Poetry
Poetry
The Murder of Mom’s Favorite Vase
A sharpness slits the floor
My baseball guiltily rolls away
My mom’s favorite vase
I didn’t mean to
I swear
It happened so quickly
One moment
I was practicing my throw
My brother across
Shouting at me to sharpen my swings
Another moment
We’re interrupted by the sudden slaughter of my mom’s
Favorite vase
I didn’t mean to
I swear
I just wanted to make the baseball team at school
You’re gonna get in so much trouble
I know.
Scummed in a second
Murdered in a menance
Her winter white vase
Her sunny koi fish swirled center
So proud and fair
I recall the excitement in her words
The day she unwrapped it from her shopping bag
It reminds me of home
My heartbeat panics
Anxiety crawls up my arms
Holding me hostage
The silence is violent
Terror and horror
My brother and I sync in fear
Boys, what was that noise?
Rebecca Cuai enjoys writing creatively in the fictionalized world while drawing inspiration from her environment and experiences.
Marin Marathon, June 2008
A butterfly sunrise stomach,
From slumber to the stone-skinned armor.
Good socks,
good shoes,
and a carapace of cloth and lace that bind my feet to hooves.
A sloshing ruck crinkles; a siren of supply,
and my first steps spring toward the Steep Ravine.
Olive and ochre aeries to the north,
hem the frothing cycles of a perilous grey sea.
Swayed Cyprus,
crooked by the moaning north Pacific,
shepherd the path to the summit.
Breath after breath,
drenched in sweat,
one foot follows another,
and the universe unfolds for me,
as I spin the Earth with my feet.
Alex Clay Agotsch is a Sommelier working in Indianapolis who has returned to school at middle age to pursue a degree in biology. He is hopelessly passionate about baseball, wine, science, and running.
The Disguising Sun
There is a familiarity in this red sun
The smoothness of its edges
How fragile its reflection
Mimicking our single summer
I freeze in its presence
Ignorant to the clock’s impatience
Startled by the crash of memories
Sudden and exposed
My reflection sways
Tugging at my arm
Calling me from within
No warning or notice
I reach for it
Transporting back
To a summer evening
I catch the pitch
Of my laughters
As the corner of your lips
Curled up
Underneath the August breeze
Summer heights in playful light
Unaware then
How quick we’d turn gray
Like the red skies
In that August sunset
I blink
And suddenly
I am back in the room
In the presence
Of the red sun
Back in the museum
Amidst passing strangers
Once more
I look at the sun
And realize
It isn’t our red sun
It is just
A polyester circle
Disguising
As a memory of mine
Rebecca Cuai enjoys writing creatively in the fictionalized world while drawing inspiration from her environment and experiences.
I AM MORE THAN A BLACK MAN
I am a man
I stand six foot two
Dark chocolate skin color
Too dark for some people to see through
To my family I am THE man
The provider, the guider, and the protector
But to the world I AM JUST A BLACK MAN
A liability, a statistic, so close to the top
but it's designed for me to miss it
I AM A MAN
Every day I battle my own demons
all while fighting for a fair chance
And for the world to see me for more than the color of my skin
But for what's within
But I AM JUST A BLACK MAN
A black man who wants to be free
From all the stereotypes and negativity
Free from not only myself but the world judging me.
But I AM JUST A BLACK MAN
Do you know what it's like to be me?
Briana Givens is a 30 year old college student working towards her nursing degree. She was born and raised in Indianapolis. Poetry is her release and escape!
Different 2.0
I’m glad that I am different
There’s no one else quite like me
I still don’t love who I am
But I am creating who I’d Love to be.
I find some things easy
And others too hard
But I learn as I go
And I learn to work hard.
I wish a better person I could be
But I think I’ll stay as me.
Mercy Winslow is an autistic person who enjoys reptiles, plants, and bug critters. Mercy has noticed differences between herself and her peers when it comes to mental health and interests. Mercy almost always has a project in progress and is often willing to share it with others.
Dear Timothy:
Dear Timothy,
Your eyes shone—
Like precious, rare, green elbaite tourmaline.
Mineral Jewels.
Your smile beamed,
Radiantly--
Like gleaming pearls,
Of a glassy, endless sea.
Your boisterous laughter—
So uproariously infectious.
Your ardent faith, and brilliant confidence,
Endlessly inspiring to me.
Even so,
The seasons change;
In each of our lives,
And on this Earth--
Just the same.
Maybe all of these—
Characteristics…
Were just part of your facade.
Looking back,
Trying to find out why--
Is somehow like staring in a mirror.
I was as dark as you were inside—
Once…
But somehow, I’m still right here.
What hurts me most,
Is dwelling on the fact—
You took your own life so violently…
And you died completely, helplessly alone.
I wish instead,
You would have sought help--
Or simply dialed the phone….
I don’t understand the choices you made,
And I may never know why—
But racking my brain with the consuming consternation of your final hours—
It simply makes me cry.
I wish I was a better friend.
The what ifs, running rampant through my mind.
But spinning, twirling--
Through the unending options…
Should’ve, could’ve, would’ve--
It’s a self-destructive waste,
Of time.
Who I thought you were—
Versus who you look like now,
Just don’t add up to me.
I wish someone could’ve thrown out the lifeline.
It seems, you were lost at sea.
Mental illness is a terrifying land,
I know this place too well.
But now,
You await the judgement seat,
Staring yearningly--
At Heaven’s doorbell.
I pray you are granted merciful admission,
Dear Tim,
Despite the circumstances,
Encircling the hasty manner,
In which—You left.
I’m so sorry—
You saw no better option,
But cutting your years short--
That’s still theft.
People loved you, near and far.
I’m sure you will be deeply missed.
I still can’t believe you took your life,
Gone from this world…
I feel as though,
I’m wandering…
Aimlessly,
Hopelessly--
Through a dense fog,
Your harsh,
Cold
Pink mist.
Abigail Rose Bingaman Racop is a second year student at Ivy Tech. Gail is studying elementary education, and is looking forward to teaching first graders. Outside of school, she loves to write, draw, sing, and color. Ms. Racop also enjoys working at Fiberglass Freaks, the 1966 Batmobile Factory in Logansport, Indiana.
Life Is Rock N Roll
My dad would tell me that
Rock is the purpose that let us
Rage out our emotions. “Let it out,”
“Let them all hear,” Because
That is what life is going to bring
Out of you. I would scream to
Bon Jovi’s, “Living on a Prayer.”
Aerosmith’s, “Walk this Way,”
AC/DC’s, “Highway to Hell,”
And Journey’s, “Don’t stop Believing.”
They would tell me to scream
Into the empty void of nothingness
In my room. At least there
I’m screaming at the world.
Amber Perez is an Ivy Tech student. She is majoring in Early Childhood Education. She is hoping to be a Teachers' aide in an elementary school.