I learn many things in this journey. I will summarize everything that I learned
1. Being a teacher - In order to understand the teacher, you need to become a teacher. It's not easy to handle 2 sections but normally to a regular teacher, they teach about 4 to 6 sections while the 1 sections have a almost 50 students. Do the math and then the total students that you teach is about almost 300 students. The stress that they experience and the amount of energy that they apply is not that easy. When we are a students we sometimes misunderstand them, but after I experience it, we now know that struggle that they experienced. Because of this experiences that I have, I must now said that Teacher is the noblest profession of all.
2. Always Ready - Being teacher means we always ready and prepared in everything, by making a lesson plan so that we know that process when we teach until in handling the students. We need to be prepared not just lesson plan but also to our self, emotionally, physically and mentally.
3. Want to know everything, Be a Teacher - I once read a post in social media, that if you want to know everything, try to teach. It is true because being a teacher gives us a opportunity to learn also deeper about the different lessons. While I am teaching my students to solve a problems, we are not able to used calculator. It's a challenge also to me to master how to used long division especially when the numbers are in decimal form. Since I always rely on calculator when we are in college, and since not all students are able to use calculator in their exams, I really practice my self to solve using division in the decimal numbers.
4. Long Patience - Being teacher is not easy especially in handling the students. Being in this profession does not allow us to breakdown while we are in class. If you want to be a teacher, don't let your emotions let you down because if we let this to happen, maybe we can hurt our learners and that's a big NO to a teacher. If you also crying in front of them, they will think of you as soft heart teacher and they will not easily scared to you. If we want them to respect us, we need to maintain our image as a strict but understanding teacher.
5. Flexible - If we want to survive in this profession we are need to be a flexible in everything. If we know how to adapt in different environment and in different situations especially in handling different types of students, then it will be a bridge for you to be a better and best teacher.
6. Role Model - If the students are hard headed and have a bad attitude, we will do our best to teach them how to be a better person by being a role model to them. We as a teacher not only teach them knowledge but also teach them to be a better person. So that, when they will encounter to different people, they will not giving them stress as how they used to give stress to us.
Today, is our first day of class. It excites me because this journey is what I am looking forward to experience in the previous month after I finished my second semester. I just meet my CT. and she seems nice. And she’s giving me an instruction to what I should do.
I check the papers of the 4 sections of Grade 7. Ma'am is busy at their Science Month so she didn’t have time to check their papers. I am happy because checking is one of the task of a teacher and I am able to experience it. I just found out that there topic during this quarter is about biology. They have an activity about the different system of human and plants and also explain its functions. They also do their activity about cells and microscope.
I am still checking their papers. It gives me an opportunity to familiarize the names of the student of my CT.
This time is my first observation day. I am shock at first because I didn’t expect that the students are so rumble and noisy.
I saw that my CT is stress but still she manage to discipline and control them. She have a good skills in classroom management. But there is a particular section that is a hard to control the most among all the sections that she handled, It is the section friendship.
Ma'am tells me that they are still a kid and not really in their puberty years. In this year is their transition stage from being a kid to being a teenager. I hope that I can handle them. Especially the section FRIENDSHIP.
My CT just had a demonstration in her advisory class. I help my CT in documenting his demo by taking pictures. After that, me and my co-student teacher took the exam papers of all grade 7 students and we divide it based on the number of student each section. It is not that hassle since their exam is one page only. And then my CT gives me a job aside from observing the students. She let me write on the board. I’m not good at writing. But it is a good start for me to practice writing on the black board.
Today, my CT gives them a time to review for their Examination which will happen on Thursday and Friday. I learn a lot about their topic which is about Eco system and the different relationships of species in Ecosystem. Still in section friendship, a lot of students are not paying attention and some of them are sleeping. If Ma'am cannot handle them all, how can I handle them too?
Today is there summative test. I just check their papers and helping my CT in handling the students while they answering their test.
They just recap all of their topics for the preparation of exams.
Today is there exam day. I went to my CT’s advisory class and helping my CT in checking the students while they answering.
When Ma'am is going outside, it is a challenge for me to control them.
They are not really intimidated to me because I am young and they think that I am their sister.
But still I find my way in disciplining.
I check the papers of all 4 section of Ma;am and I did an item analysis. Its tiring but I am happy because I am able to help my teacher. I now know what the teachers doing after exams.
