Amanda Schoonover
A collection of three Poems
i try not to think about you thinking about me
how much easier would it have been
if i had never formed an opinion of you
for then
i would be spared from knowing
that you did the same with me
reinvention
isn’t it exhausting
having to reconstruct yourself so often
into the shape that is most appealing to everyone around you
breaking down the parts that aren’t digestible
coming out with only the pieces they’ve deemed respectable intact
leaving shreds of yourself behind with every step
Shedding the parts that make them uncomfortable
taking the scraps that are now unrecognizable
and quilting them together into a new pattern that you hope they find more acceptable
and then waiting until they leave so that you can try to reinvent yourself for them again
and again and again
staples
and i can’t help but wonder
how we could spend all that time
stapling ourselves back together
but only some of us
get the privilege
of living without the fear
of being torn apart again