Made some new friends, saw some old friends. Feeling good about the friends...seriously, not having anyone that is on a regular schedule that really annoys. Not used to this, love this, want more of this. You know the song. And if you do, I hope it gets stuck in your mind. Feeling sassy today, sorry.😈 Taking out some peoples that really twist my twisties. Whatever that means. 

Back to friends. Important for the psyche, yes, calling you out for being unsocial, or whatever in a way that is not offensive. Yeah, that's the thing, that's the thing...it is well meant, not subversive but good-hearted. This is the whole switch up, there has to be an underlying purpose of well-being and the well-being of others. Hmm, mhm. Forget this hate/blame shit happening everywhere. What a bunch of, want to say losers, but they are just being what they are and in a way that is so much worse. Just being what they were exposed to, brought up to believe or led to believe. Believe. Lies of the ones that are oppressing, that are manipulating, exploiting others for their own greed of money, pleasure, etc. Ick.

We are figuring this out, yes? Yes. We are of the ones that can receive the energy, not lable it, not refuse it, not accept everything after it has arrived, either sending it to Spirit or alchemizing it into a useful tool to utilize elsewhere. Let the feelings, energy, emotion, frequency come/go. So you can stand there and be a jackass. Do what you want...it will not make this life any different. Will just take your attitudinal energy and use it for our own purposes. Is that not the best thing you have ever heard? Read? Seen? Tasted? Felt? All that, yes indeed, all day.

Figuring out this absolutely ridiculous world of hidden motives, OMG? Trusting all of the wrong things/people/whatever. Benefit of the doubt, uhm, NO. Not anymore, damn it! But totally get it, get the absorbing, but turning it not on the self, but outward in a beautiful energy of creation instead of eating the inside of the body...the soul. The soul being diminished and not realizing what was going on...now a bubble of kickass surrounds the body, don't mess with me vibe. Super, duper. Owning that bunch of incredible. Yeah.

At the new experience, "Shut up and Write" and it was fun! Just the name sounds like me. Nice nerdy people just like me. This is a cool concept, they are killing it. A bunch of writers or at least wanna bes. Then at a certain time, "Everybody Shut Up and Write!" They did, we did. Hanging out for a little longer b/c I have the haircut and that will take about 5 min to get to, from here. Convenient. And a little more writing getting done. 

So this settling, switching whatever is happening here...it is a pleasing experience. These are the experiences that are wanted, not dreaded. Realizing that my life has been spent doing a bunch of stuff that was not wanted, enjoyed, did not look forward to it. Now doing all the stuff that is enjoyed, look forward to doing it, and was something wanting to do. Weird. How did it last that long? How did all of the people allowed in life get to do all the things they wanted me to do and never consider that it was torture for me? They didn't ask, I did tell them, they didn't listen and that is why I left. All of the ones that did that to me or didn't do anything for me ever, but were doing everything they did, for themselves, yeah, not around anymore.

This include family, employers, all of them and suddenly finding myself in groups of people that make me feel good. Imagine that?! It makes the breath come and be noticed by the system. In the last 3 years learning about the self, the soul and what it wants to do, what it likes. I knew, but never would just do it. Waited to find out what everyone else wanted and make sure they were happy. You know what? I don't care anymore...smiling as this is written, not b/c of evil intent, well mostly, but because sitting here, happy is the heart/soul and that is the intent of absolutely everything now and from now on.

Hair cut, done. Sitting here waiting on a friend from previous job, she is a sweetie and actually started crying when I told her I was leaving. Precious. She is a beauty and likes bad boys I'm afraid, she will be filling me in soon. Texting yesterday with some of the other girls that work there also. The co-workers were not the problem, they were great and we protected each other. The company we were working for, incompetent, however. A contract with the facility, don't think they will stick unless Kelsey has worked some magic. Maybe, she's straight forward.

Anyway, the first position after that job was a nightmare, you can scroll back and get filled in on that business. Ridiculous. You know there are a lot of men that I do love...but most, dicks. Another topic for another day...always. Love writing, really, it is freedom. Calling everyone out giving them the business they try to give. Not tolerating any of that ever again. Actually, do not understand how this soul was ever that...unaware of self, not anymore. No way. And now, it is not even an issue. There is the magic of the energy. They know now that they cannot fuck with me. And they don't. How great. Coolio, just sayin'.

The funny part is that it is love based. They will call it "bitchy" but you know, it is not, it is love for the soul. Self, whatever you want to  call it. Knowing who you are and what you will put up with is powerful. They don't like it, men, women or anything that wants control. Mhm, you might think I am giving control, but eventually you find out, nope. Absolutely feeling sovereign, independent, all that. Yes. Love ya. Whoever you are, even the dicks, they are just being what they know to be, don't have to be there with them. Yes. Yes indeed.

Away we go, not knowing what's coming...gonna attend Ben's gig tonight, so yeah. Up drinking coffee at 7:45pm, coolio. One baristo dude is way behind, need to have it before the gig, but whatever. Ok, got the coffee, now we can go...are we believing the story? It seems so logical, with all of the facts that I have witnessed myself. First hand information, no dispute, was there experiencing it. The easily convinced dumb butts coming in to defend...? Ok, and that is great. Maybe they are thinking that ganging up on me is the right thing to do. To terrorize the person in the fishbowl employment location? Hmm, without facts? Yes.

Ok, then, the book is a go and we will tell the whole story. Can anyone be trusted? Not sure, but the way it will go is set, and sometimes the denial is stated three times before the rooster crows, mhm. Really none of it has changed and everything that was ever in doubt, there was strangely a photo to confirm. It has to be restated b/c it is so unbelievable...what people do...no logic applied. This is hard for us to understand, but uhm, apparently this is most people, unfortunately.

This current stage is so interesting...atuning, returning to the body. Letting the body relay the signals, prompts of what it needs or doesn't need. It is familiar remembering of sensations, it is what once was, perfectly normal. The way it is supposed to be. It is nice, a return, like something you used to enjoy as a kid and experience it as an adult. And remember, like an old song that brings back the places you were when it was playing. All of it, all has been interesting, designed to keep the attention of this soul. That first attention grabber, his face...still can see it and it still has the exact same effect. No change, no difference.

I like it. Everything about this way, truth, life.  All of it customized specifically for me, us, the ones that are living it. Or at least trying to live it. Not that easy, but then feeling it is easy, because it is appealing. It is a noticeable irresistible curious prompt. Then it is what it is, and it gets investigated and truly is the thing you are really interested in, surprisingly somehow. And it goes on like that. Would not change one thing because if this ends up like the trend predicts...it is going to be fabulous!

No hesitation can form as the knowing of this love comes from the Holy. We being transformed, not from any deed of our own. Pure guidance of Spirit as we lay down any thought of personal power to resist the irresistible perfection. Rising in the heart space. A love, this love that words fail to describe. We experience only, we have no thing to offer. Only existence can we bring. Not even our breath is ours. How ever could a thought arise that in Spirit there is no life? Within Spirit there is no life, but brought by the breath of aware existence. Only in this may we rely.

As a human, we cannot imagine that we in our body being, have done it all. We are in control. This the most ridiculous idea that can be conceived. Surely all of the gods described for millions of years laugh uproariously at this...reading the thoughts of the matter made, telling the creative designer, "I will take it from here as I know better." Makes this being laugh right now. And in this moment the future is known as exactly what the Spirit arisen within this soul gives way. Gives allowance to this creative spirit to do what is intended, as this the only way. No "matter" how we strive to fuck it up...just running in circles. Finally, we see the tendrils of smoke, warm breath in the cold and know that this is what we follow. 

