Spirituality and religion are charged and divisive issues. So I won't go into details here but offer some general words.
Each community offers online resources right now. Search online for your community to see what virtual opportunities there are for you to grow and connect with others.
Find what works for you. Spend time exploring different options and see what gives you the best peace so you can live a good life.
If you do want the resources I use, reach out to me and I'd be happy to share.