For years I have felt the pain you put me through
yet you feel nothing at all
These scars I can hide on the outside
yet inside they crawl beneath my skin.
Feels like nails underneath my skin
tearing me from the inside out
If you knew the damage that you caused
would you even care
or just laugh in my face
like the monster you are
They say time heals wounds
but does it get better
when the memory sometimes hits replay
like a song you can’t help but listen to
Losing myself with every replay
knowing every feeling
slowly creeping
drawing me back
You leave for years,
finally, the wounds start healing
where I feel I can
somewhat breathe again
Suddenly seeing your face again
where it all began,
sinking slowly back into darkness
every time I see you
all I want to do is scream
Screaming at you and at me
for making me feel this way
So many questions I want to ask
and so, few answers I will receive
Why can’t I see the light?
Why can’t I just be me,
the me before I met him
I will see the real me again
and I will be a survivor
the chains will lift from me
You cannot conquer me ever!