The breath made visible, the swirls and fluid movement of all that is Spirit. A mezmerizing force, invisible to most instances of awareness among the unawareness that pervades us all. Out of touch, giving our best at being our worst most unaware blob of matter possible. Ironic, the ignorant thought in a life that lasts for a fraction of a minute when in perspective of infinity. Delicious is this thought, especially to the ones in complete structural efforts of all matter.

The chemically dependent designed is the functioning that there is no way of controlling. Set functions autonomic, need to know nothing more than an infant to exist. A little cute blob of excrement production, giggles and coos. Another beautiful fact, all babies normally cute as can be or the care they require would be a, "No, thanks!" My little blob a grown man now, never has there been any act greater than being his mom, never regret raising this man. Again, nothing much done by this soul as all of him was set before the womb. 

We are entitled people of little imagination...just being assholes until we die. Completely under the illusion of delusionment of all and every thought that we are kings of our castles. No thing, further from the truth, more inconceivable is the air we breath before we realize it was always Spirit that is the air. We survive only by this, another chemical equation that if removed, death in minutes. Arrogance at its finest, the absolute inability to detect any form of anything outside our own selfish selves.

Selfish, sounds like something you throw out a line...to reel in absolutely nothing, no thing on the hook. Back to the book, it is completely written within this soul as it is not of mine. Not the construction, idea, work or the doing. Just fingers on the keyboard scribing all the words that tell a story. A participant only, observing the show, just like the long-haired trucker hat that just walked in the coffee shop door. Not the trucker hat that is known to me, but a similarity oddly similar, not exact, but close enough that there was a second look. Seeing the real thing probaly would stop the heart, as it is the only thing that keeps it going, in this moment and all others to follow.

Many, many things, subjects, information and we are all being mislead. Analogies of powergrids, energy, loci, mhm, interesting is it not? It is all planned out, a systematic agreement in order to gain power and do whatever Don Cheeto wants, or actually what his wealthy friends want.

Not sure what this post is about. Listening to a podcast talking about the Cheeto. Have began to listen again, just out of curiousity. To challenge myself and see if it will trigger a negative response. Legitimately, can say that caring about this is so far down the list that not much of any response/reaction comes anymore. That's a pretty big deal. Indignation more than anger always, just the lack of intelligence and drive to deceive, in a very purposefully way. It is disgusting.

Not to mention they are a gang of sexual assaulting men and women that apparently support this or think you are going to change? Not sure, again does not make sense and really not very intelligent of the womens. What a mental and soulful digression is this. Let's go down another road, how about that?

The Spirit speaks in the best ways and being in this energy is attractive, cannot resist as it should be...better than any drug as it is not inibriating. Give the same (affect), effect. Can never get that down, sometimes obvious, sometimes not at all. Effect being the result, going with that. Anyway, meeting Spirit at the coffee shop. Will go home soon as forgot to feed George. She's fine. 

In the stare stage, like we are mixing and mingling...entangling the heart thoughts to come out the human fingers from the soul. This is more like it. This is where we always want to be. Always will be, none of it changes, but the allowing of an energy to take over your own. Hmm, well, again, interesting.

This is not postable at this moment, but it gives a connection and here for that. Ok, remembering now. There continues to be less and less doubt about the catalyst. It is a hopeless cause, anyone would say this...but it still is hopeful when listening to the heart. Listening to the heart. Yes. It often does not make sense or work out the way it could/would be predicted. Not a prediction, but a known in the heart space that all of the moments were real. We are real and love exists. 

Resigned that this may only mean in another world this happens. How can this be bad or negative as the world another, improvement? Yes. Then even easier to love a soul that did absolutely nothing to get me to love him, only showed up and looked at me. That's all it took. That's all it took.

Have accidentally been posting what is normally posted here, over on the beautiful poems/quotes...not going to fix it, it happened for some reason. Opened up here to maybe take down the last post Scribe Tribune...but changed my mind. There are people out there that need to hear that. And things that we need to hear, heard it this morning. The Four Yoga: 

Action/Service

Knowledge

Meditation

Devotion/Love

Not going to cite this as it is everywhere, find the one you like. Originally a book? Anyway, living life by action/service, learning and continue learning, a set aside meditation period, moments not time, don't clock it. All of these four are focused in love. They do not have to contain love, but it is much more satisfying if so. Not love from the ones you help, learn from or teach, meditation spirits/thoughts, love. 

If you are offended by yoga. Well, you have already left this page, but all of the philosophical teachings of life ways, end up in love to be successful...all of the ones that are in truth. This is the key, the key to everything. There is no absolute, only love. It brings all the philosophies together, brings all together.

What do we do? There is no doing, just loving. Do what you are led to do. It will come to you in meditation...see how this works. Balanced, balancing the four, increasing the love in all. Is your action/service increasing your love? Are you learning/experiencing things that you love? Can you sit in meditation and feel love? Then you are supposed to add love to all the former, if it is not occurring there already. "What am I getting out of all of this?" This question must be removed from your vocabulary...you are loving, in love. What other people do is not your problem, issue, project or a way to make yourself a victim. 

What are we supposed to do? Love. It's not that hard...it is practically impossible. This is your assignment, purpose, project...love. The inside of the body had a little melting moment just now. This is it, the hidden knowledge that was never hidden. The world wanting us to be unable to love...too tired, too stressed, too emotional, not enough emotions, whatever can be convinced in our own minds. But to let go and love? This is big...not to be in the stance of being offended. There is a post about that also somewhere in these posts. 

There are so many changes going on, overwhelmingly so. The convincing that all of the emotions, intuition, etc. are real. There is a settling among all of the uproar...the knowing, we know. There is no explaining, but a known. Letting it just be. The absolutely hardest part is letting all of the truths, be true. Letting the way, be the way and go there. Wow, go there. Super scary to even think about going where you know you will find the truth. Wow.

A lot to work through? A lot to learn? Action and/or service to investigate? All of these incorporating love in some way, not to get love, but to love. Ugh, is this even possible? It is and it means leaving all of our petty wants, expectations of what anybody has done, owes us or any of those should be, been, being. It is how it is...you are making it the way it is now. You are not the victim, you are making all the choices to act or not act. Now having to face it all, because it is all coming up to face. Not deny, ignore, avoid any longer. 

Ouch! But once we get over ourselves and be ourselves? Yes, that is going to be the comfort in the soul...coming out, radiating from the body of the true self soul. Not like any other soul/body/mind. Each and everyone unique. Not fitting in, joining or agreeing to any construct that is not for everyone, not the few, but all. This is the way, the truth of life. Not from any person, but straight from Spirit through your soul. "This is from your soul." Hear this when it is told to you, then it is known. 

Maggie’s Music Box Sitting here tonight listening to my son play bass for a band never seen before, just called him up last minute and he's up there killin' it. Hotel California...couple right in front of me, dude got caught looking at another girl. He's trying to make up for it now and it's hilarious. 6:23 on a Friday night, bound to go wrong at some point, if sittin' in a bar. Now some dude dancing around by himself. Trying not to make eye contact.🤫 👀

Background pic is taken at Maggie's of the late great Leon Russell...anyway, it's ironic as my son just played at the church studio yesterday which was Leon's recording studio. Coincidence? Not thinking so...not this girl...uh, uh, nope. No such thing as a coincidence, man. Spirit is in the music, was hearing it last night, angels? Maybe. Do not rule anything out these days. Interesting just to sit here and watch people behind the little, iPad. Incognito.

