NaPoWriMo 2024
It's National Poetry Writing Month! Join me as I attempt to write a poem every day-- sometimes using the prompts, oftentimes not. I do what I fancy!
April 29th - Almost Over
yesterday, the gleam of sun on pavement
was the proof of my arraignment
to a life of jealousy.
since, I've tried to pick my posies,
traded carnations for roses--
but it tastes like celery
and I suppose it's almost over
like the song you're playing at night
when you wished you could be older
and not so scared of the light
does it really even matter
when the ice is next to your heart?
when you're at the start--
again--
is it really almost over?
April 28th - I'd like to live
I'm trying not to
overcomplicate it:
He tells a joke, it's
so funny I can't take it--
Her warm embrace is
the kind only a mother gives,
I'd hate to survive,
I'd like to live
April 27th - Glimpses
One hand on your heart
one hand in your pocket
one second of summer
and then we lost it
these years are a treasure
they're also the hardest
one hand on your heart,
turn the key,
and unlock it
April 26th (#2) - Something sad
I'm writing something sad
can't wait to feel the pain
when all those pretty chemicals
come flooding up my brain
'cause when I think of sadness,
reality can fade
the truth is worse than fiction,
so I still play this game
you ask if I am okay
and that's not what I need
if the whole world is drowning,
why save only just me?
ask people why they need to
make so many mistakes
ask them why they continue
to suffer through heartbreak
I'm writing something sad down
and you can thank my brain
I am designed to want it
can't wait to feel the pain
April 26th - Rivers and Reeds
Every moment an ocean view, cracking the surface to
find out the meaning of sadness and screaming
and reeling through heartaches, just give me a break
dancing around while spiderwebs spread on my gown
For a second I laughed, fell down the trap,
Alice to the hole, how deep can she go?
and standing in darkness, shouting for a sign
being suprised it won't materialize now
and everything felt like the stone had been tossed
give way to the motion of losing, I lost
it all to be something that no one could ever concieve
and everything aired out, so I took a breath
been thinking 'bout this since the day that I left
they day I turned bitter and dreamed for a field of reeds
Or just a place to breathe
April 25th - Some day, years from now
The court is adjourned, I'm driving back home
my house in the suburbs is never not cold
I search for the keys in the pockets of my coat
and pull out a single dime
You're never not confused by my verbiage
We threw out the vows and the matching corsage
what once was great is broken, the ceasless barrage
and unending march of time--
Promises were made, by me to myself,
I'd find my perfect person, the rest can go to hell
I'd get a perfect job in a city where I'd walk to the store
then the living came, it wasn't as swell
as I had once predicted, no I could never tell
that I would soon realize I don't know what it's all for
I don't know if I can do more
April 24th - More sure
Maybe I should
let this all go and be a
different person--
last time I was here
I wasn't at all certain
but this time I can sense
there's been a change:
I am tired of
being tied down to a
sinking ship and
I have met my demon,
she's a 'people person',
and I will die before
I become her
So maybe I will
let this all go and be a
different person--
wake up tomorrow
with a new disposition
clearing all the smoke instead of
breathing it in
and when you meet me
do not be alarmed by my new
blunt honesty
I have learned that people
are not worth my servility
and that really, I belong
somewhere else
April 23rd - Better sorry than
The persistent fear that plagues you doesn't relent
that when you're happy it'll all too quickly end
you don't take road trips, you're afraid of crashing down
you don't take cruises 'cause you think you're gonna drown
oh what a horrid little life we've made right here
where we find that what we really fear is fear
Is it better to be a careless vagabond
than a thoughtful person pained by their own thoughts?
Fear is a choice that you can make, it's never certain
You wonder if you've chosen wrong most every time
In isolation you can't help but feel deserted
and to be safe and secure, there's a price
April 22nd - Vagabonds
I wake up like this in a dastardly daze,
finally seeing the error of my ways,
only to reach the docks too late
and watch my ticket out sail away.
stuck at the counter of the corner store,
wondering what all this wealth was for--
if all I can buy is a strong chloroform,
to knock me out for the rest of the war?
I pace in the night, pondering my plans:
If I left it all, would they understand?
But I made my vows, and this is my hand,
I fold here and now, or I lose my chance.
I wake up like this, in a cowardly sweat:
should I make it out, should I just head west?
