SCENERY

As part of my quarantine series, this is one of the entrance to the building I had lived for three years. It says a lot about my mental situation at the beginning of the quarantine.

With or without quarantine, this building always gives me a sense of oppression. I was always breathless when I was in it, not just the building itself but the apartment as well. Deep down, I hated this place. However, because of quarantine, I had to spend 24 hours a day, 7 days a week in this building without going out much. You can imagine that this feeling has really become even worse. It had been really hard for me to find the light, and when I did, it's full of unknown and that invoked fear.

This shot and the one on the left were only a few days apart. When you're in quarantine because of a pandemic that hasn't been seen in a hundred years, the feelings are sometimes complicated and multilayered. There were too many unknownness ahead of me, but in the meantime because there's not much going on, I also felt calmed and was able to focus on myself, that's how this finding of the small and insignificant leaf came about. I was able to find things I don't normally noticed before and sometimes got intrigued by it. Just like how the air pollution was getting much better during those days, maybe there's something good coming out of the quarantine after all.