Just My Feelings
By: Paula Arias
I am lost, I do not know how the world changed in these years, I want to live as before, when the first iPhone went on sale, and when there was no coronavirus when people could go out without a mask, although this confinement that we have. It helped me change my way of thinking and seeing things, I feel more mature, I feel that now I know more about myself, that I did not know before, sometimes I miss my other self, I was happier, I think that before I was happier because I could see people's smiles even though I didn't know their names or things like that, just seeing the different kinds of people's smiles made me happy.I always wanted to change the world, and for all people to see everything with a smile, although sometimes it is difficult to have a smile, because we all have difficult times, which are so hard and sad to overcome, that we cannot even smile. I feel like this is one of those moments.
Connecting to myself
By: Anonymous
I am not a person to express many feelings, I don't like to do it. I used to think that it made you weak, but the problem with that is that you become a bomb and it is a matter of time before you explode, that is my case. Now that we have to stay home to be safe, my emotions are out of control which makes me feel miserable because I always like to have everything under control.
I remember that hot day of summer when I said things to a loved one. although I asked for forgiveness, it did not make me feel better, and that haunted me every moment for a long time. Lately, I felt like on a roller coaster one day great and the other bad whether sad, angry or another negative feeling. I isolated myself from others.
I don't know if it was God, destiny, or just the irony of life, we started talking about emotions in art class, which made me very angry at the beginning, I didn't want to listen but after a while, I wanted to listen, watching how other people felt better when talking about it, it inspired me "I wanted to try that" after that moment I have been taking care and not ignoring my feelings which have made me feel more stable.
Waiting for love
By: A.P.
September 10th the day when my father left home, I was only 8 years old and I felt lonely and abandoned, I cried a lot and missed him so much, we used to play football or go to the mall just to look for toys, I missed him so much so my mom said that I could go visit him so I went to my grandma’s house whenever I could and he was there so I had the opportunity to see him. As the years passed and I grew up, things started to get clearer than the water and then I realized why he abandoned me, I was 13 years old and he started to forget about me so I did it too and like nothing… 3 years passed and I visited him again, we started to have a good relationship son/father and when I receive the Email saying that I will move to the US I told him and started to get distant, I was normal and visited him all the time I could, when the date “March 1st” came, it was time for me to leave my country, the place where I grew up and the place where I learned everything I know, I said bye to all my family and cried together, I went to the airport, I was excited to meet a new country , happy because my life is going to be better and sad because I was leaving my family, it was a soup of emotions but the one that I really felt the most was sadness because when I saw my grandma she said “your dad won’t come, he’s doing something with your grandpa” so I just said bye and when I was on the plane I cried with my mom because he didn’t went to the airport to say bye and I just said in my inside… I forgive you, dad. Since that day, my dad and I never talked again. I’m just waiting for love.
I Will Remember
By: Anonymous
My grandmother was always with me, I remember how I always went to her after school and fed me and taught me how to cook, I lived with my parents and my pet felt very happy in the environment in which he lived but things began to change. go wrong, my dad started to move away from my mom and I didn't understand why but my mom was getting sadder and sadder, slowly they were getting further away than my mom told me they were going to separate, I was devastated every morning before I went to school my dad was the one with me, my mom was always working, I wanted to be with my dad but I couldn't, my dad didn't have things as fixed as my mom, so I stayed with my mom at my grandmother's house, I loved Being with her I remember how before we went to sleep she played with me and in the afternoons I accompanied her to pray, two months passed after that my mother was still very bad since she loved my father but what came next made me stop caring about the divorce from them, to My grandmother detected breast cancer, I remember that I was very calm I had a lot of faith that it would improve but it was not like that, they wanted to find out what treatments there were but there was nothing to do, it was terminal cancer, she decided not to stay in it hospital, she found it depressing to die on those stretchers, thanks to the fact that my aunt is a nurse this could become a reality, my grandmother stayed at home, the first few days my aunt forced her to stay in bed since everyone was afraid that she would fall or Suddenly she fainted, my grandmother was so sorry to be in these conditions, she was always such a strong woman but the disease was invading her, the cancer spread to her stomach, she could no longer get out of bed, my aunts and my mother did took turns to stay and take care of her at night, my cousins who were only children but older than me had to give her liquids and injections while my aunt was away, I listened to my mother cry every day, my mother did not Or I deserved to suffer so much, my grandmother began to put morphine and oxygen, she no longer had control of herself, there I began to realize that she was not going to improve, she felt her absence, she had two heart attacks, two weeks later she fell into a coma, She lasted 3 days in a coma, after that she died, that time I was very calm, my grandmother stopped suffering, I was glad that all that was over, she needed peace and I am sure that now she is very well, at the funeral I could not avoid the tears. The days passed weird, my mom got away from me and my dad went on a trip, I felt very alone, I just wanted to be with them, I also missed my grandmother but they don't care I think. I remembered my grandmother the strongest woman I have ever known and thanks to the memory of her I was able to overcome that, it was very difficult, I will always miss her, sometimes I get depressed for thinking how things happened but now the memory of her keeps me going Go ahead when I feel tired or I feel like I can't do it anymore, I will always remember her.