Weezer? Oh, yeah! this my music. Heartbreaker. Weezer/Heartbreaker . This is super fun, having a good time, just sitting here typing my little heart out, not breaking just typing away. Acting like this is a job, and you know what, it is! Cuz I'm the accounting rep for the BenDen, LLC. So proud of this guy, he's killing it in more than this band, yup, that's my boy. Ok, just saw the music line-up and this band is Barrett Lewis band, can't find a good link. Good cover band, not an original that I've heard, but good covers. Disclaimer: Got here late.

Giving sonny a solo, now. Coolio. I'm on my second drink, so it's gettin' fun! Pat Benetar up at the moment, another 'Heartbreaker". Pat Benatar Heartbreaker. Set is over, just when it's gettin' fun, dinner with the boy, so nothin' bad about that. Have fun, kids, stay safe and see you tomorrow. Will be posting this weekend and now have Mondays off. Hep, hep!, more Weezer.

Boy's other band: The Grabblers Aug 1st, 8pm, New Story Brewery, see you there!

Here at the coffee shop, of course, if you know anything about the habits of this soul inside this body. Heard a mention of, "Why is every business a coffee shop now?" Because none of us want to work in an office building, and we get sick of being at our house. In the coffee shop rarely do you know a lot of people. Depending on your frequency of visiting a particular location...anywho, it is an anonymous location to work and not be distracted, completely. I can tune this place out...usually. If not, just leave, no bosses or co-workers to get offended.

And this brings up the ones that get offended. C'mon people, everything is not about you and your feelings...get over it, please! You being offended is being an "offended being". Is this what you are going for? Really? Geez, OK. Uhm, this is not nice on my part, but you know what? It seems that this soul is here for this. Being the one that tells you the stuff you don't want to hear. At this point, don't mind, because, totally sick of people, their little feelings and how they ignore everything else. Ugh. Yep, feels right, this is the purpose of this being, at this point in life. This life's way. Yeah, me.

This took a turn, was not expecting. Anyway, let's talk about something else. Hopefully, you will not be offended, but if you are, well, then... Are you here for it? The truth is not meant to offend, but apparently this is exactly what it does and they become super triggered to explain why the truth is not the truth. This is so illogical, and people are completely illogical. This is the cross we have to bear. We, not I, it is all we, of a frequency and here to offend everyone. Yeah.

Complicit are "we" if the truth is not what we are about, true? This is not that hard, it is made hard by attempting to legitimizing greed, defiance, nefarious deeds. If this is your way of life, this is what you are committed to and the "truth" you attempt to pass off to others. Ouch, hmm, see what we mean? We of a frequency of truth and making our way of life a better way. A way that helps others, not stomps them to the ground so we have more material objects? Well, yes, of course, but do we see that most of the people, especially that have "put themselves" in power. If you know, you know.

How do we fight this? We don't. We become authentic if not already, don't want to offend anyone.😉 We do the things that raise the frequency, the vibration, the energy of the places we frequent. Coffee Shoppe. OK, this works, start there. Are we hippies? Why not, is this offensive? OMG, can use this forever. Will try to hold back, too easy. Thank you for chuckling if you did, thank you for closing this site, post if you were offended. The vibration just raised, if so. Again, ouch. 

What did we come here to talk about b/c the rabbit hole went deep? It was the fact that not many businesses out there are anything but, liquor stores, chiropractors, coffee shops, restaurants, banks and churches. In the bible belt where this soul resides, the churches are on the way out. Can you believe this? One of them is in a post here, cannot find it...hmm, my own post, can't find it. Ha.

This post speaks of a cafe named Wildflower that is opening a new space b/c the landlord of their previous place kicked them out b/c they fed the homeless. Yes, that's what happened. When I find it, will link it. Ok, not only will it be a cafe, but now is a living space, a store or something, forget that also. But, but, but, the kicker? It is in a deserted church building and is this not the sweetest most ironical thing you have ever heard. Aaaand with me, do you not believe that the reason the church lost its members is b/c there were homeless people outside when they would enter/exit the church? I believe this will the entire being that this soul inhabits!!! BeLIEve not a word used by this soul recently, because right in the middle of it, the word "lie". Tried to underline that part of the work and nope, won't let me, but it doesn't matter b/c, still see it, cannot unsee it.

If in Tulsa, then visit the Wildflower Cafe...the former cafe, now in a church...feeding the homeless where the homeless were not fed before. Wow, of wows right here in this heart...all of this beings offerings go to the ministry of the Wildflower Cafe...Wildflower Cafe link on Instagram. Check them out, they are of Spirit unlike the church recently vacated, in my opinion. A lot of opinions of the church have gone right down the toilet in the last, uhm, let's say, 6-10 years. 

Then it is made aware that it has been 10 years...no wonder we are so tired. This ridiculous state of affairs, state of the nation creating a state of the states. So very obnoxious if not down right insulting. Are we offended, damn right and rightly so, because it is the truth. And ultimately we are all the same, the ones that we annoy and the ones that annoy us. "We are we" all are beings, all choosing the choices, all making our way of life. Duality on us all, we cannot be all aware at all times. "Always, though, we can be aware of what is brought to our awareness.

The Spirit just came through and to you they say, choose your way, in honesty, choose what you will commit to and stand by it, because of all things human that offends us the most is a wishy-washy soul. Take a stand, be for or against, don't deceive others, be what you have chosen to be. Own it and take all the good and bad that comes with it, because it is time to decide. No guarantees, but if you are totally committed to one or the other, all beings of a soul are set to eternal life. Eternal life with body, without body...one way or the other. There is no fear, live the way of truth. The truth of the way of life...this is it, this is all. What are you listening to, beLIEving in? 

No judgement but your own, on yourself, to yourself, no fixing or convincing of others, be what you need to be and others will be what they need. If they are using you in this way? Cut the energy off from them as they are on their own. You know of who I speak, you just felt this in your heart and this is where you start. Making your energy work on you, making you to "be" the "being" you are supposed to "be". We are being, not doing, we are being the way of truth of life, this is what we are...being."

Fin

Wow, at a sidewalk café working on the blog post...and if you will notice the background pic on this post...the animal was calm, people walking by, being all cute like she is...then got super grumpy and we left to sit in the car before the establishment ran us off, or someone got bit. Also, before getting the little French cafè scene pic. But here we are in the car, luckily there is a breeze and it is not too hot, yet. 

The guys are showing up to work on the house today, so that is getting completed. Nice! Spending the day with the animal which is what I am always wanting to do. Here we are, not working the 8-5pm job, doing our thing, let's all be thankful. Give thanks, be grateful, gratitude in the utmost levels. See? This is how the self-talk goes...not a bad thing. We are only on another adventure, the animal and me. (Read the post below, "EVERYDAY", the animal scores again, 2/0.) Let's get this straight it is the animal's way or the highway!

