Pegasus Literary Magazine 2024
Thank you to all of the writers, thinkers and artists who contributed their work this year
to make a wonderful digital edition of the magazine.
Ms. Woodley, Advisor
TABLE OF CONTENTS
all you have to do is ask - Hillary Apolo
i would offer you this:
half smile,
half joke,
half heart
half - life.
i would give you
half a clementine.
Varied Art - Gabriela Alvarado
Raz, Dva, Tree: At the Gates - N. Luo
Dark is the night comrade,
At the gates of Berlin,
Nearly two and a half million men,
Victory against the fascist snake!
Raz!
Dva!
Tree!
Into the fray comrade!
Rifles are hot with action,
Cover is a coolant we cannot afford,
The enemy cannot escape!
Raz!
Dva!
Tree!
Action again comrade!
For two weeks love has shielded us,
We cannot stop now,
The Fürher is dead!
Raz!
Dva!
Tree!
Only 2 days ago I praised our good fortune,
But it seems to have ended,
What will I tell the widow?
The Reich has fallen!
Raz!
Dva!
Tree!
Pizdetz comrade!
How can I leave you here,
Sleeping under a plywood star?
Cargo 200 . . .
Raz!
Dva!
Tree!
War is over comrade,
And yet in my soul I cannot find peace,
I must envy you in this manner.
Take your trench coat - let’s go home.
Raz!
Dva!
Tree!
For you comrade,
We will stay strong,
Take my trench coat,
I cannot find home.
Context: The Soviet people had been fighting the Reich for 4 years and lost nearly 20,000,000 lives. Cargo 200 was the military code for corpses returning from the front. A “plywood star” is a reference to the caskets of the USSR, which had a wooden star on the front. Raz, Dva, Tree means 1, 2, 3 in Russian. This poem is to remember all who fought for the end of Fascism.
anatomy - Jenesis Fabian
my father’s anger is built up inside of me
my mother’s hazel eyes glare at your hungry fist
my father’s lack of patience seethes through my tears
my mother’s black curls caress your mercurial palm
your simmering voice reverberates through me
my father’s petulant words become delicate
my mother’s smile glistens through your sorries.
Sketchwork - Ivan Casteneda
Pencil on paper
The Bittersweet Heartache
Let's be honest, loss sucks. Whether you lost your favorite pair of earrings, a pet, or a person you cared deeply for, it still hurts. I was 13 and a half when they died, and I was devastated.
I had no words for it. It was a shock not only to me or my mom but to the world itself. People hugged us, cried with us, and gave us gifts of remorse. Flowers, chocolate, and sympathy cards were all over the place. I couldn't escape the reality that they were dead.
I lived with them all my life, and whenever my mom was busy working, or my dad wasn't around, I adopted them. They would call out: Want to go to the park, Bid? or Yes, Pen, I'll take her to the doctor at 2. and Bid, what do you want for dinner tonight? I swear they cared about the world more than themselves. They always cared for me, for us, and they deserved to be taken care of in return.
I miss them like hell and sometimes wonder why them. I know life is unfair, but I didn't realize it was this unfair. They had problems as everyone else did and fought, but they still loved and cared for each other. Love is a strong word, so is soulmate.
You cannot tell me they weren't soulmates. You cannot tell me we weren’t soulmates, the four of us. We were the four signs ( water, fire, air, and earth). So, we were perfect together. I like to think they are both somewhere else waiting for me and my mom. We had with each other that couldn't be broken. Not even different dimensions could break it.
I miss them, but I have promised I will continue to live on not only honoring them but also sharing the love they gave me with the world. I love baking like my grandmother and helping others like my grandfather. I will make this world a little bit better, like both of them.
Even if your family isn't close, you might have friends you consider family or even furry friends you love. If you have yourself, that's okay, too. You are such a strong person that you can create love wherever you want in life; whether in a family or not.
- Anonymous
ENDURANCE - Jacob Pulla
ENDURANCE
No one said it’ll be easy.
13th mile in,
just half way to go.
Legs trembling, thoughts everywhere.
WHEN WILL IT END? IS IT WORTH IT?
HOW MUCH FURTHER? DOES THIS REALLY MATTER?
WILL I HIT MY TIME? WHAT IF I STOP?
I CAN STOP THIS NOW THIS PAIN ISN’T NECESSARY
SLOW DOWN STOP
QUIT THIS PAIN YOU CAN STOP THIS
NO
WHAT ARE YOU THINKING?
WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU?
DON’T QUIT,
PAIN IS TEMPORARY,
REMEMBER YOUR HARD WORK,
REMEMBER YOUR PROMISES,
THINK OF THE SATISFACTION,
THINK OF THE SHINY MEDAL.
