New roads ahead...?

Like I mentioned before...Certain responses towards you can/may/will be similar to the one my Scottish downstairs neighbour had towards me last summer...

It's basically all the same...the ‘dark’ does not like much the light....Everything that is beyond its comprehension and control it basically hates...as it knows/senses the high vibes will force the ‘dark’, or low vibes to perish and change, into high vibes...Change freaks the hell outta them...so their behaviour towards you becomes very dark at times....your light puts the spotlight right on their dark hideaway, it highlights their pain, makes it come out full force for healing....something they do not wish to face...and fear...So they want you gone... as you carry/bring about the energy of change, new energy, a new way of being

And…You are simply way beyond their control now.

Mind you, the dark and light are not independent forces, or like living breathing creatures/entities, they are merely energies utilised by the human divine being, as a part of free will/choice. Without dualistic humans, neither force can exist on its own. The divine human in its original and pristine divine condition, is a neutral harmonised conduit point between the 2 forces, the neutral peaceful midpoint, where neither rules, and all is in balance. I merely use the expressions ‘dark’ and ‘light’ to express the contrast, and for explanatory purposes. More about these interactions of energies can be read here and here, among various other articles on this website.

People can start acting weird and ugly towards you...but in my experience god always makes sure they never get in an actual position where they can harm you....so...don't worry about it...your neutrality is the best remedy...God will solve it...you are now serving them, bringing about the energy of change to them...that's love...

It is very interesting lately...such a mix of everything...

I am feeling very relaxed lately, and my body feels lighter and much stronger, after all the weakness of the days before...I even seem to be losing weight....Dunno…don't care either...

I even took the free ski-bus to the village last week …the bus driver was nice, not even mentioning his concern about my sex life this time :)...Then at the cash register I had to pay and wanted to pay some in cash and some with my bankcard, as I knew either one alone did not cover the amount...and the check-out lady at the counter said, rather impatiently, “can't you just pay it all with the bankcard already?' ...and I looked her right in the eye very calmly and said 'no, I really don't think so, quite honestly'....Then she immediately went quiet, and did like I asked...It didn't bother me none :D

Then I walked back to the bus, it was pretty long walk with all the groceries, but my body somehow feels so strong and light right now...as if she can take anything....I came home and had a nice warm shower...

I don't care where I end up really...just as long as it's someplace peaceful...with no more loads to be carried, no more ambitious divine plans or anything...just simple mere life....

I do get those explorers drilling in the Antarctic for some underground/under ice lake, humanities’ curiosity and quest for exploration is as cute as it can be creepy… But for me, quite honestly, I don’t need to know every tiniest function of this earth and all its plants and animals, or beyond…All I need to know is what I do already, namely that it is all pretty amazing, magical, self-created and here to serve me and to be enjoyed to the fullest…And I can simply enjoy, and utilise all of it respectfully without knowing all the itty bitties of it.

I guess I like the general overview more than the tiniest details, however cute those may be. A bit of here, a bit of there. I understand and integrate stuff pretty darn quickly, without diving to deeply into it all. This is also why I am done with themes so quickly, then needing to move on to something new/else, to serve the inter- and multidimensional me. I simply need versatility. To me it’s all simply plain logic, like Dr. Spock in the old Star Trek TV series. I much more prefer leaving the details to others J.

There is simply no going back anymore now...not for the world either...It is done...all we can do is go forward now...not ever back....There is no going back or holding on to the old for anyone...

I know I am open to anything now....

People all keep talking about arriving someplace or other...But why not just simply be here and now....? This is all there is...for now...I can't even think beyond now anymore...Now is all there is, all I can handle, all I am willing to deal with even...

There is TV show I am watching right now called 'Ich bin ein star, holt mich hieraus' (meaning : “I am a star, get me out of here”)...There's this young guy in there, Joey, he was also a participant in 'DSDS' last year, which is the German version of American idol....you can watch him sing on youtube...

