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WHAT MY AOSTUCY WORLD
FEELS LIKE
IN AN IMPERFECT WORLD
Hi, my name is Kristina Lombardi. I am the Class of 2017 from Ellsworth High School and I am also the Class of 2016 from HCTC. I have always lived in Ellsworth all of my life. There are many reasons to be happy to help my city of Ellsworth. For one thing, I love seeing my teachers in stores, but that's not all. I also love helping people find things in random stores that I don't work in. (It happens sometimes, mostly by mistake and not by choice, but I would choose to help anyways....) I have depression and in 2013, I tried to take my life. I'm better now, but I'm still recovering, bit by bit, over the years. I want to sell jewelry and make YouTube videos. I love the idea of working for causes. I read TEA newspaper from time to time and I love reading about people doing crimes. Don't get me wrong, here. Crimes are wrong, but why I love read about it is because I get information for making new YouTube videos. I get ideas for new views. I want to address Maine.gov problems on the Ellsworth Area level. That's what I love besides retail. I love webmastering. I love making videos, making audio files and editing photos. I have OCD, ADD, GAD, mild depression and mild Autism, but I am smart and I am worth having a job. I really love helping people and I can't ever dream of not helping people!
On the right of this page, are some pictures of what I looked like in high school. The last photo is of my "YouTube Star" - Edword Mobby, my cat. He is a Tuxedo cat. He has yellow eyes with a hint of green and some fall-colored-veins kind of look in the eyes. The vet thinks Edword Mobby was born in March of 2003. In 2019, he turned 16 years old. If you asked him, "Have you been fed, Ed," he'll say "Me-no". If you next asked him, "Ed, are you hungry," he'll nod his head or shake his head "yes."
I hope you enjoy this page on the site. This area is more of random questions and whatnot that might not fit for somewhere else but yet could be a good resource of some sort. I really hope I am able to help people in my sleep by making this information open to the public. I really love helping people and there is nothing better I could do with my life than to help you with anything you need help with that I can help with.
Here are some of my skills:
Strong Work Ethic; Positive Attitude; Problem Solving; Windows XP; Windows Vista; Windows 7; Windows 10; Windows 11; Mac; iOS; Samsung Smartphones; Webmastering; I.T. / Computer Guru "Non-Coder"; Rebranding; Retail Skills (5 months from 2018; 2 years from Walmart -- 9/30/19 to 10/28/21); Emotional Intelligence; Empathy; Wise; Insightful; Reflective; Smart; Breeding worms (Earthworms, Nightcrawlers, and Mealworms).
What my disabilities / life experience has taught me:
That life isn't fair
That life is what you make it
Not everyone understands how disabilities work so that's why people act "funny" - even grownups
I can express myself and be understood better than some other people
I have better Emotional Intelligence than most from Ellsworth High School
I'm more reflective
I'm stronger than I used to be
I'm braver than I was in the past
I care more about other walks of life (i.e. drug addicts)
I'm better at figuring out stuff that's hurting me in my life and how to take care of it
That's a #drug more than a mouthwash, really. I don't use it anymore. I don't want to be crazy again. I used it when I was in middle school. I used other things in high school. After high school, I used Bic Wite-Out and I was breathing it in. I needed a social worker or something.
I don't want people to think of me as a bad person, and sometimes I worry too much about that. I just want to live my life to the fullest -- and I believe that it possible!
I used to sniff nail polish (any brand) and Bic Wite-Out (see picture on far right). After I gave it up, my side effect of seeing blue dots went away. And my breathing has improved. Since I don't have to worry about blue dots or having a hard time breathing deeply, I don't have as much anxiety that seems to have no connection to anything.
I wish I could be in Bangor and Ellsworth a lot more. Ellsworth is great but I need something more to get everything I could get out of this life. I'm a blogger and I hope, I just hope that blogging by me matters to someone that isn't me. What am I talking about? Am I talking too much? Do I think clearly? Am I gonna be clean in 2019? Can Walmart Hero save me? Well, I don't let me lose. I hope I will never give up on Walmart. I want to give them a chance. I hope you can understand just how very much I could kill an ant or move the dirt into the wind just to work for Walmart. I want to work for #1932. And I just can't give up that dream now. If I could have it my way, I'd work at #1932, learn how to drive a Subaru car, and live in Bangor (04401) in a small home. But, if I got EMSM to be a real studio in Ellsworth on top of that, I'd have even more reasons to stay on YouTube, keep on webmastering, and more of the fight against drugs. Do you know the junk in my mind? If I'm daydreaming, it's not just ADD/OCD, it's me fighting against junk no one fully will ever understand. I think I'd kill something just to remove the damage done if I could. And if I could remove the feeling, I think I would, even though, I'd miss it. Well, maybe. I wonder about that. I really do. I think about everything. I think too much.
I don't really like making this page, like I do, but I don't. It's hard to explain. I want to help people, but this page could make it harder to get a job. Ugh. I have some goals for 2019:
Working for Walmart
Encourage people
UPDATE: I was able to meet all of those goals :)
James 4:1-3 New International Version (NIV)
James 4:1-3 New International Version (NIV)
Submit Yourselves to God
Submit Yourselves to God
4 What causes fights and quarrels among you? Don’t they come from your desires that battle within you? 2 You desire but do not have, so you kill. You covet but you cannot get what you want, so you quarrel and fight. You do not have because you do not ask God. 3 When you ask, you do not receive, because you ask with wrong motives, that you may spend what you get on your pleasures.
Skipping meals is really bad when you do it every week or close to daily
Lack of sleep day after day without end is really bad
Cutting the skin is addicting
Life is good, but not everything is good though
Just because they sell it, don't mean it really all that safe or useful
Anything can be used as a drug, nowadays
The color of your #1 and #2 (pee/poop) is gross, but it gives you information about how your taking care of yourself (like maybe you need to eat more grains and nuts or maybe you need to drink more water than you drink tea).
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