Lyrics
Translation
I'm in bed, layin' down, naked Speaker is in bed, no clothes on
He's inside of me Having sex with a partner
I love him, kiss his mouth, prayin' Loves him, kisses him, and is hoping for something
He can't see what I see He can't see how she is feeling/thinking
When I close my eyes When she thinks
Wearin' no disguise You are no different
You erase him You replace him
I wanna feel guilty (mm) I want to feel bad
I wanna feel that it's wrong (mm) I should know to be ashamed
I wanna know peace again I want to feel no stress
Wanna sing a different song (mm) Wants to live a different life
I want you to need me (mm) I want you to feel the same way I do
I need to want somethin' more (mm) I want to have a deeper connection with you
He gives what he can He is trying
But now I don't know what he's givin' for Is his best good enough
I'm in bed, layin' down, naked Still in bed
You're inside of me Imagining you, not him
I love him, kiss his mouth, sayin' I say these things, but do I want to say them to you instead
"Oh yeah, baby, touch and touch and touch and touch me" Acting like I want to
I wanna feel guilty I should feel wrong
I wanna feel that it's wrong Still should feel ashamed but don't
I wanna know peace again I want calm, to be free
Wanna sing a different song I want things to change
I want you to need me (need me) I want more
I need to want somethin' more (somethin' more) I need more effort
He gives what he can He is trying
But now I don't know what he's giving for What is he trying for
Softer, harder, in between You understand me ways
that he can't
You know just how to get to me
He is stable, you are deep He is there, but you have depth
I know just how to get what I need You make me feel supported
I wanna feel guilty I should feel a different way
I wanna feel that it's wrong I want to feel the opposite
I wanna know peace again I want to go back to how things were before
Wanna be singin' a different song I want this to change
It's only a question We don't have to talk about it
If somebody brings it up Until someone else does
So, I'm pushin' it down and prayin' I am hiding it and hoping
He won't see it when I come That he won't notice
I'm pushin' it down and prayin' I will continue to hide my feelings and hope