My spiritual journey is complex, raw, and evolving. I am deeply introspective, constantly wrestling with questions of faith, doubt, suffering, and meaning.
I often describe myself as having an agnostic heart, yet I feel undeniably drawn to the presence, mystery, and power of God—especially through the Holy Spirit. That phrase, “Agnostic Heart, Holy Spirit Fire,” captures the tension within me: a mind that doubts, a soul that still burns.
I long to believe, even when there’s no divine confirmation. I want to live as if God is real, even when I’m not always sure He is.
I’ve become disillusioned by the hypocrisy I’ve seen in organized religion, but I still find myself engaging deeply with scripture, biblical ideas, and spiritual questions. I’m not religious in the traditional sense—but I’m not cynical either. There’s still hope in me, reverence, and a deep openness to something beyond myself.
Spiritually, I walk a middle path—a survivor’s path. I question God. I challenge Him. But I also invite Him in. I cry out to Him. Sometimes, I even find myself defending His possibility in a world drowning in pain.
In the end, I know I’m a seeker. Not defined by labels, but shaped by experience. Not blinded by doctrine, but willing to wrestle with the divine—even if it leaves me limping, like Jacob.
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My Top 3 Post-Baccalaureate Pre-Medical programs in a 200-mile radius starting with closest to Queensbury NY, 12804 outwards.
1. Russell Sage College – Troy, NY (~45 miles)
Offers a Post-Baccalaureate Certificate in Pre-Medical Studies tailored for career changers or those needing to enhance their science coursework.
Benefits include small class sizes, individualized advising, and support for MCAT/GRE preparation.
Graduates have been accepted into various medical schools, including Albany Medical College and SUNY Upstate Medical University.
2. University of Vermont – Burlington, VT (~85 miles)
Provides a flexible Post-Baccalaureate Pre-Medical Program suitable for various health professions. The curriculum includes courses in biology, chemistry, physics, and mathematics, with personalized advising to meet individual goals.
3. Elmira College – Elmira, NY (~180 miles)
Offers a customizable Post-Baccalaureate Pre-Medical Program with courses in core sciences and electives. Features small class sizes, dedicated faculty support, and a pre-med advisor. Students meeting certain criteria may be eligible for an interview with Lake Erie College of Osteopathic Medicine (LECOM).
Post-Baccalaureate Pre-Medical programs in a 200-mile radius starting with closest to Queensbury NY, 12804 outwards.
ChatGPT said: Here are Post-Baccalaureate Pre-Medical programs within approximately 200 miles of Queensbury, NY (ZIP 12804), organized from closest to farthest:
1. Russell Sage College – Troy, NY (~45 miles)
Offers a Post-Baccalaureate Certificate in Pre-Medical Studies tailored for career changers or those needing to enhance their science coursework.
Benefits include small class sizes, individualized advising, and support for MCAT/GRE preparation.
Graduates have been accepted into various medical schools, including Albany Medical College and SUNY Upstate Medical University. Fordham University+2Teen Vogue+2Russell Sage College+2Fordham University+6Russell Sage College+6Associated Medical Schools of New York+6
2. University of Vermont – Burlington, VT (~85 miles)
Provides a flexible Post-Baccalaureate Pre-Medical Program suitable for various health professions. The curriculum includes courses in biology, chemistry, physics, and mathematics, with personalized advising to meet individual goals.
3. Elmira College – Elmira, NY (~180 miles)
Offers a customizable Post-Baccalaureate Pre-Medical Program with courses in core sciences and electives. Features small class sizes, dedicated faculty support, and a pre-med advisor. Students meeting certain criteria may be eligible for an interview with Lake Erie College of Osteopathic Medicine (LECOM). Kean University+6elmira.edu+6UVM Continuing Education+6Caldwell University+5elmira.edu+5elmira.edu+5
4. Fordham University – Bronx, NY (~180 miles)
The Post-Baccalaureate Pre-Medical/Pre-Health Program is designed for career changers and working professionals, offering evening and weekend classes. Students receive personalized advising and may be eligible for a committee letter of recommendation. Kean University+3Fordham University+3Caldwell University+3
5. Kean University – Union, NJ (~190 miles)
Provides a Post-Baccalaureate Pre-Health Program with various tracks, including Pre-Medical. The program includes upper-level science courses, academic advising, and opportunities for research and leadership. Kean University+1Jacobs School of Medicine+1
6. Long Island University – Brooklyn, NY (~190 miles)
Offers a tailored Post-Baccalaureate Pre-Medical Program with one-on-one guidance. Students can fulfill pre-professional science requirements for various health professions. Associated Medical Schools of New York+3Long Island University+3Kean University+3
7. Caldwell University – Caldwell, NJ (~190 miles)
Features a Pre-Medical Post-Baccalaureate Certificate Program with personalized advising, flexible scheduling, and support for medical school applications. Caldwell University
8. SUNY Old Westbury – Old Westbury, NY (~190 miles)
Offers an unstructured Post-Baccalaureate Pre-Health Professions Studies program. Students can enroll as non-matriculated students to complete necessary coursework, with support from the Health Professions Advisory Committee. SUNY Old Westbury
9. Elms College – Chicopee, MA (~190 miles)
Provides a Post-Baccalaureate Pre-Medical Program with a strong track record of graduates accepted into various medical schools. Elms College
10. University at Buffalo – Buffalo, NY (~250 miles)
Hosts the AMSNY/JSMBS Post-Baccalaureate Program aimed at underrepresented and disadvantaged students. The program offers a tuition-free, individualized curriculum with a provisional acceptance to medical school upon successful completion. Jacobs School of Medicine+1Associated Medical Schools of New York+1
These programs vary in structure, flexibility, and support services. It's advisable to contact each institution directly to learn more about their offerings and determine which program best aligns with your goals.
It’s been a rough week — I’ve been grappling with some health issues that triggered a bit of an existential spiral. Highs and lows, waves of depression, questioning everything… My blood pressure even spiked to 170 at one point. It’s been hard to feel calm or grounded. Sometimes it feels impossible to relax or calm down.
It wasn't all bad though I delve into a bunch of creative projects that I love. I played a lot of piano, and learned a few complex new songs I really enjoy and have been meaning to learn... I did a lot of artwork. And I did a lot of great writing. All of which I am proud of, sadly, no one might ever see any of it or get to enjoy it like I do. I've been struggling with the existential concept of the existence of love. In an attempt to understand life and it's meaning and purpose — trying to make sense of this life, my insane brain and where I stand in it all.
I hope that passion shines through—and maybe, just maybe, someone out there will find something beautiful (or at least entertaining!) in my efforts.
After all, some people actually love imperfect singers.
🙏 Thank you for being here.
May God bless you on your journey, wherever it may lead.
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