the night of july 12th- 13th , 2019, i had this dream (i dream a lot, and my dreams tell me things).... i was inside a plane, which was part of a fyling squadron...a group of old fashioned double decker planes...i was not the one at the wheel, or even truly part of any of it, just there observing..

the ones in the planes were watching or listening to some sort of stock market news... when the 'stocks' got low enough (i saw 0,88 cents), they brought their planes down...and actually landed, one after the other, in the middle of a road.. there were cars driving along different roads i could see from the sky, but these planes landed on just one of the roads, in line (quite the impressive sight to see actually),...and then taxied themself onto some sideway turn off...they still all parked on the right side of the road though, and cars had to pass them by on the left...

then the people from the planes got out..they were in a major hurry ..they had gear on and with them, something looking like what cave divers would wear...they looked like they were well trained, almost like special forces, and knew exactly what they were doing... as they were prepping, i could see a list of names...there were some single names, but also 2 groups which were 2 families, from each family there were about 3-4 members (men & women).. dont know how many people there were al together, 12 maybe... from the other family i could not catch the name, but this one family had a last name like 'ecker' or 'gecker', something along those lines..they had to move fast and act while the stocks were down low enough....they went into some building, could have been a bunker of sorts, as i never saw any house....we were on the street, and then suddenly inside the building.. they went down some stairs, and were looking for a way further down, into the 'caves' where they had to dive or delve for something...an ancient treasure or artefact of sorts... it was significant and valuable

last i saw was that the path they went, going into some chamber or basement room, with a round bowed doorway, where they expected to find an open 'door', or pathway, was in fact walled up, and cemented shut.. and they had to go back and look for another path, but then i woke up

this dream very much spoke of today...the lion's gate -full- opening..much has been shown to me about how my own personal path, concerning how is to develop, what direction it will go in...yet i have not been allowed to physically move there just yet...i have been held back, until all was 'in place'...and i had to wait for this particular lion's gate.. the codes coming in from this particular lion's gate are slightly different ...since this time -as my dream foretold- the light/ love from home will penetrate deeply into the earth, and open certain 'vaults' that were previously sealed.. setting free certain gifts that were left there by the star family (families) a few hundred thousand years ago, as they were installing & preparing the earth -crystalline- grid for these days of earth ascension... gradually these 'artefacts' or packages will be unlocked and their gifts set free upon the earth plane... all this time they have been lying there dormant, waiting in their 'caves'...now -more are- being activated... which will greatly support the journey from 2020 on...

then just a week ago, i had another dream:

i was in my grandmother's house (now my house) -grandmother of mother's side, who passed away looongtime ago...my mother passed away april 2018, on my b'day-...first i was downstairs..there sat 'yoga sis' (my 3rd sister of 3, who is deeply into yoga practice, ayurveda, and all that comes with it), with her 2 daughters... she told me her daughters wanted to stay with me, but she was not sure, asked me if i would want that, because i was not the sister she knew in days of old..i was no longer like them, part of the old family..i had changed..was not 'sociable' & 'conform' aynmore... i told her 'sure, u can let your daughters come, i like that, it's okay' ..she looked at me with a bit of mistrust, as well as slight sadness...for i had 'left' her...

my grandmothers house had 2 sitting rooms..the back room was a dining area, and the front room was a sitting room, with sofa etc...the 2 rooms were connected by 2 sliding doors which opened in the middle.. yoga sis sat in the back room, where now a couch was, on which she sat, with one daughter on each side sitting beside her...

then i found myself in the front room..there an uncle of mine sat and watched tv (sports)... he was/ is married to my mom's youngest sister....he was/ is a (heart) surgeon... a very precise, meticulous, careful man... -what he and my yoga sister have in common, is their set ideas of how people should behave... their precise ideas of 'right' and 'wrong' behaviour... and so this uncle was angry at me...he too told me i was not behaving accordingly, to being a member of the old family...i was not fitting..i was no longer accessible -the way they were used to-.. i did not go as they went...i was not 'adjusting'...not like i used to be...

so i told this uncle, he knew nothing about me..that instead of passing his ignorant assumption & judgment, he should check my story of the past 12 years, about what i did/ accomplished, dive into it, and then he could come speak to me..i was not in the least bit bothered....i left the room...

