The Present - Part 2

After the Chasm is unsealed by the Traveler, Xiao uses this opportunity to search for Bosacius’ whereabouts or to find out what his ultimate fate was. Now that Liyue is peaceful and there is no immediate threat, he thought that perhaps he can afford to temporarily leave his duty for one personal wish. After receiving Zhongli’s approval, Xiao descends into the Chasm. 

Following the traces of a sudden noise, Xiao finds the Traveler and their many friends in the Chasm’s underground. He has an important goal to accomplish so he can’t stay, but before he disappears he advises everyone to leave because that place is dangerous.

Xiao: You shouldn't be here. I would urge you to go back as soon as possible.

(Perilous Trail)

When the group realises they can’t escape from the underground place they fell to, the Traveler attempts to call Xiao for help but there is no response. They soon discover that there is something off about this place, and the Traveler begins to worry about Xiao, as does everyone else. Sensing the group’s desire to find the yaksha, the chaotic space projects his voice to them and uses it to lure them deeper and deeper.

On the other side, Xiao encounters Bosacius. Not knowing that it’s a mere illusion, Xiao refuses to fight back when Bosacius attacks, resulting in him getting injured. This fight is then projected to the Traveler’s group in a one-way form of communication. Fortunately, a chaotic spatial rift appears for a short while which allows everyone to finally speak to Xiao. 

Xiao: Bos... is that... you...?

Xiao: ...No... this... ...look at me!

Xiao: Don't make me... fight you!

Xiao: No, if... still alive... why would you become like this?

Xiao: I won't... attack you.

(Perilous Trail)

The Traveler immediately asks Xiao if he is okay, but he doesn’t respond. At first Xiao is confused by the voices he hears and the peculiar things they say, but he quickly realizes what is happening. This place is really dangerous. In his frantic attempt to tell them to get out at once, he unintentionally reveals his condition, but dodges the question when the Traveler asks about it. He rejects everyone’s concerns because he considers their safety more important than his own, and the connection cuts off before he can say anything else.

Xiao: Something's not right... *cough* Something's wrong with this domain... Leave, now! Get out of there!

Traveler: Wait a minute... Xiao, are you hurt?

Yelan: If we can, we should have him regroup with us as soon as possible.

Yanfei: Tell us what happened and where you are now. We'll come find you immediately.

Xiao: No, your safety is the top priority. It seems this space can...

Yanfei: Huh? He disappeared…

Paimon: Where'd he go? It sounded like he might be injured. We need to go help him! 

(Perilous Trail)

The group pushes forward to find Xiao, but they are led astray and forced to turn back. Just like the Traveler, Yanfei continues to worry about Xiao's safety and after examining all available information she figures out a way to manipulate the chaotic properties of the space to make contact with the yaksha again.

When Traveler and Yanfei manage to speak with Xiao again, they ask him about what happened, but once again he avoids the question. He doesn’t want to burden anyone with his personal problems, especially not the Traveler. The latter urges Xiao to join their group, but he uses his karma as a justification to stay away — a real threat, but not the sole reason he wants to stay apart. 

Traveler: Find a way to get to us.

Xiao: No.

Xiao: The darkness that sullies my soul is harmful to mortals.

(Perilous Trail)

Xiao insists that there is no need to put themselves at risk for his sake. Luckily, Yanfei succeeds at convincing Xiao to join them once she tells him that the Traveler endangered themselves to find him. The guilt was now too much for him to bear. Of all the people trapped there, the Traveler being put in danger because of him was the last thing Xiao wanted.

Xiao: ...There was no need for you to search for me.

Yanfei: But we're worried about you. And earlier, Traveler was tricked into entering a dangerous place...

Traveler: It's true.

Xiao: ...

Xiao: How do we meet? 

(Perilous Trail)

Xiao finally joins the group, but is afraid of being a burden to them. He can’t be of much help in his current state, and he doesn’t want to worry anyone. The group reassures him that he is not a burden. It is then that Xiao finally lets his guard down. He may not understand why, but nobody seems to have a problem with him. Plus, everyone will be safe for now because they won’t need to look for him anymore. This temporary relief allows Xiao to rest and partially recover from his injuries.

Yanfei: A lot's happened here. But this wasn't just for our own safety. You're injured, we can't just leave you alone.

Xiao: It's just a flesh wound. I am fine. I shouldn't let myself be a burden to you.

Yanfei: You're not a burden. Don't think that for one second. We need you, all of us. For our sake, please, stay here. Please?

Xiao: Fine... As you wish.

Yelan: You're injured. Get some rest. Everything else can wait.

Traveler: Yes, wait until you get better.

Traveler: Don't worry about anything else.

Xiao: Alright. 

(Perilous Trail)

It is not known how much time passes, especially in that strange chaotic space, but Xiao eventually wakes up from his sleep. The Traveler rushes to his side to ask how he feels. Not wanting to worry the Traveler, he tries to explain that he is alright and warns them to keep their distance. He is tainted by karma after all. And it’s better if he can scare everyone away, so the Traveler and everyone else won’t waste their time and energy on him. 

Traveler: How do you feel?

Xiao: ...I'm fine. Don't worry.

Xiao: The karma I carry is dangerous to humans. Keep your distance.

Yanfei: Well, I have Adepti blood in me. So, I wouldn't worry too much.

Xiao: ...Even so.

(Perilous Trail)

Still, there are some important matters that need to be discussed. In the Traveler’s presence, Xiao is a little more open, so when Yanfei asks what happened while he was alone, he complies. It is also likely that he believed it was important to share the information he knew about the strange space they were in. Thus, he speaks of Bosacius, the yakshas and his personal goal. 

He then puts all of that aside to focus on what he considers more important: getting everyone out of this place. His personal quest no longer matters because Xiao always puts everyone else’s needs above his own.

Xiao: Everyone, whether I accomplish what I came here to do or not, I must find a way to get you out safely.
(Perilous Trail)

Having a mind that always thinks of the worst-case scenarios and that believes his life has no value (therefore it’s fine to sacrifice) he tries to persuade the group to follow his plan. He might be able to create an opening by channeling all of his energy into it. However, doing so could lead to Xiao’s death or, at the very least, it would mean leaving him behind.

Xiao: So... If I use all the energy I have, I may be able to tear a passage out of this chaotic space.