DON’T GIVE UP
DON’T GIVE UP
DON’T GIVE UP
DON’T GIVE UP
FINISH IT
More Than I Could Ever Be - Vania Morales
People come, people go
They're only here for the show.
They either make you glow or drain.
They put you in pain and make your face rain.
Every time you show interest, they seem to pull away.
So often you say that's a typical day.
I’m not saying lose hope
You just need to learn how to cope.
Whether it's writing or hiding, still keep on fighting.
Maybe it's blocking the accounts that aren’t inviting,
The ones, after finding, that make your eyes wet and sleepy.
You know they’re not good, yet you never want an answer so meekly.
Torterra Snoozing - Gabriella Rivera
Medium: Digital art, ibis paint
Reach - Shahd Ibrahim
I ask you all to listen
to my words
I ask for you to listen
remember what you’ve heard
You all have dreams—
so do I
But will you reach so high you never stop?
You might still miss the moon up there
and beyond the moon lie the stars
keep climbing, if you dare.
Let these stars remind you of the truth:
No dream is too big or too far
For these stars in the sky, no matter how high
Still shine brightly throughout the night
The other stars in the sky are who you may or may not expect
The people who want you to shine too
They are the ones who know your worth, your dreams, your passions
They are the ones who will shine with you
So I beseech you all,
listen well to what you hear.
Your dreams may never reach the moon
But you’ll never rise in fear.
Drawings - Victoria Machado
Marker on Paper 4x6
Coming Out - Hillary Apolo
No dust has settled on these
hands since you
let go.
I keep my house tidy,
in case you decide to visit.
The answering machine blinks silent;
it no longer plays my voice.
I worry you’ll regret hearing it,
ever since that day Mom—
I know I do.
Drawings - Joseph Oriente
Ink on paper.
Why did you grow up so fast?
As I look back at childhood memories, I find myself captivated by the reflection of two simple yet profound phrases that have resonated deeply within me throughout my journey of growth: "Why did you grow up so fast?" and "I miss when you were little." These words, uttered by either my dad or my grandparents at different stages of my life, filled with longing and sorrow, are a heartbreaking reminder of a time when innocence coexisted alongside the carefree days of my childhood. Do they not realize that the words they spoke aimlessly have left such an important mark on my heart, leaving me with contemplations about the passage of time and the evolution of all my relationships? It leaves me with self-deprecating thoughts like, Do they not like who I have grown up to be?
"Why did you grow up so fast?"—a question filled with wonder and longing. Each time my dad whispers these words, I feel bittersweet nostalgia tugging at my soul. It is a reminder that time, like a clever thief, has snatched away my childhood innocence, leaving behind traces of maturity and responsibility. But, even with the complexities of teenage life, I try my best to reassure him that while my outer shell may have transformed, the essence of who I am remains eternally intertwined with the cherished memories of our past.
On the other hand, "I miss when you were a little girl," spoken lovingly by my grandpa, evokes a sense of warmth and wistfulness. His words bring me back to the days when he used to brush my hair and attempt to put it in a braid, embracing me in a cocoon of love. With each syllable, I feel the weight of his longing for the good old days when laughter echoed throughout the garden where we used to plant flowers, and innocence danced in the sparkle of my youthful eyes. As I grow older, I realize that the bond we share goes beyond the restrictions of age, creating a tie of love and understanding that remains unbroken to this day.
~ Anonymous
Childhood's Sunset by Elene Diaz
Wax on paper 8.5x11 in.
Short Pieces - Hillary Apolo
Loving you feels like
a post-firework show:
a swirl of debris spiraling down,
the remnants of a snowstorm,
poisonous flakes my tongue can’t hold
B-lot-s
As ink bleeds on paper,
I’ve poured my love onto you:
A Bunbury Rorschach.
Is that why we're so hard to read?
Tick...Tick...Tick... by Jenesis Fabian
Two faced disarray
One side lover, one side stranger
Which one do you think
I’ll end up with today?
Your exhausting cycles
Circle me like a condescending cloud
Maybe I’m better off
Without your deflecting doubts
Monday you apologize
You agree to put a stop to your tiring ways
Tuesday you rip up that agreement
Right in front of my newly-gifted bouquets
Wednesday you trudge to me in regret
Adding onto your endless burden of false portrayals
Beloved broken clock…
Times up.
Picture B: Into the Unknown Part 1 - Shahd Ibrahim
“Hello?” The sound of my voice echoed through the room. Was it even a room?
I quickly blinked open my eyes, blinded by the sudden light that surrounded me. I stood up, trying to put on my coat, which protected me from the icy feeling of loneliness creeping over me. I looked around me, but everything was the same: an endless sky blue clean and clear as water, full of nothing.
“Where am I?” I asked, hoping for someone to answer, to wash away my rising feeling of unease. My voice echoes.
