan Jett can’t save you now and don’t regret
it. He doesn’t look back in the mirror.
Cracks in mirror
bathroom Sink-stained beauty
that Mama said she could see in your eyes clouded by regret
that sickly air choke on lungs in chest
Mama used to say you were a star -
constellation in Andromeda but that time is over.
We are over
We see ourselves in mirrors
over Do we know the stars
or pretend to see on earth their beauty?
You think of our hands on our chests
and have only one regret
He will drive over to the seven Eleven and see beauty
in the wheel, rear view mirror, seat-belt across chest.
Is the sun a collapsing star? It does not know regret.
my Peace bleeds
by Lucia Corrochano
my Peace bleeds,
raw and vulnerable she shows;
when she shines, i shine
and when she's good, i glow
and when the moment comes
when someone whispers in her ear,
i'll get down on my knees
and beg she should stay here
think about it once or twice,
peeking in and out the door;
and wherever she does walk
blood keeps dripping on the floor
but when she takes her bow,
as everyone had guessed;
she’ll bleed out even more
from the claws marks that i left
i keep falling for the trick,
as she leaves me once more,
so when blood starts to trickle,
the guilt shakes me to my core
guilt and resentment towards past me;
the death of hope for possibility;
how did i pay with the pain of today
for the happiness of yesterday.
i cherish her more every time she comes back,
so every time she leaves, it worsens the attack;
the longer she leaves and the longer she stays
it doesn’t matter anyways,
cause she always leaves eventually,
and it’ll break me consequentially-
my Peace bleeds, raw and vulnerable she shows,
so i'll bleed and cry and mourn with her, not fight next time she goes.