“17 Hours And 31 Minutes”
By: Christine Santos
The day has come, the day I have to take a plane to start a new life, I know it will not be easy, I know I will innovate and I know I will miss them too much but this is it eh here it is me. I just feel sad because I can only see them on my screen and picture. From the beginning I know that I don't seem to be able to do it anymore, the more that enters my mind that I do not understand, the more I feel emotions but the more that I do not know who I really am there, I suddenly thought "I do not seem to fit here". Every day I just want to sleep so that my mind is blank. What will I choose? But just give up or just put up with it, at this time I still don't know what to choose but as time goes on I get used to what is happening but there is still mixed sadness. I smile and laugh every day but deep inside I don't know. People thought that I'm okay but they don't know that I am down. It's just that I know people who love and support me and also help me to be happy. After a while, I feel like there are others, not only my exterior is happy but also my heart. I thought I should just be happy so they don't have to worry and I realized that at first, it was really difficult. But it was just a test and I also knew that there was no problem without a solution. I just thought of the things that make me happy and that is a big help for people who are sad not only me but also other people. Now I feel better, I feel okay, I feel happy and that's all because I do not give up and I choose to be happy even if it sometimes hurts to think that I am not with my other family and friends because they are far from me but I can only say one thing even if I am not with them now they are in my heart for seconds, minutes hourly and daily even 17 hours and 31 minutes flight man our interval.
My Country
By: Angell Ayala
My Trip this year to my country was the best thing that happened to me this year because I looked at my family again. Also, I ate my favorite food, I looked at my friends, and I had the most fun. I want to go again because that's amazing. I have never felt happier than to visit my country again. My country not just mean my country. To me, my country means my family, my friends, my happiness my favorite places it’s the place where I have fun. I think if I win a trip to any part of the world I would choose my country because is the place where I feel good. But when I went to my country I felt that someone was missing and that was my grandmother, she died this year and it is very sad for me because I have lived with her since my childhood, we had never separated but that is life now I have to continue life without her, but apart from that, I had a lot of fun I looked at my girlfriend again because she lives in my country I had fun with her we went out we went to the beach and many things and what can I say more than enjoying the people I love is the best for me. I will return to my country soon!
So-called Friends
Artwork by: Ariel Estevez
Saving A Boy
By: Paulo Pesantez
When I was 14 years old in my school they held an event where all the people played getting wet (better known as carnival) that day I had brought water balloons and carioca at a certain time of the day we started the event we spent approximately 4 hours outside the classrooms playing ( It should be noted that we were in the third year of school and the event was for children of 10 years and older, but some children of approximately 9 years and one of 14 years were hitting a child of an age of 10 years and I with a friend, we went to help the attacked child, we began to fight with the children. When we managed to save the attacked child from the hands of the aggressors, a child, a silly child bit me so hard that I draw blood (it does not hit the child, it just scares him) then After taking the liked boy to the doctor we went to the respective classes, after about 2 hours they called us and asked us why we hit those children (the children lied saying that we hit them for no reason) After about 15 minutes they discussed my partner had the great idea of asking them to replay the security cameras. In the end, they let us go and gave the children a reprimand.
Migración a Estados Unidos
By: Anonymous
I left my house on a Thursday towards the capital, I stayed one night there, because the next day in Guatemala we would leave like this and well, I was excited because I would be with my mother, but I was also sad because I left my family in my country and then I arrived in Mexico I spent hours by bus until I got to Monterrey and there I was 1 day waiting for them to move us to the district and I spent a day in the car under the sun. At night, it was too ugly but I got to the districts and from there we spent 2 days without doing anything Just sleep and think about everything that was missing until the day I left for the border of Mexico and the United States arrived. I spent two hours and the immigration police captured me. I was there for 3 days. It is very horrible. Then, they transferred me to a shelter I spent about a month, because there it was better than being in migration they treated me well I had school I went out to play and well I had a good time and I waited until the day to be with my mother came and it was an horrible adventure.
My story
By: D.G.