Yelan: Really... So powerful attacks can affect the space itself. I'd wondered if that was a possibility.

Yanfei: Whoa whoa whoa, but what do you mean by all the energy you have?

Xiao: ...I mean, it will take everything I've got.

Paimon: Wait a minute, when you said you were gonna get us out safely, you mean... you're gonna stay here? 

(Perilous Trail)

Naturally, nobody agrees with him. Nobody wants to escape at the cost of his life. Besides, they don’t even know if the plan will actually work. Xiao might lose his life for nothing. Yelan argues against him and although her words are harsh, she genuinely doesn’t want to see Xiao sacrifice himself. Not only does Yelan feel strongly about self-sacrifice due her being a rescue survivor herself, she also recognizes that Xiao mourns the loss of his old companions but he fails to realize that his death will inflict that very same loss on others. 

Yelan: Forgive my frankness, but the plan you've proposed offers no guarantee of success or safety.

Yelan: Moreover, as you've mentioned, yakshas pose a danger to humans. Are we supposed to unquestionably accept this self-righteous plan?

Xiao: The battlefield has always been a treacherous place. Every opportunity you take, you put everything on the line for. If you fear sacrifice and failure, you can never be victorious.

Yelan: I've been in my fair share of treacherous battles. So I know full well that you never bring up extreme measures like this until the very, very end.

Xiao: ...

Yelan: You say these things in the hope that everyone will understand and accept them. But in situations where self-sacrifice may be in vain, saying such things will only dampen morale.

Yelan: Besides, if you were really so determined to end it all, you wouldn't have given us the opportunity to share our opinions. You are not as ruthless as you think you are.

Yelan: And anyway, if we can only escape by losing someone, we can't consider it a success. 

(Perilous Trail)

Xiao and Yelan continue to argue, but they are stopped by Itto. He punches his way to a new path, but he drains all of his energy in the process which causes him to faint. Xiao, feeling guilty over this, apologizes. Shinobu reassures him that there is nothing to apologize for. Itto did this because he truly believed he was helping, and he knows he won’t be left behind. She goes on to tell Xiao that everyone here is important, including himself.

Kuki Shinobu: Everyone's important. We have to support each other if we're going to get out of here. Your survival is of huge importance to some people... no, to a whole lot of people. 

(Perilous Trail)

Still feeling guilty, Xiao rushes ahead to find a solution through the new path that Itto has opened. When the others catch up to him, they find Xiao preparing to confront Bosacius. He tells them to stand back. This is his fight. Xiao recognizes that this is a mere illusion, a projection, but it’s still something he has to do himself. Xiao wins, though the fight takes a toll on him as he hasn’t fully recovered from his injuries, yet he continues to neglect himself and dismiss his well-being.

Paimon: Xiao, are you okay?

Traveler: You haven't even recovered from your injuries yet...

Xiao: This is my purpose. Don't worry about me.

(Perilous Trail)

During the battle, Xiao finally receives his confirmation: the nameless yaksha from the legends was Bosacius, and he died fighting the monsters in the Chasm. Despite having gone mad, Bosacius was still able to fight for and defend Liyue. Xiao believes this to simply be the nature of yakshas like himself — being slaughterers drawn to blood.

Yelan: He still took part in the battle of The Chasm, despite having gone mad?

Traveler: ...

Xiao: We yakshas are not a race that thrive in peacetime. It's likely that he was drawn by the scent of bloody war.

Xiao: Slaughter is what we do best... Maybe it's the only thing we know.
(Perilous Trail)

With his goal of uncovering Bosacius’ fate now fulfilled, Xiao can finally move on.

Xiao: Time to move on.

Xiao: You fought well, Bosacius. Goodbye.

(Perilous Trail)

Thanks to everyone’s desire to find the Fantastic Compass, the chaotic space manifests one for them. After they discuss and examine the device, the group learns the truth about the place. Bosacius and Yelan’s ancestor, Boyang, used the Fantastic Compass to seal the monsters from Khaenri'ah in the Chasm depths and save Liyue. Unfortunately, this also meant trapping themselves here. Further discussions lead to Yanfei figuring out a way to use the Fantastic Compass to escape the space. If Xiao and Yelan channel their energies into the device, which works as an amplifier, they may be able to undo the seal.

Yelan and Xiao activate the Fantastic Compass together, as per Yanfei’s instructions, creating a platform of light. But then Xiao decides that he should maintain the energy flow by himself and instructs everyone to stand back for their protection. By focusing his power on the device, Xiao makes the platform ascend. They can finally escape.

Alas, shadows begin to emerge from the darkness and they quickly surround the group. Yelan, Yanfei and the Traveler do their best to fend them off, while Xiao pushes himself harder to increase the amount of energy that is being poured into the device to speed up their ascent. Despite their efforts, the darkness continues to grow. It catches up to them and it threatens to swallow them completely. Xiao uses his power to break through the darkness, but the cost is too much for him. 

After expending too much energy, Xiao, who likely has not fully recovered from his previous injuries, struggles to keep the compass active. Even so he still pushes himself to the limit. The group had promised to escape together after all and Xiao wishes to hold onto that promise. Alas, the platform begins to crack as does his Yaksha mask. 

Now Xiao is faced with another choice. He looks up, gauges the distance, hesitates. He can see the light at the end of the tunnel, but it’s still out of reach. And so he sacrifices himself all over again.

Realizing that they won’t be able to make it to the surface at this rate, Xiao musters the last of his strength. He envelops everyone in his purest form of Anemo energy, free from the karma that normally taints his power, in order to safely send everyone to the surface. 

The Traveler is shocked by the realization and Yelan reaches out to Xiao, but it’s too late. They are all gone in an instant. The platform breaks and Xiao falls into the dark depths.

Once again, Xiao chooses to shoulder all burdens on his own. He chooses to do everything by himself. He rejects the alternatives. He denies the thought of relying on others. They were almost there, so if everyone poured their energy into the device they might have escaped together. And while there is no guarantee that alternative plans would have truly worked, Xiao had decided to not even try. For him, sacrificing himself was the only solution that existed.

He closes his eyes, accepting his fate and prepares for the end to come. But it doesn’t. A golden light envelops Xiao, bringing him to the surface. Xiao looks over the cliffs in surprise and confusion. Rex Lapis has saved him. The Traveler runs up to Xiao immediately, and the whole group is relieved to see him alive. Even Xiao himself, despite his confused thoughts, feels a great sense of relief for surviving.

