Here are some poems I have written over the years.
Magpie on the Gallows by Bruegel
A river drifts
down the valley
in the summer air
magpies fly
to the tune of the breeze
the bagpiper plays
gloomly
the people walk
to the gallows
hand in hand
they sing and
dance
all the while
one magpie
enjoys the view
All around me is
the quiet calm of an
oyster egg shell sky.
It's easy to get lost
in the sea of green
chartreuse sea foam.
I set sail for the horizon,
only to find the trees
disappearing into a lilac haze.
The fog smothers me,
like grandmothers heavy quilt
in such a sea of green,
I am anchored by the peachy
rocks upon which to sit and stretch.
Olive and emerald interplay
to create a subtle shamrock
or perhaps it is parakeet
In this symphony of green
the colors escape
my simple description.
It reminds me of a memory
I never had
of a family vacation
to my grandparent’s
island in the grass.
With one final yawn
I wait for tomorrow’s morning
to see it all again
As we drag our gaze across the hill
we note the baldness of the land.
The few scattered trees that remain are
surrounded by modest hillside, dotted
with a collection of curious objects.
Our eyes may speculate they are
the trunks of trees left behind on
the hillside, the by product of
an ax’s slash or root’s rot.
The decayed fate of these trees
does not make one hopeful for
those who remain.
But even more strangely so
is the possibility these blemishes are simply artifacts
of the photo’s chemical nature, left behind
as the photographer leaves her mark
on the hillside.
The photo cracks.
Our two views fracture the photo
from its surroundings.
Its Saturday and I say “Let’s
go to the museum tomorrow”.
So we go downtown to escape
into the hustle and bustle of
the city. On the highway I see
the vast metropolitan space
creeps ominously near, as if I am
face to face with my own final frontier.
We arrive and its already difficult
to separate the art from its surroundings,
the mighty buildings overlooking the
lush park and shimmering lake
threaten to distract my entire trip.
Inside the museum all I have is
my thoughts, my notebook, my pen
and all the tourists around me.
A family with six red headed children
makes me feel at home.
The Pollock is buzzing in my mind.
I rush to make sure that it is still there
even though I can never remember how
it makes me feel I know it makes me
so much. I watch the Pollock and hope
it watches me back. Before lunch O’Keefe
shows me the sky and I gaze out into
Millenium Park through Chagall's windows.
The Banquet by Rene Magritte
As the day extends into
something before night,
an urn with a plant long dead
sits alone. A bruised red fills
the afternoon like an ache deep
in the muscles, filet mignon
extra rare. The guests
never came but the evening
was never about them.
The meal was delicious,
the kind of meal that
sits in your stomach
like the smoldering sun
below the horizon
lingering like a friend
who doesn't know when
to leave. A collection of
poplars darken the lawn
while the ache persists.
On many of my walks back from the library during cold January nights I would often stop at botany pond before bed. I liked to clear my head by sitting next to the water and attempting to ignore the wind and cold. It was always futile but I always felt rewarded by my attempts, as if one day I would be able to just sit and enjoy the pond in all weather. There was a fish I sometimes fed bread to. It was a large orange koi who lived in the northern corner. I never gave him a name but we had a good rapport, I sat by the pond and he swam in circles of various sizes. One day towards the end of a particularly cold week I sat down at the pond and noticed my fish was swimming in unusually small circles. He was likely stuck in a small pocket of water and the rest had frozen around him. I immediately laughed, how absurd for a fish to be stuck in a tiny pocket of water with nothing to do but swim in a lazy circle. I wished my fish luck in his predicament and went to bed. The next few weeks I would come back and chuckle when I would sit next to botany pond and ponder the fish and the crisp cold air of the night.
I had grown rather fond of this fish and liked to think I could confide in it. I felt a strange comfort in its absurd existence. About a week later when I went to check on my fish that night, I saw that he was still moving but now only wiggling back and forth. It seemed his pocket of water had shrunk. I laughed more still. Now he was forced to wiggle back and forth in this tiny bubble but seemed to not mind. He merely just kept swimming-just kept wiggling.
Until one day on a particularly distressing night at the Regenstein I came to the pond hoping for some solace in my nightly ritual but I came upon the distressing discovery that my fish was no longer moving. I did not know if he was hibernating or frozen or simply dead. I was sent into a panic. Had I really derived some sort of pleasure or comfort from watching a fish freeze to death over 2 months? I did not have much time to think about the topic; the next day it snowed and frosted over the ice of botany pond. I could no longer see anything below the surface of the ice and had no idea the fate of my fish.
When spring came not a single fish had survived the winter.
Defintion:
Let the Koi Automota be the simplest automota which can experience happiness.
A logician and a mathematician were crossing the quad to the math building
The logician said, "See how the automota compute and iterate: that is their happiness."
The mathematician replied "Since you are not an automota how do you know what makes automota happy?"
The logician said "Since you are not I, how can you possibly know that I do not know what makes automota happy?"
The mathematician argued, "If I, not being you, cannot know what you know, it follows that you, not being an automota, cannot know what they know. The argument is sound!"
The logician said, "Wait a minute! let us get back to the original question. what you asked me was 'How do you know what makes automota happy?' But in asking this you already knew that I know it. I know the joy of the automoton though my own joy, as I walk along the quad."