Spoilers: Meridian
Rating: U
Pairing: Daniel/Other
Summary: Daniel's thoughts
If Tomorrow Never Comes, Lyrics by Kent Blazy, Garth Brooks
Dedicated to my dear friend Mac, with much thanks and a large supply of anti nausea tablets *VBG*
If Tomorrow Never Comes
Toni is already in bed, she tried to stay awake for me; she had been reading. The small table light is still on, but her book fell to the floor when she drifted off. I pick it up and place the bookmark in the open page; hopefully it landed in the right place when it dropped. Now I regret that I stayed working late at the SGC, but the negotiations tomorrow are very important. Sam is very excited about the new discovery, Naquadriah.
I head to the bathroom, then undress quickly and climb into bed beside Toni.
Sometimes late at night
I lie awake and watch her sleeping
She's lost in peaceful dreams
Toni's dark hair is spread over the pillow, I stroke it gently, I love running my fingers through the soft locks. She looks so peaceful asleep, her eyelids flicking slightly as she dreams. She doesn't always remember her dreams, and when she does they are weird mixes of her day, people and places confused. Though how either of our minds make sense of the stuff we're seen, travelling through the Stargate.
So I turn out the lights and lay there in the dark
And the thought crosses my mind
If I never wake up in the morning
Would she ever doubt the way I feel
About her in my heart
We were friends first, colleagues but I always knew Toni was special. I can hear her soft breathing, as I lie staring at the ceiling. I know she loves me, loved me so much that she tried to leave the SGC rather than have to sit and worry when I was a mission. But we talked it though; decided the risk was worth it. Does she doubt me though, should I give up the Stargate for her? Sometimes I could. We could go away to a remote dig somewhere, just the two of us and doing what we love to do best.
If tomorrow never comes
Will she know how much I loved her
Did I try in every way to show her every day
That she's my only one
And if my time on earth were through
And she must face the world without me
Is the love I gave her in the past
Gonna be enough to last
If tomorrow never comes
I hope the ring is the right size, I hope she likes it, as soon as this mission is finished, I'm going to do the whole down on bended knee thing. I wonder if she will want a big wedding? I don't care as long as she is at my side, and Jack is the best man, it could be in an Elvis wedding chapel in Vegas. Though explaining that custom to Teal'c could be fun.
I suppress a chuckle not wanting to wake Toni.
The nature of our job means most of our friends, are members of Stargate Command, maybe Hammond would allow a ceremony in the gateroom, we do have a base chaplain after all.
And then a baby, or two…maybe there's even one on the way right now, we've practised enough and not always been careful. A son, I can take to the park…no a daughter who's as beautiful as her mother.
'Cause I've lost loved ones in my life
Who never knew how much I loved them
Now I live with the regret
That my true feelings for them never were revealed
The Damn Goa'uld have stolen so much from me Sha're, Robert, Sarah, Kawalsky and been responsible for so much pain and suffering. And my parents, Nick wherever he is now…no mustn't dwell, I have a future to think of now.
So I made a promise to myself
To say each day how much she means to me
And avoid that circumstance
Where there's no second chance to tell her how I feel
I kiss Toni's forehead and whisper; "I love you"
So, tell that someone that you love
Just what you're thinking of
If tomorrow never comes
Sometimes I want to shake Jack, tell him to go to Sam and take her in his arms and see if the feelings they have for each other could be something. They both acknowledge there could be more but put their duty to the Airforce and the SGC first. But I saw the pain in Sam's eyes when Jack was lost on Edora and a similar one in Jack's when Sam was taken over by the entity.
I turn over and snuggle into the pillow, time for some sleep before I return to Kelona in the morning and another meeting with Jonas.
© Katana 2002