Although I hate to admit it, I hide behind a mask. Metaphorically and yes, physically. Whether it is a covid mask or a mental barrier between what I display to the outside world, and how I feel on the inside. I walk into a classroom and immediately start the conversation and try to bring some life to my peers and teachers. Would you be able to tell I stayed up all night with on and off panic attacks? I come into school with my assignments completed and sometimes even with that additional sparkle to attempt to please my teachers. Would you be able to tell I work tirelessly to please my teachers, because I simply can’t please myself? You may look at others and become filled with jealousy of how perfectly they hold everything together or how special their life may seem. Little do you know, everyone has some sort of mask. It may be for a miniscule detail that alters how they are viewed, or a large mask to cover up for what they don’t want to be seen by the outside world.
I want you to be completely transparent for a minute. Are you okay? Are you happy? These simple questions seem to be the most difficult to answer and simply unbearable to ask yourself. You are loved. You deserve more than the world. I might not know you right now but I want to know you. I want you to tell me how you feel. Tell me your thoughts and emotions. Mental masks are unnecessary here. No hiding, no barriers, no walls. Happiness and love are the most important things in the world and they should be your priority. Learning to love yourself takes a long while but oh boy, it will be so worth it. I am currently on that road to loving myself right now and it is not easy but you don’t have to do this alone. You don’t have to do this alone. Start repeating it until you believe it, because one day you will get there. I am here to chat anonymously, even though I cannot solve your problems, I can be here to listen. Having someone to listen to you, at your highest, or your lowest, is a necessity, and I am here to help you fulfill it.