Pegasus Literary Magazine
2022
Thank you to all of the writers, thinkers and artists who contributed their work this year
to make a wonderful digital edition of the magazine and a special thanks to Georgina Grullon
whose digital art is the cover of this year's collection of works.
Ms. Woodley, Advisor
TABLE OF CONTENTS
i am a midnight songbird by Ximena Cruz
i am a midnight songbird
i don’t want the night to come
i don’t want to feel that wind again
the sensations and whispers that only come at night
i am a midnight songbird
the sadness only comes at night
the pain only comes at night
the sorrow only comes at night
they always come, they always stay
she takes those bullets at night
the girl who takes my burdens
the songbird that sings her melodies to the moon
Emetic Snakes by Saul Ventura
May all the love I have felt and will
consume my flesh
so I may evaporate into
a plume of emotions
and may you inhale me
I wish to be
the very thing that satisfies
your oral fixation
I wish you addicted
to the idea that you could be
addicted to me
satisfied yet craving more
A plane of pure emotion
existing as story
of me
memories
of you
outside space and time
I offer you
my existence
my value
Eat of my flesh
drink of my blood,
I will give you eternal life
Living exponentially
as two snakes
binging and purging -
a bulimic ouroborus
Infinitely eating.
Icy Realm by Abida Kajoshaj
Original Animation
Songs:
“Icy Realm” from Kirby Mass Attack
“Freezy Flake Galaxy” from Super Mario Galaxy 2
Poem by Angy El-Dakkak
Repeating the same cycle every week:
Cleaning counters and taking orders,
Barely eating more than once a day.
No life outside of work and school;
I am exhausted.
Tirelessly walking all-day,
Feet and body aching all the time
6 hours of sleep every night.
No other option than to keep pushing.
Keep pushing through until enough money is saved,
Pushing until the mortgage is finally paid off
Pushing so the lights and electricity can stay on every month
And adequate dinner is on the table every night without worry
Keep pushing so insurance will cover the car accident
So money will cover the clothes without prying every single dollar from the couch.
Being an adult is indescribably strenuous
But I have to keep pushing.
Change by Monalise Mucha
You’ve reached this new point.
In what felt
Like a fraction of a second
Who are you now?
I need to know so
I can weave you back together.
You decide not to fight
And allow this failure to define you.
Everything that you’ve built
Keeps slipping through your fingers:
you will destroy yourself.
Did you ever think this day would come
Or that this would be you?
It is beyond my belief
And it is beyond your control
I see your eyes through the glass screen
As they shine like burning embers
You know very well that you are at fault.
You are angry
You have no right to be
You have done this to yourself.
You are not the person I once knew.
The one who
Inspired me every day.
The one who
I was so proud of,
And so proud to be.
All of my problems will linger
Until I take the initiative to change.
Guillotine by Elizabeth Worthington
Don't you wish to be a guillotine -
able to cut the past from the future
with a single drop of the blade?
Artwork by Ashley Ruiz
Ink on paper
Poem by Julianna Serrano Hernandez
Death is a silent kiss
it surprises you
without waiting
your reaction, it kisses
without passion. A kiss
without love
loved ones hurt
will be your last
kiss
make your body freeze.
MY SOUL/PETTY DANCE by Sebastian Luna
My soul is a petty dance.
With movements difficult to control,
past events are harder to overcome than ever.
Twisting and turning, my signals are unclear.
Wondering if there is even a destination to how
I am expressing my movements.
Neglecting the fact that my mouth is helpless,
I realize that the only way to get out is to dance.
I have my power and you have yours,
I feel as if I’m a God with all the answers
while not knowing that I am the one who sinned
without shame.
Continuing this endless cycle of helplessness,
the ongoing damage is shown forever.
Artwork by Jonah Diaz
Ink on paper
The Sea by Misti Proenza
The night time sky bestows upon her tears of joy.
The night time stars share stories of light
And hope of a newborn day,
The night time sky blesses us with answers of the almighty:
She sees visions of love,
And visions of a brand new life.