(my grandmother, what i remember about her, is that she was always tending to everyone's needs.. she came to our house when i was little, to help my mom, cooking and caring, baby sitting... that is how i remember her... standing at a kitchen counter filled with food and pots and pans.... when she cooked -like with my own mother as well-, it looked like a war zone... i remember going for walks to the seaside with grandma -the village she lived, nearby ours, was right next to the 'dike' where behind the sea & beach were, it was just a walk down the street for her house-... i spent a lot of time as a kid with grandma, since i was sick a lot... she gave us water with sugar, and called it 'little bird's wine' ..and whenever we stayed at her place, she made us scrambled eggs for breakfast, on a buttered piece of bread, and then sprinkled salt, pepper and sugar on top, that was a 'grandma's egg' as we called it...(i actually still love that)... she herself being old already -to my childlike view back then- went to pour coffee at the senior's residence every week -sunday-, for the old people (she was church going and quite active in the church, and the thing was right across from her house too)...i remember them old folk calling her Ema -her 1st name, which i did not know-, and so i told them off when i came along one time after church, telling them: 'she is not Ema, she is Oma!' -dutch word for grandma-, haha)

then i went up one stairs, as my sisters' daughters -so i heard- went/ were up there... my grandmothers house looked similar downstairs to how i knew it, but once i went up one stair case it looked different...more colorful and lush... there was a lot of red... all (bedroom) doors to the central hallway were closed though... (i know my uncle got the house after my grandmother passed away and remodelled it, but i never went there, so i never saw....but this kind of remodelling i saw in my dream was far beyond anything my uncle could have come up with or achieved).. the first floor though was still kinda dull...but i said 'there was another floor in my grandmother's house'...and as i said it, i saw it, the next staircase up, in the back... (my grandmother's house actually did not have a second stair case)...

as soon as i saw the second stair case, the surroundings started to change bigtime..as i walked towards it, a whole new world opened so it seemed... even before going up that staircase, just walking towards it, the whole floor i was on expanded....the space(s) were huge...it looked like a gaint warehouse at christmas time, kind of... there were huge wooden racks all the way up to the ceiling, filled with colorful toys of all kinds...it reminded me of that movie 'mr magoriums wonder emporium' ..there was a lot of yellow and orange, light blues, silver & white, bright colors ...there were cheerful children playing...it was as if the sun had come up and shone straight into this huge space, everything lit up and sparkled...

as i started going up the 2nd staircase, i was still looking down at the 1st floor...i had a good overview, from halfway up there....and saw there was a bar to the back wall of the 1st floor, it actually covered the whole back wall, from side to side..there was a guy in there, preparing drinks and snacks, yet also responsible for playing music, as a dj... he looked at first like another uncle of mine, on my fathers' side, or a cousin -that uncles son-, but a closer look ensured me he was neither, no one i knew...there was at that point a referral to my other, 2nd sister, -who is caretaker at a nursing home-..she was to take over from that man behind the bar, -who took care of people's physical needs bascially -..something totally up her sleeve i would think, since she always takes care of people, and also has a very special relationship to food & beverages, being the one who always 'caters' for -or to- everyone, eating and good yummee food are very important to her, it is kind of the nucleus of her life...-..i did not see her, i was only told about her being the designated next bartender ( there was mention of a wheelchair, no idea what that meant, she would sit in a wheelchair to easily ride behind & tend the bar)....

that was the last i saw in this dream...my look down onto the wonderful, magical, playful, cheerful 'wonder emporium' i was now leaving/ rising above of...going even higher... that 1st floor was merely the introduction or prelude to the next floor.. i could not see what was on the next floor, all i know is when i looked up before, the space up there was also ginormous, wide open, -no rooms or doors-, and filled with light and color...

it all made the impression of a huge mall, filled with all kinds of wonders & everything one could think of, all one's heart desired, and all for totally free...everything right there at one's direct disposal, to just grab from a shelf and enjoy/ play with...no sweat...easy & fun....it was magical...

being that it was my grandmothers' house surely was a reference to the divine Mother, and my eternal role -as high priestess or shaman- in service to/ of her...it spoke of ( female) ancestry, and the role -or responsibility- one has in it.. it spoke of me having risen above ego & old energy (the downstairs rooms.. -in my world now, all hearts are healed/ whole & pure, therefore the old heart surgeon is forever out of a job/ superfluous)...the daughters who will come to me... it spoke of the learning, transformation & expansion (ascension) into the wealth & abundance energy of the Mother... reconnecting & surrendering.. to the place where all needs were/ are tended to, where one is lovingly nurtured -and feels it too- (the 1st floor)... so, now, onto the next floor... going there... the place where all doors swing/ are wide open.. the place of full manifestation... and beyond

