Today at 4:00 AM, 23/5/23

I mean. In such way, you make something no one ever seen before. Brand new thing. Influenced by nothing of this world, or at least it seems so... To break restraints on imagination, on possible, of what you can ever even think of... Crazy. Rockets, iPhones, computers, ... (Nu)bjects, protoshapes...


Today at 4:00 AM, 23/5/23

I do, want to, matter. But why I try, when there are fights you can't never win. And goals? What for. To be egomaniac, to boast around? Maybe the way is not to want to. Slack off? Uh. Too easy. More, to accept what you can't fight. But as I can't never know why is it that when I can't, isn't it all futile? No. I can do it for myself. But is there some!? If there isn't, who i argue with! Never nothing new. How people invent things, how you make reality bend itself...


Today at 3:56 AM

Good, if not for me wanting to make up fights. With myself, society, reason... Seems I miss conflict, but not wanting war. It is just that I will fight things if they were important, yet not if in my way, like I can't try new things because I don't excell at them from the first try. Also, too, that I can't, as of when I will learn new things, I will be always behind the pulse of things, then I gave up and why I ever tried... So I can fight if there is many of people, but not for myself.

0/22, 4/6/23

Koniec blogu?

Byť-to úprimný, už nemám o čom písať.

Moje myšlienky sa neustále opakujú.

Hnev, zmätenie, útek pred realitou** a nahováranie si*, falošná grandióznosť, hanba, strach zo seba samého, z úspechu/zlyhania(?) (omyly, zlyhania, nepripravenosť, znova hanba...)

Už mi došla predstavivosť. Témy. Jeden môže poznať seba len tak dobre, ako je mu to len dovolene. Potom sú to (tu) len klamstva, ktoré hovoríme sami sebe*.

Ako snáď len môžem vedieť, čí len toto všetko, i to čo som (na)písal predtým, nebol(i) len povrchne žvásty?! - Len ďalší únik z/od reality**; len tak sa zhovárať sám so sebou  - a ešte k tomu pridávať to na web (net) - všetkým na oči! Rúhanie, opovážlivosť, takéto detinské dožadovanie sa pozornosti (od) ostatných...

Ktosi raz povedal niečo medzi slovami „outsorcing lásky“? Neviem (ako som toto písal, tak som aj zabudol(,) čo som vlastne chcel, mal na mysli)... V podstate (asi) - hľadanie lásky na nesprávnych miestach (ospravedlňovanie si činov...). Žadonenie si o niečo, čo možno ani (osobne/-nostne) nechápeme (zjednodušujeme) ako funguje, ako na to vôbec reagovať, či to vôbec môcť „v prírode“ rozoznať!...

Prečo chcem niečo, čo „nemôžem“ mat? Alebo niečo, čomu nerozumiem, niečo čo by som dal, ak by -

- ak by som sa nebaľ, že to stratím? Že ma to zraní? Bude použité proti mne?

Zrada, klamstvo, hra s (po)citmi? Aj keď si myslím, že to nepoznám z vlastných skúseností, bude to tým, na čo sme naučení!? Potom starkí očividne mali pravdu o TV... Ale kto by si, v konečnom dôsledku, chcel píliť sám pod sebou konár?! (Teraz nezachádzajme k sebaubližovaniu, myslím že toto s tým až tak nesúvisí.)

Ak by aj Project Mockingbird (/schizopost incoming!) bol náš každodenný chlieb, načo by niekto „potreboval“ ľudí čo neveria nikomu, ničomu (aj keď, ak to budeme brat ako zradu a ich vlastne rozhodnutie...) a sú hrozbou pred samotnými „objednávateľmi“!...

- Trochu také nezmyselné zamyslenie čo odbočilo XD.

<XD - #eXtraDepka> (teraz^ však nie ;D)

Tiež malá idea #3  -

Ak je rozdiel medzi srdcom a činmi - potom, ak si prehliadam memes, smejem sa, ale nesúhlasím s nim(i) (napr. ak sú veci v skut. zložitejšie***, ako *vysvetlene* v meme), potom - a JE to vtipne - stávam(e) sa tým, čo neznášam(e) (napr. teda povrchnými)!? - Nuž, mám to nechať byť, mám sa prestať smiať, mám sa začať báť?! - Pretože neraz sa stalo, že to čo bolo vtipne, bolo zlé. Dokonca to ani nemuselo byt zlé - len to (ale) bolo zneužité. - Je teda správne, aby sa týmto istým spôsobom, „by general demand“ generalizovali, bagatelizovali, ironizovali, prekrúcali, zjednodušovali*** a *meta-projektovali* (psych.); normalizovali, *enablovali* témy a fakty? Je treba zásah? Kedy áno a/lebo nie?...

„Čo nie je zakázané bude povinné.“!? - Kto vie povedať, kedy dosť - (iste) zadávateľ (thinktank?) trendu!(?) (/výsmech)... - Non-sequi.: G.W.Bush: „Kto nie je s nami, je proti nám.“*** (9/11) > !falošná dualita (LEN 2 možnosti - ale nie vždy je všetko v skutočnosti také jednoduché...)

雨、Some_porcupine、 逃げ出した後: (me)
It is weird how I "hate" people and society behind screen, and all that disappears when I am outside. Anxiety is gone. I wonder. Why is it that, why at home I am anarchist who hate The system (all ills),but irl want to help everyone? God, it would be so easier if I was stupid reactionary. But I don't want to destroy what works. And there is so much that don't.


Today at 3:42 AM (6/4/23)

雨、Some_porcupine、 逃げ出した後:
Like, afraid of myself. I don't want to do anything of fear , consequences, fear of success, not knowing what to do if my dreams came through - then what? Will I be suicidal? Will I try to make new reality, where nothing stands on solid ground - where all that matters is improvement? But then what. Do I want that or it is not my dream, just something I want so I can belong?


Today at 3:38 AM

雨、Some_porcupine、 逃げ出した後:
Too stupid-smart. False intelligence. Posh ego, but that don't boast - only that I do nothing, *superior* in my inaction, lying myself how smart I am, so I don't have to disrupt world.


Today at 3:33 AM

雨、Some_porcupine、 逃げ出した後:
There has been discussion about when dude burnt the Talented kids school. LCD being, those are psychos who will go thru dead. I wonder what make me not be like that. I am exact opposite, emotional mess that can't do anything "to not hurt others". I wonder. Maybe I lack inter-personal skills too, so I try to greypill myself as evil, holding myself back on my own restrictions

3am, 16/7/23

Nechcem nikomu ublizit. Ale ak ublizia mne? Bude to fer? Alebo to bude len vyhovorka! Pomsta pomste? Ak to vsak necham byt (len tak), potom to normalzujem. Kto urcuje co este/uz je normalne, moralne - a co uz nie?! ~ Vyprovokovany/i!?

Ako ocakavat poslusnost, ak dana vec nedava zmysel a len utvrdzuje moc?! Ak si niekto (som to (aj) ja?) zo dna na den nieco zmysli, potom co zarucuje, ze je to aj spravne, ze to dava zmysel, ze by to - bez rozmyslu - mali robit aj vsetci ostatni, vacsina; vobec niekedy niekto?!

Homogenizacia (Generalizacia | „globohomo“ XD) ~ Attack na „nespracovany Normal (Normies)“ - bud nesuhlasis, *alebo* [sic] „podporujes Fasistov (strata vyznamu), Rasistov, Xenofobov, Pedofilov (/i)...
- Amerikanizacia, zozapadnenie sveta. - Kto urci, kedy dost; kde je „sever“!