The glowing moon shines bright on her tranquil face,
As the illusive waves crash upon the conical rocks,
The girl sits with her head in the clouds,
And her soul out wandering with the sea,
Side by side with its secrets.
The love she had for him was as grand as it could be,
But the love she had for the sea was as deep as it can possibly be.
Her knight in shining armor took her breath,
Just like the sea took his.
An unforgettable love,
An unforgettable loss.
The sea reminds her of her captivating husband,
But the sea is to blame for his casualty.
A loss so grave,
It wipes her off her feet,
Yet a loss so touching,
She can’t take her eyes off the sea.
Every night,
She walks out to the sea,
she sees him within the curling whitecaps,
And the subtle glimmering of the full moon
Every tide,
Every wave,
Reminds her of his ocean blue eyes,
his pearl white teeth,
his quiet,
Yet cunning soul.
The Past Never Leaves by Jackeline Morocho
The past is an everyday maelstrom;
it’s constantly circling, ready to drown me
separating me from my freedom
making sure it haunts me on the daily.
As much as I try to swim away from it,
it successfully drowns me in its massive waves.
Her creeping laugh invades my thoughts;
her cries and screams play with my sanity;
that night constantly replaying in my head.
I didn’t mean to leave her behind,
To be alone with only the company of darkness.
I was going to go back, but I couldn’t risk my own life for her
As selfish as that sounds.
I wish I could leave those moments behind to be forgotten,
but no one can run from what they have done.
I was smacked with a harsh wind of reality, when I realized
My past does not define who I am.
I must not let it interfere with my future nor my present
As hard as it is, I am stronger than its currents.
Each mistake I repent, I set it free
let it drift in the waters to calm my past.
Humanity Settles In by Pelin Cokuslu
Photograph
Love is like a meadow by Karen Soto-Alvarado
Love is like a meadow
Vast, beautiful, but still
Lost feelings swaying like the trees filled.
Admirable scene, filled with lust and green
Hiding all the brown and rot in between
Love can sometimes be unjust
Just like a meadow surrounded by disgust
But love is still dope
Like a meadow blooming with hope.
Love is a Capricious Drum by Carla Paz-Almonte
The beat picks up as I lay eyes on you
A soft melody plays as we make eye contact
The cymbals enter the melody; it feels like the start of a beautiful song.
A crescendo swells as our relationship develops
Whenever we speak, the drumbeat in my heart becomes louder
The rhythm captivates me as we fall in love
It makes me want to move to the beat of the drum as we fall deeper and deeper into this new connection we’ve formed
In the back of my mind, however, the beat faintly falls out of rhythm
The crescendo picks up as we yell at each other
The drums becomes louder and louder, angrier and angrier
The beat goes wild until there’s no harmony anymore
A cacophony of noises with no rhythm
the sticks clash against cymbals and drums frantically
And suddenly, it stops with the clamor of a broken drum.
Despite this, the sticks click clack, continuing to play despite the hole
The playing slows to a melodic thrum.
Where do we go from here?
How can we move on with this anger for each other?
I want the melody to stop, I want the time to fix the void
in my drum, between us.
But I can’t stop the tune that plays as I mourn
You move stop playing, move on from the song we built together,
I beat the drum with my hands louder and louder and louder
But it’s not loud enough for you to hear
the beat in my heart, the hurt I try to heal.
Artwork by Aliya Laliwala
12 by 16 in.
Acrylic on canvas
Buddy by Everest Saric
Born a year apart
Almost twins they say
They call us Irish
But they ain’t talking ‘bout no St. Patrick’s day.