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For me there has been a lot of change going on ever since the beginning of the year...with the changing of the year, the exact night of dec. 31st 2018 to jan. 1st 2019, I had a very powerful dream… I was walking in a field with 3 or so other people around…a field with high yellow-greenish grass… the field was right outside of a town or city.. as we walked, flying objects starting appearing in the sky.. first just a few, colorful shining objects in all shapes and sizes… ufo’s… then many more came, simply appearing in the sky, out of 'the blue' and started to cluster… they were squares, spheres, triangles, you name it… they clustered, and then formed a whole, huge, shiny, colorful light city in the sky…there were reds, blues, greens, yellows…. it was quite impressive... as soon as the objects started appearing and built their city in the clouds, I started running towards them/ it…wind in in my hair, my arms spread wide, tears in my eyes, while I cried ‘home…home’…. I turned around to the folks I was walking the field with, and said to them: ‘see? and you would not believe me…’…then out that sky city, from one of the objects, a figure came flying out… tall.. sort of triangular shaped…wearing a sort of crown on its head... it came shooting out, and flew through the air, in a bow, to then land on a high building close by.. I had to look up at it… I walked -or rather, ran- towards it, then fell to my knees in joy, and deep gratitude… while looking up , and still crying ‘home…home’ ..i woke up in a whole new, all magical energy.. totally not of this world…

After this dream, the ancient ‘high priestess’ or shaman of the Mother started emerging in me in earnest.. she had been there before, but never to this degree, and I never named her anything.. she was simply the huge primordial higher self/ entity inside pushing, pulling, and leading me through ascension, and all the things I had to accomplish…but then I started feeling ‘Bali’, feeling irresistibly drawn to all things Balinese… from there things started feeling ‘Lemurian’….and then ‘off planet’ (pleiadian, arcturian…)…. and I started seeing & understanding things in yet another, deeper, whole new manner.. the previous years had been all about my personal healing, and in the process cleansing the earth grids, etc… it had been about my healing, as well as –after that- supporting my twin flame, who had no idea it was me inside his being, speaking to him inside his own head all these years, holding him up as he faced his fears & challenges…I served in silence… it is too long a story to tell.. but now that twin was aware of me/ us.. and refocused his mind & life to me/ us, the star Mother in me made herself known…always had I felt her huge primordial presence inside, pushing me forth, but now she came forth telling me about who she is/ I am in the other world I left behind, in order to serve on & gift myself to the earth (all done from sheer love (of/ for the divine Mother))

..i started feeling like an ancient highly revered high priestess (and I can now relate to some religions symbolising a high priestess by a black panther, as that is what she feels like…velvety, lazy, slow…like long grass swaying in the breeze... very sensual, sexual…luxurious and wealthy.. she knows very well her appeal & attractiveness… she’s totally secure with herself…and in full awareness of her own value…she knows she -the Mother in her- is highly honoured, deeply revered…and finds it none other than suitable… she is loving, compassionate, but fierce…very powerful & strong.. you can’t fool her… she knows she gets everything just the way she needs & likes it… she feels completely unearthly…exotic… )

..and quite frankly, it took me a bit to fully let her unfold inside of me, Since her huge primeval, wild presence felt kind of intimidating to me at first.. so totally primordially/ primal feminine… not like anything I knew… (and i was thinking 'so now what, am i now expected to tattoo a crescent moon on my forehead, and/ or walk around with the symbol of a vulvae hanging around my neck and all that?..the kind of 'mumbo jumbo' that had proven itself totally unnecessary & superfluous for my ascension-inner healing process, which was achieved simply, very basic, without any kind of method, meditation, rituals, chants or the likes....all i ever used were showers, pain killers, and short walks -outside in the woods-..and of course, first and foremost, the power of my mind/ thoughts/ intent....guided by spirit) ...took me a while to relax in it all, and simply say, ‘okay then…bring it/ her on’... (which then resulted in a rejoicing invisible entourage around me, who all carressed, stroked and touched me in response to my surrender)

… i was then told my name, ‘Galadriel’ (which made me laugh quite dearly for reasons I am sure you can all understand), and led to create this new page (she simply told me how to name it)… and it was made clear that the crowned one, who came shooting out the space city, was in fact me…the higher star being me… the all time high priestess/ embodiment of & channel for the Divine Mother ..this has been her (twin’s & mine’s) role throughout ‘time’ ..in many worlds, in many capacities…(twin & I representing the prime, pure, balanced, harmonious, original 2 faces –twinflame, masculine/ feminine- of the ONE Mother.. (twin being my left-feminine-nurturing-mother side... -those on the ascension path may often sense pain in their left body side, as it is being activated, unblocked & realigned- )

the core where he & i overlap/ connect/ merge, where 'yin and yang' meet (which is within each human, the heart), is the paradise fountain, the heart, where the Wise Mother is centred/ home) …

this being inside has seen & done it all…and so she has a deep innate –highly intuitive- understanding (or memory) of pretty much everything… surely to evolve in times to come while being on this earth… the past few months have been quite the eye opener for me, as galadriel & I merged back into one… and I feel drawn to very feminine & shaman things I previously felt quite ‘allergic’ to (like dresses, and –big- jewellery..) …always felt rather drawn to gypsy & native or folklore things, and also the elf-like (jugenstil) styles as seen in lotr movies , and/ or hippie type stuff (my house & artwork clearly show it)... but now, it has been taken to a whole other level…

