She cried because she came out into the water, pushing herself to the point of exhaustion, and she knew there was no way she could make it all the way back to the shore alone. She knew she should have brought an escort. Now her parents were going to wake up in a panic and send out a search party, only for them to find her and discover that she left home to follow a hallucination. She felt shame and embarrassment, and all she wished for was to be “normal.” She began to sob.