Enemies at the start
Brother vs sister at heart
When Big Bro left to chase his dreams
Only we two were left to defend the nest
So buddies we became to conqueror the tree
Together we learned to face any test
My twin and I became and stronger as we
Better friends with each other than with Big B’
Buddies vs bro
is how this new chapter will go.
final words:
nothing more stay with me
dear everyone,
i don’t have a name
i’m not worth that level of fame
i’ve lived, loved, and lost
and in the end, my life was the cost
i was more than willing to die
i thought i didn’t deserve to live
i truly believed i was worthless
Please, believe me, you are worth just one more day
and every day after that, even with all the pain
if you just keep trying, keep fighting
i promise, you will smile again
people who knew me wonder
“when did it start?”
they wonder and they wonder
why i stopped my own heart
there are people that need you right now
people that care
a girl sits behind you in homeroom
she’s written 58 letters and notes all in the hopes
that you might read them one day
they never saw the scars on my wrists and my thighs
they never cared enough to ask about the salt that lined my eyes
living was never fun for me, it was never easy
so i simply stopped fighting, my demons defeated me
a boy waits for you in the halls after school
and nobody knows but he’s loved you since the 4th grade
he misses you on the days you’re not around
and he hates more than anything to see you frown
i saw the chance, i took my final bow
i let the curtain fall, swore my final vow
i promised to leave something behind
even as i cut short my own life
please, think about all the people you would leave behind
your sister, your teachers, your friends
think of the look in their eyes when they find all the scars you tried to hide
how they’d wish they only knew
how they’d find any and every way to help you
and to all the other people reading this
think of the tears your father will shed, in your name
think of the hurt your mother will feel, think of her pain
to all the people who will never have to wonder
if they will be missed
there are countless names and faces
that will miss you every second you’re not around
you know some, but not most
still they’ll wait by the door and wish for you to come home
know that you are the exception, not the rule
know that, even if yours wasn't, life can be cruel
i don’t have enough strength, that's clear
i don’t know what you feel, i might not understand
just listen to me
you have the strength, you’re strong enough
i promise you will survive this pain
you do not have to die in vain
this is the piece of me that i leave behind
this is my legacy, and i will not let it die
what about all the good you can do
only if you’re alive
your best friend from 1st grade is in her kitchen right now
wondering if she should put the knife down
please, go ask “are you alright?”
those three words just might save more than one life
i leave you today
i have nothing more to say
don’t let these be your final words
stay with me, i’m here
i am here
~Grace Jerred Scott
Death is a Gentle Kiss by Ryan Richardson
Tombstones stare at me promiscuously
Telling me release resides six-feet deep
Come now child, it's only a little sleep
Leave this onerous purgatory, just take the leap!
Death’s plump lips make many want it’s kiss
Someday, O’Death bestow one upon my lips
For that would be my ultimate gift.
The Profits of Doom by Misti Proenza
The poison fed to you as a kid,
Leads the world to its demise
You see their eyes,
Wide and bright,
Brought into these deathly lies.
Okay is a word to describe the defeated,
Encased in the web of positivity’s lies,
Entrapped in what is known as “healthy”,
Just a lie to corrupt your mind.
A generation pinned down by desire,
You see it as hearty;
I see it as deadly.
A life based solely on lust, greed, and vanity.
The damage is real
Irreversible for a fact
The souls of a generation sold
For the profits of doom.
That One Shape by Ashley Morales
Acrylic on canvas
Death is a Burning Curse by Megan Forro
I touch my mom’s stomach
You aren’t there anymore, you already left.
Screaming and running around the barren hospital room
You lay there, chained in cords
Beaten by the doctor and nurses that swarm you.
The next day is your funeral
A candle light flickers across your casket;
A symbol of should have been
Your death is a burning curse
The older sister I was supposed to be
Holds memories of your tenth birthday
Your kindergarten graduation
Your running into her arms after school
– Things that never existed.
Your passing has left me frozen
A knife handed to me, covered in blood
Cutting my soul and reminding me of your flame
I blow out the candle
Holding the ashes in your pendant
Made with memories of you
Laying in that incubator
Chained in cords
Not even a whimper
While this big sister holds you in her arms
Squeezes you tight
And then you’re gone.
Oda al Tiempo by Luna Almeida
Tiempo, ¿Qué es eso?