....looking 'back', all i did over the past years & life, was purely shamanic already, as understood by ancient concepts of it... (connecting to spirit/ ancestry, being led by dreams, overcoming (cleansing by) tests & trials, healing by (understanding & use of) energy & intent, etc...) ..i simply never placed any definitions or names on any of it... to me, it all just was/ is, without needing to name/ define...but then, the star kin found it time i remembered myself...and they fact they came to check in on me in summer of 2004 (by means of a silver sphere that came to say 'hi, we see/ know you' ), held a promise -of meeting- for times to come, before i knew a thing about ascension, star kin, or my role in it all ...(i was called -literally- summer of 2007, (to drop all i was doing, quit my job, and simply follow blindly, not knowing how i would survive)...after i moved to another country, and there met my twin (flame)....

and so…today marks the beginning of a whole new era…(and i feel it too...whole new, fresh energy....)

January 29 ·

okay, so... lately i am being swamped with (harmonious) number (again, as always, with intervals), and they are mostly 22 and 44 ...(but also 444, 333, 88 etc..)

and so, i asked the divine within for explanation.. (bear with me here, as i am no mathematician, in fact i was always very bad at math, simply because it did not interest me one bit..i am simply not a very 'calculating' person)

INTRODUCTION:

''Numerology is not a system. If you look at the numbers of physics and you study physics, you realize that physics is not a system. Rather, it's a map. It's a map of formulas of how the Creator set the world in motion. It's a map that sits in front of you, that once you understand it, you can use a system applied to the map to send a rocket ship to Mars. So the system gets you to Mars using the map of physics. When you start thinking this way, you will understand that numerology is an esoteric energy map that begs you to develop systems for its use. So it's the map that you want to understand, for the map helps to guide your life in ways that make it easier on the planet where you live. We are going to use the simplest form, the original form, the ancient form of numerology '' - Kryon-

The map, like any map, does not force you to go one way or the other. The map just lays there and is. The extent that you wish to study the map is your free choice, but the more you study it, the more it helps you understand your life.

11 = ILLUMINATION (and 1+1 =2)

2 = DUALITY / POLARITY/ BALANCE

''In numerological terms, the two represents what you would call duality and what we call polarity. Polarity is the energy that is developed between that which is divine and that which is linear - the energy that is Human life and that which is divine inside the Human life. Some call it a battle, some call it a confluence of energy, some call it a marriage, and some call it joy. Did you know that? Don't assign a negative aspect to polarity or duality. What if you have conquered a balanced duality? What if you're absolutely aligned with the polarity between the divine and the Human? What if you love it? What if you figured it out, would it then be negative? No. What if it generates joy in your life every time you awaken and your eyes open up and you say, "This is good. I am here on Earth with the essence of God inside, I am here to plant the seeds of peace on the planet. I can hardly wait for this day. Let's go." Now, I know that won't be all of you. But what if it was? Would it be a negative thing? No. It's just polarity. Simply, it represents the two - the polarity between the divine and the non-divine....Now, let's talk about transmuting this polarity. What happens when you take the non-divine and you have a divine realization within it? Then it becomes divine! What happens to polarity when there are no more poles? Did you ever think of that? Does it then become a one? That's a joke. [Kryon humor] All right. There are even jokes in numerology.'' -Kryon-

11:11 = DUALITY ILLUMINATED

''What is the 11? Illumination! It is also the number of Kryon. It is also the number you keep seeing on your clocks, do you not? That's not an accident, dear ones. Many of you are seeing the 11:11 synchronistically and have for more than 17 years. It is the symbol for the shift. It is the symbol of synchronicity that says to the old soul, "You have arrived at a place you knew you would be. Look, it's here. Look, it's here." It is not a mistake that you're seeing 11:11. Let me take a moment to say it's not fair if you look at 11:10 and stare at it for a while. [Laughter] 11:11 must present itself in its fullness when you don't expect it, over and over and over, out of the odds of chance....What do we have? What is the meaning? Well, one meaning that we will give you is "the illumination of polarity." Did you think of that? What is this year -2011- about? The illumination of duality and polarity! If you illuminate something, you put light on it. Perhaps you are placing light on something that has been in the dark, something that gives you information you did not have before? Now, that really doesn't have the meaning when you add it up, which we haven't done yet, but it gives insight within the number you're about to add.....So let's go back to the subtleties, the illumination of duality. How shall we apply that and what is the best way? Here is more esoteric. If you're going to apply anything in your life numerologically, you're going to have to look at how it applies to you - not your neighbor and not in general. You're going to want to bring it to yourself. You're here to work on something, are you not? There are purposes in every chair here [speaking of the Human who sits in every seat]. Is it just to know more? Is it to find joy in your life? Is it to heal yourself? Are there frustrations that have lain upon you that you'd like to clear? Would you like to have things that you never had before regarding peace and joy? You've been told they are available. Every single one of you has a different purpose to be in the chair. '' - Kryon-

https://sites.google.com/si…/chroniclesofilse/home/the-11-11

https://sites.google.com/…/the-11-…/twinflames-and-the-11-11

CONCERNING 2020:

''So you have the polarity of the two. Next you have the zero. Now some would say, "Well, we skip the zero because it has no value." That's not true. It may not have a value as you assign it in three dimensions, for it is not one through nine. Nor is it a placeholder. Zero has a significant value of having no value and that's a value, if you think of it! It is important. Sometimes it simply separates the other numbers so that you can see the map better, and sometimes it plays a more important part even than that. Used in computation, it is a X10 multiplier! Now, is it nothing, or does it "do" something? See what I mean? If you look at it quantumly, it really shines. But don't. Not yet. That's another channel. [Kryon smile]''

- Kryon-

1+1+1+1 = 4 = STRUCTURE

(2020 = 2+0+2+0 = 4)

''The four - it's the year of Gaia! For the four is "structure" and also the earth [Gaia energy]. Have you noticed what is going on in the planet this year? We don't just speak about the weather. We speak of many things. We speak of that which is volcanic; we speak of the things that even Gaia spoke of when Gaia stood and spoke eloquently at the Grand Canyon. She said, "We're not done yet. Expect shift. Expect more upheavals. Expect more weather." Gaia knows. And, by the way, at the same time Gaia would say the same thing to you that I have said: Don't fear these changes. They're on schedule, on target. I've channelled this before, and have even given you some predictions of some of your largest earthquakes so you would not be shocked when they arrived. [speaking of the prediction Kryon gave in 2008 in Chile]. These things are very predictable, because when the poles melt slightly, they redistribute the water onto the thin crust of the planet. It pushes the crust in ways it has not pushed for eons and the result is earthquakes and volcanoes. It's not the end of the world, it's simply the water cycle '' - Kryon-

https://www.kryon.com/k_channel11_sedona.html

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now, the below came in today, and is not from Kryon, but from me, as i was guided today (the above was merely intended as intro) :

44 = EMBODIED MASTERY

11+11 = 22 = 4, the perfect 'DIAMOND SQUARE'

now, that expression 'diamond square', i had never heard of, so i decided to look online, to see if that was anything existing and/ or 'meaningful'.. and yes indeed...

the 'diamond square' is an algorithm used in computers to generate realistic-looking landscapes..(whatever science fiction or fantasy movie is being made these days, these kinds of algorithms are responsible for creating those amazing out-of-this-world sceneries which carry the movie...)

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Diamond-square_algorithm

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Fractal_landscape

from what i was shown, the 'diamond square' algorithm, is what the pyramids are based on... pyramids, are algorithms cast in stone... this four squared 'pointy' diamond structure, generates and holds everything that is created (and therefore vibrates with)in the (multi-dimensional) space inside it..

and so, what happened/ happens inside?... those who were well trained, clean, and ready, went inside -gradually taken 'up', in order to receive (high dosed energies).. a pyramid all revved up (zooming or buzzing), and in full function, creates, evokes, or calls forth (connections to) other landscapes, or worlds.... holograms of realities.. what they they do with it? they received and communicated with those from the other holograms/ realms (which might simply be simply across the globe, on the other side of the earth -which is why pyramids are found all over the world, the world being round, these pyramids 'circle the earth'-. but also 'stars'/ space/ universe... and things such as the annual lion's gate energies)...

...it is a form of channeling... a 'relay station', and 'amplifier' utilising both the earth grids, as well as 'star grids'... for creating and sending vibrations (images and communications, aka 'virtual reality') through the ethers...

consciousness decided what the hologram reflected... it was a cooperation of mind and matter... same way humans use thoughts, imagination, the envisioning of things in our mind, for sending a projection or hologram of (desired) reality into the universe or web (www) of the divine Mother...

...if one mirrors/ reflects (projects) or mimics the geometry & alignment of a certain star system, then one connects to and/or 'becomes' it...

