It is not like I don't have words. I do.
But sometimes, even the words feel like silence being expressed as some formality.
I ask myself, do I really have to write?
I choose to feel more, more than I could ever express.
If I write, it is only because I feel.
But not everything felt can be given words.
And even if I write, it is never the case that it brings what I exactly feel.
I realize this deeply now that what is felt could be expressed but never completely.
There could be this 0.0000001% thing too that can't make it through the filter of words.
Words can give room to feelings but feelings, they cannot fit in a room cuz they are like the sky.
Every colour on the canvas of sky is like an experience felt by the sky.
The sky doesn't just feel, it absorbs and becomes the feeling itself.
And such are feelings. Absorbable. Livable.
We just don't have feelings, we are our feelings.
It could be the smallest or most ignorable thing.
It could be something far away and out of reach.
But if felt, it becomes a feeling.
And this is how I keep realizing, FEELINGS are more than words...