~$50-ova nalepka „Neznasam Kapitalizmus“~ je toto Sucastny - absolutny stav (/s) Sveta!? - Len jediná „Cesta“, „Sposob“ zitia/zivota, existencie, prezivania, myslenia? Korporatna „podpora“ [X] (len naoko) - len aby sa (tak-tak) „nezdvihli“ masy.

Som (to) teda zvedavy co sa stane, ked (ak) tato hra prestane byt zabavna (ziskova, popularna)  a omamna, otupna, pre vsetky zainteresovane strany.

Pride nova Šaráda? Alebo nepokoje? Vyjde na povrch skutocna, neskreslena realita vecí; pokrytectvo, pretvarka, len (pre) vidina (nekonecneho) zisku; len „pouhé“ vykoristovanie trendu - „hip with the kids“!? ~ ako dlho nam toto vydrzi - ako dlho je toto všetko udrzatelne?!

Co je horsie - prijat neprijatelne, alebo (radsej) ostat sam?

Globalizacia trhu - bolo to nutne? „Demokratizacia“ tiez. Len zamienka, zisky, a vojny?

Ako moct vediet co je spravne a co nie!

Svet co sa meni a pouziva slova len ako frazy, ktorych vyznam sa (tiez) meni z roka na rok, z dekady na dekadu. ~ Smrdi to umelinou - kampanou (kto?), nefér hrou - kto meni vyznam, ma potom (s-) tú moc menit fakty(?), pravdy, pravidla, zmysel - robit(?) si z ludi blaznov...

Podpora™ (/s) inakosti; Anarchia(,) sponzorovana (/cyn) (korp.) znackami - falosna, na okrasu (pochvalu), nic nehovoriaca.

Poznas Green-washing - co tak ale Queer-washing? Pozlatko, trend - a v pozadi mozne vykoristovanie, prizivovanie sa - na „fanbas-e“ podpore spolocnostou (luds.).
- Preco vsak podporovat korporacie; ked, radsej, podporme(!) tych, co (priamo) vyrabaju tento merch (o.i.) ~ out-sorcing, off-shore... „Malé“ fabriky robotnikov v krajinach III. sveta, - kde o tychto „zhyralostiach“ ani chyru - ani slychu!!?

(# No, thanks tho, „Orange Emily/pol/!“)
~ # Queerpo-cracy/Corpo-Queercy...

2,08/7,9,23    

PAVLOVIAN EDU -VS- SELF (Agora September Blogging)

I hate political commentary on Youtube, but I do (watch) it, bc. I am *just curious*. Too long, too boring, too political and many if not all, seems so same(lar).

Some „punk“ just talking theories - but nothing else. It is no use. Examples are to be made, no talked into - words got no use w/o action(s), isnt it!? It is that what makes me furious about those know-it-alls and radicals and dreamers. Thanksgod I got no (new/unheart) theme or voice, or be(ing) *that* nonsensical and radical „edgy S_W“!

But why I watch what I hate?

I got/get no answer. Maybe I just like to hurt myself. No action, yes - *totally Me*. Fuck that.

You see, I (do) hurt myself many times - but it is still enjoyable. Not kinks (doubt...) and (anything) physical, talking here.

What I say is - it is easier to do useless, nothing-providing shit that is useless and hurts still (in ways...), than to ever let myself get hurt in any other, meaningful, impactful, char-building way; than to just let this *other* type, way of hurt just „pain“ the less...

It hurts more, but is easier - to crush spirit and soul, is to get less „work“, than to break my humanity and just write off the rest of it, as (with) myself too!

Ah, when used to it - what is just broken spirit, to anything - it was, is, all black, either way?! No surprises. Pain more, Effort - less...

1/46 ~ 47, 23/9/23 (Agora Road, September -  Vol. II)                  

Skúsim písať po slovensky, možno mi napadne nejaká nová, aspoň dajaká, myšlienka.

Viete, tá teória (stále?) o jazykoch, premýšľaní - a to (je?) príslovie - Koľko jazykov vieš, toľkokrát si človekom ~ a ako sa vraj meníme, podľa toho akým jazykom premýšľame; a že (?) „prepíname“; keď sme jedna osoba v jednej reči a ďalšia v druhej - potom, kto tomu „velí“; vie, čo kedy a prečo si myslieť?

Môže sa takto prejaviť úplne iná osobnosť - ale, bádam, že snáď len jej časť?! Ak by sme teda mali takto nad tým, a podobným, premýšľať, potom mi ešte napadá - viete, ako sa, a to i nedobrovoľne, meníte na základe toho, s kým ste - ale v skutočnosti môžeme skôr hovoriť o našej (rozdielnej) otvorenosti v/pri situácii, podľa ľudí, pozície v danej skupine a v čase - nejde teda o to, že ste niekým iným s každou inou „bandou“ - nebola by to (vari) strašná záťaž na mozog, ak by to bolo tak? A predsa - ak si toho môžeme všimnúť (uvedomiť); ako sme „iný“, potom, prečo sa toto aj tak deje?

Prečo proste nemôžete/-eme byť vždy „sami sebou“; je tento proces intuitívny(,) a prirodzene zabudovaný v našich hlavách? Ak áno, tak prečo? Snáď ide o ochranu/obranu? Alebo mozog, znova, „šetrí“ tým, že zjednodušuje, selektuje, čo sa v danú situáciu, skupinu - hodí? To by potom, zamyslim(e) sa, mohlo vysvetľovať i to, prečo nedokážeme myslieť „ako“ (to robia) stroje.

na to, ako mozog funguje, je zázrak, že sa nám skôr podarilo obísť princíp jeho fungovania, a skôr vyvinúť stroje, kalkulačky a počítače, ako (skôr) prísť na to, ako/akým spôsobom, „rôsol“ v našej lebke dokáže vôbec niečo; a vôbec, niečo („“), ako tieto stroje - vymyslieť a zostrojiť. Za všetkým stojí (len) myšlienka.

+No čo stojí (za (ňou)), tvorí(,) myšlienku? netuším; možno to ani nechcem vedieť. len preto, aby ~tu~ ostalo niečo(...) zaujímavé(bo).

Ak budeme vedieť „všetko“, čo nám potom ostane? Plakať?

Možno je ^to všetko strata času. Možno (pochybujem) preto svet tak „chladne“. Reductio ad absurdum - zredukovala naše city na záchvaty, „fity (angl. „fits“)“ serotonínu a dopamínu. Vedieť =/= (!=, !==) rozumieť.

Môžeme vedieť veľa a nerozumieť ničomu. A tiež, môžeme rozumieť, no nevedieť. napr.) (e.g.) „Láska“. Môžeme ju „rozobrať“ (dekonštruovať) na chémiu - no nič to nezmení - nemá cenu bojovať voči princípu; ohranenom/ohraničenom (len) nami stanovenými protiváhami...

*AGORA ROAD TRAVELOGUE - OCTOBER <I.>: "CYCLES" / 9/10/23, 12:46AM
Mom is operating on way of "if I got no evidence you are making things up", she tries to care, but in our family this is just too over.
Can my body lie? Why I feel what I feel? Is it just skill issues? Even if, why is it so hard to start/get over!
Cursed cycle. Reminds me of no edu - no job Cycle. Same principle, - even, skill issue...
I thought this talk is over, but no; I can still write about this same theme. *So as of I ran out of ideas, I'd edit the header of this  (*and, tadaa, it is Blogpost now!)