Anyways, he is only 19 yrs. of age, and has been having a hard time in this jungle camp...Very homesick and longing for his girlfriend…People think he's dumb, but he is just like me/us, a stranger on this planet trying to figure it all out and understand this world....he mentions God a lot, and the light he sees and holds....and people keep laughing at him for it, mocking him....yet also he touches their hearts, and they don’t even know why...he is just so pure, loving and honest, one seldom encounters such people... he is much wiser than anyone really, as he knows to be totally himself, in all honesty, and he knows how to love.

Of course he as not yet learnt not to strive for the love and acceptance of others, and not to bother with what others think of and say about him, but to learn how to love himself first and foremost. (But he will get there, I am certain of it. Some of us get there by moving from toe left to the right, or form upwards to downwards, and others just the other way around, all is good.)

he suffers greatly from all those ego's around him that keep arguing and battling with each other, very heavy it weighs on his soul to be surrounded by such dark ego-energies, without being able to get away from them, as they are all in one camp together, in the middle of the Australian jungle, where they have to accomplish all kinds of tasks, overcome all kinds of challenges, and go through all kinds of tests, in order to earn their daily meals and such....Joey is still mostly unaware of himself, and that he is a highly sensitive and stuff like this wears him out...So he got very depressed at the camp, wanting very much to quit....(he was also very severely abused by his alcoholic dad as a kid, until about age 14, and because of that he turned to alcohol and drugs to ease/dampen the pain in his soul, he did so until age 15…As light warriors, we all share such dark stories)

So…yesterday he got a letter from his girlfriend while in the camp, it was read to him out loud....(I am (pretty) sure he and his girlfriend are ‘Twins’, as young as they both may be/seem. His girlfriend is even the half of a identical twin-pair, with her sister. Plenty of feminine energy between the 3 of them)….These 2 youngsters have only been together since a mere 3 months, yet are very convinced they will be together forever, marriage and all…The things she wrote to him from her heart were like a letter from my Love to me...About how proud she was of him, how well he did, to keep on fighting and trying, and how she longed for him and he was the strongest person she ever met...etc etc...It made me cry (and everyone else too)...

Man, I was kinda jealous of him, to be physically supported by such love in his life (where I, and many more like me, had to do it all alone)....I was also so glad for him that he has her....Afterwards he felt soooo much better, as if a weight was lifted from him, she gave him new courage and energy...One could just see the love and peace appear/return in his eyes...as if all the stress fell away in one big whoosh...Lucky little bastard...:) Since then, he was okay, is love-energy supply had been upgraded, bigtime.

And you know, I just found out this Joey guy actually comes from Freising, where my Love also comes from and still lives....as far as I know....strange huh...

You can watch Joey here if you like (never mind it’s all in German)

http://www.rtl.de/cms/sendungen/ich-bin-ein-star/dschungelcamp-kandidaten/joey-heindle.html

Joey is in the limelight for a reason you know.

The other day I went for a very, very long walk...I just started walking, took routes I never took before, not knowing where I would end up...Then there was a lot of climbing, until my heart and lungs hurt, everything pumping and pulsating insanely fast, but I just pushed myself until I was sweating like crazy and could no more....Then I went home, and sat in the sun on my balcony for some time...and then I took a hot shower...I was all glowing and fuzzy...I even think I got some sunburn…a tan anyways J

I just felt I needed to break through onto new paths and sweat out all the toxic waste of the last years....it was good....

I get regular 11:11's again too...was a very long while ago though....things have calmed down now...feeling all relaxed...

The new upstairs neighbour invited me to a cup of coffee this weekend...since late last summer when I shook hands with her I know she's here to take over for/from me...somehow... So...I guess with us drinking coffee the transferring of service/energies will commence ... (was funny too, she wanted to say 'coffee' but said 'camel' instead, hihi. I am in for some camel too, I am very flexible :D) ...Anyway, I am most pleased that it's now finally time for such things....