I tried to find a wall to lean on and feel my way through. Maybe there was a hidden exit that I could leave from. This place, wherever it was, was simply a void of sky blue.
A surge of panic rushed through me, as I wandered around frantically. “Please, somebody!” I called as agitation consumed my mind. I hated being alone. Ever since I was little when my mom left me at the orphanage. I clutched my locket, the last and only memory I have left of her. “Anyone! Help! Please get me out of here!” Tears threatened to run down my face, but I blinked them away; I needed to focus.
Your isolation isn’t real. You’re not actually alone. You can find your way out. I try to gaslight myself into thinking that I’ll be okay. But I can’t. I can’t ignore the reality of my unknown situation: I am alone in a random void of sky blue with no one to help me.
My breath got more shaky, and my heart pounded louder than drums at a rock concert. I stopped, focusing on my breath, trying to calm myself down. “Please let this just be another nightmare.” I silently prayed, surrendering myself to my tears, as I crumpled to my knees.
Pages from Literature - Mia Vidal
Pencil on paper
Memorabilia by Chloe Nunez
Caught without another warning
Now, there’s no time left for mourning
Singing beautiful songs
Stuck in the trance we’ve been in all along
Hand another dime to the man in the front
given time, your chance will amount to none
of the words, the worth of those before and ahead
the prayers of the lost will be the needle to your thread
Dance, dance, dance, daughter of the ice
Stop resisting, let the trance engulf you,
Blinded by your mind, the trance of the sin,
and enlightened by words remained true.
Strum, strum, strum, dance with the lance in the dusk.
Viewing gold out the window must be a wonder,
though in a world where there is nought but thunder
one must fight against the husk
Memories, memories, memories.
The songs that only last a minute,
Loved by all, still hated by many.
Says the one who’s hard to please,
A scrawny little cat with a fidget,
Can never seem to stay steady.
So, there I stood.
left alone, though I chose to be so.
The faces of allies once known:
worlds, eons, now blown
down to the ground. I see
the train of memories.
I would never stop for anyone
If it meant I could keep their happiness
With me.
And one would continue fighting
No matter if they could be brought back.
Because, tell me, my Grace.
If my words are true to you.
If my answers seem brand new
Let the audience know
The real, real you.
Dominican Republic by Brandon Suero
Last year, my family organized a trip for us to take in August to the Dominican Republic. The first half would be primarily spent with my dad’s side of the family while the second half would primarily be spent with my mom’s side. That trip was my first time going to the Dominican Republic.
After arriving and having the day to relax and take it all in, the first day was done. The majority of the first half of the first half of the trip was spent sightseeing, looking at waterfalls, mountainsides, etc. It was really beautiful to see. We did that in 4-5 days. After that, we went on to the second half of the first half of the trip, which was a resort. With it being a resort, it was big. The whole thing looked like a rich part of a town on the beach. It was nice overall. However, throughout this part of the trip, something kept on bugging me. It was like germs on a toilet seat, sure you know it’s there, but you can't do anything about it.
The problem in question was: I felt like I did not belong. I do not know how to speak Spanish. I was never seriously taught the language, nor was I heavily exposed to it when I was younger. I could not speak it if I tried. I can understand some and respond with basic things, but overall, I can't speak Spanish. This fact torments me to this day. The majority of my family is Hispanic and can speak Spanish and I speak English. I am completely cut off from a large part of my family. I cannot communicate or connect with all of my family members. The whole ordeal makes me feel like a fraud, trapped in the body of a person who looks the part but cannot do anything to save their life. This feeling loomed over me throughout that part of the trip. I felt like a child, having my parents say everything for me because I could not get a coherent sentence out. So, it was better to stay quiet. That is what I did, I was used to it, I am a quiet person but for other reasons.
Though I enjoyed this part of the trip, that feeling did have a lasting effect on me. When that part was done, my grandfather picked me, my brother, and my mom up from the resort and we headed to the capital, Santo Domingo, where my grandparents had an apartment. Once we got there and settled in, it felt kind of nice. The smaller scale of everything helped bring a feeling of relaxation to the place. It was time for the second half of the trip. For this one, we spent time primarily with my mom’s side of the family. My dad, who was busy during the first half, arrived two days after we arrived in the capital. We stayed at the apartment for a few days and then we headed for our final destination of the trip, the resort of which I forgot the name of.
During this part of the trip, I did not feel as though I did not belong because more of my cousins speak English. We were all in the same boat of not being able to speak the language so we all had that going for us. It helped me feel better with my whole internal dilemma. Even though I felt like a fraud in my own skin, I got to have fun and spend time with family. I couldn't ask for much more than that.
Fading Away - Abigail Munoz
i’m here but you don’t see
a gift god gives you to wake up
sent off to wherever you want me to be
this cloud is the light’s shadow
my destination is not here with you
i’m going to the blue where i see everything