...these days, 'virtual reality' goggles are growing more and more popular, as they take one into a whole other reality or realm... .. a pyramid, is such a 'goggle' ..it harvests both celestial energies -lion's gate energies and such-, and receives worlds/ vibrations -which are not so 'virtual' but still other world 'reality'- (like for instance the so called 'Hathors' -later named as the 'goddess(es) of love' etc. https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hathor )... as well as transmits the same/ similar outward... all done by sheer use & steering of the mind...

the builders of these devices were -intuitively- highly evolved or ('technologically') advanced, yes, but not nearly as evolved as humans nowadays (are becoming) ... it was a phase of life -or development- on planet earth... and as always, it ended, and other civilisations arose and built upon it... (and i am sure, people who have more notion of mathematics, algorithms, and such than i have, will in times to come utilise and partially revive these 'ancient' methods, in an all new way...they are already doing it... there are already devices like protheses, which respond to the mind, or 'muscular intent', the artificial limb being steered by mind impulse(s))

-i myself run on only intuition/ magic, and not numbers or calculations and such... so, what it all means, why it mattered that i knew & shared this, or how to utilise this information? no idea (yet)... but maybe others know-

..each civilisation builds or expands upon the previous one(s) -albeit from the stars or earth- ...even when they may have no conscious awareness of that which came before them...,

the same way, each soul builds upon, or expands from the experiences of its previous life/ lives...

October 2, 2019 ·

...we now entered into the month of october... all summer long, we passed through portals of eclipses, retrogrades, the lion's gate, etc... it was a busy summer, where many things were being aligned and -energetically- put into place... connections made... 'prepared' one could say... then things gestate(d) for a while.. simmering beneath the surface... in the unseen...

now things are -physically- speeding up... where there appeared to be no movement at all (except in energy), NOW things have started to take off... october/ november represent the transition of one world to the next... it is a liminal time, a time of passage, and transition (between summer and winter, here and there)....what people nowadays know and celebrate as halloween, -or all hallows eve-, was known by the celts of ancient times as 'samhain', samhuinn or sauin... – 'sam' – meaning 'summer', while 'fuin' means 'end'-, typically celebrated on oct 31st to november 1st...

from the Celts point of view, the passage of a day began with darkness, and then progressed into the light... which explains why winter – season of long, dark nights – marked the beginning of the year, and then progressed into the lighter days of spring, summer and autumn.... so naturally, the 1st of november, samhain, was the celtic new year... celebrations began at sunset of the day before iow, its Eve...a highly spiritual time...

being 'between years' or 'in transition', the veil between the Otherworld and the human world became thinner, so that puka, banshees, fairies, shape shifters, and other spirits could come and go as they pleased, so celts believed..this is where the dark side of Halloween found its origins.

for that reason, huge fires were lit, and people dressed up, wearing ugly masks and disguises, in order to confuse the spirits, and hinder the dead in identifying individuals who they disliked during their lifetime. ..there was a lot of noise made, on purpose, to unsettle the spirits, and drive them away from the homes. others would leave out food in their homes, or at the nearest hawthorn or whitethorn bush (where fairies were known to live), hoping to appease the spirits....the tradition of leaving food (and a spoon to eat it), was also about offering hospitality to the ancestors...just as spells and incantations were especially powerful at samhain, so the night was filled with omens for the future. ...typically, the flames of old fires had to be extinguished and ceremonially re-lit by druids.

...the entrance passage to the Mound of the Hostages on the Hill of Tara in Ireland, -alongside several other neolithic structures- aligns with the rising sun around samhain. the Mound of the Hostages is 4500 to 5000 years old, meaning samhain was celebrated long before the first celts arrived there, approx. 2500 years ago. (2 hills in the boyne valley -where Newgrange is also situated- revolved around samhain, being 'tlachtga' and 'tara'. tlachtga was where the 'great fire festival' took place, beginning on the eve of Samhain (Halloween))

in mexico, on november 2nd, the 'dia de muertos' is celebrated .. from wikipedia: '' The Day of the Dead (Spanish: Día de Muertos) is a Mexican holiday celebrated throughout Mexico, in particular the Central and South regions, and by people of Mexican heritage elsewhere. The multi-day holiday involves family and friends gathering to pray for and remember friends and family members who have died, and helping support their spiritual journey. In Mexican culture, death is viewed as a natural part of the human cycle. Mexicans view it not as a day of sadness but as a day of celebration because their loved ones awake and celebrate with them'' ..the ancient mayans called it 'Hanal Pixan', meaning ‘Food of the Souls'. the Maya decorate tables with flowers, traditional candies made of pumpkin, yuca, sweet potato, tortillas, bread, maize; fruit like mandarins and grapefruit. Cigarettes and strong liquor

...(skulls are a reference to the dead ancestors, but the head /skull used to also be seen as the place where the soul resided)

in india, diwali is celebrated around this time as well. diwali is a five-day festival of lights, celebrated by hindus, sikhs and jains across the world. the festival, coinciding with the hindu new year, celebrates new beginnings, and the triumph of good over evil, light over darkness, and and wisdom over ignorance. the actual day of diwali is traditionally celebrated on the festival’s 3rd day, and usually falls between the middle of october and the middle of november, - this is decided upon by the hindu lunar calendar-....it is marked by big firework displays, the lighting of traditional earthen diyas (candles), and decorations of the house with colorful rangoli artwork – patterns on the floor created by colored rice or powder... families and friends share sweets and gifts, and food and goods are also given to those in need...homes get cleaned, and new clothes are to be worn.

