Dear past, come back to me today,
Feel my voice upon my sleeve
As I cry out for who I think I know,
The me that I let leave.
Stuck between who I am
And who I could become
Silent thoughts form this melody
Heavy breaths, this earthly hum
I tell myself to look within, to ask:
Are your thoughts anywhere as dry
As the taste of time upon your tongue
As you learn to say goodbye?
Goodbye to not just anyone,
But the young girl that you leave
As you change, grow and blossom
A mosaic of the truths you believe
Believe not just in your bodily might
But in the volume of your sound
Don’t quell your voice when it starts to echo,
Feel it shake this very ground
Coming back to the present, I’m fairly glad,
That I have no semblance to
A person who I thought the world of
When this world was all I knew.
It's there behind our conscience,
realizing what's happening
Looking but not seeing
the horror of it all
The strong urge
to take a step forward
Shout out and make it stop
the pain of it all
But the urge, shielded,
more like, cowering
Behind the hundredth layer of dread
And the fear of it all
Twitching hands,
words stuck in the throat
Stalling and contemplating,
the dilemma of it all
Now, when it's too late,
staring at the remnants
Of lost hope and promise,
and the misery of it all
Until it clicks,
Forcing me out
And as I stare and stare, it sinks
The gravity of it all.
Sweet dreams are made of this.
I had travelled the world and swam the seas.
I have seen faces and colours.
Gotten used and abused
I have jumped cliffs and chose paths.
I have broken down and put myself back together again.
I have stabbed myself with knives trying to fix the bruises of the past.
But one thing I’ve never done is given up.
I kept going. I will keep going.
No force can stop me.
This is my moment.
The world is my stage.
I am the star of my universe.
Beautiful faces. Fake souls.
Abuses brought me down.
Always waiting for the moment but there is no right time.
It’s time to change the world.
I know I am made for more.
I know I have a bigger fight to arm up for.
I just want to let the light of my heart shine.
This is my moment.
This is the moment I will change my life.
It is the rush can you feel?
How can I when you made me kneel.
Kneel before you your emotions and your love,
My Liberty and sovereignty no more than a caged Dove.
My own meaning so little,
That string of hope so brittle.
You break it all the time,
My own voice to you is a crime.
I gaze down your eyes to see the pain in mine,
I live my life without my spine.
Seamlessly bending to your will,
All this while I let whatever remains of my soul to spill.
You are my sole in-charge,
You are the prisoner from my conscience still at large.
You are my jealousy and ego,
You really did put on quite a show.
But I'm done with you,
It was the strongest coffee this night that I brew.
Eenie meenie miney mo,
Catch a tiger by the toe,
Hide it under worn out jeans,
Lacerate into my seams.
Leave fading scars of a battle I know,
All too well to let them show.
All too well, but not well enough
My diffidence eaten from a golden trough
I know now what you mean to me,
And what I must do to set you free.
If I asked of you, would you learn to creep?
Become forthright with resplendent sweep.
Caged beast, you must sing some more,
Move me. Shake my mortal core.
Teach me now to once more fawn,
Fawn the limbs these stripes adorn,
Replenish my being with long-lost ease,
To do as I wish and live as I please.
But if heart is what I command of you,
Then heart I must ask of my own self too.
I'm not gonna lie there are days when we see you as tyrants, dictators,
Rule-makers and phone-takers.
But we see you push open doors, from the times when you can't remember the last time you slept for more than 6 hours to the times when you sit and sweat with us for our homework almost like a mission, at the heart of the system, we listen, advance, envision our tasks to the last ambition, where you carve paths for us to make the right decisions.
When I'm calculating the motion of projectiles, I try to think of our destined miles. I think about what anchors our mass, the distance between your and me, and of course the force of gravity, the free falling pieces of land, suddenly I understand, I raise my hand and I say, "hey, it's okay if you go east and I go west, we're connected by resultants: you guide us, and we'll pass the final test.
Because we remember what you taught us in September, that when we stop procrastinating and start accelerating its easy to see that our final velocity will be greater than our initial, it's simple.
Legend has it that students who are proficient in citing resources while sleepwalking are 3 times more like to graduate from high school,
add on-time submissions and progress reports, these students become 13 times more likely to graduate on time, multiply by the restraint on the urge to binge your heart out while cramming for a test divide by frequent threatening borderline scary outlook emails, take the square root of reality, subtract deadlines and your social life, and there you have it, the equation of life we'll come to appreciate at every turn, more than any Pythagorean theorem we'll ever learn.
I'm in English class and maybe this is symbolism but there are women in my life who told me that life radiates from the palms of my hands, and that words are sight locked behind metaphorical iron bars, once unleashed become the motifs to our existence. That 'backspace key' on your keyboard because the thing about life is that it’s not defined by our mistakes, in fact, the legacy that you leave is the one that you make.
Because that day in September, you told us, that we are more than our outfit, more than our makeup, more than the sport I play and the one I don't, more than a GPA, ACT, AP, SAT. You told us, we are your students. And honestly? There's nothing we'd rather be.