And then....well...everything is wide open to the new now...

Winter here is so pretty too...I just love winter in the alps...

January almost over already...This month did not fly by as quickly as those before it though....it was a slow(er) month somehow... yeah...it is all going by very slowly....I am actually in a nice calm place lately....Even the loud humming in my head/skull that has been there for ages, has now much let off, I can hardly hear it even at times....As far as I am concerned it can stay away for good, I won't miss it one bit, too loud and making my skull vibrate...I don't do much, but I go to bed at about midnight, then get up at about 9 am, have breakfast, go for a stroll…and then, I dunno,...The days somehow just pass by.....

I hope no more of those heavy loaded trains will come racing out of the blue to blast me over anymore...Very done with all that....I like this calmness and peace...

Later

Love

Me

P.S: Well...Joey made it, he is now the official winner of the jungle camp thingy, and was officially pronounced jungle king :) It was so sweet, the 1st thing he ever saw through and won in his life....And his girlfriend was there waiting for him after the whole 2-week ordeal, and everybody cried...again....So much young and innocent love...Made me long for my love as well...to come home…finally…To be held and cherished, and to do some holding and cherishing myself.

Purity, integrity, love and honesty won over ego in this show, big-time...Sign of the times....

What Joey and his girlfriend did, by being in the limelight, openly showing their love, thus working from the outside inward, shooting the twin-love energy (or 11:11) sparkling straight into peoples’ hearts, so did/do many twins worldwide work from the inside out, from behind the scenes, unseen, unknown and in silence, changing the energy of mother Earth, thus letting that new and cleansed energy work its way outward, into and throughout all of humanity.

Joey and his twin do/did this by being together and taking the shortest easier version, others do this by being separated, working/cutting themselves a way/path towards each other for many years, thus taking on the extended heavier version in closing the eon old gap. All according to ability and strength, in unity with their being, the world they originally stem from, and what they were specifically sent to accomplish here. It is all the same one thing, simply occurring in different ways, on different levels, with different effects and in differing impacts. Some greater, some smaller, some for the collective, some just for them personally, yet all equally important and valued. It all serves the whole.

After this show, Joey is moving into a new home with is girlfriend, and is generally commencing a whole new life, in a new city and everything…There will be a whole new career in TV awaiting him as well, I am sure. He will be in the public eye for some years to come; the world needs him that way.

This is in fact very encouraging and hopeful for all of us….because…as goes one of us, so go we all…at some point…The moment of Twin-reunion(s) is now closer than ever. This event with sweet Joey was a very good sign.

The last 2 days where very sunny and beautiful here...so I went for strolls and drank coffee yesterday with the landlady's mom...The upstairs neighbour wasn't there so...next time in the Muppet show perhaps....I don't really care...I know a transfer of energy must take place, even though she is unaware of this deeper information, for her its just coffee and getting to know her new neighbour....But, quite honestly, I am pretty done with all those general obvious questions people ask like "what do you do in daily life' and 'did you move to Austria because of a man?" and blah blah blah... She's a journalist, so, her English should be well enough, so I will just give her my website address, which will save me the trouble of having to go over all that again....

I have no problem with listening to people though, no matter how deeply steeped into the illusion, and regardless of how negative and limited their view on life is....I leave stuff where it belongs, and have no judgments towards peoples’ ways…we all have different experiences, tracks, and methods to find to our divinity…or not…That’s just how its supposed to be, to each is own. I simply enjoy people for who they are...Again, honoring all expressions of the truth, and receiving from every world that which serves/supports me, that which I enjoy. The rest I simply disregard and give no energy to. This is how we support and uphold that which is useful and loving, and let fall that which does not serve us.