Yelan tries to reprimand him, but she understands Xiao’s mindset is one that has been built up over a lifetime of war and peril. In the end, she gives her heartfelt thanks to him for saving everyone. 

Yelan: In the end we couldn’t reach an agreement over the final strategy. But it was thanks to you that we managed to escape. So thank you for saving us all. (Perilous Trail)

Xiao, however, admits that he wouldn’t have been able to do this alone. He recognizes that everyone contributed to the group’s escape. This realization may be what allows Xiao to rely on other people in the future. When danger arises, he doesn’t have to face it alone. After understanding his mistakes during this ordeal, Xiao becomes more receptive to advice and alternative views.

Yanfei: Maybe Yelan really doesn't believe she made a contribution. It seems like she sincerely believes Xiao saved us all... including her, and she doesn't know what to say to that.

Yanfei: And since it's not easy to persuade Xiao of anything, maybe Yelan's just given up trying to talk to him.

Paimon: Xiao, she's criticizing you.

Yanfei: Am not!

Xiao: You speak only the truth. I have no quarrel with that.

Xiao: I will keep your words in mind.

Traveler: Seems like you got through to him. 
(Perilous Trail)

After the group disperses, Xiao stays behind to wait for the Traveler and invites them to come with him to Pervases’ temple. There, he opens up to them, more so than usual, and reveals some of his more intimate thoughts.

Xiao: It's hard to put into words... Seeing Bosacius gave me the false impression that I'd traveled back into the past.

Xiao: ...You could dress up the yaksha's life and call us valiant warriors, veterans of war, but... the truth is, we are slaughterers, and nothing more.

Xiao: For Bosacius, perhaps dying in the heat of a great battle was no tragedy.

Xiao: And perhaps the same is true for me. After living for so long... to die in the act of saving others would not have been a terrible thing.

Traveler: I think you know that that isn't true.

Xiao: Mm. So maybe... these thoughts are my own form of insanity. 

(Perilous Trail)

Xiao acknowledges his thoughts might be mad; either a result of the karma that always threatens his sanity or a result of his twisted mindset. Or both. Somewhere at the back of his mind he had a desire to live and escape with everyone else. If that wasn’t the case, he wouldn’t have taken the time to pick up a memento of Bosacius.

Xiao: Before we left that place, I picked up a stone. I thought if I could take it out with me, I would place it in the temple to Pervases in memory of Bosacius. (Perilous Trail)

Then, Paimon and the Traveler relay Ushi’s message to Xiao while also adding their own comments. Xiao doesn’t need to keep living in solitude. There are people who care about him and are willing to be by his side despite the harmful karma he carries.

Paimon: He also said that he doesn't have any grand philosophies, he just thinks we should spend our lives around the people who make us happiest.

Paimon: Maybe there aren't so many rules about how we should or shouldn't live our lives in this world after all. So... he hopes you can come to understand that even though the power of a yaksha may be harmful to other people, it doesn't mean you shouldn't hang out with them.

Traveler: There will always be someone willing to be by your side.

Paimon: Yep, like people with Visions — they have more resistance against your power, right? And, and... Well, anyway, there's loads of people out there who really care about you!
(Perilous Trail)

Once again Xiao admits that he couldn’t have escaped on his power alone. He comes to understand and acknowledge the problems of this twisted mentality.

Xiao: I couldn't have done all I did without everyone's help. Even in the final moments, it took every bit of my power to break free from that place...

Paimon: Well Paimon still thinks you were amazing!

Xiao: ...Yanfei and Yelan are correct. I always prepare for the worst-case scenario. This mindset is deeply rooted in me... Even so, it was the most optimistic solution I could think of.

Xiao: If Rex Lapis hadn't saved me in that moment, I don't think I would've been able to escape.
(Perilous Trail)

Unfortunately, Xiao has trouble overcoming his feelings of guilt. Rex Lapis had to step in, and Xiao feels indebted to him once again. Paimon and the Traveler try to comfort him, telling him that it’s okay because helping each other is how people survive. Whether that truly got through to Xiao is unknown, but the first steps to a healthier mindset are there.

Xiao: In the end, I still had to burden another.

Paimon: But that's how it should be, right? You've known Zhongli... uh, Rex Lapis for such a long time, and you've helped him before. So he helped you back, what's the big deal?

Traveler: Supporting each other is how people survive.

Xiao: ...Perhaps.
(Perilous Trail)

When the group was escaping from that space, both Xiao and the Traveler were able to sense what was left of Bosasius' memory. In his final moments, he was able to remember his identity and his family — the other yakshas. He passed away in the company of his brother-in-arms while remembering the people important to him and the duty he proudly performed until the very end. Xiao is finally able to get closure and find some relief for his tormented heart.

Xiao: Bonanus, Menogias, and Indarias all perished, and only Bosacius's fate was unknown. This has always stung my heart like a thorn. That is why I went to The Chasm, despite being fully aware of the danger.

Xiao: ...Now that I know what happened in The Chasm back then, I can finally put this matter to rest.
(Perilous Trail)

Xiao has become more open around other people by this point. He lets himself discuss and deal with personal matters in front of others, even people he doesn't know too well. 

Paimon: Xiao also said that he wouldn't have been able to escape without your help.

Zhongli: Oh? Did he say so? Interesting.

Zhongli: How time flies — even he has learned to open up to others.
(Tales Behind the Fan)

Still, the Traveler remains the closest person to him. Xiao admits that this time he was able to open up to them a lot more and divulge some private thoughts. The Traveler is someone Xiao can talk to without holding back too much.

Xiao: I've said so much today. But I don't need to hold back as much when I talk to you.
(Perilous Trail)

Xiao has a long way to go before he can find relief from his burdens. An unhealthy mindset, formed over his long lifetime of trauma and suffering, is hard to combat. But Xiao is taking steps towards healing. The yakshas are not slaughterers, they are heroes. Even someone tainted, like Xiao, has something good to offer.

Xiao: Bosacius, Boyang, and all those soldiers...

Traveler: No, Xiao... They are all heroes.

Xiao: Heroes...

Xiao: ...I like that word.

Xiao: Maybe the world will never be free of disaster. But there is good in the world, too. Even the darkest hearts have room for those they cherish.
Xiao: I accept your advice. From this day on, heroes will always look out for each other.