Algunos pueden definirlo como el paso del día
Otros como la medida de un período en el que algo tiene lugar
El tiempo es algo necesario
Pero no lo vemos pasar
Y no le damos el valor que se merece
Una vez yo era una niña
Yo no sabía hablar,
Mucho menos caminar
Ni siquiera sabía mi propio nombre
O quien era yo
Con el tiempo crecí
Aprendí cosas nuevas
Desarrollé nuevos intereses
Desarrollé una identidad
El tiempo fue bueno
Pero también me enseñó el dolor
Mientras crecía conocí gente
Que con el tiempo me destrozaron
Con el tiempo aprendí que no era tan fuerte como pensaba
Con el tiempo me di cuenta que no todos querían lo mejor para mi
Con el tiempo me perdí
Con el tiempo deje de vivir
Con el tiempo comencé a existir
Pero el tiempo también cura
Con el tiempo maduré
Con el tiempo aprendí que podía superar las cosas
Con el tiempo aprendí que, de hecho, era,
Una mujer fuerte
Con el tiempo aprendí mi valor
Gracias tiempo
Por dejarme crecer
Por dejarme lastimar
Por dejarme aprender
Gracias tiempo
Por permitirme explorar el mundo
Y convertirme en quien estaba destinada a ser.
Time, what is that?
Some may define it as the passing of the day,
Others as the measure of a period in which something takes place.
Time is a necessary thing.
But we don't see it happen.
And we don't give it the value it deserves.
Once. I was a girl
I didn't know how to speak
much less walking
I didn't even know my own name
Or who I was
Over time I grew,
I learned new things
I developed new interests
I developed an identity
The weather was good
But it also taught me the pain
Growing up I met people
That over time destroyed me
Over time I learned that I was not as strong as I thought
Over time I realized that not everyone wanted the best for me.
Over time I got lost
Over time I stopped living
Over time I came into existence
But time also heals
With time I matured
Over time I learned that I could get over things
Over time I learned that, in fact, I was,
A strong woman
Over time I learned my value
Thank you time
For letting me grow
For letting me hurt
For letting me learn
Thank you time
For allowing me to explore the world
And become who I was meant to be.
Translated by Teacher
Eye Mask by Denis Julaj Esquit
Photograph & Pencil on Paper
My Heart is Vacant Mirage by C.C.
Unclothed but not naked
You extract my pollen
And, like petals drip nectar,
I drip poison.
My heart is a reflection of the moon;
it exudes everything but the truth
I blind you with my light and you sway at my words
Like the trees dance to the breeze.
My heart is cramped notes in margins
You keep trying to read
But you can’t put me down,
Furrowed brow, questions on the tip
Of your tongue
The enigma of my being
Leaves you stubborn and lonely
I’m the gust of wind that kisses your skin
Crisp and nice but you cannot stand the cold
So I can't leave you out in snow for too long
But the day that you finally leave
May you not be as cold and empty
As me
My heart is a vacant mirage
a space that doesn’t take
up much space, It’s a hole
for the emotions I try to avoid,
But you fill up that void
I’ll sip off your cup till there’s merely
A drop and only then will I leave you alone.
kiss or no kiss by Anonymous
you expect a kiss, don’t you.
but are you worthy of such?
to reveal my mind is much more to undo
than a kiss I dread so much
don’t kiss me, first look in my mind
but how can you explore
when lengths are taken to make sure you can not find
my mind’s core
talk
talk
talk
after all this talking why do i feel
unheard? blocked?
I want to bail,
erase my hippocampus,
blind neurons created just to remember you.
-forever you are in my mind.
It’s time we surrendered
this battle. My mind is a hard-won kiss,
But why did you have to miss?
What’s Cookin’ Good Lookin’? by Rachel Gao
Made with Ibispaint
Oda al Amor by Maria Rospigliosi
El amor cuando llega
es hermoso, feliz y distinto.
Al principio todo es abrazos,
besos y risas.
Después de meses
se aburren y todo cambio.
Sigue pasando el tiempo
y todo ese amor
se terminó poco a poco.
Todos esos besos, abrazos
y risas se volvieron en
peleas, gritos y llanto.
Tratan de arreglar las cosas
pero todo ya era diferente,
terminaron dañando la relación.
Les hizo falta comunicación
y todo terminó.
Translation:
Love, when it comes,
Is beautiful, happy and different.
At first, it is all hugs
Kisses and smiles.