AGORA ROAD TRAVELOGUE - OCTOBER <II.>: "faking feeling Fine" / 10/10/23, cca 0:45~1:05AM

 hello dear reader! here we go again, with my new blogpost, no.2, maybe even just 1 1/2!
today/-night, i want to talk about feeling of faking things(,) in your head. also could be wannabe called as (much term) "toxic positivity". but not only that!
other cases might be(:) feeling lost - so, creating to-be anchor, fixed point. so-to oversimplifying, generalizing things. you hate to do this, but dont know any other way! you know, feel that something is "off", smell funny(-bad). - but, only just to pinpoint to that!
~ hm. wrapping shit into staniol and pretending that; "it has to be this way!"; <art> second-guessing. also also also, pretending it has "to-be!", ignoring, blaming... but really; - you can only get away with hiding something only for so long ~ as the saying goes, <hm>
"dovtedy sa chodí s krčahom po vodu kým sa nerozbije/ucho neutrhne". (-) you can only pretend so many ways so much to fake-cope, until it will start to(?) make you feel guilty. and you start to feel like shit. and (to) forget. and (i)dk why... and you start to get used to it/that. "when/why?" but all there "is" is(,) that(:); one era of life you was happy - and another, you hate *it*, but you (start) to relate much(,) to "aftergifted; iam14andthisisdeep (and) miss 2000s, 2009"s. "*just*" development!?
one day, you blink, and wake up as someone totally new. once happy and then, as one of those "failed" teens... <flaw in society?> /
~ you just fake; so to not bother. maybe you want to cry, to tell... but there is no place    no time; no reason. ~ you'll grow apathic. if no one why me - if not me why (then) others do... /
fake, as a shortcut. it takes too long to figure out the feeling u r feeling? try faking "fine (good)!" state! /s* ~ and you want to blame, and cry and scream - but it seems so pointless, futile, frustrating, annoying, takes time    energy... <"this_is_fine"_meme.jpeg> you want people to actually see, but (you) are(?) afraid, but so too(,) await, to just implode, like some supernova in(to) one giant fit of rage
    (*dont do that! dont supress things-emotions!)
- like kaiju, or berserk beast, and or, an evangelion (unit) ...

#male, fem feelz XD?

12.11.2023 17:19:38 - Kitty Burrito? (Agora - NOV-II)

i like to write. just like that. this is a shitpost. because it is the (for) sake of it. it feels good and bad. it makes no sense. it is all i hate; and love. i just wanted (to). this should have a theme wouldnt it. i feel bad. ive been played on. futures that never came to be. glorious post-2000s, 2010s, where we... lived, and shit happened. it only get worse. instead of GVC „idealism", corporate neoliberal surrealism that looked good, became cyberpunk. do, or be banished. obey, or question your morale and sanity, reality.

are you here with me? lets hold hands, cry, demise and curse. lets *** with me. do you need me? what about others, do the need you? what are you to them those? and why, why you think that? have you ever knew anything for sure, no doubts? it feels like Smashing (whatever) Patriarchy was just switch-a(n)d-bait to get you on hook. the net that dont forget and forgive. instead of net to wrap as close as „kitty burrito", it became...

what it became? finding the words! it, it, it - net of lies. of false smiles. smiles so familiar - fake smiles, those always there, present since forever - those, amplified! instead of kitty burrito, it was abused. no fighting patriarchy (whatever it means), no questioning authority or sanity - it, the authorities, stole it. kitty burrito became dome that reflects all of the toxicity humanity want to get rit of themselves. the greenhouse effect - only mental one. instead of positivity and love, support;

it is easier to cry, vail and blame yourself, others - like this - this Effect, it cooks us, „let (him) us cook" alive. and oh yes. these fake smiles. everything is fine because you, me, we are, afraid. the old „good" ways feels, „are" safer that anything new. stockholm syndrome of sorts. do you hear? the Mark. F for Fisher. press F. press those Fuckers outta consensus. when good is questioned and evil is normalized, all we can hope for is, to be proven wrong.

but how we can ever know if we ignore things? because it is easier, easier than to face consequences, truth, than to admit... we are not special, we are not „new generation". people simple cant outsmart themselves. only to heal. it takes ages, generations. to take the bitter pill - to get out of your ways. to get out of your ass. to... to help. but if you fake it? it feels bad. but if it dont hurt anyone , anyone else, and if it even helps them - then let it be. you suffered enough, so why would others too?

you can dream of revenge. but what out of it? hurting is easy. but to admit you are not special, not messiah, not angel - that you dont have to dance around eggshells to make others, and on alone some Globalists who predicted everything wrong - to prove them you are afraid, controlable, able to be lied to... this is not protest. this is listening to yourself. this is, to make - do, return to senses! „i said so!", so they [say]. but what they are, your mother!? (no! if you see bad - listen your conscience) 

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POSTS (2) BEING PART OF AGORA TRAVELOGUE

" social studies in STEM?" (Opinion)

When did "education for the sake of it"

(Deluze and Frankfurt School; https://canadianpatriot.org/2022/11...d-the-rise-of-the-predictive-modelling-mafia/)

became popular, a "thing to do"?! it pisses me off! Also - that "thing" with "social impact!" (fakers...) , since when began "antisocial egoistic autists" (generalizing every name in the book) being a problem?! I remember if then I don't lie, how skills being honed first before anything ( no matter the f*ck of s*** "the provider" of them was) - since when is this "different"!? (Teamwork? collab? sot skills? social life? no-need to fight with others (rat-race mentality)? Master over Self - to be go-getter? No longer Pavlovian conditioning, sugar&whip??)

Is this some thing with Facebook , or and other Big Media, i.e. in the name - e.g. too, PayPal Mafia "crooks"? Genial-but-psycho - therefore, mid-2010s ( or does it started to cook in the mid-90s; earlier?) started to play by the different book - you don't want to have to be genius-only , and you have to be decent person, " not some" geek-NEET-no-soft-skills-know-it-all-snob!!?

I am actually mad as fuck nobody told us; this was dirty play! Don't Go near me...

NEXT: AFRAID TO LIVE - written, ˘ planned

NEXT: WE DONT NEED WORKERS, WE NEED FAMILY(TM)

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#2 "Afraid to live"...

(same date)

everyone knows that, cca 2009, life begins to be s***. few (4-year (net)) eras , we can say, flipped on its head - victims fight back and if they didn't told you so you'd be convinced that those would they fight against should yell louder, as they, it seems, get hurt more. /smug

But, as it is past 2009, or; 2016, no one can be sure on s***. Also, reminds me of "whig history"?

(* basically you try to compare eras gone to the modern times, but without any context*)

• *Ah god, how I miss mid-2000s...* It surely feels like the more the world, worlds of our differences collide, the more we lost - *simply, the magic of unknown is gone* - everything everywhere get the same, and the bigger the merger , the worse ( again) damage...

• *More we know, more precise and scientific will we get - the more there is to cry for childhood of awe. love was love, tech was precious, friends were everything, life was fun...*

• is it just childhood Nostalgia , or we just blackpill and circlejerk each other in misery - how's the week are all lost nowadays, " back to sun"; waiting for the hero?

• (We) Wanted to be "so adult"...

I was so snob that I ever pushed everyone and everything away just to... Be "edgy"... Aquarius idiot! Afraid to be like every shit kid, I was a snob and posh... If someone had save me back then, from myself! Now I miss "(G)olden Days" I almost didn't have.

"So important" (snobbish), so afraid to be dumb, make mistakes, the bond, (to) "saaame"...

to Live!

agora-blog III.: WE DONT NEED WORKERS, WE NEED FAMILY(TM): "Jobs vs. "what is this all even for!" " (doomerism, technocracy, titles, "skills"...) - 6/12/23, cca 7:04pm agora time

Sign of toxic work culture - when boss want more than the job makes off as bare minimum.

You might have noticed the trend where people warn each other to do bare minimum the job ask for.

It is, really, nothing difficult, that kind of thing (only with twist) was already described by Good soldier Svejk.

Just tiny addition of blatant over-literal behavior to all that. Without, it is just "what for!"-ism - alpha and omega of doomerism...