traditions for fire renewal at this time, are known all across the globe... from asia to the americas, and everything in between...The old fires –which are kept going all throughout the year, the same fires (for cooking etc) being fed/ kept alive for many months- , are now extinguished, the fire place cleaned out, and a ritual is honoured, of creating an all fresh new fire someplace outside the village (usually someplace out in nature, the woods (where fresh fire wood is gathered), or a sacred site) by the men and/ or priest),…this new fire then, is taken into the village, and carried from home to home…. all people can get themselves a piece of glowing coal from this central fire, and use it to light their new fires at home with… it is also a ritual of ‘unity’, of ‘community’, of all people being part of the same one family & divine realm, carrying a lot of symbolism thereof…

The reason I mention all the above, is because naturally, there is a basis of truth to all of it… indeed, this is the time of transition, after all the activity and work over spring & summer.. now harvested… entering the time of ‘death’.. which is not death, but transformation… the old passes away, and the new day is due to arrive… it may be, that winter is the restful time, of long evenings, and cosy times inside the home… but now, this time, the ‘in between’ time, is where all that was prepared over summer, gets transferred to the new year… arriving at the long dark time before the new day commences.. this is the time of the great let go, of throwing out the old, and arranging things anew, before the ‘dark’ season to come.. the new harvest put inside root cellars, and all that was produced from it , in pantries and the likes… this is the time where the fields are left bare… where the dead leaves fall from the trees, as those prepare for their winter sleep… all access baggage, everything no longer befitting the new, is being done away with… it is a time of renewal… the seeds taking care of the next new year, have fallen onto the earth, resting there, where leaf, dirt, and snow will cover them, until springtime warmth will wake them up, calling them to rise… this is the time arriving, where one drops what one was doing over spring and summer, and comes inside the house… withdraws oneself from the (old, outer, active)... to sit by the (re)new(ed) fire… gathering around… where stories are shared… connections happen… songs are sung,…and music is made… summer was too busy for all that… winter however, is the excellent time to (re)connect… carrying within it, many hidden treasures… of togetherness...

For that reason, crop circles are crop circles, and appear –mostly- during spring and summer… these are the busiest times, energetically speaking… much energy moves –and is being moved- during summer… being prepared… the matching –physical- manifestations -or movements- following, the 'fall out' from it all, start(s) occurring around/ after the fall equinox… after the wobble this way, the planet now again moving to wobbling that way… things shift into new gear, after the equinox served to ‘straighten things out’, and ‘seal things in’… this does not mean one cannot manifest or create before that, or during other times, but for those in close relationship to the earth, and mankind… aware of, and willingly serving its ascension, and the greater whole, this is how it works… we move with the earth.. who carries the divine Mother within –as do we-… it is a partnership… we adjust our ‘speed’ according to what she needs and does… which may be accelerating at one point, and stalling at another…

And anyway… if you are having many nightmares, about death, or creepy ones about being chased, or other unpleasant stuff, know that this is because old energy is leaving, on its way out… these nightmares may leave one a bit spooked, with a slightly eerie, creepy feeling after waking up (for me, I dreamed of many things, one dream where a man was being pinned onto big, iron, sharp pins, and from the side… he was being hung sideways over the pins, in his full length, and then pressed down onto them.. one through the side of his head, another through the side of his shoulder, then one through his waist, flank, the side of his arms, legs, etc. ...it was bloody, and nasty… then I had dreams about being chased around a house, which was all dark, from room to room, never seeing the chaser, but knowing it/ she was there, right outside the pitch black windows… there were dreams where grey spiders suddenly came creeping up from under my skin, hanging on silky threads still attached to someplace underneath my skin… I had dreams of being attacked & bitten by snakes and what not… oh well, too many to mention…

I learned not to bother with any of these kind of dreams…as they simply announce what is going on, and serve to balance energy… so yes, know when you are being visited by nasty nightmares, it is 1) old energy/ life leaving, and/ or 2) your energies are being balanced out… (while some themes are being moved into the background of your ‘hard drive’, others are moved prominently to the front)

(…if you find yourself in similar waters, then don't sweat it, and pat yourself on the back, as it simply means, a(nother) job well done, and now moving onto the next (phase) …there is nothing to fear.... the only reason i am having nightmares (again) now -which i had pretty much grown beyond already a good long while ago-, is due to twin, who came straight from the old energy world, into mine (unlike his higher aspect, who was always right here with me, all along)... much he had/ has to work through, and let go of... being that i am the energy worker, i transmute the energy, -his-, for the wellbeing of our whole/ unity, assisting him/ us that way.. being that i am a veteran at this, and arrived at & firmly anchored myself into the higher realms -of peace & love- long time ago, makes it quite easy)