This week is there semestral break. The other shift of science student teachers have an office work while we in a second shift have a chance to make our lesson plan. I always bring my laptop. but unfortunately, the laptop that I borrowed is stole by someone who entered our dormitory. It’s a long and sad story. And I don’t know how I will handle it. Especially that I have many priorities to do. It gives me a depressing moment, and a suicidal thoughts because I cannot carry the burden. But because of my desire to help my parents and because of my desire in teaching, I try my self to fight my problems alone.
Today is my first day of teaching. I am nervous but at the same time excited. I teach in section friendship because in section frugality, it is their vacant time. Our topic is all about motion. It is funny when I asked them what is the position of the dog when I show them a diagram, and someone answering that the position of the dog is standing. But I told them that the position is not all about action but about location.
I'm still have a hard time at classroom management but there are some students that participates in class. and after my lesson, my CT told me about my performance in discussions. She told me that I need to practice my questioning to students. And I need to have an interaction to them not only discussing in front. She told me also that my eye contact will not always remain to one person. And I need also to practice my English not only orally but also in writing.
I think that I can start to teach in section frugality when there is an earthquake. And not only one time but after a few hours, the earthquake happens again. Before lunch, the students let them go home. In the afternoon, our department head let us invite to go in the meeting of teachers at gymnasium for the preparation to disasters.
I started to teach the students of section frugality, and again while I asked them about the position of the dog, their answer is still standing instead of their location. But today is half day of class because the staffs needs to check each building of the school for the safety of students.
There are a lot of student who are absent today because of the preparation for the all souls day. While the students who are in school are preparing for their Christmas decors. Unfortunately there was another earthquake happened. All students are panic and scared. Some are fainted. But we as a future teachers needs to be strong for our learners. Even if we are scared, we need to be strong and be a protector for our learners. If we have a strong mindset, we can be able to think in solving problems when it comes to disaster.
Gladly, while we were studying in IIT, we had a chance to attend some seminar about basic first aid training. So we know how to handle this situations.
Today I will teach in section friendship about distance and displacement. Its very challenge to me to teach them. The girls are gossiping, some are doing their make up. The boys are roaming around the class. They are really hard to control. I need to apply all of my skills in disciplining them. I am glad that there are some students participating in class.
I teach both sections. And I feel the intensity in class. Frugality are easily to discipline, but not all of them are participating. Section friendship is hard to manage in class, but when it comes on being participative in class, a lot of them participating. 2 sections are very different but both have strengths and weaknesses. In terms of behavior frugality wins, but in participating at class, friendship wins.
Today, our topic is all about speed and velocity. It's very hard to teach them in terms of solving because there are some students who don't know how to divide, there are some who have a hard time to find the given and to apply formula to the problems. I let them answer some word problems, there are some who can figure what is the given and the find. But most of the students still can't get it. They are still in lower section, so I will apply all my best so that they can be able to get it. But if they cannot easily to understand it, how come I can teach them if they are not behaving.
Every day seems getting harder and harder. As much as I want to teach and I am a type of person who loves to explain things. But the most conflict that I have in this journey that gives me stress is the student itself. God please help me how to handle this. By the way, today is our first month of duty.
Today we have an activity about Fun walk. So we need to do our activity outside. It is hard to do it since if I cannot fully control them inside classroom, how can I control them outside?
I instruct them first what they gonna do to their activity before we go outside. I expect that they listened to what I'm saying. But while we are doing our activity, they are a lot of students ask me. Instead I am focusing in facilitating them, I am distracted by their questions. Ma'am what I am gonna do here, ma'am he bully me, Ma'am he is bothering me, Ma'am I don't know how to do this, That's what I am hearing from them. My throat is not participating also because I have a hard time in telling them instructions outside.
Our topic for today is all about acceleration. They get what is the formula of acceleration. But still when we have a problem solving, there are some students that does not know how to find speed in terms of the formula of acceleration, or how to find time in terms of the formula of acceleration.
And still they does not know what is the difference between the quantity and the unit.
I hope they will get it.
In section frugality, while I am just enter in classroom, there are some fighting on each other. I am able to control them as soon as possible. And I am try to retaliate them, and at the same time scold them and asking them why they are fighting.
In section friendship, I am letting them write in their board, there are some who didn't even bring ball pen. So, I let one of the student borrowed my ball pen so that he can write on notebook. Although they always give me stress, still for me they are worth to teach.
I started now teaching about waves. I teach them the differences of types of mechanical waves.