And at this point, do you think that I can even remember what this post was going to be about? Uh, no. Breathing. Sitting in a car in the parking space paid for and by gosh we are going to sit here and run out that time.😂🙄 The post being something about the transition from matter, material of the world existence. This elemental matter being transformed or "we" are going to be able to transfigure as we connect more and more with Spirit. Melding, molding, conforming, integrating, trans-melding? Is that a word? Nope, AI believes that we must have meant transmitting, transmeditation, or transcoding. Hmm, really did not know that the last two suggested by AI were words, so who made those up? "Trans-melding", this is our work for historical purposes, you heard it here first and damn it, it is ours! Ha! 

Anyway, back to the scientific facts of trans-melding, (the hyphen or the quotation marks make the spell check ignore it-that little red line under the word that they don't know is our word, really bothers us). Going to have to go biblical on you here, but it explains the history. Not of the word trans-melding, but of the transfiguration of the Christ. No longer does Christ have a place in this brain/soul/mind/body that is anything less than all of our elemental world tying it all in, to the spiritual. Cannot speak to the Buddha, the Krishna, etc., do not know all of the names that apply, but if you are a scholar of history or theology, the similarities cannot be ignored. 

Can we open our minds to include all peoples as from the same Creator, Source, God of all? Can you, can we? OMG! Speaking as a U.S. citizen in a southern state, pulease, anyway, here am I. The outcast of all outcasts, but in/with Christ and the Holy Spirit that is in totality of access to all/this soul? On this, getting this...here goes. We have the example of Christ, this is what is familiar, this is the way it is known and possible to speak. Clarifying that it may be a different name and/or story for you, but the process or system or chemistry is the same.

Christ came to the Earth, gave us the total life, way, truth example to follow. Then he died to this world, then came back in another form, transfigured or as we call it...trans-melding. Came back to the disciples, "being" the same, but different. Taught further, 40 days, and was able to appear in rooms without entering through a door. Thomas touched his hand. There are verses to back this up, will leave at the end...but you get the idea. Ascended, saying he would return, Gave the Holy Spirit as a gift...mhm. 

Was this the return? Holy Spirit came through the clouds of the disciples/apostles, not sure what to call them at this point, but came to their minds/hearts/souls. Who is the Holy Spirit? God, the Word, the Holy Spirit. Again, biblical and decided not to reference the scriptures, look it up for yourself. You must be the one to make these decisions of faith and trust, for yourself. This is just the ramblings of one soul. You don't even know me. Not really. Now, why could this above, the gifting of the Holy Spirit, not be how the Word/Christ, came back? The essence of God/Christ, in their form of Spirit. Theirs, belonging to the Trinity, they have claimed it over and over again. 

We were instructed to build the "church". Think of all the wasted money on church buildings and staff when the true meaning is of the body physical. Build the temple. Christ will destroy the "temple" and raise it again, in three days...not the temple of stone, the body of Christ. Who is the body of Christ? That would be all of us in our bodies. All of us, not just Christians. (Lordy, not even most Christians.) Christ, again says he is coming back, and he is, but not in the way anyone expects. If coming through the clouds? It will be the clouds in your head. Not the first to say any of this, not hardly. Chemistry, cells, molecular integration. The dead will rise again. Any of the words spoken here, can only make sense in an internal/external capability of adapting/controlling/facilitating body matter, elemental chemical exchanges, reactions, equations of something beyond us. Formed from sand, silica, dust to dust, again, in the bible, look it up, Genesis.

Ah, oh, did we mention silica? Silicon valley, what the hell is silica? Positive that nobody knows the answer. Didn't know over here.

Silica: silicon dioxide, or SiO2:

a hard, naturally occurring compound made of silicon, (genius) and oxygen. One of the most abundant materisl on Earth, making up about 59% of the planet's crust. 

Please, we must go on:

Quartz: the most common crystalline form of silica. It is a hard mineral found in nearly all types of rock.

Sand: The primary constituent of sand worldwide is silica.

Amorphous Silica: includes materials like opal and diatomaceous earth.

What is it? No idea. Again, as has been written in this blog numerous times before, do we need to know? Can we even absorb any of it? Is it going to happen whether we know or not? The answer to this is, yes. The rest of our questions are to be seen, revealed, recognized. How does the dead raise again to be trans-melded? No idea, but this also will happen. Will we see it? No idea. Is it a fog of Spirit coming over the Earth to reunite the souls of the dead with their former bodies or silica matter material just produced elsewhere? Yes. How? No idea. Now we are getting the idea, we do not need to know the how, when, where, what. 

My mother, little kind lady that she was, Baptist to a fault, probably her only real fault. Anyway, you better never say, cremation to her. "the body must be there to rise again." Ok, did mention to her that the most that could even be there would be a few strands of hair and bones. She's not convinced. Ok, then how about those people, (trigger warning) that dissolved into "pink dust" in the twin towers attack? She looked befuddled. Now there was no intent to befuddle, but you get what is being said. (If not, then why are you even reading this?)

In the knowing, however, we know, we have been forewarned, foretold. Much of the words received, channeled are these old English biblical type vernacular and don't know if that is supposed to be humorous or scary? Both possibly and here for it all. Do we have more questions? Of course. Are they going to be answered? Who knows? 

Saw a dragon in the clouds a day or so ago, his tail cut off from the body. Flying up and away from the tail, because another one will soon be grown. Did the mind and/or mental capacities just leave this soul? Possibly, but this is what was seen and heard to be shared with you. You're welcome.

This could be the way, however. The souls that have attended Earth, bless your hearts, take with the soul that has vacated a dead body, but the coding, the DNA, RNA is maintianed somehow. Did you ask me how? Now we are in the "knowing" that we don't know nothin'. I digress, also having major de ja vu, so there's something. Scientist have stated, proved? Unknown. That DNA does not completely have rule over the body, genetics, etc. What? Don't know, search Youtube, AI your preferred source of "Can we believe this?" information. But yeah, if not for that, then what? Mhm. Body/soul restructuring, transfiguring or the preferred trans-melding? Don't know, don't forget the hyphen.

Just a note: the word transfigured is always positive, an upgrade, an improvment, this distinguishes it from transformed. You are able to transform into a little hairy beast, such as my animal described in first paragraph. Interesting don't you think, trans"figured", to a new better version of the old version, but better.😉 Mhm.

More to come, more to come. Everyday more to come...will be back, Spirit and this soul, we are getting ready for what comes, together, forever, eternal paradise. We are like this 🤞🏻. Brother, sister...sweet release of the weight of gravity on the matter trans-melded. Peace. ✌🏻

Encouraged by all of the writing that is being done this week, then just realizing there hasn't been anything completed on the book. Today went partially as planned and the other part not. Had brother's breakfast with 2 of the 3 this morning, planned. Took the animal along, she was great until getting out of her harness and free roaming downtown for a couple of blocks. As this was happening saying, "This is a bonding experience, an adventure." She was secured and got a new harness. Score 1 for the animal.

Anyway, lots of writing and this makes the soul happy. The book is the book and it goes along with all the rest. It is finished in another space. Yes. Ok, the revelations of this day...all of the soul teachings, it teaches the body and mind of the true way of life. The world teaches doubt and fear. Gonna stick with the soul. Seems the best choice, lived in the world a long time and it has been mostly unsatisfactory. Realizing this is not a truly complete statement, unsatisfactory in the regards of people trusted, peace, and speaking up for the self. See below how we are tackling this of late.

Just did the first Qigong exercise ever. 10 minutes, well more like 3-4 minutes the rest was some dude talking. Giving this a try b/c the thought of going to a class even online is unappealing. Do not want to socialize, want to exercise. It does not seem to be a necessary part of exercise to be with others that are unknown. If it was a room of trusted ones that are of the same heart...would be there in a snap. Otherwise, no thanks.