I know to stay would be to do what's best,
but I can feel that urge in my chest,
telling me,
there will be another boat
6 AM, sharp, tomorrow
when it comes, get on and go
6 AM, sharp, tomorrow
April 21st- Unreliable Narrator
My greatest talent is lying
I do it every day
I put it in my poetry
and seethe it in my praise
I make myself look better
I make the world look worse
I lie in every chorus
and I lie in every verse
and soon it blurs together
the phony and the true
each fib is like an apple tree
which bears a rotten fruit
I lie about my free time
I lie about my plans
and in the midst of lying
I don't remember who I am
So my greatest talent is lying
I do it all the time
I put it in my poetry
in each and every line.
April 20th - Abyss
I'd climb the traffic lights and kick my feet out over the street,
climb hills that are big and empty and private property
I'd look inside the pyramid they built for Route 99
I'd be with the scrub jays in the trees if I had the time
Would you come with me on the back of a freight train?
Would you roll with me down the sloping, grassy terrain?
'Cause I can't live in a concrete town,
looking for trees worth talking about
I can't live like this in the abyss
April 19th - Oracle
it was a different time
it was a different life
you're bad at algebra, I am an artisan
this is a craft
skipping the lunches and bad party punches
and genuine laughs
i am nostalgic for what cannot exist
i am a maniac scrawling my lists
into stone hoping I'll be an oracle
and it will come true, all that I wish for
it was a different time
two years ago and never and never again
I push the limits of what parts of me I'll expend
if this is a tragedy, why
does it have to be this time?
April 18th - Unspoken
blessed by a moment that never returns
pushed by a current through t-spins and turns
I'm unglued by this presence that haunts all my days
no refuge from the resin that clogs up my brains
leaving me untied
I don't want to be right this time
hold out for glimpses in long corridors
the venue is golden, don't know what's in store
I am floored by the knowledge that this is real
and I fear the unknown that I tread,
let my heels touch the sand
this is an unexplored land
I am scared of all things new
I can't say these things to you
April 17th - Stocks
so much time, so little demand
every hour devalued as it sits in my hands
until I waste it all, and it's in short supply
hope it trickles down from the other side
I invest in the shares of my career
If it goes well, I have nothing to fear
but the time doesn't ever return
it's not money or respect or anything that you earn
and I try to control its brownian dance
I gamble the minutes till it's out of my hands
wait a long time till I've squandered my chance
to live
April 16th - Little bird
Little bird, don't you know
you have it better than most
that doesn't mean that you are wrong to complain
all the clouds in the sky
they don't ponder, they don't ask why
they just drift off, and on cool, gray days they rain
Little bird, you heard it here
the world is big, the world is weird
there's lots of things that happen here that I can't explain
when you're sad, be proud to cry
be proud you're silly, be proud you're shy
don't be afraid of anyone thinking you're plain
cause let's be honest, it's all absurd
its a big universe and a tiny world
oh Little bird, there ain't no time, no time to waste
people are always two-faced
we cannot change where we're placed
oh Little bird, no time to waste
time's short, so we must make haste
choose well the path that you trace
oh Lirtle bird, no time to waste
April 15th - Parable of the Lost
I told her to rest
she said, "not tonight."
I told her to love
she loved being right.
I told her she's pretty
she cut off her hair
I told her she's unique
she fell to despair
I told her she's everything
she did nothing for herself
just spent all her life
trying to be someone else
and so I stopped talking
I let her find out
that she is worth loving
when no one's around
April 14th - I'm here
The only thing that makes life bearable
is knowing that you are out there
dreaming, seeing, believing
everything
and you are just like me
and if you can
I can too
be
happy
April 13- Alone, it's late.
and i think i know
but i hope i'm wrong
because if it's true...
i'm not sure if i can live that way
i said so much there's nothing left to say
i stare down darkness till my pupils dilate
and then the black becomes gray
it's okay
i'm not the only one stuck in a box
in the box, it's safe
i'm not the only one who wants to get out
and make mistakes
i stare down sunshine till i lose my eyesight
i walk into tomorrow blind
i keep on hoping that the world will save me
i'm gonna lose my mind
but that's alright
that's probably what i need right now
i'm dancing, it goes round and round
i end up in the same place
and i think i know
but i hope i'm wrong
there is no meaning to be found
i'm dancing, it goes round and round
April 12- Dear Happiness,
I saw you there at the corner coffee shop
to order something sweet
and everyone says that you're nice to everyone
and so you're nice to me
I never knew what chaos tasted like
until you let me have a sip
now I wait at the corner coffee shop
wanting more of it
tell me, is it all a dream? is it wishful thinking?
is it real or just for show?
tell me, is it all a dream? I feel like I'm sinking
into blue black indigo
tell me, is it all a dream? am I going crazy?
am I real or just for show?