We have an activity about Mechanical Waves. They enjoy to observe the waves in the rope and in the slinky toy. There are some who still wants to play the slinky toy even we are finished in using it. It irritates me because they are not focusing in their activity instead they are playing the slinky toy. But still they are manage to finish the activity. Some are even enjoying to play the paper boat in the basin. I told them to just observe the waves in the water, but instead, they are enjoying putting their hand in the water.
I am just started to teach the section punctuality and My CT is the one who teach the section frugality because there are conflicts in my schedule on final demo.
I started to love the section punctuality because they are easily to handle and at the same time they are participating in my discussions.
Today, I let them draw the parts of waves. By using their creativity and skills in drawing the waves, we can see that they enjoying in drawing. I am happy because they are now behaving while they make their activity especially the section friendship.
We are discussing about the characteristics of wave, and relating the relationship of wave frequency, wave speed and wave length.
And then we solve some problems related wave speed. I let them answer some problems by giving them seat work.
In section punctuality, they are enjoying in solving problems. In section friendship, they have a little hard time, but at least they are improving on solving problems.
We discussed about the differences of electromagnetic wave to the mechanical wave. And we discussed also the different types of electromagnetic wave and their uses in daily life.
I let them use their mind in thinking about relating the topic in the real life and also the importance of electromagnetic waves in human.
I let them show the diagrams of electromagnetic spectrum. We can see the least frequency, greatest frequency, shortest wave length and longest wavelength among the types of electromagnetic spectrum.
And then we relate the wavelength to the wave energy. We know that if the wave length is shortest, then the wave energy is greatest.
Our topic is all about sound. I asked them about the importance of sound in our daily life. They said that because of sound we can be able to hear. And then I explained them about the propagation of sound as a wave.
They learned that the sound travels fastest in solid because of their particles. The sound is longitudinal wave so they know that it cannot travel in vacuum like empty space.
Although I have a hard time in teaching them and at the same time having a hard time in making lesson plan especially my lesson plan for final demo. Still I am sad because I will miss them. My time that I will spent to them is going to finished.
Today, we discussed about the characteristics of sound. My students are excited for me for my upcoming final demo. And they wish me luck. They said that they will do their best to teach me.
In section friendship, they will always asked me that if I will continue to teach them, and I said to them that I only have a time to them until friday. I told them also if they are behaving properly, I will give them reward. So they are trying to behave so that I will give them the reward.
The time is getting faster and faster. While the final demonstration is getting nearer and nearer, our task is going to increased and increased. Our schedules and hectic and even in evening we still don't have a time to rest because I am preparing for my final dem0, I am also preparing to my next lessons to my student. And even the students is getting hard to control day by day. I hope I can handle this.
While I am on my way to ICNHS, i have an accident. I fell in the trisikad that I am riding. I have 3 minor injuries, my left hand has a sprain, my face has a bruise and my one tooth is broken. I am preparing for my pre demo, still I cannot able to do it because of my injuries. I am sad because it's a waste of time. I hope that I can handle my problems. And I know that this is one of the challenges of Allah SWT for me.
Today is my last day of teaching to my students. I will surely miss them. I will miss calling me Maam Bani, asking me questions whether it is about academics or about my personal life. I hope that this people, the hope of our society, will be success in the future.
Today is my final demo. My topic is all about methods of heat transfer. All my expectations about my final demo are ruin. I know that I’m not prepared. I made my instructional materials a night before my final demo.
My friend who is good an art, have a panic attacks that’s why she is not going to help me. I don’t really blame her. And I am not early at school because we need to finish doing my IM’s. Its not what it turns out in my mind, but at least I have an instructional materials. I have got a panic attacks and anxiety while I am going to school. I am going to late. And my CT will be angry to me. I am scared. I didn’t have any time to buy some snack for my panels. Gladly when I was arrived, even if I’m not fully prepared, my CT is not angry at me, she gives all her effort to help me prepared.
I know that it is my fault that I am not fully prepared. But I am very glad to have a CT like her, and of course the other CT are also helping me. I didn’t expect that my demo is going to be like what I expected. Because when I have some anxiety, I thought I will forget all of the things I supposed to teach. But because of my CT is telling me to relax, this turns out to be a good demo although my IM’s are not that good. My lesson here is to don’t rely always to someone because if there is some situations, we cannot assure at all. We must do our responsibilities because at the end of the day you are the only one who can shouldered all the consequences of your actions.