The World is Silent; No One Speaks: (Xiao says nothing more. Complex emotions run across his face as he looks at the temple to Pervases.)

The World is Silent; No One Speaks: (Sadness, disappointment, relief... They are all there, yet are only a small part of a far larger whole.)

The World is Silent; No One Speaks: (His expression is akin to that of a person who has been out in the blizzard for too long and seen far too much of it before finally gaining a place of respite from the battering snow.) (Perilous Trail)

The dust settles after the events of Perilous Trail and the Lantern Rite returns once more. Xiao continues to fulfill his duty of protecting Liyue from evil even on the night of celebrations, but he, too, deserves to enjoy the festivities. Hu Tao seems to believe so, and she invites the Vigilant Yaksha to her Lantern Rite banquet.

Hu Tao may have had multiple reasons behind her invitation. She seems to suspect Zhongli is more than a mere mortal and all invited guests had a connection to the Adepti one way or another. But whatever the case may be, Hu Tao went out of her way to invite Xiao.

It took some effort to convince him to accept the invitation, but Hu Tao was persistent. She made accommodations and took precautions to ensure that he could attend without any trouble.

Hu Tao: But despite our deep-rooted connection, it still took me quite a while to actually convince him.

Traveler: Was he worried about his karma?

Hu Tao: You know him pretty well, huh?

Xiao: This matter is out of my control, so I need to be cautious.

Hu Tao: True, but I've kept that in mind too! That's why everyone here today is in one way or another acquainted with elemental power.

Hu Tao: Besides, it'll only be for a short while as we dine together. There won't be any lasting consequences.
(Lantern Rite 3.4)

Xiao never stops worrying about the harm his presence may bring to other people and he requires some persuasion, but nowadays he is less resistant to the idea of spending leisure time with others, at least for a short while. Xiao of the past would have rejected the notion without a second thought.

The Traveler’s presence at the table and Venti’s previous help were important factors that influenced his decision. A little guilt for all the trouble Hu Tao had to go through in order to accommodate him might have been part of the equation, too.

Xiao: Not long ago... before Lantern Rite, I met an old friend.

Xiao: Thanks to his help, things have been a lot more stable than before.

Xiao: The parlor director went out of her way with the invitation, so it was difficult to turn her down. I had made mental preparations before agreeing to come.

Xiao: She told me that all the guests today would be "acquainted with elemental power," and I knew that you would be here.
(Lantern Rite 3.4)

Xingqiu assures Xiao that nobody is feeling adverse effects so there is no need for concern. Alas, karma is not the only thing that troubles the yaksha’s mind. He had not expected that tonight he would dine with his lord Rex Lapis and the free-spirited Anemo Archon. 

Xiao grows anxious and restless as he is unable to keep up with them and the way they seamlessly blend in with the humans. He looks to the Traveler for reassurance, the anchor that keeps Xiao grounded in this puzzling situation, but eventually he is overwhelmed. The Traveler notices and suggests that they take a walk outside. 

Xiao is concerned that the Traveler is unwell, but soon he realizes the Traveler is giving Xiao the chance to calm and reflect by having a quiet, private talk with the person he trusts. Gone are the days when Xiao kept most of his thoughts to himself.

Xiao: Are you alright?

Traveler: I should be the one asking you that.

Xiao: ...
Xiao: I... it's hard to describe.

Xiao: The Adepti all have their specialties, making most of them proud and arrogant. Everything they say is straight from the heart... It never gets too complicated.

Xiao: But this time… 

(Lantern Rite 3.4)

Xiao reveals his worries about his inability to adapt to human life the way Zhongli and Venti can — something that betrays his hidden desire for socialization and to join the mortal society. Despite having made mental preparations beforehand, Xiao felt lost and uncomfortable throughout the banquet. The Traveler comforts Xiao, telling him that he doesn’t need to be like others. He just needs to be himself.

Xiao: Or perhaps I should say Zhong... Rex Lapis is really good at adapting to human life. You could say that he actually enjoys doing so.
Xiao: The Anemo Archon is a free spirit, and his temperament is as carefree as the music he plays on the flute. It's easy for a god like him to live in harmony with humans…
Xiao: And that's something I might never be able to do.

Traveler: You don't have to be like them.

Traveler: You do you.

Xiao: Hmm... That does sound like something you would say. 

(Lantern Rite 3.4)

Xiao admits that his ordinary conversations with the Traveler feel nice. They are novel and unusual, but nice. Maybe socializing with others is not the impossible feat Xiao thinks it is.

Xiao: Whenever I think of the ordinary conversations I've had with you, it feels... strangely novel.

Traveler: Strange in a good way?

Xiao: Yes.
(Lantern Rite 3.4)

During this quiet talk, Xiao recalls Menogias’ words. Now that he has opened up his heart a little more, he is able to reflect on all the things his old companions used to say, while also taking steps to becoming more attuned to his own feelings.

Xiao: General Kapisas always said that we should live in the present and enjoy every pleasant surprise. Perhaps that's what I should do with what I'm feeling now.
(Lantern Rite 3.4)

Xiao goes on to share memories of his old companions, no longer needing excuses like the Traveler being a witness that should be told about the events of the past. Xiao’s thoughts are worth sharing and he can tell the Traveler anything he wishes. Though the recollection is cut short when Xiangling shows up. She, too, was worried about Xiao.

Xiangling: You looked a little restless just now, and I thought you weren't used to the food here and was planning to head back to Wangshu Inn for something Yanxiao made.
(Lantern Rite 3.4)

Xiangling presents him with a few servings of Almond Tofu, specially prepared for him and the Traveler. It turns out that she learned about Xiao’s preferences from Smiley Yanxiao and she knew about Hu Tao’s guests beforehand, so she prepared Almond Tofu for Xiao as a token of gratitude for his support.

Instinctively, Xiao feels guilty for the perceived trouble Xiangling and Guoba went through for someone like him, but with a little nudge from the Traveler, he accepts the gift without putting himself down. Quite the difference compared to his reaction during the previous Lantern Rite when Keqing presented him with gifts from the Qixing.

Xiao: Thank you for the trouble, there was no need to...

Traveler: Ahem...

Xiao: ...I'll take them. Thank you... and Guoba too.