Being very concerned formerly of doing the right thing. Now am finding it is advantageous to the the best thing...the nervous system is in crisis. Doing the thing that keeps the nervous system from running out of control. This is the right thing. What others project onto the people they are trying to manipulate, not interested. No longer accept this or give energy to this. Cannot do it.  The ones that create chaos, challenge sovereinty or exact manipulation upon others, also, no thanks.

A new path has come to the forefront, a two year work contract...this pins down the temptation of just moving on when the mood strikes. Have been doing this moving on business lately and it was an experience that built confidence within. Only a good thing for the self-confidence. Apparently in need of this, it is coming, slowly coming to be. A friend (see link below) gave me a handout, cool, retro. Anyway, it describes how life experience shows up when you are healthy and living balanced/in moderation. Another planned activity with Alma Reike Studio completed, today. An enjoyable experience!

There are lots of bullet points on the paper hand out, so narrowing it down to the last point of "Lived Experience(s)". These include "Emotional State" and "Signs of Alignment": 

• Life feels reliable enough to rest in

• Enjoyment is present in everyday life

• Being able to say "no" without overexplaining

• Inner peace coexists with deep feeling

• Being able to speak up even when it may be uncomfortable

• Being able to see both sides

• Trust replaces the need for control

This list is simple, to the point. Do we have these experiences in our lives? If we do not, then what can change this for us? Your answer cannot be something outside yourself. This is the challenge. No material solutions, only you and arranging life to produce the experience, and it says daily, create this life experience. At this moment, meeting three of these. Working on four others. Sounds like some work...join in? Please do, as this becomes the recognition of the way to battle ill will, hate, and discontent. 

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In this moment of being, the activity that is being experienced is the most joyful, peaceful, attractive, desireable. Arranging the day to carve out these moments to write. Scribe is the word, as a large percentage of the words are not mine. Not from the self, not this self. Learning that really there is never been an understanding of this prospect anyway. Self? Who is it? Where is it? What are we? Cannot answer any of these questions...brings one to a humbleness of being.

I AM, the name of the Spirit of God, Creator, Love as an entity/existence. The absolutely unfathomable perspective or lack of, that exists around this naming. We are confused by the idea of "God", confused by even trying to define ourselves, not to mention the I AM. These questions have brought some answers, not about the self or God, but other things related, I guess. Never is there a definitive answer. Is there an answer? Discovering there are no true answers, but some ideas related to the truth. Spirit is the truth, the way, the life...does this give you definity, closure, a need no longer to seek out or discover? 

Is the learning in the acceptance, allowance, receipt of a knowing that there is no need to know? Is it going to change you? Will you react, respond to life, existence,  situations different if a satisfactory answer comes? For three years, if you have read any of these writings, you know of this length of time these questions have come into the thoughts. Then  recognizing that the origin of these thoughts are not even defineable. What is it then?

Well, the fact obvious to this soul now is that, there is no time. If anyone is demanding of your time, then they are out of order. They are living in a construct of time. Most likely, "time is money". They are correct as this is how our society is structured, at this moment. But are we beholden to them? Do we have a real responsibility to this? Well, yes. Yes, until we create something else. Never has this soul worked harder on breaking any other construct than this. The soul desires that it be free of this world, but not removed from this world. 

This brings another round of questions. How can we make this possible? To be separated from corporations, industry holding wealth unless we have a contractual agreement for them to give us money/energy. And it is energy...we buy food with the money. Food gives us energy. Or does it? How much food do we need? Can we answer these questions? Maybe not yet, but setting the intention of this, of finding the answer. Manifesting the possibility and then hoping/trusting to  know when to try it, to take the leap of faith, take the offer given. Indeed.

Just putting it into words is a step. The idea is out there...on this screen words are powerful. Speech, thoughts, writings, silence within the energy of this idea. Possibility, potential and never before has this been understood. Not sure it is completely understood now. It is called prayer, intention, manifestation. The word or action of "prayer" spoken is demonized in our society, recently..."I will pray for you" is met with "Why don't you actually DO something?" Understand this response, now looking at it in a different light, and it is light. We are light. And do you see how this flows one into the other. We are images of Spirit, of light, of color, taste, smell, touch, sounds. Our thoughts/prayers emitted have an energy, a resonance.

The vibration of a being that emits any chemical response to any external/internal stimuli has a vibration. Electric impulses that react to a stimuli. "Oh, woo, woo!", you say. But read up on the factors and occurences that are required for an MRI. This is something that is in actuality, most persons have had an MRI related to some medical condition in question. Correct? Magnetic resonance imaging, read the words again, please. Resonance, a stimuli is given to the body, it organizes this and creates an electron response, resonating a readable image to capture. Then the doctor reads the image. Magnets used to organize it all, make it possible to picture, then read. How?

Really, there is an explanation of how this works and "Wow!" to the ones that discovered this process...wow! Then after you read the defining words, can you actually understand still, how it works? I work in the medical field, not that one, but much of the root language for the process is within the area of study completed. I don't get it. I can see it. I can receive the words of the doctor about what they see. Still there is not an understanding. I could help build the apparatus and would better understand. Could learn to operate the machine and be educated on this process, but on a larger scale, could I understand how and why this activity works?

Faith, trust, acceptance, allowance, receiving of the information and/or experience is all that can be done, technically. In a way it is fascinating, beautiful, like how a seed planted sprouts into a fruit, vegetable, tree, flower...how? Do you really have an understanding? The catapillar into a butterfly? There is a spark of life, a chemical component, breathing, exchanging elemental gases, components, matter, transitioning to alternate matter...how?

How, indeed. There is no complete and satifactory answer that can satisfy every being. Light of the soul, where did you come from? Where and how do you exist? Are you the self? Are you a piece/fragment/photon of God/Creator/Spirit existing within this form of matter? How does this happen? How do the souls know where all the babies are being born? Where is the soul when not residing in a body? Why does death occur? Why did life begin?

Moving on now, to go breath and live. Not having any idea why. Any idea of from where or to where this soul is going and is this not the craziest realization? Letting go of the need/idea that answers are out there or even merited for the questions asked.  If we were supposed to know, then would we not know by now? Giving it up, letting it go, here for the experience, not the struggle...peace to you in an unpeaceful world. Is this not the best way to handle it? Peace in spite of neglect/hate, unsatisfiable wanting, idea/fear of no love existing, peace for spite. Yes.

Wanted to write and post last night, did not, seemed excessive. Here now. Drove a few miles to the pharmacy earlier...on the way, in the knowing that what we have been talking about, the not needing information, understanding for the changes we are making. Not needed as we are doing it all, maybe unawares, but not completely for a lot of us. It crosses the mind, wonder of wonders, the why. An aspect of faith, trust, knowing the love of Spirit is bringing the wonders. Living in this life, way, truth of Spirit. 

Everyone on a need to know basis and ironically not even needing to know. Being. Only being what we are meant to be. Not pretending, not seeking approval from anything but Spirit. No thing else matters, it's all temporary and actual matter in a formative being. We don't even know how the formation occurs. Why would we think the circumstances of the being are going to be fully revealed? Until they are meant to be revealed, recognized and understood. All knowing from knowing. At this moment, only knowing will have to do.

