It's okay to reach out for help. 

"Whether you’re facing mental health struggles, are in emotional distress, have alcohol or drug use concerns, or just need someone to talk to, 988’s counselors are available to you. Call or text the 988 Suicide and Crisis Lifeline, or text HOME to 741741. Talk to trained, caring counselors, 24/7/365. If you or a loved one is at imminent risk, please contact 911 and ask for a Crisis Intervention Team (CIT) officer."