Xiangling: You're welcome!
(Lantern Rite 3.4)

Xiao: Don't waste your delicacies on me.

Xiao: Eradicating demons is my duty. You don't have to thank me.
(Lantern Rite 2.4)

This short break and private discussion with the Traveler calms Xiao’s nerves and worries. Once he returns to the banquet, he feels more confident. He manages to deal with the social pressure while staying true to himself and saying the things he believes in.

Chongyun: Adeptus Xiao has the most seniority among everyone here today. We should...

Xiao: I refuse.

Xiao: I am most certainly not the most distinguished guest here.

Traveler: (Is he going to say it's Zhongli...)

Xiao: You should all be able to make the right judgment based on your observations.

Traveler: (Wait, don't...)

Xiao: One person here is well-acquainted with everyone else.

Traveler: (...Hm?) 
(Lantern Rite 3.4)

The rest of the banquet proceeds smoothly and the gathered friends have a relaxing chat until it’s time to part ways. After a while, Xiao is left alone with the Traveler and his lord. Throughout the banquet, Xiao had trouble calling his lord by his mortal name; it was too disrespectful for a servant like him. Zhongli doesn’t think this way however. He even lightly teases Xiao over it, yet his words are genuine.

Xiao: Rex Lapis...

Zhongli: Just Zhongli will do.

Zhongli: I live as a mortal in Liyue Harbor now. I am just one among many who begin work at sunrise, and retire to rest at sundown.

Zhongli: If we were to consider status and seniority, as Zhongli, I should be respectfully referring to you as Adeptus Xiao.

Xiao: Heaven forbid!

Traveler: Let's stop teasing him now.

Zhongli: Haha, I meant what I said.
(Lantern Rite 3.4)

Zhongli addresses the Traveler, but in truth his words are aimed at Xiao. He knows he can’t give Xiao direct advice because of his circumstances, so he disguises his words as a story for the Traveler which allows Xiao to let his guard down. This way Xiao can think on his own and draw his own conclusions, without Zhongli unintentionally imposing his will on him. 

Zhongli speaks of the past — events and people will be viewed and interpreted differently by different people. But the reality is that gods and Adepti have always been companions. They were allies bound by contracts led by Morax, but they were also companions.

Zhongli: The same truth will sound different coming from different people. As more bear witness to a story, feelings and interpretations expand in variety too.

Zhongli: But there are multiple sides to humans and gods alike.

Zhongli: In the legends recorded by humans, some gods were depicted as arrogant and condescending, while others were kind and capable.

Zhongli: But whether to me, Streetward Rambler, Cloud Retainer, or younger Adepti such as Xiao and Ganyu, those Adepti and gods that may seem extraordinary to humans are something more akin to close companions.

Zhongli: This was as true back then as it is right now.

Zhongli: Just as Xiao may seem unapproachable to most, but Traveler has proved otherwise.

Zhongli: So there's no need to dwell too much on certain things.

Xiao: Rex La— I mean, Zhongli, what you're saying is...

Zhongli: It looks like you understood what I meant.
(Lantern Rite 3.4)

Xiao is and has always been Zhongli’s friend and companion. He is not a servant and Zhongli is not the unapproachable master Xiao believes him to be. There is no need to dwell on ranks, status and formalities. And with this, Xiao can slowly start breaking down the invisible wall he had put between Zhongli and himself.  

Now that this matter is settled, it’s time for Zhongli to be on his way and give Xiao the time and privacy he needs to organize his thoughts. Though Xiao has made a lot of progress, he is not yet at the point of allowing himself to enjoy a fine mortal’s life. He believes he has stayed in the harbor for too long and he should return to his usual dwelling. 

Paimon: Xiao, is there anything else you wanna do? We could take you on a tour of Liyue Harbor!

Xiao: No need.

Xiao: I've stayed here for much longer than I had expected. The city lights are a fine sight... but it's time for me to leave.

Xiao: The events of today occurred so abruptly. I appreciate your kindness.

Traveler: The feeling's mutual. You don't have to thank me every time.

Xiao: Okay.

Xiao: I'll... see you next time, then.
(Lantern Rite 3.4)

He may not allow himself to enjoy the festivities for too long nor let himself walk among the mortals, but Xiao is no longer trying to bury his curiosity. When the Traveler visits Xiao at the Wangshu Inn, he invites the Traveler to tell him of all the different stories they have of the human world.

Xiao: ...There must be many different stories to tell of the hustle and bustle of the mortal world, too. You can tell me. I will listen.
(Lantern Rite 3.4)

Time passes and spring arrives bringing with it Xiao’s next birthday. In the past, Xiao would spend his birthdays alone. Then, after meeting the Traveler, he started inviting them to spend time together if the Traveler was willing. This year, however, things have changed and for the first time Xiao visits old friends on his own. 

I paid a visit to Moon Carver today. He was immediately alarmed and asked me if something important happened. ...I was simply following your advice and met up with an old friend I haven't seen in a while. As you know, I'm not the sociable type, so it took quite some explaining before I managed to clear his suspicion. I wasn't prepared to hear him say that... "Since you're here, why don't we ask Cloud Retainer to host a little get-together?" 

In the past, I might've refused. But compared to the reasons for the gathering, the taste of the food, or how the atmosphere feels like... I think of the people by my side as more important. (Xiao Birthday Mail 2023) 

After following the advice given by the Traveler during Perilous Trail and by Zhongli during Lantern Rite 3.4, Xiao is slowly healing and learning not to see himself as a burden. Other people, whether it’s new friends or old companions, are happy to spend time with him. In time, perhaps he will learn to truly see value in himself, too.

After all this time I spent with you, it seems I unwittingly started to look forward to my own birthday too. I'll take good care of your gift. (Character Shorts)

Months later, during the autumn season, Venti and Hu Tao organize a poetry gala together. People from Mondstadt and Liyue will come together to compose poems, have a good time and strengthen relations between the two nations. And both of the organizers wish to invite Xiao to join, to participate in something fun and beautiful.

Venti: We came here hoping to invite a special guest...

Xiao: ...I already told you. I'm not going.
(Waterborne Poetry)

Initially, Xiao rejects the invitation. Not only is it dangerous to be around so many vulnerable mortals, but he also believes that he is not suited to participate in the event when he has little knowledge of poetry. Moreover, Xiao doesn’t want to be amidst crowds of people, and he has trouble interacting with lively, free-spirited folks like Venti and Hu Tao, as seen during Lantern Rite 3.4.