We continue. What else can we do? One thing for sure, we do not know what is coming, how it is coming. We do know, things are weird in government, the media, just people in general...seriously, weird. If you have not wondered about the state, mental state, of most people you come across or see in the news, then you are not listening or paying attention. Not that there is any suggesting that you need to be paying attention, actually would not recommend. For a long time the news has been ignored as it is ridiculous and felt not worth the time.

Lately, for some reason, like in the last week, have been dipping a toe in some media. Carefully selecting the source, there are not many that meet the requirements, criteria of the sane (even some common sense?) population of, well let's say the world. Not the U.S., we have lost that right also, of thinking we are sane overall. Maybe never have been, but it is for certain a topic in question as of late. The answer seems easy to figure out. In the point of view of one of its citizens.

Anywho, it just gets more weird as you watch more...probably just going back to working puzzles. Can't start one now, some work being done on the house, that will have to wait. Writing posts here makes it all a little more palatable, or does it? It does. It is the space where creativity is the focus and gives a little hope, a place to hang out, think things out, build some trust among those with similar frequencies. This is the way it is intended. Feeling like this is devolving...be back.

Got a snack, the reason for the return to news media came to thought...First the state of the state, terrifying. The true reason dawned, the test of how this soul is going to react to the absolute nonsense of many "stories" in the news. It did not creat a furious outburst, as it did in the past. Yes, a few years ago, was in the crazy denial of all things happening outside the premise of logic thought. Also, the recognition of those that can buy into falseness, completely without connecting the dots of true intentions. 

Ok, stating the above, it brought to this soul, the curiosity to find out what makes humans so susceptible to "ideas", to programming, to not knowing any better because none of us protected them or ourselves from all these things. Guilty of it all, a participant also in taking other's words for truth without searching and proofing. Discovering that inside this being was a heart that was numbed to pretty much everything. Yes, all the things, all the vulnerabilities even to the extent of not speaking truths because of conflict possibility. Conflict avoider? Present.✋🏻

Never to regret being forced into an investigation of others actions, only to discover the self and its short comings. Not trusting this soul any longer to its own devices, letting the idea of right/wrong go. Letting it go because so much of it does not matter in the scheme of all things. This felt in the present as the news reports are spoken, no reactions, sometimes an "ugh" response to an outright lie. Here we are, this is not an issue any longer to invoke ill behavior. There is only the continuation of helping the soul integrate the mind and body in a productive way. Knowing and recognizing what is good for the soul and what is not. 

Continuing in this...

Keep hearing this word, origin..."the origin". The brain is a receiver. It sends signals to the body. It receives signals from....? Where are the messages coming from? Thoughts. Scientists say there are no explanations for internal thoughts as in where are they "originating". Our brain is a receiver, we can't explain what happens in the "mind". Not even sure or have a true explanation for this either. The brain, the mind, what is the difference? Finally, over the past couple of years in this mind, the thought spirals are diminished. Still can't relax the muscles in the neck, but the body is not in continual pain anymore.

No pain? This is huge. How did it happen? There is no explanation of that either. Still diabetic, still have high cholesteral, maybe these are healing next. Would that not be the greatest? Never so many deep breaths have been taken by this one in the last few years. It really is the secret to everything. At this moment, there is a peace within/without the soul never felt before...because of breathing instead of reacting or even responding these days. It is delicious to just walk away. Walk to the way of the way...

Opened the iPad up to post, thinking about breath and relaxation. Have gotten so sleepy...will need to finish this up tomorrow. Anytime any muscle relaxation can be acheived? Going with that...making that the priority. There are thoughts in the head, flashes of scenarios, not catching what is going on, but feeling all the feels. So, good night, will let you know what's flashing tomorrow.

And good morning, to you! A dream, cannot rememeber...a feeling, that's it. Cannot catch it, dream catcher in place...no joy. Joy in other things, coffee, blueberry muffin, dog, coffee shop with all this, but the dog. She's a menace to the public. I love her, no one else does. It's okay. Everything is okay. Really, at the moment feeling so much less stress...just finished some HR stuff for the new job. Good experience, well, mostly peeing in a cup and filling out paperwork, the people were nice. 

Would like to go into the whole, it exists in the Oral Roberts Hospital...that's what it was, "originally". Hmm, interesting anyway, look it up if you are interested and yes, it would be interesting enough to look it up. The man saw a 900 foot Jesus, yeah, man, take a look.👀 And this exactly why not wanting to get into it, major rabbit hole...

Back to origin, chuckling that the whole topic in the above paragraph is even related, but it is totally related in more than one way...a circle closing. As a student, completed one of the last rotations for my license at this same location, different company of course, couple of decades ago...hmm. No sadness about this, a cycle completed, cool. This seems to be the way of late, finishing up some shit/stuff/miscommunications/life trajectories...

This is such a difference, a 180 for me...just letting things happen...giving it over to another source, only breathing and listening with choices, decisions, writing, allowing, accepting, receiving. Only if led by Spirit, only if. For real, and the answer comes in thoughts, head words, a feeling, an ease of the soul. Yes. Can this be explained completely? No. Does it need to be? Of course not. Why? We want to "know", prove, have a scientific method/proof, but not currently sharing a discovery that needs a hypothesis and an argument, it is the experience of the soul. Remember the day it began. Hearing, "This is from your soul." It certainly is...and that is answer/proof enough. 

Others agreeing or approving of decisions, actions, ideas of your soul? Not their business, if any of it is shared in this space..., then you are special, because none of it has been shared except for you, reading. For you this is just confirmation that it is your choice, your decision, your life...and this is good enough to just choose for you. All that touches your soul...it is yours. Interesting. The origin of this life choosing of this soul...the catalyst did not only touch, but lit on fire, then crushed the heart, and in the mind before all of this cycled, clicked, was allowed, accepted, received. Uhm, yeah. Wow. Hoping to revisit this and truly want it to be mine, manifesting this, still.

In the heart. All of everything, changes, finding new routes and paths comes from the heart. It has some stellar feelings and emotions these days that are actually pleasant. A crushing coming to an easy peace that is open to any or all the accepting, allowing, receiving what is available, not pressing, hunting, trying to control. My neck just pleasantly popped, twice while writing this. The theory of breath and spine having the key to all of life...it is relaxing in the content of these words. Sincerely hope that some or all of these words might do the same for you...amen. 

Not a prayer, but an ending for sure...all of the life from before seems to be, can't think of the word,...dissipating. From a state of whole matter, to dissipation, undone, not connected, in complete separation from now, not related, not a consideration. Hmm. There is no questioning of the process, no wrongs done, only the no thing of everything making its way to the destination, not the final destination, just the path on the way, still on it. No thing was done wrong, the way of you is the way, it cannot be done in a different fashion in order to complete all the particulars. (jaw popped)

If no thing else the trouble spot of this body concerning tension held...relaxing. Maybe already said this, but off work this week. A week to solidify this way of relaxation that can be achieved and the sustaining of this when working at a job for someone else. If it is impossible...no thing ever is...c'mon. Now the spine between the shoulder blades popping. A kundalini awakening right here in the coffee shop? Coolio. Going over to "the book". Going to set up the first scene. Wrote a very interesting passage this morning...maybe the ending...and this can totally be. 

