Hi my name is Shadow and I'm a Satanist. I'm a Caucasian female, I'm from a middle-class family. If your wondering what I look like I'll describe myself. I have long edgy black hair with purple highlights, I always wear black shirts, black pants with chains, and a leather jacket. I also wear black combat boots with studs and I wear dark make-up. Both of my cartilage are pierced, my right eyebrow is pierced, I have snake bites, and I have a nose piercing. I also have 5 tattoos: one on each shoulder, one on my chest, one on my back, and one on my left thigh. I got recruited to my Satanic cult at the age of 12 and I left at the age of 18. Growing up was hard and difficult because I didn't get along with my family that much because we believed in different things. My family consists of my dad, mom, younger sister, grandma, grandpa, and uncle. Out of everyone in my family I would say that I get along with my dad the most and the family member that I don't get along with at all is my mom. I don't get along with her because she tries to turn me into somebody I'm not and I don't like that because I am my own human being. Throughout the years I hated going to school. In school I was a loner and known as the school freak. I barley attended school because I would mostly ditch because I didn't care about education. When I ditch I always go to this abandoned neighborhood because I know nobody will find me there, but when I went one day I saw a group of people gathered around a pentagram ( I know this because I was always intrigued by Satanic things) with candles and a Ouija board in the middle of of the pentagram. One of the group members saw me and told the others and they grabbed me before I can get away. They asked me questions but all I could think about was that this group is no ordinary group, this group is a Satanic group. When I figured that out I asked them if I can join and they asked me how old am I and I replied with 12. They decided that I can join if I can pass certain tasks such as sneaking out at night, not being afraid to offer my blood for certain sacrifices, but since I was only 12 they decided against the blood for sacrifices. So after that every night I would sneak out and witness the Satanists do rituals, sacrifices, and seances. A few times they would allow me to participate in the seances, but not the rituals or sacrifices due to my age. I thought that no body in my family would hear me if I snuck out of the house but I was wrong. My mom caught me one night and she woke everybody up so that I can tell everyone why I'm sneaking out. So I told them and lets just say that my mom was livid when I told them. Everything was great until she started to ban me from seeing them. After that I went upstairs and packed all of my stuff and left. So fast forward to one month before my 18th birthday. I was walking around at and I overheard two members of my Satanic cult saying that when I turn 18 I have to participate in a sacrifice but I will be sacrificed. That is one of my greatest fears. I didn't mind participating but I didn't want to be the one that gets sacrificed. So one month later on my birthday I had gotten the courage to tell everyone that I'm going to be leaving the cult. Everyone was upset and mad because nobody leaves the cult but I did to keep my life. So that night I packed all of my things and ran away. I ended up back at my parents house. I knocked on the door and my dad opens it. He stares at me wide eyed and pulls me into a hug. After all of these years of thinking that my family wouldn't want anything to do with me, I was wrong because after apologizing and getting clean I got my family back and I wake up everyday trying to fix my life and its working. So that's my story. I hope you like it.