Maddie

Welcome to my writing world! Below, I've assembled a couple of books that have meant a lot to me at different times in my life, as well as three pieces I've composed to take you through how my writing has evolved. Feel free to click through and explore whatever catches your eye! Please note, the entries have been organized in chronological order, but don't necessarily have to be read as such.

Piece #1: Days

Approx. April 2010

The sun shivers through the cloudsIt makes its presence known with a subtle glowAnd then it bursts, letting light flow over the worldSunrise
The clouds break off, their soft tails creating a mistThe deep blue sky carries the birds, helping them to singThe grass shudders under its dewMorning
The sun pushes higher into the skyThe clouds have melted away into the hot airTrees and flowers hope for a drinkNoon
The shadow of the moon is seen in the skyThe pavement cools, just a little bitThe animals scurry out of their homes, hoping for a breath of cool airEvening
The sun breaks the moon, exposing its true colorPinks and reds dance across the darkening skyWaves of heat are reined inSunset
The air is still and lifelessThe moon casts an eerie glow over the cold grassThe clouds are either gone or deeply darkenedNight
Sunrise sings a song of joy; of care and loveMorning sings a song of pleasure; a gift from aboveNoon sings a song of heat; holding onto careEvening sings a song of quiet; cooling the cold airSunset sings a song of happiness; a triumphet little tuneNight sings a song of hearty glow; from the gleaming moon

"Days" — Feedback


When I was twelve, my best friend broke some exciting news: she'd stumbled across something incredible while Googling around for an apricot tart recipe. Instead, what she found was Apricot Pie, a writing website devoted to homeschooled writers—about as niche as you can get! Luckily, I fit this niche; I was homeschooled, and I'd been writing from the age of six, intrinsically compelled to put pen to paper (among my standouts: Jacie's Box, almost certainly influenced by The Boxcar Children, and Shamrock Harding, definitely drawing from Junie B. Jones). I was a voracious reader, and a tireless writer by extension. Thus far, my sole readers were my family, but now I had a whole new audience to foist my pieces onto. My first piece posted onto Apricot Pie, "Days" is pretty representative of my early literary days, when I loved to explore concepts and ideas that ultimately didn't have a whole lot to say about me, my thoughts, or my life. I also tended to adhere to pretty traditional forms and rhymes (above and love, anyone?!). This piece meant a lot to me when I was young, though, and it still does—it represents my thirst for writing, conjures memories of those first exciting days of being part of a community that welcomed me with open arms, and offers a nod to the future—the eventuality of finding my voice.

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Book #1: Matilda by Roald Dahl

I was an earnest reader from childhood, and have vivid memories of sprawling on my bed with a book, spine cracked open, buried in the world within. Roald Dahl quickly became one of my favorite writers, and I even went on to pen one of my English-major-specific papers on his treatment of childhood self-possession and agency in his books. Although Matilda isn't my favorite Dahl read, it's the one that spoke to me most, whose scenes linger in their vibrancy, and whose lessons are perhaps longest-lasting. Matilda was motivated, deeply curious, more than a little mischievous, and—above all else—a lover of literature. There's nothing quite as mundanely magical as reading about Matilda fixing herself a cup of hot chocolate and settling in with one of her beloved library books. Take away her horrible family and telekinetic abilities, as well the absolutely frightful Miss Trunchbull, and it's something I could relate to, at its core. That's the magic of storytelling, and it's part of what I hoped to achieve with my own writing.

Piece #2: From Me

Approx. February 2016

Your frayed edges

have combed

knots

into the contours

of my stomach

You know


My mind has spiraled out

in fifteen

clouded directions

my skin has blossomed with

hundreds of

unwashed revelations

You hear


Force those words into

Your ear

they'll echo before they

ricochet

against your skull

you're tall

I fear


I do not need the

slow dawn's worry

I do not want the

waning light

I do not like the

skin beneath my

eyes to drain

colored vein

For what


For the ache of you

To give

The gape of my mouth

A tepid

draw

I move in muddled worry

Plagued

By all your attributes

So small

You take


Away my wandering

Eye and

Plague my tired

Mind and

I'm walking on a

line

That I

Have drawn to you

From me

"From Me" – Feedback


This piece marked a turning point in my writing. Over the previous years, I'd begun to embrace infusing my poetry with more of myself, creating composite works that were based in fiction, but had bits of me sprinkled in—or vice-versa. The writing community I'd found on Apricot Pie not only offered constructive feedback on my pieces, but a well of their own voices to drawn from, writers who used language in surprising and titillating ways. That's what I aimed to start doing with my poetry, and for me—someone to whom poetry doesn't always come easily—this felt like the pinnacle of that exploration. This poem ended up earning me a place in my college's literary magazine, which I would serve as an editor on the following year and which, ultimately, pushed me toward my publishing career path. In a lot of ways, I have this poem to thank for getting me exactly where I am, right now.

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Book #2: Miracle Creek by Angie Kim

Growing up, one of my favorite ways to pick out books was to walk to my local library without any intention in mind, waltz into the YA or adult section, and spend a glorious twenty minutes perusing. Miracle Creek was one such book that I found on this type of foray, right before I went to NYC for my first-ever publishing internship. I absolutely devoured this book, drawn to Angie Kim's fresh and urgent voice, crackling with energy and commanding attention. Structured over several days of a trial, this was as unputdownable as it gets—it had thrills and literary prose and asked probing and difficult questions about motherhood and national identity. The best part about reading this book, though, came a few weeks after the fact when I entered my internship's office and saw—prominently displayed on the book-choked shelves—Miracle Creek. By total accident, I'd picked up and fallen in love with a book represented by the agency I was interning with for the next twelve weeks. That awe carried me through every moment of the internship, up until the present—I work at an agency today!

Piece #3: lessons learned, lessons unheeded from Shel Silverstein

Approx. March 2020

I used to lament

took it for granted

how could you take and

take and take

and amputate and

amputate

while

the receiving end

had to grin and

bear it?


A lesson learned at three

from

The Giving Tree

and at the end I swore

I would never find myself

plunked on a stump with my

shoulders hunched

spine a winding

road

of greed

but yet

still here I am

having done it

without realizing.


It’s not the worst feeling

not a pit in my stomach or a

lump in my throat

It’s disbelief

suspended

A cloud over my head

Upended

a processless purgatory

that says

I’ll be back,

like before, won’t I?

I’ll be—

Maybe.


But it won't be the

same

like the boy and the tree

as when he returned

years into the future

I’ll see

little left of what I knew

that shaped me into me.


I was not who I am

four years ago

and as the story

shows

neither was he.


So until then

I’ll work to make my peace

with this.

I’ll work to make my peace.

"lessons learned, lessons unheeded from Shel Silverstein" — Feedback


This poem is pretty self-explanatory, but it's one of my more recent pieces that is based entirely on my personal experience. Of course, I had to rhyme—an old faithful of mine—but I think this poem perfectly encapsulates the evolution of my literary voice: I became comfortable with translating my personal life into poetry, and I also got more creative with rhyme schemes. Moreover, this piece perfectly encapsulates the power that what I read holds in my writing life; it was The Giving Tree that served as the perfect representation of my experience, a book I'd read countless times as a child. Yet here I was, a grown adult in every sense—almost ten years exactly since I'd posted my first poem on Apricot Pie—and I still felt so much the same. The lessons that I learned in books stayed with me, and I applied them in my actual life, but I also took note of the artistry of the writers I admired, and learned from reading their words. It's a full-circle moment, and if there's one thing I love, it's that!