Just heard "slow progressing" in the ear, listening to a podcast...she also said, "particular" just as it was being typed above, couple of paragraphs back. Love this, love synchronicities, Jungian. Another podcast, "This Jungian Life" on Apple and Youtube. Interesting if you are a Jung fan, can't help but be a fan, he talks in my language, woo, woo, mystical, spiritual. Of course, "The Telepathy Tapes", this is what is done now, because cannot listen to music, because it makes me weep. Mhm, there is that. 

Thanks for listening to the drivel, just sharing a maybe common experience, knowing that it made this soul feel better during that time, just to hear, see, read anything confirming that it was not only me going through these renewals, rejuvenating a way back to our hearts...back to the heart. This is the place/space, the heart. Being there.

Took a deep breath, neck pops again.

Yesterday, accidently deleted a completed post...try, try again. Was not meant to be, apparently. Here goes. Because of a holiday and some circumstances around, job changes, a week off, unpaid. Whatever. Anyway, time, moments to spend on some projects of our chosing. Finally, finishing that job that I have been complaining about, pretty much all last week, was a complete disappointment, as in speaking and the exact opposite of what was spoken being done. Ok?

Now the project that has been in the works for 3 years. Focusing on this to get it going. It has been fits and starts all this time. This becomes a different type of writing? Loving to write more than anything. Focusing on one subject, project is much harder to organize and it is daunting, intimidating. Yes. This is the crunch time. Sure hope it gets going, procrastination at its finest. Love to write here, there is no pressure. No one even reading it. Maybe someday when the other project takes off. Not really doubting it, just don't know when its going to break through.

Break on through to the other side, hey. The Doors...gotta love 'em. Music...stopped listening, except for live shows a couple of years ago as it seemed to be influencing emotions, making emotions too intense or more intense. Now listen to informative podcasts, Youtube channels and this week cut a genre of those out also, as it was too influential to the creative juices in a negative way.  

Waiting on inspirational motivation, actually have this...but the picture has not come into focus, yet. Not yet, but it comes. The words maybe already written, then begin to organize...no, not yet. Knowing the beginning, know the characters, actually, it is already written...yes. More to be added to the in betweens, at this point an overview and some weird rabbit holes. Weird seems to be the way, so have not discounted these either. The soul bodies, the interesting parties, the ones that want you to die...yes. They are all here and accounted for, damn, it is already written. 

Maybe the soul already knows, knowing, being very nonchalant. Cool, beans, man. It is the knowing and the writing here just answers so many questions. Not really intending for this, but will take this all day long. Got the urge to type some stuff...nice surprise. Happy 4th by the way...Independence day in the U.S. Right now it is pouring rain, no fireworks happening tonight. Hmm. Thunder instead of   fireworks. (The fireworks did happen and just lasted later than normal, yeah.)

All the things meant for one thing, turning out to be for something else. Love when that happens, two for one, ditto, coolio. Happy Holiday, be safe out there, see you soon. Deciding now whether to publish the story on here. Post it up as a series? Hmm, maybe...will see, we shall see. Love to you and yours. That's all we gotta do.

Words heard today, "Always Knowing". Have been using the phrase, "Always Known" frequently as of late. Corrected this morning, as it is present, active, we are doing this now. We are not of the past, future, only the present. All the beings here seem to experience glee with correcting me...knowing this. Knowing the beings are ulteriorly making a point, you know? Sticking it. When Spirit corrects, don't even mind. Correction from Spirit is from love...always, in all ways. Yeah, not going to mention the particulars, just the comparison of the two situations. 

It's all love...there is nothing else and any not of knowing? They have some sort of wound/situation/mind full of issues, ego requirements that are met by putting others down. Nope. Loving, we are only doing this, only. It is always knowing, that it is love and you know what? Walking away today. Met the requirements expected, kept my mouth shut. Did not roll my eyes? Not sure about that, but lots of cuing of the self to breathe. And we are always breathing, creating our own electricity, being. Always being, knowing, moving, creating, going, not stagnant, not in a space of, well, hatefulness? Ok, seems to accurately describe. 

Moving on from this in 4 hours and 17 minutes. Moving on to a space that has already claimed my being. Just got an email that the director at the new job has already added supervision with the licensing board. Never has that happened before and you know what? All this messed up health insurance crap that has been happening? Long story, but it took 29 days to activate insurance. All of the prescriptions, dr visits, etc, you know, messed up. Life threatening meds, if not available. Yeah. They dropped the ball and the thud created an earthquake.

Apologize for continuing to give details, trying so hard not to, but the stark differences coming from where we are to where we are going? Remarkable, drastic, thank you Spirit, again. Always knowing you are looking out for us. The new job, yes, let's speak of this...in-house healthcare, therefore, if this is crapped out for med needs where we are for another moment? Then trusting that, medical access is available, there will not be dying, for this being. Also, many messages coming of newness, this gives the energy, the vibe, of loving, all the action verbs, let's use them. Let's do all of them, action, acting out of love given by Spirit, cuz...it is not coming from any others, yet.

Slept on this last night and you know what? It is okay for emotions to surface when another being makes special intent to harm or upset another. This is on them or is this somehow on me for being there to get projected on? This is a hard concept to accept, understand, etc. However, this soul accepted, allowed, and received these energies, sort of. Resistance present for sure, but completed a two week notice period, not to feel guilty, to keep a good reputation and endured subterfuge retaliation. Just the most petty little gradeschool girl antics by a grown man. 🙄

So, here's to this soul for making it through w/o saying anything ugly, except here. Plus, does this create any guilt? No, and next time would just walk out. Old makes you braver. Not brave, but having the idea of being brave...not brave enough to act on it, but prepared to do just that at the tipping point. Hoping to never find out. Moving on and on the surface, as always, seems to be a good fit. Only moments passed will tell. Will let you know, when knowing.

Not caring is good and mostly just boof everything off. Boof: the sound a Corgi makes when there is no reason to bark but wants you to know it is annoyed. Corgi Boof 

Part of life, hear it everyday, "Boof." But sometimes the insult is just a little too sharp and it gets you on a level anyway. Then this causes another level of annoyance that you couldn't just boof and walk away. 3 more days and this arena of snidely pointing out every little mistake. Could do the same and don't, how can any of this matter as there will not be a space next week, actually after Thursday? No more of this soul in that space...let it go people, please.

Trying. Give a talk to the self every morning that it is pointless and there is no point for anything more than the "Boof". Really, "Boof you!" So using this now. It is my go to snark. 😂 Boof🫵🏻. Ok that was fun, over it now. Going back to second half of work...3 hours, 20 min. Not that there is counting happening.

Also, a week off work, next week

A little update: Left work after my schedule was completed. Today a patient mysteriously appears at the last slot of the day and oh, simultaneously, someone marks themselves some "director time" not a space for a patient, just some "me time". Why? Spite.

Here we are, was writing in the journal, but felt the need to type. Quicker? Maybe. Kids will be here soon. Got to get some info out? Ok, bring it. Outside in the wind, feels good, however, the eyes are so dry. Eye drops? Taking two different kinds. Dunno, but got some health issues goin' on. Can only do what can be done. Doing that. Doing that now.

So the Spirit says, don't worry bout the body, it comes on-line. It is just behind all the others...it comes still. Always comes, in all ways. And can we write, while talking? Nope. Next day picking this back up. Some quick synchronicities, in the previous "12:34" post using the word "begrudgingly", same word this morning in a podcast, then writing the word "concede" and listening to a different podcast..."concession" at the exact moment finished writing the word. 

