[2025/10/08, 11:41:05] James: I am going to go lie down
[2025/10/08, 11:41:17] James: I just got a healthy dose of Mara from someone else on the path
[2025/10/08, 11:41:30] James: I need to assimilate it
[2025/10/08, 11:41:37] James: substances sound like the next thing to go
[2025/10/08, 11:42:48] James: maybe even partying. crazy ones anyway
[2025/10/08, 11:42:54] James: I love my family most of everything
[2025/10/08, 11:43:02] James: Is this a case of gradually removing all anchors?
[2025/10/08, 11:43:36] James: I don’t know
[2025/10/08, 11:43:41] James: I feel like we all already made it
[2025/10/08, 11:43:47] James: through being an interconnected web
[2025/10/08, 11:44:05] James: though I was assigned the job of architect it wasn’t my doing because something above was controlling me
[2025/10/08, 11:44:09] James: And above that and so on
[2025/10/08, 11:44:14] James: and it’s a lantern, isn’t it
[2025/10/08, 11:44:20] James: you need to be able to walk the wire
[2025/10/08, 11:44:44] James: I was pretty fucking tired of the mental health industry and scientific method though
[2025/10/08, 11:45:02] James: and I can’t find a logic loop in the construct my mind has made for the new world
[2025/10/08, 11:45:07] James: I guess there will be one somewhere
[2025/10/08, 11:45:17] James: and that is what I need to accept
[2025/10/08, 11:45:22] James: I don’t know; no words really
[2025/10/08, 11:45:39] James: I both do these things and don’t do them; they are done through me
[2025/10/08, 11:45:43] James: if this helps people that’s awesome
[2025/10/08, 11:45:55] James: but also the nature of it is you will probably never know
[2025/10/08, 11:46:16] James: you just walk around spreading good vibes and trying to lead by example, by keeping your soul pure
[2025/10/08, 11:46:29] James: but there’s no fully-pure
[2025/10/08, 11:46:39] James: I need to review the dhammapada pairs again
[2025/10/08, 11:46:49] James: those suited to the yellow robe
[2025/10/08, 11:59:08] James: .
[2025/10/08, 11:59:09] James: Our duty is simply
to establish a heart of kindness and to share whatever goodness we have
with others.
[2025/10/08, 12:13:12] James: Reading the pairs was a good option
[2025/10/08, 12:13:22] James: Thank you Vladlen
[2025/10/08, 12:13:30] James: As a fellow indie dev, I guess
[2025/10/08, 12:13:49] James: (Says the man who doesn’t know how to program haha)
[2025/10/08, 12:14:06] James: I think I’ll be getting off the train for a while and just using skillful means to try to help people
[2025/10/08, 12:14:13] James: As I’ve said from the start I hate business
[2025/10/08, 12:14:16] James: I love games though
[2025/10/08, 12:14:24] James: So I figured I would make business into a game.
[2025/10/08, 12:14:36] James: A game to save everyone in the species from suffering and death
[2025/10/08, 12:14:44] James: We will never know if it is real
[2025/10/08, 12:14:49] James: And that’s why it works
[2025/10/08, 12:14:59] James: I don’t want a parinibbana yet
[2025/10/08, 12:15:09] James: I said quite clearly at the start that this was to fix the world
[2025/10/08, 12:15:12] James: (I think)
[2025/10/08, 12:15:23] James: I am not willing to leave the homeowner life
[2025/10/08, 12:15:26] James: Not yet
[2025/10/08, 12:15:39] James: And magically I became that wheel turning monarch which I knew nothing about
[2025/10/08, 12:15:46] James: For me it is totally confirmed
[2025/10/08, 12:15:56] James: I have had too many coincidences for things to be coincidence
[2025/10/08, 12:16:10] James: I will practice the austerities until the day I die
[2025/10/08, 12:16:23] James: I will love my family and help them to achieve liberation when they need it
[2025/10/08, 12:16:34] James: While also recognising it is their choice
[2025/10/08, 12:16:41] James: They are unique universes after all
[2025/10/08, 12:16:47] James: But I will enjoy the cosmic dance
[2025/10/08, 12:16:52] James: And I think I’m a good dancer
[2025/10/08, 12:17:10] James: Now what to do with the chemicals
[2025/10/08, 12:17:20] James: I think I should stick to the safe guanfacine taper
[2025/10/08, 12:17:38] James: It’s a bit long but it’s for blood pressure reasons.
[2025/10/08, 12:17:45] James: I don’t want to go have a heart attack
[2025/10/08, 12:18:19] James: I will - wow hard to let go of that cannabis isn’t it
[2025/10/08, 12:18:25] James: Even though you don’t need it
[2025/10/08, 12:18:33] James: But why?
[2025/10/08, 12:18:41] James: I will sleep
[2025/10/08, 12:18:43] James: And think
[2025/10/08, 12:19:39] James: Big rollback
[2025/10/08, 12:19:44] James: and incoming forkstorm
[2025/10/08, 12:19:51] James: Get ready to regulate james
[2025/10/08, 12:19:58] James: your intentions were pure