Xiao: Never having penned a verse myself, how could I hope to judge the poetry of others? Besides, afflicted with karma as I am, the raucous atmosphere you are cultivating is precisely the kind which I must avoid, as you well know.
(Waterborne Poetry)

But Hu Tao encourages Xiao, reminding him that every person starts small and that there is a first time for everything. If not, then he could, at least, watch from a distance.

Hu Tao: Hey now, there's a first time for everything, right? We all start from "itsy-bitsy spider," but give it a shot and you'll be wandering lonely as a cloud in no time!

Hu Tao: And you don't even have to join us in person if you really don't want to. You can just watch the party from a nearby mountaintop and cheer us on.

Hu Tao: But at least head down and take a look first? It's right by the inn, and there's plenty of fun activities to get involved with. It can't hurt to take a quick walk and check things out.
(Waterborne Poetry)

It is ultimately the Traveler who changes Xiao’s mind, because they are the person who helps him feel at ease. Venti, who has picked up on this by now, takes advantage of it.

Venti: Besides, with the renowned Traveler here, what is there to fear?

Traveler: Join us. It'll be fun.

Xiao: ...

Xiao: I'll consider it.
(Waterborne Poetry)

The next day Xiao does indeed come to watch the poetry gala, albeit from a safe distance on a nearby mountain and he overhears Chongyun speak of an encounter with a mysterious being. Xiao goes on to investigate the matter, and he approaches the Traveler’s group to inform them of the situation.

Xiao: ...When I heard about the exorcist's encounter, my suspicions were roused. That's why I'm here.

Xiao: I've already informed the owner of the inn. If you see anything out of the ordinary, return immediately and leave it to me.

Chongyun: I, um... aw, I'm really sorry. I didn't mean to drag even the Conqueror of Demons into this...

Xiao: I have already patrolled the area and found nothing amiss. Either the anomaly you encountered was no evil spirit, or perhaps it already left.

(Waterborne Poetry)

Xiao attempts to leave, but the Traveler is quick to stop him and every person in the group takes turns to invite him to join them on on their “inspiration walk” for the poetry event.

Xiao: If there's no other business, I'll be taking my leave now.

Traveler: ...Wait!

Traveler: Come on an inspiration walk with us!

Xiao: ....

Paimon: Yeah, you should come! There's no one else around here anyway, so you don't need to worry.

Xiao: But...

Chongyun: I would also be honored if you joined us, Adeptus Xiao. It is a rare opportunity, and... I have many questions about exorcising evil spirits that I would like to ask you.

Xiao: ...

Xiao: Fine.

(Waterborne Poetry)

Diona’s gift is soon brought into conversation and Xiao notes that he can sense traces of something special within her, which, unbeknownst to them at the time, is the Spring Fairy’s blessing. In order to prove that her claims of being unable to make bad drinks are truthful, Diona prepares a mix for Xiao and Chongyun. The drink’s ingredients seem awful and Xiao instinctively looks to the Traveler for reassurance. Although he is told not to force himself to drink, Xiao chooses to do so in the end. It seems that the yaksha is becoming more open to trying the unfamiliar foods and drinks of the mortal world.

A while later, Xiao notices a curious leaf floating along the river thanks to his excellent avian vision. The group walks up to the leaf only to discover that there is a poem written on it. Xiao, ever so kind as he is, is worried that the poem will be lost without ever being read by others. He finds it rather perplexing that someone would choose to write a poem on such a frail leaf.

Xiao: ...Why write a poem on a fallen leaf?

Xiao: The flowing waters are ruthless — they carry the leaves away with the current. This poem would likely have vanished into the void had we not found it.

Xiao: ...It makes no sense to me.

Traveler: Sometimes, people write poems simply to express themselves.

Traveler: It doesn't matter if anyone else reads it.

Chongyun: When there's things that you're unable to say, or just never had the chance to say before it was too late... If it can be put on paper, it can be expressed as poetry.

(Waterborne Poetry)

The group discusses what to do and concludes that perhaps they should write a poem in response. Hearing this, Xiao joins in and offers a suggestion for what might be the best way to accomplish this. By moving further upstream their own messenger leaf would flow with the current and will hopefully reach the mysterious poet. In the past, Xiao would often stay quiet, only speaking when it was necessary (usually when there was danger). He had trouble interacting with ordinary people and he believed his own thoughts were not worth sharing. Now things have changed.

Xiao: ...Why not go upstream?

Paimon: Upstream? Why?

Xiao: The ink looks fresh. It can't have been written too long ago.

Xiao: This withered leaf floated down with the current. If we travel further upstream and drop a leaf into the same waters, it should be carried down past the original writer.

Traveler: ...This was a great suggestion, Xiao.

Traveler: Seems like the idea of getting involved has grown on you.

(Waterborne Poetry)

Following Xiao’s suggestion, the group moves upstream. While the others are focused on releasing the message leaves, the Traveler takes a moment to talk to Xiao, expressing their gratitude for his suggestion. He responds by repeating Chongyun’s earlier words; having experienced the loss of his companions, and being more attuned to his feelings towards them now, Xiao understands what it means to never have a chance to speak before it is too late. He hopes and wishes that the group’s message will reach that mysterious person and perhaps offer them some measure of comfort.

The Traveler understands that Xiao, too, might have things he wishes he could have said to his fallen yaksha companions, especially now that he began to open up and recognize his feelings, so they advise him to try writing a poem too. Xiao declines at first, but will later decide to pick up a brush.

Xiao: ..."Things you never had the chance to say before it was too late"... When silence is the final word, we mourn the loss of things unheard...

Traveler: You should try writing a poem too, Xiao.

Xiao: I have little talent for nor knowledge of poetry...

(Waterborne Poetry)

The sun sets and the group returns to the Stone Gate where the poetry gala takes place. They soon discover that Xiao has not returned with them. He may be willing to spend time with others now, but crowds are still something to avoid, so he returns to his spot on the nearby mountain.

The gala proceeds to a game of matching couplets, a Liyue-style form of poetry. During this game, the Traveler is inspired by the sight of Xiao to compose a matching couplet line. They reference “Sweet Dream,” a special variation of Almond Tofu they once made for him. The feelings of fondness, appreciation and gratitude reach him, and they bring a rare smile to Xiao’s face.