People, and younger genz mainly, got it all over themselves - "if you cant win, why to ever try!", sarcastic façade of "i hate Antichrist;" "1769 - the "Industrial Revolution" incident (Trollge) by mOWEN the lawn", and many copy-cats of basically "World is fucked (and Boomers are to blame)".

Ah yes, blame... Waiting for hero... Story old as time itself...

It feels very disheartening, but what would YOU do in their place? Game seems to be rigged from the start. And stories of "Just grow a pair", "Pain will teach you", and other trauma excuses dont help. The most repeated one is "I just entered building or just frolicked thru street, guy say "dont want job?", shook his hand, looked in the eyes, - and get the job". You want to change it all, you want to blame others - but you are "so over" - what to ever fight for. World is changed, mamon rule them all, there is just lies and you either "die a hero, or live long enough to became villain", basically...

Add subscription hell to all that, no direction for life, no goal ("everything is subjective and futile anyways")... but that really gets us to the next post...

- similar themes: Some_porcupine:

View: https://www.reddit.com/r/neoliberal/comments/18bnscv/have_we_transitioned_to_a_vibesbased_economy/

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View: https://www.reddit.com/r/decadeology/comments/18blful/people_are_already_romanticizing_the_2010s/

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cookies, pipelines and ego-traps of [/gen] echo-chambers

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Unordered Society- A culture that is no longer in the hands of the creatives

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Society is Artificial Due to Feedback Loops Created by Unwitting Marketers

  forum.agoraroad.com

The Normalization of SJWs and its Effects on Western Culture

  forum.agoraroad.com

20/56 (57), 23/12/23

"Yes you No" ideologies exceptionalism, merging many groupthinks "for better" , accounted-for(,) stances, than to rather be left alone - unwilling, "z núdze cnosť", pragmatism:

snarkly speaking, the "I seen... (Prepare to die.)" speech (forgot that one i seen on twitter), but i got from it was - the contrdictions one can cope with, to (id repeat myself) not be "left alone" in the identity politics "representation" you see (wrong types one), - you see, the things (among others) Disney and R.T.D (Doctor Who writer) are doing. And too, making history "whig";

"History" that was in the past unheard of, that could never have had happened, just couldnt; the fantasy of , and that too, - white (majority) people who "dont get" the struggles , who werent there...

Taking history outside its own making, context, off time... 

https://lainlolcow.blogspot.com/2023/12/on-web-revival.html - @https://forum.AR.com/index.php?profile-posts/28012/, 0,45, 1/1/24 

4/1/24, 4/16, Beware the "Aquarius"

(Agora road traveloque Query)

I tend to repeat myself nowadays in these blogs.

My mind is one big broken record. Even these first sentences aren't what I wanted to tell (you). But you, as my avid readers, are totally used and oblivious to this at this point; if I am pretty sure. Let's go to the point!

You see, I've been through some things through my life. Little Shit-Life Syndrome... Parents from past; (2) centuries it seems, sister that is better "man" I am, "pussy father"(*) (own shit); me being shit and not (being) to the point, (me) having slow/long uptaking at clues,

 - being "edgy" as way to cope with not being seen by peers and vice versa, - plus, afraid to be average. Life and school starts. Jobs and etcetera. Experiences full of misunderstandings; And, me being a doormat, - Goody two shoes... (See?! I whine already...!)

Can (and did) indeed one go crazy... You know these - Pro Russian conspirators and Trumpsters... - e.g., [MEDIA=twitter]1742638166996111377[/MEDIA]

View: https://twitter.com/HonzaPalicka/status/1742638166996111377

. But me on the other hand, don't believe anyone and anything; as they do believe Opposition, for purpose to be "Special", "Right!"...

(*) No male role models. Mother, sister "could", but as they are (as if) great at this, it is more of principles thing; woman brain "just" works in different way than male one. No fights, "no balls", no "need for blood"...

/ Where are those kiddie days where I was able to be happy? No. I am just waiting, I "can't" play if there are no means, no ends to win. (# in my Asuka era.) At... anything! Cyberpunk technocrats don't allow any room for free will... (Where to hide?)

// And I just want to! Make myself this kid again, - who felt last time: - being too stuck-up, nosey, arrogant, " important", "too good" for others... Lost/head in clouds; "aftergifted"... - e.g. https://twitter.com/search?q=aftergifted&src=typed_query

*now* - 17/1/24, 1:29 PM - "Trends, social media, reality" > Part of Agora Travelogue

Trends i keep seeing:

citing from Decadology r/ sub, asking about "why (r) 2010 bad", you can see what people think (but beware, it is still >reddit after all, so there is no real guarantee this is Reality) :

• [MEDIA=>redditcostanzayeahrightsmirk]decadeology/comments/1970qks/comment/khyesqn[/MEDIA]

does *these* (similar ones) feel fake, or is it just me?

While i get *you* (and many *such cases/posts),  felt, feel the same - then, why do you lose hope ffs, if you literally said we "were made to be broken"! i am tired of types like you (and myself for lying to me than i am Different...), who can only type such things but when it is "about to cut a bread" (slovak proverb, idk the english version), you just passive-aggressively wait for asteroid, purge, hell incarnate or befallt of society... if you want it, do it!

but again, i get you; sadly.

you may be afraid that if you wish, then it will get good for a while, and then go topsy-turvy and backfires. well, you are not any Master (in high castle), to not be influenced by your actions, wishes... as they say, "way to hell is paved with/by good intendations"...

/ snarkiness, helplessness, complaining, hate, (unneeded hostility) (*1), aggressivity, mistrust about everyone and everything...

are we afraid of each other? or tired, of everything, of people, of... "facade" we see, feel from everything; that "it stands on water/sand"??!!...

(*1) https://forum.agoraroad.com/index.php?threads/being-able-to-use-a-computer-mouse-is-not-considered-standard-knowledge-in-education.4818/post-49698 (take this as example) -

- but i dont still know what caused this change in mood... >

i call it, this vibe, lifestyle, attitude "Let them cook", by the way it presents itself - twitteroos and some tumbl(e)rinas "existing" in this state of (their) reality - when someone "deserves" something (bad), but problem being, it is just minuscule, or grandiously mistaken/inflatted problem, and most of the time, those "problems" are not real! there are just basically Philosophical questions, wannabe stated as "friend of a friend" type situation/simulation. again, these can happen, but could be, most are - misunderstood. and revenge is never good. why to revenge, if they dont understand/dont feel/dont know... it is wasting energy on what you cant change anyways!

> what we lost, and who "got me", who share this same "memory"... (of future that is now lost)

(click on link/username under =this= message)

and (regarding to nerdture, changes and education cca...)

Nail on the head with these two sentences. Every gripe I've ever had with fandoms condenses into this, and it's the reason I believe some level of gatekeeping is necessary in online cultures. There are total normalfags out there who assume they hold esoteric knowledge of the Star Wars universe just because they understood a reference to it on The Big Bang Theory. There are people who only ever play AAA games and never played something from before their own time, yet assume they know everything about gaming because they played le nerdy Skyrim. It's that kind of attitude that gave Starfield the "most innovative gameplay" Steam award; not because Bethesda paid anyone, but because gaming has spread to a mainstream culture that doesn't actually understand the medium. -  https://forum.agoraroad.com/index.php?threads/fandoms-and-nerd-culture.6357/post-97882 ([USER=6626]@GENOSAD[/USER])

0/36, 15/2/24 -  Agora Travelogue

On creativity

I always liked art.  Making it too.

It is inheritent value of people-kind -  Without it, world would be empty, meaningless  for us.  There would be no one there to awe over it, but animals...

