From that moment, the innocence of my childhood was shattered. I carried the weight of that secret and her threat for years. I couldn’t trust her, and the relationship I had with both of my parents deteriorated. Our family life was in pieces. I felt like a ghost in my own home—unseen, unloved, and abandoned emotionally. As I grew into my teenage years, I began to act out. I looked for ways to escape the pain I felt inside. I found myself turning to wild parties and bad company, losing myself in reckless behavior. The bitterness I felt toward my mother, and even my father for not knowing the truth, consumed me. I was angry with the world, and I felt completely alone, But even in my darkest moments, God never left me. At the time, I didn’t know that or realize it, but He was watching over me, waiting for the right moment to break through the walls I had built around my heart. That moment came when I was at my lowest—when I felt that there was no one left who truly cared for me.
One day through a youth ministry called kids alive where Jesus found me, I experienced God’s presence. I can’t explain it in words, but I felt a warmth, a love, and a presence that I had never felt before. It was as if God was wrapping me in His arms, telling me that I was loved, that I had worth, and that my life had a purpose beyond the pain I had endured. At that moment, I realized that God had been with me all along. He had seen my tears, heard my cries, and He was ready to heal the wounds I had carried for so long. Through prayer and the support of people God placed in my life, I began to heal. I let go of the bitterness that had poisoned my heart for so many years. God helped me to forgive my parents, especially my mother. It wasn’t easy, and it didn’t happen overnight, but His love was stronger than the pain. In time, I was able to truly forgive her, and that forgiveness set me free.
Today, I am a different man. God has given me a new purpose and direction. I am a father to my wonderful son, Caleb, and every day I strive to be the kind of father I never had. I want to give him the love, care, and support that I missed growing up. I want him to know that he is cherished and that he has a father who will always be there for him, no matter what.
God didn’t just bless me with a son—He also blessed me with an incredible woman, the most beautiful soul I have ever known. She has been my rock, my partner, and the love of my life. Together, we have built a family that is rooted in forgiveness, faith and the most important God’s love as the center of our lives. I am so grateful and blessed for her and for the family that God has put us together. If there’s one thing I’ve learned through all of this, it’s that no matter how deep the pain, no matter how broken you feel, God’s love is greater. He can take the most shattered life and make it whole again. I am living proof of that. He found me in my brokenness, He healed my heart, and He gave me a new life filled with love, purpose, and hope. For that, I will always be thankful by praising my faithful and loving God forever and ever, Amen.