Nicole Campbell

Forbidden

No one around me to numb all my pain

You hate me and damage me.

I’ve been spacey but you chase me.

You sit and watch as my world is gone

Now I gotta deal with this. heart. throbbing. pain. again.

the type of pain that

never

goes

away.

Heaven

As I watch my own mother

burn my faith and envision

my own hell.

I look like satan

the flames are me. the flames are free. the flames I want to be.

I tried finding God.

but if God means going through this.

forget it.

Don’t deserve a daughter

I have a father

I have a father who doesn't give a shit about me

I have a father who stopped loving me when i grew breasts

I have a father who drinks too much and loves too little

I have a father who if you saw

you wouldn't think for a split second we were father

and

daughter.

Because fathers are supposed to l o v e

their daughters

right...