But all I can do is simple, and then, very short instrumental tones, jingles.  And even those repeat.

I want something more; always wanted.  But it is hard.  What is it worth?  I did poetry too.  Too, got fed up (by/) with it.   All so repetitive. -

When I look at it, all the "Love" category (e.g.) of poems and stories -   how does not those others got fed up, gave up and never wrote up (no/-)anything?    Or is it that they are not at their sane mind;  And too, spill up   what is to be in the future - a "garbage"?   Those types of  "Chick flick" lit.   Or, (one of the) the most  Imfamous case(s), "My immortal"... (Or the hate 50 Shades of Grey get...)

You see,    so-bad-it-is-good is  genre on its own...  Should I just not care, and "post" anyway?  Well, you never know if you are a Champion of lo-list (/s;  They say)...  Impostor syndrome?

Or is it that it makes no mark - that  I want to make (mark) in the world? Well,  everyone wants to (for once)  be famous,  change world -  but little amount of people, then, forget about celebs and their problems - Suffering from success...(?)

I just like...  What you guys (on Agora, creators) do.    I always had it (this, creative spurt) in me...  It is just that,  If everyone is poster, creator -  then everyone has a chance... (Art elitism, barrier for entry there was before... *)  and the sieve is too big for its own good -  if everyone is,  then, who isn't?  It... starts to exclude itself from the "authors", Da Vincis...(*)

I get no idea.  It feels like everything has been already done...  Anything good and bad, that is...

(Is it) Same with me, - as when  I think about(...) jobs -   Why to lie, if then it is (like) No (more) Me (there)  anymore?...

I said nothing at all, yet text is only so full.  Is it made from plastic,  polystyrene words, ffs?  (LOL;  It's  so full - about nothing, innit...)

It (this idea, theme of this post...) is like  fight bet Is.ween Desire (I want)  and Intuition (It feels (for me) bad/good).  It's intuition, tho, just patterns-seeking?  And if we got our Models (patterns) wrong? - (<  Maybe for the next blog post)

Anyways...  How do we "know"  Who "are we"(?) ...

Is there anything new to do, try - or is it just that we can go only so far as humanbin(l)d...? (/ Oversaturation to starvation.)

/*this was like 3rd try to post blog no. 2 on feb24 so rather be good*/*this is how i feel...*/*just imaginations; nothing of this is probably real?*/

0/45, 23/2/24; "Postmoderna" (Agora Road Travelogue 2, Feb24)

Cim viac toho vieme, tym len viac slovami vieme ospravedlnit nase spravanie. Su vsak toto limity poznania? Nic viac od zivota, ak je vase IQ, a mozno aj EQ, v "priemere"?

Ale ludia zili aj horsie! Lenze vzdelanie bolo vtedy dlho drzane v uzadi a za hradbami, murmi. Ale nemohli predsa uz vtedy sedliaci mysliet, ked je nam to take vlastne? Ak mali vacsie starosti, pravdepodobne nemali cas na filozofovanie - az snad na nejaky druh Stoicizmu; mozno...

Mysliet bolo dojakziva vyssou triedou, ak sa nim zaoberali ti z nizsej, opovrhovane, zatracovane; zatajovane, zakazovane a nemravne/podryte - nechceli prijst o svoju moc/kontrolu, vyhody.

Az pri asi Francuzskej revolucii, ludia uz mali dost vyfintenych, bestarostnych, lepsie oblecenych a povrchnych ludi, co "zjedli vsetku mudrost sveta". A toto sa doteraz nijako nezmenilo (triedny boj). Akurat ti hore si teraz myslia, ze nas mozu ovladat vseljakymi moznymi sposobmi - strach, ignoracia a potom zrada, rozne navnady a pasce, sluby... Moj "oblubeny" je, ked zmiesaju dokopy dve volby a vyjde z toho blbost

>    https://forum.agoraroad.com/index.php?media/1700389458762-png.25270/full    (*blbe EU zakony nariadenia a ciele, navrhy).

Namiesto cukru a bica, je to teror luxusu, pohodlia a zvyku(**). Priamociarost (WEF, ESG, Green Deal*) EU, ale aj Agendy a veci, ktore by sa v Unii uhlia a ocele pokladali za miesanie sa do veci, do ktorych ich nic nie je (miss you, 2005s EU...). Taktiez, strata Alternativy - "Pocuvaj, alebo zhor", ziaden priestor pre diskusiu... Propagenda, zvyk** - Vsetko alebo nic; zmena vyznamu (;#)

>    [MEDIA=tumblr]did=f70e9497215d673c18ca6401370188d76bc147ec;id=742217281137000448;key=8tm8-Mu8q_EOWg1Cfu3GGA;name=nutzo0001[/MEDIA]

View: https://www.tumblr.com/nutzo0001/742217281137000448

* (Ludia uz su znechuteni tym, ako EU; byrokrati zavadzaju. Vravia jedno a urobia to, ale tym takym Svejkovskym sposobom...) Dnes si nepresla ani (Dohoda) Ozona vrstva, nie to GD. Ak by boli 90., 00., mozno... Uz je trochu neskoro menit veci. Ked je teraz kazdy "reporter", uz sa nic co sa uverejni, neda ututlat...

#/ monopolizacia  - napr.) terajsie Farmarske protesty proti (ne-)hospodareniu EU , ako aj boli civilizovane a civilne, boli "ukradnute" pro-ruskymi zivlami, ktore su proti-EU (obe skupiny kritizuju EU, ale jedny chcu rozhovor a "rozum"/informovat EU(*), druhi chcu zvrat a rozpad EU "diktatury"***); alebo podobne - ked Antifa, Furries chcu byt v Lavici/Left-wing alebo LGBT+ klube, ale ti slusnejsi a menej priebojni (90. typy) to povazuju za hrubost a hanbu. (Horko-tazko ich akceptuju "z nudze cnost")...

*** "Zelene strechy sposobuju, ze sa meni pocasie, pretoze trava sa musi naucit na novu vysku panelaku.", "Mal som radsej ked v potravinach este boli bakterie, teraz je vsetko take bez chuti a sterilne!" /s (etc.)

(pic-rels: (I hate neoliberalism, fuck 1971) : https://forum.agoraroad.com/index.php?media/albums/lost-future-post-occupy-nonsense-world-boring-dystopia.39/)

AGORA ROAD TRAVELOGUE, MARCH I.

0/27, 6/3/24

Who are "You"?

If you will excuse me, I'd rather write in my mother tongue, Slovak.

I have one simple reason for that too - when I write in English,

bad thoughts are more frequent, than when I do so in Slovak

(or, at least, not such horrible or reoccuring ones).

/

Nuz, teda k veci. Ako titul napoveda, "Kto (Ty; Ja) si/som?".

Pisem toto preto, lebo ma trapi obsesia dnesnej hlavne mlad(s)ej generacie,

triedit a kategorizovat, zaradovat sa a - nalepkovat (label) sa.

No namiesto toho, aby bol clovek (druhymi) nalepkovany, co je dnes skor

barbarska a zastarala urazka; jedinec sa uz takto nalepkuje sam.

Dnes (jednej z mnohych) veci tito mladi hovoria gender (rozviniem).

A myslim si, ze si ho mylia skor s naladou (mood, vibe) alebo estetikou;

ba nazorom* (vlastny (nikdy) nie je; len rekombinacie), nez z toho robit celu

osobnost (-..-)**. (Starsie gen. to robievali tiez, no politikou sa to stalo,

az ked zacali s tym suhlasit viaceri).

* /ak chces respekt, nezadon on. Rob to (/klise), cim si ho vybudujes, zasluzis.

*, ** /kludne nech je to aj cela osobnost - len nebud privilegovany hulvat

(Antifa a Fasisti - "horseshoe theory"...)

