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It has been quite a tumultous period over the last few weeks in my life owing to multiple reasons.

My family has lot of doctors and before the second wave started, they would get calls for beds and would respond in the most positive way. But, these days, they are at a loss. They don't know what to respond to the caller. Recently, an entire family, which is part of our extended family contracted covid, but alas arranging a bed was impossible.

I get multiple calls & messages on a daily basis for oxygen, plasma and bed. I help out as much as possible through my contacts or from the info i receive from others. But, these days, it has become difficult to help out. Sometimes i feel like, i am draining out.

In the first wave, everything was numbers. Only when my grandmother fell ill, did it hit closer to home. Luckily, she recovered after an intense battle. But now, the numbers are becoming more concerning. Two weeks ago, i got a message over whatsapp from my primary school friend that his brother passed away. The brother was my best friend in primary school. It has been years since we spoke but, the news sent me on a memory trip. I became a bit distressed. Next week, one more school friend passed away and two days later, his mother. It has been a similar story on a regular basis from then on.

Recently a friend of my mine calls up from USA and says that the virus is a huge conspiracy created by the medical system, especially the pharma companies. He advises others to not wear mask and be bindass. I rarely felt so angry and blasted that guy. Not sure, if he ever will speak to me again. I hope he never contracts the virus and goes through the ordeal.

I have always been a very positive person in my life. Whatever comes up, i face it, cry (if required) & smile. But, this time, it has been different. It has been very difficult to smile again. Waves and waves of desperation everywhere and so little that i can do to help. Sometimes, speaking to others is supposed to help. But, not always will the person you want to speak to, will be available. One of the things i learnt through my experience is that, whenever i feel desperate, just jot it down and share. I am doing exactly that, right now. So, if u r reading this, u r welcome to ignore / offer opinions.

Whatever is happening, has again made me question about my role in this tide of humanity. There is a very good chance (as per the past records) that we will overcome this and get back to our normal life. But, what lessons do we take from this? What is it that we can do to better ourselves and the people around us. Many of us donate money and food to various organizations in such difficult times. Is that enough? Is there something more that we can do? Lots of questions that i need to find answers for.