"Maybe it's better to have gotten it right and been happy for one day instead of living a lifetime of wrongs." 

This was my first ever Adam Silvera book, and I'd been warned by so many people to prepare myself for ALL OF THE FEELS, but nobody could have really made me understand just how fast and hard I would fall in love with Adam's writing voice. This book made him an auto-buy author literally by the 25% mark, and I don't think any author has ever made my auto-buy list so fast in my life.

PLOT ➳➳

Imagine a world where someone has perfected the ability to predict when someone is going to die. Now, imagine that same world involving a call center whose staff's entire purpose is to call each unlucky soul between midnight and 3am and to inform them that this is their End Day. Now, imagine that some kind soul has created an app, much like a dating service, that allows people to find someone to spend their End Day with so they don't have to face it alone. 

Mateo has spent his entire life living inside a bubble; meanwhile, Rufus' bubble was burst when his entire family died right before his eyes. The two teens are vastly different, but when they find that they share an End Day, they decide to spend their final hours together, and show one another what living is all about.

THE BOYS ➳➳

Mateo is this adorable, precious little thing who is just terrified of the entire world around him and I just spent so much of the book feeling sorry for him because he is filled with such an immense amount of regret when he gets his phone call. He's spent his short life too afraid to get out and live, and now that he's got less than 24 hours until the end, it's all he wants to do. He just broke my heart so many times.

Rufus, on the other hand, has gotten out and lived, but he's got his skeletons, too. Despite his own fears and regrets, though, he's solidly determined to make this last day of Mateo's life meaningful, even though they only met today. He's got a heart of absolute gold and I adored the chapters from his perspective. He's got such a fun narrating voice, and the way he viewed Mateo as this pure, innocent soul gave me all the fuzzies!

THE FEELS ➳➳

I expected this book to wreck me, and it did, but not in the ways that I expected. I can't say much, because the title spoils enough of the book, and this is one of those stories that you're better off going into with as little information as possible. Let me just tell you to have a box of tissues on standby, and probably also some chocolate or ice cream or something, and maybe a puppy to hold if you can spare one?

FINAL VERDICT ➳➳

I had literally not a single complaint about this book. It is so rare that a story is a pure, unadulterated 5-star read for me, but this one achieved that. I would recommend anyone and everyone to pick up a copy of They Both Die at the End. Even if you don't like YA contemporary, or don't like sad stories... get this one. It's absolutely worth your time.

Thank you so much to HarperTeen and Edelweiss for the ARC of this incredible book! All opinions expressed here are entirely my own.

Destiny

I wasn't a huge fan of Silvera's More Happy Than Not so I assumed I wasn't going to like this one either. I wasn't even going to bother with this one. But seeing all the heartbreaking reviews from my friends had me intrigued, as well as that title and synopsis.

It's honestly the best decision I've made in a long time?? Lmao. 

I was promised tears, heartbreak and all the emotional feels and it's safe to say that, yes, I did get all those things. And I can't be any more happy. It's no surprise I love sad, heartbreaking books and reading this one really really destroyed me in the best way possible.

When a book makes you cry 3 chapters in, write down my words son, it's going to wreck you in the best way possible. I just loved this so much, I want to buy a copy for each and every person then throw the book in their face and scream at them to read this!!

Imagine sitting down, reading your favorite book while sipping your coffee or trying to be that perfect grade A student doing nothing but studying all day and not having any fun in your life when suddenly!!!!! you get a call saying you'll die in the next 24 hours and that's all the time you have to do whatever you want (except bad illegal things). Then, you'll just die. 

That's what happened to Mateo and Rufus. They got called by Death Cast and were told that they only had 24 hours to live that day and they should enjoy their last day on Earth. 

It's just so cruel and torturous knowing you'll die and not being able to do anything about it except spend the time you have left with the people you love and doing things you would have denied yourself if it were any other ordinary day. It's especially cruel, knowing you have an exact, certain amount of time left and you have to do this and this and this before you go. 

It's especially cruel having to tell those you love that you're dying and watching them break down in front of you knowing the loneliness, sadness, but memories of happiness you'll leave with them.

This is what happened to Mateo and Rufus. 

But they found a friend, something more in each other. They didn't mope around about their deaths, cry about it, sit silently about it. They found each other and wanted to spend their last day together finding friendships, love and trying new things. They spent their last day with all their loved ones doing things that made them happy. Doing things they never had the balls to do. 

They truly lived life the day they were going to die.

It's impossible not to cry when reading something like this. 

Like I can't stress how much this book made me realize that I'm pretty much just in this world living, no not living, just existing when I could be doing so much more. 

Mateo is gay and Rufus is bisexual coming from Cuban and Puerto Rican backgrounds. Learning about their families, lives and situations made me want to wrap these two in warm blankets, feeding them chocolate chip cookies and never let them go. They are the sweetest cinnamon rolls to ever exist omg!!

The side characters are literally the most loving and sweetest people to bless this book. Except for that guy whose name starts with a P. He, he can choke. Rufus' two friends aka The Pluto's are so loving, loyal, caring and sweet!!!! They're more like family and always got each other's backs and I loved reading about how they're always there to love and support each other!!

My only complaint with this book was that it really dragged in the middle leaving me bored, which is why 4.5 stars.

But like, overall, you guys don't know how much you need this book in your life. For me, this book is literally the world and I really hope it's the same for you.

Sana