Dnes sa mi vsak zda, ze je skor v mode nesuhlasit, odporovat si, robit prieky,

byt nezaraditelny ("edgy") -

No napriek tomu, zas a znova si odporovat (tvorit paradoxy) v tom, ze "tento"

jedinec, vyuziva *tieto* preddefinovane skrupule, pilulky (-pills), "nalepky";

Pouzivat nieco, lebo to neznasas? Nie (/pochabe!); clovek sa moze nalepkovat

sebou samym; no opovrhuje, *zranuje* to nalepkovanie druhymi...

/Nie je to, ze ich neznasaju - je to skor ako so slovami - nikdy to nie je

perfektne, 100%-ne vyobrazenie prezivania, ale len skica, nacrt (nasej) vlastnej,

vnutornej skutocnosti...

-***-

(Ne)vyhodou tychto nalepiek, piluliek a idelogii, genderov(,) je to, ze vyznam

tychto zoznamov, knih, farieb, oblecenia, postoja a sebadefinicie, identifikacie etc.,

sa moze kedykolvek, kymkolvek, a akokolvek zmenit.

Napriklad *teraz* som rarazil na jeden "take", postoj, v ktorom autor na Tumblre

(cim je aj nechvalne znamy - divnymi, edgy a nazormi, ktore su na hrane sucasnej

spolocnosti; a co by sa dalo nazvat "narcisizmom"...*, ****) a tvrdi, ze princip, akym

sa snazime vedecky kvantifikovat svet, realitu a nase chapanie, vnimanie - meni sa

aj (ale naozaj?) postoj k dusevnym stavom (porucham, chorobam?), vyobrazuje

(kecy? nie?) nazory, definicie (z) minulosti a sucasnosti - z pohladu "chemie mozgu"

(alebo, liecba vs. prijatie). - https://www.tumblr.com/nutzo0001/

742217281137000448?source=embed#notes-742217281137000448

Alebo si zoberme ku prikladu, ako sa taktiez estetiky a trebars aj "pilulky" (-pills) menili

- je rozdiel medzi cyber a retro, "dobrou" lit. a hudbou v minulosti, a pred 10, 20, 30...

rokmi... "Redpill" sa tiez casom menil...

Ma teda, v tomto neustale sa meniacom svete, vyznam nalepkovat sa? Jedneho dna,

v buducnosti, narazite na nieco mozno aj z vasej vlastnej, minulosti; a pomyslite si

"Hej, toto uplne zmenilo casom zmysel a vyznam!" Uz vlastne teraz, ak ste z tych

pozornejsich, ste si mohli vsimnut, ako ludia pomaly, ale isto, neveria (su unaveni***)

napr. enviro ("recyklujte, zachranite svet!"~), spolocenskymi ("praca je vykoristovanie!";

zbytocna, falosna... ****)("prec so sprepitným!" - skor v U.S., ako jediny ich plat...),

(randenie - napr. novy nazov, demisexualita, a ako metrosexualita sla do uzadia/normalu);

kulturnym (v minulosti by sa ludia nastvali pre "GamerGate *blbosti*~~..."), hodnotam,

podtony, stanoviskam...

~ / https://knowyourmeme.com/photos/1892095-webcomics

~~/ https://forum.agoraroad.com/index.php?threads/do-you-believe-the-wind-down

-of-social-media-and-the-end-times-of-the-internet-are-a-coordinated-effort.6503

/post-102437

!/ Teda - prirovnat osobnost, sebaurcenie, k Elonovmu (ne)slavnemu Tweetu/Xeetu o pol.

polarizacii?!... (/~~) (https://www.thenewcivilrightsmovement.com/wp-content/uploads

/2022/04/musk-tweet.jpg) -

- Ak sa svet nezastavi, preco si ublizovat - kazdy ma nazory, no nic nezarucuju!!! -

-- Definicie a moresy sa menia - a aj obrazy na realitu - teda, mame sa vobec snazit?!

Je to ako v "1984", ale ak si to robime pomocou zlych akterov sami~~~; ze ich pocuvame -

-- skladatelov vyznamu ("Manufacturing consent; BNW" /***) - prestanme? (ich pocuvat!) -

-- Nechajme ich hladovat!