Next to that, today I got an e-mail, which I first did away as ‘spam’, only then to find out it was an actual serious mail, coming from a police detective, investigating an unidentified woman’s death, by murder, back in the country I was born and raised in, now long left behind… the woman was found dead, shot –something quite out of the ordinary in that region-..and people who vaguely remembered me from the old life, thought she might be me (I have not visited the old country in a decade, and won’t either, ever again) ..and so, the detective following that anonymous tip, found one of my (3) sisters, and then she gave him my e-mail address… he wanted a copy of my id, and information about what kind of tattoos I have… and to know whether I was alive and kicking… looking into the whole thing (since I don’t follow the news from the old country, I had no idea what it was all about), I accidentally stumbled over the rather unpleasant pictures of the deceased woman in question, dead on display.. and yes.. she looked like me.. which was a rather strange thing…

It was odd to me, to see ‘myself’ like that…bit macabre too, yes… and quite astonishing to realise how people from the old world, still view and think of you, as being part of their (old) world… and keep wanting to draw you (back) into it… a world I long left behind … so yes.. in a way, I died in/ to the old country/ world.. i rose above myself, above the old bonds, family and contracts,,, and am not who I used to be, not even by far.. people from before, family etc, no longer mean what they used to mean… those personal bonds are simply gone.. they have no idea what I now evolved to… no longer ‘know’ me… all they are able to relate to, is who they thought I was, from a (shared) past life… but now, risen above the old world (of separation), all healed, I no longer see as they do, no longer feel as they do, no longer experience, respond or express as they do… am no longer interested or (pre)occupied by the things they are, themes their lives revolve around… not even close… I have evolved into some totally different… rose above the personal, merged with the divine, arrived at neutrality, simplicity, peace, and the present… deeply in love with creation & the (divine) Mother, whom I became one with … they have no idea of my vastly expanded simplified realm… and I no longer identify or define myself by any of the old things, people or places (which they are still very much vested in) … the old world/ life, has rendered itself meaningless… nothing to do with me…

it’s like having died, and then resurrected… newly incarnated… in a totally new and different life/ being… living under totally different conditions… not in the least bit related to, or having to do, with anything that was before… there was life before ascension, and then life thereafter… when confronted with the old world/ life, it’s like going through pages in a history book, concerning other people, from other lifetimes, and ages… on some level one knows one was there once, but it simply no longer bares any reference or relation to oneself…

I no longer abide by old illusions of material limitation… and my motives, are solely of divine nature.. what LOVE wants, I follow… I have no ‘want’… what she wants, I want… we co-create.. she shows me the path to follow , and I create the things to go along with it.. she –my higher aspect- knows me perfectly, knows all my likes, tastes and needs.. my abilities, and characteristics.. and knows how to implement them in service of the greater whole… my life now, is one of surrender, and service… yes, I can create anything I want.. but I live in full surrender…and so… she leads the way, giving me guidance and intuition, visions, dreams, showing me the way… I merely follow the crumbs, and create along her lines… I may daydream about things, but when it comes to it, I would embrace whatever she led me to, even if not my dream, trusting she does not lead me astray, and has perfect reasons for guiding me as she does,.. she knows and sees more than I do, after all… she has the perfect overview… she knows the simple wishes of my deep heart… and honors them…as we are one..

In any case… these are the times, where for myself, and twin, reality is shifting… old energy/ life is leaving....we are entering into a whole new phase & realm of (physical) living/ being… transitioning… no place we ever were before… nothing we've ever done, or known… (not this time around anyway)… things have been moved into place over months past, -lots of ‘work’ was done, new energy & awareness integrated-, and now.. well… with all that new information in, a whole new ballgame begins… (energy is always first...the material follows -much- later, -as it is simply more dense, therefore slower-)... following the energy, much has now already physically been put in place, behind the scenes, to reveal itself at the perfect time... (after all, one designs the -new- house, before it actually gets built, and materials are gathered and assembled)

I –blindly- rely on divine guidance, and twin relies on me… neither of us can see what awaits around the corner.. all I know, is that it’s really good.. as it can be felt… moving up a notch.. yet again… with my brother-lover-son-father-partner… into greater expression, expansion, magic, service, and prosperity..

Yes indeed. …the veil grows very thin during these times, as the old (life) passes away, and the new commences.. as worlds intersect, and connect… things feel very tender… thin… like breathing mountain air… while carefully taking care of every precious step… as we journey through the land of the dead, the world of the ancestors, releasing much, while passing through the ‘underworld’, in order to (re)emerge on the other end/ side…

…these, are the rites of passage…