Tita Kelasih Diary 07/04/2022

midnight thought

Dear diaries...

this is weird lol

know the song "WHAT IF I AM NOT OK"?? I like to think this relates to myself but this also describes people who are too naive, the answer is obviously "I don't care".

instinct, feeling, or whatever. I have that thing strong.

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I was at the point where I wanted someone to help me forget him, I really wanted to let go because I had given up.

It seems evil, but I realized that if there wasn't an "object" it would be difficult to get rid of him.

I realize that I am very weak with him, I am also aware that I still really love him.

So the new people option is number 1. And I also have a theory for that situation.

but I'm also aware of all of it. From the consultation to tea fidy and he said "he's just used to me and I'll meet someone after work and until I get married", friends also said it was the same as "he's just normal, it's not like I love him too much. Not worth(they say)" and I believe that will happen. But it's a shame it didn't go away, this bastard does what his heart wants. You just give me a picture of him, it can make me nervous. still give me heart attack, bastrad.

It does seem very "jomplang", yes indeed. In fact, his account has fallen. But he's just ordinary kwkwkw, funny huh.

People around me know how I am to him.

Yesterday I just finished watching the drama "Be melodramatic" and seeing a girl's sturggle to get up from a broken heart is difficult and the timing can't be measured. The struggle of a girl from a boy as a bastard, once the guy was really mad at the girl but had to die. TFW!.

Sometimes I really want to go to a professional to find out why I am, I realize that I have a diagnosis. but I don't know what, it's not my capacity.

well.... at the end I just want to take the positive. The name is affection or love is selfless, sincere from the heart.

Oh God... I want to meet a guy who has a good personality, can make me better, can learn together, and become a better human being.

I can accept someone's ugly character ... I'm drowning myself.

I hope everything goes the way it should.

oh one more thing, i'm so weak with a smart guy.

if you think about it, the guys who have been close to me from the beginning are all smart kids.

ps. I'm one of the types of humans who must like the opponent first, obese. i will not run if he like me back, like him. but if rae will definitely disappear wkwkwk. Me and rae are the same people we have to be obsessed with first, if he "doesn't like it anymore" to the opponent if the opponent likes it back, if I will beat him up and go "crazy" to his opponent.

I hope you are met with a soul mate who can make you better, positive and love you wholeheartedly beside your parents and siblings.

bye! I hope I can meet someone .... even though I don't know how long this will take. if rifdah said "no one knows what the future will be, you try to be better. Who knows the universe will give permission again"

I do know why he said that, because his story is like that. But I? who knows. Only God can answer.

but honestly from the bottom of my heart...

ppss.... one you're like a dream come true.