/Neopisatelny hnev

~~~/ picrel: https://forum.agoraroad.com/index.php?media/1700389458762-png.25270/

2/24, 20/3/24 · POV: Agora je miesto(,) kde sa ludia chodia vyplakat · Agora Road Travelogue, Mar. II '24

ak(o) ste si mohli vsimnut, poslednu dobu (ale asi klamem; 6/23 - doteraz) sa toto (Agora) miesto, "utocisko odpadlikov", stava coraz viac podobne 4chanu, ani nie tak Redditu ako Twitteru (Xeetu), a nie celkom kulture, ale ponimaniu upvotov (>reddit, (x)-overflow)...

zacina prevazovat stádová, redditovska, azda az tumblerovska bublina. ako? - tato Bublina, za sebou "zanechava" mastny flak v podobe "pachute" po (cca) tzv. Singularite, ba circlejerku - Honikruhu; - Polarizacii...

Ludia sa *sem* chodia vyplakat. "Novinka", ze? /s. Ked uz nemozete povedat hocico (rip internet 2000-2008). [chcel som prelinkovat kazdu vetu s kazdou, ale aj tak to budete citat cele takze hadam pochopite nuance a suvislosti vsetkeho so vsetkym]

mozeme sa nazdavat, ze tento jav je (vseobecne) pre skupiny (/b) tak typicky, ako je pre politikov (hlavne v case volieb) pouzivanie Slippery Slope - Smyklavky. Jednoducho: Date im prst (sancu, nadej, pozornost) a oni Vam budu chciet zobrat celu ruku (Overtonovo okno - alebo ba "po novom, redefinovanom" definicia Dialektiky)... - E.g.) "pedofilia je typ sexuality", "veda je novodobe nabozenstvo, dogma", ci "je zbytocne triedit odpad/smeti"...

/ "Novinari" (medialne nadnarodne spolocnosti) "zistili (o "vyskume")" to, co aj chceli "dokazat" (co im prikazali "vydedukovat", strasit, nakazat/"spracovat"...!).

netreba sa nad polarizaciou Agory ani nejako hlboko zamyslat. Vacsina registrovanych sem prisla z 4chanu, fringe videi a prostredia, - ako su osobe neocities stranky, /x/-board, konspiracie a alt zaujmy. Unik pred realitou a "web 3.0".

"Posledna bašta slobodneho, neobmedzeneho nazoru a rozhovoru". Necudo potom, ze su vsetky nazory, ktore (sme; tu) kedy videli, su len prezivane, zauzivane, zauzivane, predžuté, dopredu predostrete ako "fakty", "jedina mozna realita, skutocnost"...

sem, kde sen neumrel a namiesto downvotu, mozete /s radsej pokazit (ale kazi to dojem o Vas) vlakno a zmenit ho na Shitpost, Hovnoplagatenie - kde hadky a "výjtky", žabomyšie (pol.) vojny nemaju konca-kraja. (Nemam rychlo priklad. To si aj tak musite zazit na vlastnej kozi. ) [/ pre toto fóra upadli (boli shadowbanned googlom) do zabudnutia... /? ]

preto je Teoria mrtveho (zombie) internetu (D.I.T.) taka pritazliva - ak uz ste na internete "nejaky ten piatok" (min. AD 2008s) a zazili ste youtube predtym ako ho Google a spolu s celym webom/internetom "zneutralizovali/vykastrovali" mega-monopoly, - viete...; a mladsi o tom poculi uz tiez (inak by ich tu uz tolko nebolo) [e.g. https://archive.is/https://twitter.com/MintaReturns/status/1672081890759819264], - "ake to bolo kedysi (skvele)" ("World wi(l)de we(b)st")

polarizacia a negativita (/ psy-opy tuto vlastnost Grup ((b) neviem najst to meme - "timfoil", "rozklad skupiny, fandomu newbies-mi") zneuzivaju.) prichdzaju, ked namiesto inovacie a novych, neobohratych nazorov (len!) "stale ocakavate (status quo? ; ) nove robenim dookola toho stareho a isteho" (ako to Einstein povedal...)

maybe this is shit, but let me see (now when i reread this how i write it up from paper - it is kinda Machiavellian, even if i am not sure, never read anything from him, only know the broad sense of the(m) noun...)

1/4/24, 0/45 Agora travelogue, April I.

=Internet: Between Owning and Renting=

Or, "Packet(Light)switching and Clickbait"/life for rent

you make web. do you own it? do you rent it? what are the Terms? and isnt this similar to real life? ah yes. dont let me (get) started on "Overlords (Neofeudals)", buying out physical media... "renting is the king!" as if they said... (bleh, vile!)(a)

it is, internet. and real life too. you own, or rent, or both. (/a >) it starts with homes and ends with (TV) Cable, phone "Stuff"; ends with internet and wifi box - router... you rent then - your "Place/Platz" on the IP map, among other/-s things. IPv4 or v6, you are "in"; your "Block", (even with) number too...

Terms apply. but what can be done, if there are, rather bad "Easter eggs" (when we have Easter now, in Western Church...)? as i said; those Overlords from earlier - how we "let that slide" - the Cabalists (TINC) to get (so) normalized - as the rent (physical; home), hypo or PPC, P2W are too?!

is this what we wanted; or there really wasnt any Other option that to [agree] on Reaganite Neoliberalism - so (in past) wanted - and so exploitable (that was the plan?)?!

"Too many cooks...", differences, soc. values and types... man to man wolf? / but is there other way?! ah, those darn (Frutiger) Aero promises! (i'd hate those too, if they were ever *realized*, i am sure...) / for there are always ulterior motives, e.g.

- promises are only good if you dont know the reason why they are (not) even *realized*... (b)

(/b) "we got you what you wanted, it would be now nice if you [paid back; for "progress"; this luxury..."]...

therefore: "suck *the means* up, the [future once promised] finally arrived/came (to be)!" (/b; /a)

.

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ref.:

View: https://twitter.com/MKatorin/status/1678641211362488322

View: https://x.com/MKatorin/status/1678642611911897088?s=20

View: https://x.com/Mean_n_Pervy/status/1678704948689682432?s=20 

1/02, 2/5/2

Agora road travelogue - May, I.

Non-critical Critizeurs

i must not to be the only one to notice this. i think it was pinpointed, critiziced many times before - any, but mainly place, forum - about nostalgia, will get in the circlejerk rut. "past was better", and yeah, dont beat around the Bush (Jr., Sr. ?)...

it is right to criticize bs that doesnt work; or, to clinge (then) for that reason too(,) onto images (figments) (real, promises, fiction, alt-history) of the past...

yeah... neoliberalism "kumbayah" failed(*) and so did hope, prices, and whig historiography...

- past was both objectively and subj-y better. problem, i noticed, is those types of media - blogs, posts, videos etc., in (overplayed) format, "now and (vs.) then". the most insipid shit yould ever see - past, which is, without any reason whatsoever, never negative and always better than modern times, which are portrayed by those accounts as rotten, degenerate and as (are) "murderers"(/*) for fact we "let capitalism happen/win!" yeah... (*smug, sarcasm*) babe-babe; (living in own universe)

you cant remember things (promises) 6 months prior, fail for the same traps (var. free, action, bonus lies, - instead of pinpointing etc. greed or lies, monopoly...), still for "gifts, (or) miracles" (...) and expect, from your tumblr-millennial-betterperson-ivorytower club (membership), that white-cishead-tyrannical-man-raper (your words) will vote for your (ehm, unwilled-agreed) friends from Left (or not: ) (Merkel (lol, as-if!), Obama 2008 (if we knew...!)) and Leftpol (Marx, Deleuze, Nietsche-types)

- when, in fact, closest you two (your cishead) would ever meet, would be extreme racist right-wing twitter meme posteur tweet, and alt-polcom com section, with no value... instead that you both want to call on bs journobros say - but then, either of you wouldnt read that slop... you both evenly blame (so i hope, if so you can(t) think for yourselves...) bad actors, but you two (groups) are too cmofortable to call others idiots (left-vs-center (etc)-vs-right war), than reality of neighter's is really present and-(n)or represented (both are being lied to, and bare minimum done is enough for ones (winners now) to be happy...

you dont criticize one another, nor listen or really talk (w.e.o.) - it is just goalpost war, mere proxies, reprezts of... the simplest impulses - it is comparable to the Invisible hand of the Market, really...

you dont listen, hear, understand. no dialogue. no way out...

we got (so) used to this, Globalization is just another mask , always was - control, simplification, gentrification, making up new narratives, needs it is. to blame and then to solve - really, technocratically... ants' hill, but we can "reason", if we then, didnt made up that excuse, to "not be (so "cruel" (as-if it is the right term...)) (like) animals", too...

and i, (al)so unwillingly, say - kings, feuds were right. keeping things, power to themselves, (gatekeeping) was, is, right and beneficial. or if so - (retarded) globalization endgoal is, perhaps, to destroy privacy, (our) free will and hack into our brains, dreams and needs. desires (yay, cyberpunk! so sexy, so cool, so... controlable!)(?)

and too, then, "to acept it", as it was "always going to end up like this, it was plan, we said you so, you cant fight *winners* (of history)!"... - but even (if) so, that makes it no way the reality - or you want to tell me, accept me, us, that , end me up to say, "you will agive up privacy for security?", wouldnt you...?!

you disgust me -and Feds with WEFers got you (your head)!!!

* past can be good, but now-vs-then comparisons take all modern stuff as bad... (and lead to leftypol breadtube or tatebros)...

(side ideas) not to forgot (i got too much out of hand, way):

you criticize people and groups? so funny, so easy, so first-plan! but wrong take, bozo!

why you ever do that?! you are, like, brainwashed, or something? feds paid you, didnt they, ...!?!

you got no mind of your own, you need "opinions"!!?! (no a-priori, no science interest, no will to discover "why"?...!)

boo-hoo, youd got knot in your brain, wont you?!? waste of time and energy - if you then say "all is fake" (tumblr, breadtube, blusky... style), how is it not (just) that, so is so that idea/thought, jeniwus!??!?

"no free will", huh!? so, no Glowies playing tricks on you (thru breadtube manip.)?! ...Really...?! (dont say!!!) (/cyn, you pick - do i tell truth, or i mean this ironically? what did i just say, cuh?...)

