When you jump from a plane...
There are some things in life your rational mind finds difficult to fathom - taking a chunk of your savings when you are jobless to jump out of a plane - crazy?
Maybe we humans are meant sometimes for wilderness. It has been a while since this wish of you surfaced in your heart. All the time your rational mind silenced you thinking it was impossible. Still for months and months you kept saving, hoping one day you will make it.
Present day. Dubai. A clear day. You arrived 45 minutes early to your scheduled slot time. The doors of the skydive office were closed.
You decide to take a walk around. You are mesmerized with the Dubai skyline. You spot a truck parked on the side. You joked to yourself that you would be taken in that truck to your take-off site.
At the exact time of your slot, the booking officers opened the office doors. A throng of people got in. You were mesmerized seeing so many skydiving enthusiasts. You stood in the queue to go to the counter. They checked your weight and placed a band with your name on your hand. You were given a buzzer which will beep when your turn will come.
You waited upstairs with the buzzer. After a while, the buzzer beeped. The child in you got so excited that you were almost gliding the stairs down. You were asked to wait for your instructor and videographer. Your instructor called out your name. He is so warm and kind that you feel so humbled. He put on the harnesses for you and gave you instructions on how to bend your body while skydiving. Then the photographer asked you a few questions and Voilà, your turn came up to board the plane.
You were led to that same pickup truck (you laughed out loud inside seeing your guess becoming correct). You were taken to the take-off runway. And you board the plane.
The plane took you higher and higher. You could see the Palm Jumeirah down. You see the Skydive team opening up the doors. And the reality hits you that you are about to jump tandem with your instructor. The instructor ties you with a harness to him and puts goggles for you. You feel like you are a baby snugly wrapped in the baby carrier. The instructor asks you multiple times if you are all okay. You excitedly give the okay sign. The instructors and videographers all give fist bumps to each other. When your turn comes up, your videographer jumps first after getting the signal from your instructor. He flew like he was a piece of paper crumbled and thrown at high speed. Your mouth opened widely in astonishment. Your instructor then jumps. You dive at such a speed that your brain does not process the present.
You forget the banana pose (lean backwards with the head and bend your legs) you are supposed to take in. You can feel the air pressure. You can feel like you have extra senses. And then the instructor taps your shoulders (signal that one can release one's hand from the harness and be free).
Your brain is still processing. You slowly wave to your videographer. At times you forget you are supposed to wave at him for great photos. You are way too immersed. Then your instructor deploys the parachute. You rise up at such speed that you feel to giggle. And then the parachute opens.
Peace. Serenity. Calmness. You feel so at the present moment. You are gliding like a bird in an upright position taking a good bird's eye view of the Palm, the mountains and the Dubai city. Time felt slow and you soaked each moment. You ask your instructor about how many years he has been in the skydiving profession. He replies thirty three years. You are awestruck. He slowly makes the descent letting you feel the view profoundly.
You expected your landing site to be different. But then you see your instructor taking you to the Skydive office. Wow! Again you feel awestruck. You were asked to bend your knees for the landing. The instructor makes you land. The videographer asks about your experience. You describe the calmness you felt at the end. You thank your instructor profusely. You also thank your videographer.
You slowly walked back to the office with a smile that was hard to remove. A smile that will stay with you. A smile that pats your back for following your heart.
When chance and choice intertwine
There are moments in one's life where one is spellbound about the fickle nature of life - one wrong move (from chance's side or your side) and you wonder what could have happened.
This trip was more of a heart's calling. You decided to hear it and went for a one-day trip to Mussoorie far off from the place you work. As it was a sudden plan, you relied on Tatkal to get a confirmed berth from Delhi to Dehradun.
The incident happened while you were returning from Dehradun to Delhi. The day before was of deep fog. Winding hairpin bends. With almost no visibility, reaching safely to your train station was a cat's whisker escape.
You reached your train station in Dehradun and got on your train to Delhi. You had to get down at the early morning wee hours (4:30 am). You usually wake up if you set your mind. This day was different. You were relaxed enough that you didn't mind if you didn't wake up on time.
And that happened. You wake up on time and the next thing you realize (you would have dozed off!) is the train leaving Delhi station - the one you had to get down. You confirm whether it was indeed Delhi railway station that the train passed. Your worst fear came true when the train staff confirmed it indeed.
You started weighing options: One as this is a high-speed train, to get down at any Delhi railway station if the train stops there for some signal. Get a cab from there to Delhi airport to catch your flight back. Second, get down at the next stop which is Mathura. You will miss your Delhi flight but then you can maybe plan an Agra trip. 'Oh, no! You stopped your heart from that idea. You cut short your trip to Mussoorie to one day as you didn't have time and now you are thinking of an Agra trip!', you rebuked yourself.