After months,
They get bored and everything changes
And as time keeps passing
And all of that love
Leaves bit by bit
All those hugs, kisses
And smiles turn into
Fights, shouting & tears.
They try to fix things
But now everything is different
They ended up damaging the relationship
They didn’t know how to communicate
And everything ended.
Translation by Ximena Cruz
The Truth is a Handed Down Trophy by Elizabeth Worthington
“Let’s play a game,” said the teacher
To a classroom filled with phones.
The only rule is you can't have your device.
You can share ideas with each other,
or find them written on your desk;
A stroke of luck is not the same as a cheat.
The tiny girl perked her ears
“Lets play a game” said the teacher
The students rolled their eyes
the first question was answered
By a young girl in the back
Heads covering up her pocket search.
“Lysosomes are released when a person cries.”
The tiny girl perked her ears
She knew that.
Moments passed and questions were asked,
Points were floating towards the back
Until the hidden google girl
Won the prize of classroom snacks.
Despite her cheating herself.
Thirty points of nothing.
The tiny girl perked her ears
She knew the girl was cheating
And that her eighteen points were real
If only she didn’t have google
She’d be smart enough to steal.
The truth, and the trophy.
Allegro At Rest by Pelin Cokuslu
Photograph
Flying Again by Seleny Valdez
My father is a flawed songbird.
We go on drives, soaring past delightful landscapes
as the chirping of laughter fills the air but
nothing seems to fill that hole in my heart.
No amount of affection can reverse the trauma burned into my soul.
It does not erase my mother’s tears and
his tune of unspoken “sorrys” to me late at night.
He never lashed out on us, but flew away for days on end,
arriving the next day with a sweet song and a remorseful melody, seeking repentance.
In the end, all of his efforts to win me back are thrown into a wasteland.
Forgiveness requires letting go of a hook penetrating you from the inside out
It requires finding peace within flawed mistakes;
a silent struggle that claws underneath the surface,
trying to break out into the air.
The fragments of myself are scattered on the ground,
begging to be picked up and glued back together.
Slowly, but surely, the dreams that I longed for return home.
The hopes and promises I kept inside were longing to set me free,
send me flying into the air with the birds heading south.
The birds who wish for warmer weather.
Apathy is a Handed Down Curse by Kenya Rodriguez
As the reporter shares details of the assault
Some ask what was she wearing? why did she think she could…?
They have ears but do not hear
Because apathy is a handed down curse
As the woman is questioned about the bruises
On her arms, her face, others who have heard
what she endured ask why didn’t she leave
this cold attitude boiling the blood
The white dove will not appear as long as
Apathy is a handed down curse
As the parents talk about the recent news
a child wanders through a semi-withered garden
holding a stone heart. What are you talking about?
The parents look at each other, speaking with their eyes.
Empathy could help people understand the victims.
What was he wearing? Why didn’t he walk away?
The heart of stone slips to a patch of soft green grass
Unless people are taught about empathy,
Apathy is a handed down curse.
Blind Candle by Denis Julaj Esquit
Photograph & Pencil on Paper
My Heart by Julian Arevalo
My heart is a desperate animal,
the way it craves the immediate
attention, needs a soft caress,
Of a warm hand. The same way
a stray cat purrs and rubs against
someone’s leg. The same way baby
birds chirp and nuzzle their mother.
The same way a dog pouts and whines
hoping the giant red front door will open
at 4PM. The same way
A lion creeps on an elephant, eager
to attack but, every time,
the elephant gets away.
My heart is a desperate animal,
dying of thirst, left to starve.
Will anyone come and claim my hungry heart?
Feed me with love, drown me in kisses,
Put back my broken parts.
Will anyone look at me
in awe and give me their all?
Look into my eyes and ask for a paw?
Or will I be left to crawl?
My heart is a desperate animal.
I wait and listen for the sound of
your voice, like a bat in a cave
listening to prey from afar.
Can someone come and help?
I need a home. I’m outside.
I need to be held.
Comic Cover by Aliya Laliwala
Hand drawn
12 by 19 in.
Markers on Poster