june travelogue - TA(L)KING FOR GRANTED - 0/25, 30/5/24 (vol. i)

got idea - maybe it was daydream - about this very topic... i(t) was thinking out of nowhere - maybe i am idiot, or just censoring myself... because now, - bolts on my head - but i mean, wasnt this (except for data grab and so...), the reason why internet on which [we are] here, but to discuss [taboo]s!? now when, let me start, - we can argue later (in comments)! here here!

what got me prompted, was idea - "men feel weak/useless - and so does/seems Manking contra ["Rotten apples"]!"

"Rotten apples", in quotes; had no better comparison, naming, and it quite fits [the reasons]. it, to me, points to [this; problem]; where, - to say - we are more omfortable, it is easier - to [throw away] rotten apples - than to take care of main issue, - our luxury and comfort, - that it is to [eat it] on the right time; to not forget (to care about ourselves too...) - and to not "miss forest for the trees", to say... (**)

to "Men feel weak" - it is an nod to all Rogan, Tate and Peterson broskis Manosphere, who [slurp from] use inceldom, - turning desperation, basic needs (compassion /***) and call for help, into weapon. (prime example of) Rotten apples. - it is easier to militarize vulnerable ones with propaganda cheap promises and "tricks", than to admit, "yes, 90s were Woman decade never to be left alone; we (men) are sorry that when you are man, then all you do, is to be taken for granted (on that basis alone; when women turn "men", manhood, on basis of purpose, starts to lack behind...), no matter how left alone and unheard; maybe even silenced, you might feel!" (tl;dr: "to be born = to owe <pardon>")

and other things we take for granted (dont worry, this is not cry-to post) :

- politics and edu being slow on internet! (good or bad) - we have it good still (aside*)

- food, (good) parents, drinkable water, home, internet; free press and speech (aside*)

- air; that we had childhood, document(aries), sci (tech) progress (good and bad)

- that we still can (aside*) choose...!

- num. other stuff, like Planet, sun, that we are able to talk, walk, make/speak up our minds (aside*), breathe...!

*/aside:

technocrats, SocEng invol. projects (guilt, blame, psych. tricks...), i.e. Voting until "cake" is gone - switch-n-bait tactic, vote themes (corrupt) "merges" (bleh)

Rotten apples, (tentative name) once again! (aside*)

this very problem I, and others (I) heard have... - if we want for "things to get easier", you dont, cant, at any circumstances, give in to {those} "Guru"s! (it) breaks my heart - we cant agree on Jesus, but there goes (>) steve jobs, bill gates, wannabe ms. holmes, oprah or pewdiepie - then, only then, all people go crazy!!??

priorities, guys (neutr.), priorities! i cant believe my eyes and ears... "my asi fakt umrieme na krasu", as we say here...

"AI Scare" wont mean anything, if you can see behind the ruse, the red herring. the scary thing isnt that "Ai will make itself body", but that we are enablers (/***), that we are more tool (and fool) that it is, to us; we are comfortable, predictable; useful idiots for another [this; fake] "Savior" (/>) of-type FAANGS... *Journobros and "scientists say"ers, with Breadtube, arent helping this "cause" either...

problem isnt IQ, but EQ (world (people) becoming controlable, "cold") and Adaptability. they Elitists (think of ivy league, silicon valley garage, paypal mafia-types) want us dependant, broke, desperate ("broken window", but this type it is fallacy, but marketing (think of cheap melting glue "made to be broken", end of waranty, cheap, fast and mass-produced products made in way that even people from those companies are leaving for bullshit (cyberpunk) market practices...)) and willing to accept (/**) "the next big thing", for 30th time in the row...

it really is battlegrounds (royale) - trapped between (these) Journobros, wishful thoughts (of dead idealism past), reason and sensibility - truly, fight as old as Higher cognitive functions...

and so is (old) this (Ad) Annoyance Tactic - You accept [it], because (of others; ***; - Ridicule Tactic) you want it to "Make it stop(, whatever! 2+2= 4,... 5...!) !" <1984, Torture scene> (/ Plus, wary - bad ad, too ad...)

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you make me worry of you (kona) ... i get you, but i mean, you make it extreme, and do you want me to do something, or?

like, what can we do, this is the luxury question that bothers me, we (well...) in slovakia live by "it dont matter i am living horrible, the main thing is the others have it worse", and lying, stealing (see our current coalition), like, it is not honest life, and idk if i can compensate the fact by those who want slovakia to be next germany, yet you see, every country has its shit, nothing is black and white, what i hate is this grey of it, the uncertainty, "buffyism" as (you?) say...

https://matthewnorthproject.org/ - They Can't Kill The Truth

but as they say, even broken clock shows the right time twice a day - no one is right or wrong, and that there are no more facts bothers me. pro-russians tend to say "nothing is real, all of them is lying", eurobros (they sometimes mean it good, but cant live without neoliberal fantasy that NAFO will inherit world or something - more they hate "american way", they more agree, admit the technocracy....) - there is third wing too, but those are silent minority (maybe it is us here), who dont listen to neither... (some things below may be what i believe in, and so do my "twitter circle")

not all of >reddit and twitter and maybe tumblr too is brainrotten, they are just not heard good among the ads and shills and porn

there are still reasonable people, - but i thought you are one of them, and it made me scared how far you go with your ideas. there are bad, unpopular, popular, and good ideas. your posts make me think of village crazie...

you might be right, but those who have intuition know (that this is how it ends, "accepting unacceptable" - saw it so many times) and who dont know, those would stay uninterested, unphased until they already "accepted" it...

also, this "simplification of thought"...

like... that tactic goes as far as post-9/11 fear, words that franklin said are scaring feds away. i mean, if yo cant speak in terms of 0s and 1s, you are dangerous. the china system

thats why Mulan or Marvel (disney) after End Game went so retarded - no way, no means to form complex thoughts, images - or if theyd be able, theyd connect two and two together, that it is all about money, power, influence, so that nothing than family/community really matters...

we cant talk, unite for common goal... even "common sense" is unknown term by now (what has world come to) - you dont simply do the things from sex and city... not because they are amoral (that too), but because they are impossible, inflated, fictional, they are sex fantasy ffs! (more people need to know about "suspension of disbelief", i see that thing everywhere!)

10/6/24, 0/38-39

Agora road travelogue - June, vol. II

=Common Sense in Norma(l)cy Redefin(ed)ition=

this is your another Cult.changes.../Lost futures/Promised neverland (the last one isnt that eponymous anime) type post.

"Common" is, when, well, majority of [e.g. people, animals, ...] have/share things in general, and this thing, behaviour etc. comes to them naturally.

if that is good or bad, is to each owns' definition and decision. also, Overton, and other, similar shifts (windows), play remarkable role in those. - for example, this post itself - is about nothing much, but easily stating the obvious.

many such cases (of this) too; in culture...

it is "like rice cakes" - puffed air, held by godless annoyance...

information(s), or, the most lesser form of fun, of entertainment, - empty calories, or as if eating broccolli - mouth is busy, tongue may suffer, and stomach? dont ask, it is (to me) as if eating, if not same, the before-said puffed air...

im talking about nothing right now - and no one learnt anything; im just keeping you busy, (reader -) annoyed, entertained...

but if you are used to such; to quick fun, this post is, well sadly, just (or no?) for you...

if and is this, common nowadays, also therte with grifters and sell-outs...; then, someone whove never much changed (for better or worse), might (t)he(y) only and notice -, how others have give-in; to the(se) New Normal(s) - "so is everyone else (/are others too) spied on", with and similar state(s)(of society)ments... (ouch)

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Eden said:

my personal feelings regarding quality and "cherishment of the reader" keep me from blogging for purely the sake of meeting a quota, or posting for the act in itself.

Same... I am dry. My thoughts run in rut, 90% of my blogs are same ideas until drop/death...

This month I wrote nothing, here or neither (anywhere) else. I hit the ceiling, and so I did thought last month of June, and I think that was the last one.

Maybe I am that bad and lazy for I'd may use this very response as blogpost of its own, to say why i ended to write. In similar vein to few of June and maybe posts before, being born this/that way; writing my rant (99% of my blogs are) from response, is best i can now do, so did i before.

I find this quite therapeutic, but I hate it it has to be this way. It goes against my principles, but, what are those, when world changes. One time you are on top, and others, you question and go crazy you stood in, to watch ridicule became forgotten, then next normalized (from hippies, to NAFObros/wannapeacers; on ehivh side you stand - what history will do of it)...

/one post, puke on me <3