During the first 6 years of my life, I do not have many memories. I grew up next to my mother and brothers. My childhood was very beautiful since I enjoyed it a lot and because I was the smallest they gave me all their love, it was the best time of my life. I had great friends, we did charity works, we helped in a hacilo of Ansiano, we encouraged more young people to participate and to give a small smile to these people. I would say that it is one of the good things that that school had, on the other hand, no, it was a religious school so that they believed that they had the right to force us to go to mass, which is not a crime but personally it will not feel good since in my family they said that going to a church to receive the blessing of God is born of each one who did not have to be forced so he did not comply as he should those rules. I changed schools but they allowed me to continue helping on the farm and I decided to join the little shepherds of Fatima where my retirement culminated.
It's the best thing that I could see done in my life
Dream
By: B.O.
We started with the dream of having a career to be someone in the future. In Mexico, my studies are very bad for me, I don't get ready, I don't like doing my homework and I don't like studying, they get my attention over and over again. Discouraged! They talk to me and explain the importance of the study and they tell me that I will go to the United States for a second chance and I feel happy, excited, and sad because I will not see my family for a long time. In the United States, I feel strange because I was in another country it was all new for me. I felt sorry for buying things because of the insecurity of not knowing English so I was locked in my room all the time at that time. I felt confused. One day they told me that I would go to school and I knew that that moment would come but I was not prepared for it. The day came to enter classes very nervous that I was because it was something for me then I remembered that this was a second chance and the nerves disappeared all normal between the room and there are times when I do not understand some things because they say them in English and I do not know what they say in that I get nervous for not understanding what they say but that does not stop. To continue studying and getting good grades, little by little I was learning English always with the motive of getting a degree to pay for all the bad things I did in Mexico, and in the end, I have it, I have grades and I am very happy about it.
Coding
By: Shahoreer Talha
It’s August 2020. I'm in front of my computer, learning programming. Learning how to develop games. My parents are calling me, but I’m in love with coding and computers. Other people take it as boring, but I enjoyed it a lot. I can’t lie, the time was the best time of my life. I remember how curious I was when I started my first project. That wasn’t the best, but I was so happy about how my code was working. I was in love with coding. So, I didn't know how the time was passing. It was around six months, but for me, it was a glance. And like other programmers I was having trouble, I was getting annoyed by mistakes. But it was a lot of fun.
Every fun thing has to stop, the same happened with me. The school opened. And I have no time left for what I love most. But I’m really happy with what I have done so far. I’m absolutely proud of myself because one of my games got more than 1000 downloads within a month. Which is a lot for me.
“Keep in mind it’s really hard to follow your dreams! But it will be easy day by day, if you never think about giving up”
My Story
By: Anonymous
I'm sad about everything I've been through. I'm lost. It all started when my father and mother separated, misfortune and sadness follow me. When my mom and dad stopped being a couple, my sister and I decided we will live with my mom. We spent a year with my mom. when she came to leave us with my dad because she saw in the situation that my sister and I could no longer support each other when my mom came to leave and my dad took us away, she took care of us, She left. She left us with my uncle, she left us on the side of the street near my uncle's house, she left us like a thrown object that was not worth to her.
After my mother left us, I only had my aunt and my grandmother who loved me very much, they gave me good advice and educated me well, one or two years after my mother left us, all those people who loved me very much died.
Great sadness that I have gone through, and know that there comes a time like Christmas that is a time to share with the family and have a good time, but living with sadness in the present hurts a lot and you can lose your memory and do something worse It is time to live happily without the people who loved me so much and I to them to rest in peace. What most affected me and hurt me that the people I loved so much died and on the other hand that my mother abandoned me.
My grandfather
By: M.A.
My grandfather was a very good person, and I loved to sit with him and talk to him very much, and I always felt comfortable when I speak to him. But he was very sick, and his health was not good, and after that, he died, and from here my life was relying on him very much. I felt that I wanted to see him always and be with me everywhere. Even when I traveled to America, I wanted to always see him because he was very sad, so I made a picture of him, and I look at it when I like to see him.
Migracion A Estados Unidos
By: A.E.
In July 2020 my parents decided that we should move to the United States to try to find a better future in that country, I really wanted to move since I like it here better but having to leave my friends and close family there did not seem like a good idea to me. , plus having to start my classes here with some new teachers, a new language, and start making new friends seems very difficult for what I am currently going through, I know that everything is a process that the human being adapts to changes and I hope to do it soon as this process is being very difficult for me. I really miss my friends, my house and the freedom I had in my country to be able to go out in my way without worrying that the weather is very cold or that I might get lost or something bad happens to me on the street, I really like the United States but It is hard for me to get used to the changes, I am starting to make friends and I try to go out to the park and do activities to make the time shorter.
My parents support me in the process and it is still difficult...
I hope that I can be a great professional and be able to help people in the future in this country.