Weight - 19 stone 4 pounds
Where do I start? I finished my list, updated the website and then threw myself in at the deep end by posting it on facebook. Received some fantastic messages and a couple of people completed the form. Wow, i'm genuinely shocked. I am lucky to have people who care and think of me. This was never about massaging my ego and i'm not looking for pats on the back, just putting things out and hopefully it will not only help me but help others.
50 doesn't bother me, it is just a number. Things might have been different if I had made some different choices, but who is to say that other choices would of been for the better?
It has been a tough week, work was hard and i didn't get everything i wanted to do. Had a couple of low days where felt very anxious, a few things happened where people annoyed me at work due to various reasons which isn't for here. I find that very hard sometimes, people not caring about what they do but too quick to point the fingers at others. However I am lucky to have people that listen and do care, even if i am a moaning git sometimes.
Next Sunday i'm attempting to cycle around the Isle of Wight all for the name of charity. My training didn't go as planned, I struggled last week on my trip to Chichester and back. But i was ill prepared and didn't make good decisions, my outlook on the ride has changed slightly and i feel more positive about it. I can only do what i can. If it takes me hours then so be it.
This list and website has certainly helped me, who knew that talking about my thoughts even to a computer can help. I still feel that i'm just looking for attention doing this list/site. Well out of my comfort zone.
I have waffled on long enough now. Bye for now.
Weight - 19 stone 1 pound - 3 pounds lost last week
Firstly it was great to lose 3lbs as I didn't really put a massive effort in, but it worked so it might be the way forward!!!
Nothing off of my list so far. I was busy at work due to having time off work plus we had a charity event which i helped organise yesterday. For the 3rd year we have had a bike ride around the island, this year we added a 9 mile walk for those not keen on cycling. With little training i was looking forward to hte ride and felt good in the morning, fuelled up with pasta and plenty of water my preperations were better than ever on the day. First part was 8 miles with some tough hills (for me all hills are tough), i felt good and enjoying the ride. Unfortunately 9 miles in my hamstring went and i was in a bit of pain, decision was to carry on and see if everything would be ok or stop and see how i felt later. I stopped and that was the end of my cycling for the day (except a short distance). This morning my hamstring doesn't feel too bad but not right so i think the decision was the right one, even though i was and still am gutted that i didn't complete the whole ride. But, we have raised nearly £1900 for Daisy Chains IW. Over the past 3 years we have raised nearly £10000 for local charities which makes me feel good, and with a great bunch of people too.
With my time off i plan to tick off a few of my list and upload the photos. Not sure if anybody reads this, but if you do and can help me in any of the list then please contact me on my contact page.
Weight - No idea as my scales seem wrong.
Not sure what was wrong with my scales but they said i had either lost 6lbs or put 9lbs on depending where i weighed myself???
I've started ticking some items off of the list. Last week we went away to Devon for a few days, stayed in a lovely place with a hot tub which the boys took advantage of. The reason we went to Devon was that Louise had booked in her skydive for the Thursday. Our place was in the middle of nowhere so if we went anywhere we had to drive, on the Wednesday we got up late and wasn't sure what to do so we all picked a place to go and then picked out of a hat. I chose to go to a beach that had a waterfall, and this is what we did. The place was great with fantastic views, the tide was out so the boys went for a walk. Louise received an email to say that the dive had been cancelled due to weather, understandably she was gutted. To make up for no dive we decided on the next day to go for a drive to Bristol and maybe Cardiff, we missed Bristol and then went straight to Cardiff where I ticked 2 off of my list with a pint with Charlie and a Guinness in an irish bar. Not that impressed with the Guinness if i'm honest. After a walk around Cardiff we went to Barry Island as Will and Louise love Gavin & Stacey. Hopefully I don't bump into James Corden!!!!! Apparently they had just started filming but we didn't see anybody. Nice place but we ended up leaving earlier as it started to chuck it down.
Louise managed to arrange her dive for Friday, she booked onto a 7000 feet dive but in her craziness she went for the 15000 feet dive!!!! But she did it and enjoyed it too, we managed to be at the landing zone and i got a few decent pics which was fantastic.
This last week I have been struggling to sleep and wake up at silly time in the morning, dark clouds are back and i have struggled this week to cope with things. On Saturday I walked up to the Pepperpot to watch the sunrise, another tick off the list. Was surprised to see wild campers at the top. Saturday night we went to watch Jaws at the outdoor cinema, 4 off the list in a week.
Weight - No idea as my scales seem wrong.
A short one today. I was off work on annual leave last week and it was one of my toughest weeks to date. I struggled all week and didn't get out of bed for much of the week. We managed to spend a day in Portsmouth to see where Charlie is staying at University.
Weight - No idea, seems to go have gone by the by
It has been a while since i last posted. My list has sort of gone away from my thoughts. My depression has been very difficult the past month or so. I even didn't go into work one day due to not being able to get out of bed. I am a few sessions into therapy and hopefully that will help. I have gone out a couple of nights and drank too much, i need to control this so it doesn't get out of control. I'm going to try and get back onto the list as all the support and kind words i have received means i need to keep going.