Tell me, is it all a dream? Don't want you to leave me
but I can't help but watch you go
April 11th - Tragedy
There is that moment
between nothing and everything,
the line between oblivions
the grayest of the grays,
a constellation of complexity
a watershed of words,
cascading down their eulogies
to empty into fjords.
There is that moment, brief and brilliant,
where all the pain is dealt,
and perfect imperfections drag the heavens down to hell
and when the worlds collide you see
an enigmatic enmity,
a tragic case of irony
where the thing that makes us human
makes us hate it ever so
and the moment that it passes
so must humanity go.
April 10th - Emptiness
Your flowers died after forty years
upon the sill, where I left them
they sat and gathered dust
'til they were done, and then they wilted
they smiled with joie de vivre
at the sight of death's embrace
they crumbled into ashes
upon my speckled windowpane
and since then, the garden outside
which your flowers onced overlooked,
its daisies weep, its roses scream,
no singing streams from the crying brook
April 9th - Cape Cod
The sky is beautiful
I almost missed it
I saw the sun today and I kissed it
the world is dark and dingy
I seek the light
I don't know the difference between wrong and right
I took the yellow bus
to Levittown
I made a steady life and settled down
I chase my dreams but they
are just a mirage
the sky is hard to see
from my garage
April 8th - Fishbowl
Wishes are concrete, reality's a dream
The stars that span the sea are not quite what they seem
A fool keeps pushing forward, an idiot moves on
No matter where I go now, I'm always in the wrong
I juggle my addictions to poetry and praise
I live for simple pleasures and picture-perfect days
My heart is but a menace, my mind is but a fiend
I either choose to do it or slowly, surely bleed
The sky is getting darker, it scatters out the sun
And I just keep on losing the feeling that I won
Now trapped within a fishbowl, I rule the promised land
I walk away with nothing, though victory's in hand
A paradox of letters, a middle-class routine
My wishes hard as concrete, reaality's a dream
April 7th- Something's missing
You know the truth
the sun pries your eyes open at the crack of dawn
it's a hundred miles but it won't be long
you know it works
cards fall up into place like in reverse
it's not good but it could be worse
you know it hurts
my smile may not fade for one hundred days
but you know, you know the truth
I never know what I have
I can't help missing you
April 6th- It's over
we smile when it's over
we smile when it's gone
throw food into fire
and sing a sad song
we take off our makeup
and shed all our blues
we smile when it's over
and you should, too
April 5th- A Treatise
eyes wide like streets right where I used to be
all of the souls wait for ball drops and dreams
i should know better than to drive down dead ends
loneliness can fix what these peope cannot mend
and i should wait for the person in the mirror
but i can't believe her, i can't stay right here
April 4th- Not so sure
Maybe I should
let this all go and be a
different person--
all too tempting but I
shouldn't listen
to whims of an evening
or my disposition
to wish that I was doing
something else.
April 3rd- To the Rose Gold
flecks of quartz in gravel
fireworks that fade
time is a scary little, fleeting little thing
one shot and its over
never seen again
time is a special little, beautiful new thing
hold me close thought we may
never do this again
time is a crazy little, gorgeous, gorgeous thing
flecks of quartz in gravel
ground down into sand
time is up and it won't count us down again
April 2nd- SoCal
Highway passing lanes
snaking like veins
on pretty plastic skin,
every now and then
you find a jewel, genuine
before it ricochets
down the storm drain
never seen again.
April 1st- Creation
Two souls met in a dusk
and in a few words they exchanged the light of day
and from the harbor you could see
two souls meet in the body of the sea
and the moon kissed the earth, with the sky asleep at their feet
and the two souls we cannot see
they took the last ship and sailed away on the rolling fog
and if you listen closely, you can hear their mystic song.