Two hands wrap around my throat

Talking to you is suffocation

Like I’m underwater

Your voice hits me too quickly

Like a drug I learned to live on

That makes me

laugh

cry

shake

cold

dark

It can't be over this quickly

The waves toss me

The seaweed reaches for my feet

An ocean of cold tears

A soul of fire that keeps burning while I drown

Your words are what echo in my head

when the world is speechless

I feel you with me

when no one is there

A bird trapped in a cage

forced into my thoughts

Do you want to be with me?

You are the lamp that showed me 

how much light a person could give

And how a person can take it away in an instant

You revealed deep layers of love

And unbridaled hatred and anger

All the fire in you

You kept me swimming in dark waters

When time wouldn't stop

I want to give it all back

But I can't

I have run out of air