I always ask lots of questions, make them do all the talking, sometimes offer them a different perspective… I just don’t want to engage in those standard types of conversations anymore really, those just bore me. People never truly listen anyway, and always take things personal. Even when you’re just talking about you, wanting to express you, they still manage to draw it all onto themselves, as if everything is always about them. This greatly fogs up and pollutes the conversation, like clogged pipelines, as the other party keeps putting its ego-muck in between…There can never be a pure clean communication that way, where both parties are actually truly being heard and seen....It used to be quite disappointing and frustrating, but now I just let it be, and have peace with it…knowing how it all works.

And to speak about myself, who I truly am, and what I am truly about ....Really...it might be ages still before the majority of world is ready to have such talks, and to me I doesn’t matter anymore anyway, I do not need to tell my story and share myself with the world that way anymore…my mere presence on the planet suffices....I much rather not talk at all...and just listen and observe....or be the clown (which comes all natural to me already anyway. I am just not a very serious person, and as such I just don't /can't take anything really seriously either), so that we can all have good laugh, which always brightens up everybody’s day, and enables me to visit and spend more time in the world of old energy. I enjoy people and their company very much, yes…just not for too long a stretch of time.

Btw...Yesterday the dutch queen announced her abdication after 33 years in the sadle, I remember her coronation....In 3 months Holland will have a new king, and queen by his side...I guess it's just new beginnings all over now...The queens' 2nd son's skiing accident last year, of which he is still in a coma, must have just pushed her over the edge, the final drop needed to finally step aside and make way for some new young blood...the new generation, a new age, with new ways and new people taking over....Anyways...it will make for a nice show to watch on tv, and a reason for people to come together, rejoice and party as one, a national day off, like when Kate and Wills of Brittain, who are now supposedly pregnant with twins, got married, jolly good entertainment show, heaps of joy and love being shaerd all around the world :D...It's not like I have anything better to do...so...I will thoroughly enjoy these energies of unity, renewal, and joy being spread all over the world by means of TV :)

The english queen however, who is in her late 80's, will simply hang on until she either drops dead, or is naturally dried up and mummified by old age ;D

Oh, and remember…we are all at different stages of our journeys, our own unique journeys…No 2 journeys are ever the same, there is no comparison really, there are only similarities.

Whenever a gulf or influx of new energy arrives, it will first, and hardest, hit those on the highest rungs of the ladder, those farthest along, closest to the neutral centre/eye, and with the strongest biggest sensors/antennas for highest energy (you know who you are). Like a whirlwind or whirl stream, it first hits these people, closest to centre, who then greatly buffer, regulate and conduct these energy streams for the rest of the collective.

Like a wave-breaker they receive(d) these energies first, in its full strength/brutality, after which they break them down into chewable ‘pieces’, mellowing them down, like a translation, (purifying and cleansing/transmuting the old whilst in the process), then serving to guide them into the Earth, thus offering them up to the collective. They are the ones/ buffers/stabilizers making sure the Earth and humanity do not go to pieces in this process.

Then the wave works/ripples its way outward into the other/outer levels. Logically, those with the densest of energies, and smallest sensors, will be hit latest, and will also have more work coping and integrating it all, if they manage at all that is, especially since the energies have gotten ever higher in frequency. Just like the physical is always last to catch up (shifts are always just energetic at first), so are those still carrying the heaviest energies, last to feel the new influx, and will need more time releasing and integrating. Neither is more/less challenging.

It is not a question of being better/worse than anyone else, or being more/less important or anything like that, it is simply physics, and taking place according to coping-ability, skill, origin and talent. Some are here to perform the micro-tasks, other the macro-tasks, others will simply make way by means of death, etc, All one.

This also means that when the ones furthest ahead of anyone else are already long done, and fully living and enjoying/exploring their new lives, the rest of the collective will still very much be in the various stages of purifying trenches for a long long time to come. Those pioneers going ahead are simply always faster to understand stuff and follow up on it, breaking old patterns and creating new ones, that is simply who they are, and why they are here in these times of transition.

We are not all arriving in the new at the same time, but we will be patiently and eagerly awaiting everyone else...on the other side.