Callirhoe: "'Qingxin' has no heart, still it soothes the human heart."

Traveler: (...The "xin" part of Qingxin means heart, but the flower itself has no heart...)

Traveler: "'Sweet Dream' is no dream, yet it nurtures people's dreams."

Huanxi: Sweet dream? Does that really match?

Zhongli: Hmm. Since the suitability of the match has been queried, I shall act according to the Director's wishes, and ask you: What is the link between "Sweet Dream" and "Qingxin"?

Traveler: "Sweet Dream" is a type of dessert.

Xiao: ...

Paimon: Ohhh! You mean eating a delicious dessert before bed will make you sleep well, right? You're amazing!

Traveler: (Actually, we sleep peacefully at night because Xiao is there to protect everyone.)
(Waterborne Poetry)

Xiao is later found near Pervases’ temple where he reveals that he followed the Traveler’s advice and wrote a poem expressing his feelings about the yakshas and things he wishes he could say to them now. The poem was placed inside the temple, near the statue of Pervases.

Xiao: I thought about what you said... and tried to write a poem.

Xiao: After putting my feelings onto paper, my heart feels much calmer...

Xiao: Can they... really hear it...?

(Waterborne Poetry)

At the beginning, Xiao was convinced that he did not possess emotions. This was likely because the traumatic experiences of his past had dulled all feelings; it was a coping mechanism to protect himself. But in recent times Xiao is beginning to reconnect with himself and become aware of his emotions, so much so that he even admits it to the Traveler.

Xiao: I am not human; I can't really understand the emotions of humans. 

(Profile Voice-Over)

Xiao: I thought about what you said... and tried to write a poem.

Xiao: After putting my feelings onto paper, my heart feels much calmer...

(Waterborne Poetry)

◇ ◇ ◇

A thousand year's vicissitudes, one's form never aging.

Grace never forgotten, the fire yet burning.

Mountains climb high and waters run deep.

Strange fate, indeed, to once more meet.
(Official Localization)

A millennium of ebb and flow remains unchanged,
In this life, my spirit never aged.
The fire in my heart can never cease,
Affection deepens, hard to release.

Facing mountains, I admire their peaks,
By waters, I ponder their mystique.

Heading to the realm of dreams then,
Fortunate to encounter what's genuine again.
(Fan Translation)

The first verse refers to the impermanent world that always changes, yet Xiao himself remains still. The line could also be referring to the dangerous and tumultuous life of the yakshas, a life from which only Xiao has survived.

In the second verse Xiao expresses his burning spirit, the fire in his heart that has not stopped despite all that has happened. The bonds of attachment and affection for his old yaksha companions are hard to relinquish. Another interpretation is that this verse expresses Xiao’s gratitude towards the yakshas or the gratitude of him still being alive.

The next verse expresses Xiao’s appreciation of the beautiful world around him, from the highest peaks to the deepest waters.

In the last verse, Xiao ventures into the realm of dreams where he is able to reunite with his yaksha companions again. Further interpretation could be that Xiao has come to realize his true feelings of affection for the yakshas, something that he might not have acknowledged or recognized in the past when he was far less aware of his deeper emotions.

One day, during the Lantern Rite celebrations, Xiao is seen resting in a tree in the Guili Plains when he notices a ghost-shaped kite rising to the sky. At the sight of this kite, he assumes that Hu Tao is approaching. 

Initially, he is apprehensive. Hu Tao is a free-spirited person, the kind that Xiao has difficulties interacting with, but he has become a little more confident in his ability to socialize, so for perhaps the first time he takes the initiative to greet another person. He is not greeting someone with whom he is familiar, like the Traveler, nor is he descending to warn a mortal to stay away. Xiao, for once, is willing to initiate a conversation. Though Hu Tao’s relation to Zhongli was a factor that influenced his decision.

Xiao: A ghostly kite? Could that elusive Director Hu be coming to Wangshu Inn once again?

Xiao: I wonder what business she has this time. I suppose it matters not. Given her relationship with Rex... Well, Zhongli, I might as well go and greet her. (Lantern Rite 4.4)

When Xiao approaches, however, he discovers that the person who is idly flying the kite is actually Zhongli. Maybe Zhongli chose this location deliberately, knowing that Xiao could be in the vicinity. As for the yaksha, he has been making efforts to treat Zhongli as he wishes, as a friend of a master. 

Xiao: Given her relationship with Rex... Well, Zhongli, I might as well go and greet her. 

(Lantern Rite 4.4)

But for the one who has known and perceived Rex Lapis as a divine lord for millennia it is no easy task. A certain amount of anxiousness and awkwardness remains. Xiao has difficulties conversing with Zhongli. He remains quiet when Zhongli tries to engage in idle conversation with him, and when Xiao does speak, he is nervous, fearing that he might say wrong and unseemly things.

Zhongli: In truth, I'm here because Director Hu dispatched me to purchase some items in preparation for Lantern Rite.

Xiao: I see. Much like she does every year. Much like she'll do next year, I would imagine.

Zhongli: ...

Xiao: ...

Xiao: Am I wrong? Or has she once again sent you out to buy... what is it, sesame oil or something?

(Lantern Rite 4.4)

Understanding the awkward position Xiao is in, Zhongli gently guides the conversation and uses this opportunity to cleverly extend an invitation to him. Xiao wouldn’t dare to disrupt Zhongli’s daily life, but by framing the invitation as a way for Xiao to better familiarize himself with Hu Tao, Zhongli hopes that Xiao will consider visiting the Wangsheng Funeral Parlor in the future. Xiao will always be welcome to visit. 

Zhongli: While we're on the subject, I do wonder why she is so obsessed with using sesame oil in the preparation of mixed vegetable dishes for Lantern Rite... A recommendation from Xiangling, perhaps? What do you think, Xiao?

Xiao: I've only met Director Hu a few times. I'm hardly the best person to ask...

Zhongli: Ah, and is that not a sign that you should visit Wangsheng Funeral Parlor more often? It wouldn't hurt to grace the Parlor with your presence now and again when you are otherwise unoccupied.

(Lantern Rite 4.4)

Through these visits, Zhongli hopes that Xiao can warm up to him as a friend and advance their relationship into a more comfortable bond, away from the master-servant hierarchy. Of course, it would also be lovely if Xiao could become friends with Hu Tao as well so that the yaksha could gain more social bonds and connections.