You hoped for the first option to happen. And thanks to chance, the right opportunity peeped in. Within three km from Delhi station, your train halts. Maybe waiting for some signal, you don't know. The reason won't matter anyway to your present that moment.
You get off your train. Dark, early morning wee hours. All you have is your mobile torch. It was a quick decision and you relied heavily on chance to be favorable. As you slowly traversed the small sharp pebbles on the trackside, you were steady in your mind, alert enough to weigh in options for your safety. At one point on a track near you, you heard a train roaring in speed. You kept walking with the feeble light of your torch. Your ears were sharp, your eyes were sharp, your brain was sharp. Your brain was processing the possible situations that can happen eager to act if it senses something wrong. At some points, the tracks crossed each other and you were forced to walk through them to move forward. You carefully navigated them. Your Google Maps was on to track your real-time location. As you kept walking you were wishing Google Maps had a 'Railway track' option so that you could navigate easily. But then at moments like these, when our survival instincts kick in, we forget to check the Maps. It is some intuitive mode in our brain that works then.
Now comes the main part. A waterbody approached and there was no other way except you walk through the track. There is no railing for protection too. If you fall sideways you are on water. If some high-speed train zooms on the track you are walking, again you will have to jump to the water.
Thankfully that was a small stretch. You looked back to see any signs of a train approaching. No signs. Good. You ran that stretch crossing the waterbody. Then you kept walking on the sides of the track again, sometimes middle between multiple tracks (you decided on which side to walk based on your present judgment). Now you can see some train parcel office on the side - a huge indicator that your station is near. You kept walking. And then you saw the station. That moment! You were brimming with a deep sense of gratitude for chance. Anything could have happened. But then it didn't. You also thanked yourself for your alertness once you were on the track and for those momentary quick decisions you had to make.
Moments like this evoke a profound grounded feeling, and your humility soars. How many things are not in our control and if one of the things that we take for granted goes wrong, our whole life path would be altered.
After catching your flight and reaching your destination, you are spellbound. Your mind rewinded to that stretch where you were forced to walk on the track on the sides of the water body. You kept thinking again: one wrong move from chance (of course for chance there is no right or wrong move, but relative to you, a wrong move, in that sense) or unknowingly from you, and you would perhaps not be here telling this story! Speechless and spellbound, you smiled with profound gratitude.
Hanging on the edge of a cord...
Oh, bungee jumping - what is it about you that you have this vivid memory!
You go in some sort of gypsy van climbing the mountain to the bungee jumping office. You are briefed. You smile with a grin 'Bring it on!'. You are then asked to do a small hike to the bungee platform. Alone and humming a tune, you walk to the bungee platform. The cantilevered platform is painted bright yellow making it easy to spot. You roll up your sleeves and get excited. The platform looks sheltered till the end (or is it?).
You look down and think 'Oh, this is easy, they should have made the platform even higher.' You excitedly don the safety gear. You remember the dive first principle that can make the jumping easier. You start to rehearse it in your mind. You are calm. Cheerful instructors are guiding you, engaging in pep talk. You smile widely. Waddling like a penguin due to the safety gear, you reach the end.
'Ohhhh...my!!!!', you exclaim as the sheltered platform gives way to an unsheltered protrusion. With no roof above your head, standing on the protruding edge of the cantilevered platform, your brain finally fathoms the reality. They tell you not to look down and you do it anyway (well, not to blame us, right!). Birds fly out of your head. An intense fear grips you screaming 'Are you crazy? What are you doing? Don't jump'. You are blank. Is there a word for intensely blank – you are that. There is no dive first principle now. You hear vaguely your instructor saying ‘One…’.
Everything fades and you jump (mind you, they don’t push you). Your body does not like the jump. It feels uncomfortable. And the bungee cord halts. Your worst fear comes into picture: ‘Is there something wrong with the cord? Will I come out alive?’ You feel so helpless and tied, unable to move. You feel your weight being taken up by one of your arms as you are hanging sideways. You decide to let go. You think it is okay if there is something wrong with the cord too.
A complete surrender. Time stood still for what felt like an eternity. Then the cord started doing some gymnastics, twisting and turning you. You are like ‘Damn, you were still just a moment ago!’. Then the cord started slowly moving down and you could see two people down lifting a long stick for you to hold on. You try to catch it. After a few attempts, you hold it and they bring you down. They make you lie down and give you water.
Your brain is like, 'What just happened?'. You are then asked to hike back the mountain to the office. They had some ‘Supergirl’ song bellowing from speakers tied to the mountain trees. You pretend it's your theme song (what is the harm, right?). As you hike above, you think ‘I am so glad I jumped!’. And now you have a wide grin, unlike the earlier sheepish grin, this one was a nod to the mental growth you just gained from those few intense minutes!