As I think back to my childhood, I have a memories ofmy mother's gentle

humming that would comfort me every time I opened my eyes. I remember lying in a

small wooden cot, snuggled up with a pillow and a bottle ofmilk, with my sister lying

beside me. I would cry for my mother to come and comfort me, and she would come

and hold me in her warm embrace. Her angelic voice would make me feel safe and

happy.

But, since I grew older, I began to notice a change in myself. I no longer craved

attention and appreciation from my family, and I started to avoid loud noises, crowds,

and people in general. I wanted to be alone and was hesitant to ask for help or comfort.

I felt like I was pushing myselfon others and my family like a fool, but I didn't know

how to stop.

There were times when I felt like the world was against me, and I wondered if

anyone would ever love me or care for me. I used to want to please others and make

them happy, but I realized that it was making me unhappy.

As I got older, I met a guy who expressed interest in me. At first, I was unsure ifhe

was serious or not, and I had lost my trust in people. But as time passed, I realized

that he was genuine in his feelings for me. I remember him liking me since October,

and we bumped into each other in November. In February, I found myselfconfused

about my feelings for him, but I was happy whenever I heard his name or saw him.

Eventually, I ended up liking him too.

He has been a source ofsupport and comfort for me, and I feel like I can lean on

him. He listens to me, talks to me about everything, and makes me feel valued. I used

to believe that no one loved me, but there is someone that likes me, and that makes

me that I have no problem. I am grateful for his presence.

But despite having someone who cares for me, I still struggle with some issues.

I feel like I am not good enough and that I don't deserve to be loved. I have a hard

time asking for help or comfort, and I feel like I am a burden to others. But I am

learning to overcome these feelings, and I am grateful for the people who support me

and encourage me to be better.