What the future holds and what Xiao will choose to do is not something Zhongli can be certain of at this time. So he moves the conversation to the topic at hand and invites Xiao to enjoy a pleasant form of relaxation with him. This also gives Xiao the chance to help Zhongli, the chance to feel that he is capable of offering something valuable, that he can aid Zhongli just as Zhongli has aided him.

Zhongli: This one here is a traditional kite, one without any equipped mechanical device. Director Hu tasked me with studying the differences between the two to determine which one is of greater merit.

Zhongli: Many hands make light work. Perhaps you could test out the other kite for me.

Xiao: ...Alright.

(Lantern Rite 4.4)

While Xiao is testing the kite for Zhongli, the latter meets with the Traveler and their friends. Xiao keeps his distance, not wanting to disturb affairs that are not meant for him. But when Zhongli guides the Traveler to a more secluded place, knowing that Xiao would feel more comfortable there, the yaksha appears.

Paimon: Uh, why did you have us walk all this way? Paimon thought we just had to go far enough to be out of earshot.

Zhongli: A friend approaches.

(Xiao appears)

Xiao: Hello.

Paimon: Xiao! You're here too!?

Xiao: I've been here the whole time.

(Lantern Rite 4.4)

Zhongli leaves the kites in Xiao’s care, encouraging him to partake in this activity with friends, growing their bond, or at the very least Xiao could relax and find some peace and quiet.

Zhongli: I'll leave these two kites with you. Perhaps you can find a few friends with which to partake in the activity. You might find it to be an enjoyable use of your time.

Xiao: Oh, uh... Wait, who enjoys kite-flying?

Zhongli: Well, I would imagine someone of your talent and wisdom is more than capable of finding out.

(Lantern Rite 4.4)

Xiao admits to finding the act of watching an ascending kite to be relaxing. And though he declines the offer of being taught how to craft his own, Xiao is seen flying a kite at Mt.Aocang during his birthday. A subtle, relaxed smile is drawn on his face.

Xiao: I suppose I neither like nor dislike it.

Xiao: Although, watching a kite gradually ascend into the sky does bring me a certain peace of mind.

Xiao: ...Perhaps they're a bit like Xiao Lanterns in that way.

(Lantern Rite 4.4)

Rex Lapis said that kites should be played with friends. 

It's such a relaxing and a good way to rest. 

(Xiao Birthday Illustration 2024)

During this conversation, Zhongli praises Xiao and emphasizes his status as a friend. Now that Xiao’s perception of Zhongli is beginning to shift, Zhongli is able to be more open about his true thoughts and opinions of the yaksha. It is also a way for Zhongli to continually reinforce his statements during the previous Lantern Rite. Though in most cases Zhongli continues to stealth things past Xiao’s guard by addressing Paimon and the Traveler instead of telling him directly. Changing a mindset built over millennia requires a lot of time and patience, after all.

Paimon: Uh, why did you have us walk all this way? Paimon thought we just had to go far enough to be out of earshot.

Zhongli: A friend approaches.

Xiao: Oh, uh... Wait, who enjoys kite-flying?

Zhongli: Well, I would imagine someone of your talent and wisdom is more than capable of finding out.

Paimon: So you were testing out the kites for Hu Tao, and even roped Xiao into doing it for you... Paimon didn't ask earlier because the situation was awkward.

Zhongli: I would hardly say I "roped" Xiao into anything. I simply sought the help of a friend. Besides, we did the testing together.

(Lantern Rite 4.4)

Before parting ways, Xiao invites the Traveler to hang out after the Lantern Rite festivities. Although this is not the first time that Xiao asks the Traveler to spend time together, it is the first time Xiao invites the Traveler during the Lantern Rite. Previously, it was always the Traveler who would try to invite him.

Xiao: Traveler, when Lantern Rite is over, come find me near Pervases' temple if you have the time.

Traveler: Absolutely.

(Lantern Rite 4.4)

Just as promised, the Traveler meets with Xiao at Pervases’ temple later that night. The Traveler gently reprimands him for avoiding the city again and for refusing to participate in the Lantern Rite festivities. Yet they also understand and respect Xiao’s wishes. Even if Xiao is beginning to enjoy the little things, he still needs time before he can truly accept that he is allowed to indulge in his desires and find joy in the things he likes or is curious about.

Traveler: It's just as I thought... You stopped short of stepping into the city again.

Xiao: Being in the city isn't the only way for me to appreciate the lights and beauty of Lantern Rite. Look... Liyue Harbor lies just beyond this mountain.

Xiao: As long as I stand at this vantage point, I may freely behold the sight of all the kites slowly ascending into the sky.

Xiao: ...For me, that is enough.

Traveler: Alright.

(Lantern Rite 4.4)

Here, Xiao reveals that he wishes to release a Xiao Lantern with the Traveler. After years of not daring to so much as observe the lanterns from afar, Xiao, with the Traveler’s help and encouragement, is finally participating in the Lantern Rite cheer in his own way. And he wants to share this important moment with the one who is closest to him — the Traveler.

Xiao: I invited you here because there is something I would like to do.

Xiao: ...I want to release a Xiao Lantern, and... I'd like you to be there for it.

(Lantern Rite 4.4)

Moreover, Xiao has crafted this lantern all by himself, something that would be unthinkable in years past. Slowly but surely Xiao is allowing himself little joys. And though he feels somewhat nervous over the results of his craft, the Traveler is very supportive and proud of him. In response, he smiles and praises their kindness. 

Lumine: Did you make it yourself?

Xiao: Yes.

Xiao: I apologize for its crude appearance... I have little skill in that regard.

Lumine: No, no! It's amazing.

Xiao: ...You are very kind, as usual.

(Lantern Rite 4.4)

They release the lantern together and watch it slowly ascend to the sky, then Xiao  expresses his heartfelt gratitude to the Traveler. Not only for joining him on this special moment, but also for everything the Traveler has done for him throughout the years.

Traveler: (As the Xiao Lantern slowly disappears into the tranquil night sky, Xiao's expression softens.)

Xiao: Traveler.

Xiao: ...Thank you.

(Lantern Rite 4.4)

At this time it is unknown what kind of wish, if any, Xiao inscribed on the lantern.