Then imagine, in my house just screaming these words, BEGRUDGINGLY!!!!... CONCEDE, CONSESSION!!!!...😂 Anyway, hope the neighbors didn't hear, bahaha! The dog staring at me very confused. Oh, and the dog...she and I having a connective moment this morning also. Staring at each other, telepathic communication. Our eyes locked, "she knows", "I know", "J knows" from the Mammie channel. We all know now, and this is exciting because no thing can stay the same now. The ones that know and the ones that never connect the dots. Ever, like for everlasting.

What do we know? That we are all the same eyes, we all see the same photonic energetic magnetic frequency image of light particles that aren't even particles, they are waves...that are being projected before us. All of us one pair of conscious eyes. Alive by breath, melts back into matter if breath stops. Can you fathom? If not, don't worry...it is not meant for you to know. It is sadness to say, but somehow it just is.  We are seeing, sensing all the experiences, but it is all, "reality?", but it is dreams also. It is everything all at once and there is no timeline, no beginnings, no endings. A dream within a dream...

There it is, you just decided this is bullshit, or this struck a chord in you that sings the truth to your very soul...from your soul, to your soul, by way the heart, from the heart in origin, but coming in from outside. How is that possible? Yes.

Have another, think it over...which one are you? "She/He knows" or "dots...???" Cheers!

Time on the clock, succession of numbers, steps to take, the line-up of things to be done on the "to do" list. Yeah, however, do not make the to do list for life anyway, b/c Spirit is in charge. I don't even want to do it. When I try to set things up, do smart things, work things around, things, things, things. Never works out as planned, never has, once. Well, at least not the way is was exactly planned, maybe end result, but not the process. Not in the way planned, 1. 2. 3. 4. Why would this still be a way of doing anything?

Now that I have recognized, there is no way to plan anything like we would hope it could go. No way. The best laid plans, and all that... Now, Spirit. Talk to Spirit, the ideas for the plans are coming from there anyway, if they are good ones. Bad plans, worries, fear, doubt all this always coming up sometimes making it so stressful and overwhelming none of the steps get done. The Spirit way? Think it. Have a remarkable idea. Let it play out. If you forget it, fine was not meant to be. If you don't forget, but do not obsess or start that run down of the list above, stress, etc.

How good am I at this? Not that good. There is a thing that is wanted, been wanting for over 3 years. Not a sign of it, not a hint, word, sighting, absolutely nothing. Cannot let it go. Sure way to never get it. Does not make me cry anymore. Usually. There is another thing that is here now. Four months ago, wanted, made moves to get it, didn't get it. Didn't completely forget about it, but it was not a significant part of present moments. Yup, came back around, got it.

Learning from this? You would think that. Trying to learn? Trying to apply the known steps? Yes, successful in some moments. Still stress about it, not as significant. Still have moments of grief over not getting/having it. An ability to live and move on without it? Of course. Lots of changes, making room, opening all the spaces, telling the heart, uhm, the heart telling me...talking to the soul. Not even sure what they say to each other most of the time. The stupid mind, will not let the proper emotions rule. Always making a scene. But, but, but not standing for disrespect, well, you should read "Bein' Green" right below this post. 

Walking away from this disrespect, being a good human in the process, nothing in it for me, but respect. Taking it. And walking away from a person that is not giving even the slightest attempt at being human, good or otherwise. He begrudgingly gave me a cookie the other day. I can read your vibe, dude, it was begrudging. 1,2,3,4...first steps walking away, 1,2,3,4...more days working with Mr. Begrudge.

Bye-bye

Yes, we have moved to frogs today. Kermit the Frog, "It's not easy being green.", his song. Relate. Not green, but we all have issues. I sure do. Everyone just being mean, not because I'm green, but for some reason. You know what that reason is? I'm nice, unbothered and they are certainly bothered, making sure all around them are bothered also. Jack asses. Well, that felt really good. Mhm. 

That whole, people mirror back what you give, bullshit. They give it, never do I give it back. I was not giving it to begin with, so explain that. I'm sick of it. I did a sort of walk away today. In a really nice way. Did the laundry first and cleaned up everything no one else bothered cleaning. Then walked away. That'll show 'em. Sure they did not even notice. But did it, there you go. Bam! Ha! I'm ridiculous.

I am aware of my ridiculousness, this is the problem. Jack asses, oh they have every right to be the dickheads they are...are we creating a Jack Ass Town with the whole frequency thing? Please. Please. Do not tease me, because at this point, cannot. Cannot. Let's think of the alternative. All of us together in a place WITHOUT the jack asses. Beautiful. This I can.

Is it? Is it? IS IT? Do not tease, do not tell me if it isn't so. Could it possibly be? I really do think/feel/whatever we are supposed to be doing nowadays. I'm tired of all the selfish bullshit. Yeah, tired of fighting a bacteria in the body and nobody can seem to get their shit together, but I always have my shit together. I fucking do. So here's to the town of Jack Ass. Cheers!

Seriously, dogs be so cute, this pic over in the ART section...check it out. She look and she be smart like Albert Einstein. This weird way of talking is how I talk to her and she likes it. She's the guard dog, won't tell you her name because she is super protected, by me. I am super protected by her, mutual, reciprocal. Definitely.  

And now we move to a relaxed state, we, meaning me, she is always relaxed when she want to relax. On the other hand, it takes a lot to make me relax when trying the hardest. This is something I have been working on however and it is better. Not good, just better than it was...it's been bad for a long time. Breathing helps. Isn't this just the most stupid thing, you know, forgetting to breathe? Like, what? It is autonomic, if you are not dead. But it is so useful for maintenance of the body system and we forget. We are stupid. Will speak for myself, but, well you know.

Breathing now, on purpose, for relaxation. Amazing, yup, isn't it though? The thing that brings all this to mind is writing. Obviously, writing now, so...Sure that this has been said before somewhere in all the writing, but it did save my life. It was my solace, the place to escape. Hours upon hours, page after page, day after day...if a day has been missed, do not know when that would have been. Most of the time carry a journal with me just in case. If a spare moment arrives, writing.

Made a special trip to the coffee shop to write before an appointment with my new employer to visit the clinic where I will be working soon. Wrapping up the last few days at the most momentary job ever, one month and one day. Got a better offer, what can I say? Bonuses, sign on bonus, got to pick how many hours to work, Monday's off, seriously. The place where I am now, asked for reduced hours, they  put me on the schedule full time, I countered. 36 hours, asked for 30.

That was the easiest decision ever made in the history of all my decisions. All the alls of all-time, The last 3 years there have been so many firsts, mosts, nevers and so on. Here we are still slogging aloing, but making the way, writing to become a writer. Guess we are finally figuring out what we want to be when we grow up.

Now no thing is weird. Every little thing is of and by Spirit. Do not doubt this - do not doubt the bird singing was not sent directly to you this morning moment and in a language only translatable to the heart soul. It brings joy and comfort indeed. No doubt whatsoever. None.

Nature, plants especially all purposeful...some for beauty some for nourishment, all with an intended part of life's cycle. When a being is in its purpose it is always a beautiful thing...just this gives a grounding a confidence in the root of stability.

We exist in the world we make...make it beautiful. Do what makes beauty. Offerings on stand-by, available to receive, we cannot give to what does not receive-this is nature inherent...not understood. The way of Spirit is only in the receiving-only in a method of of experience.

Expectations = Ruination of every and/or any experience. Experiences cannot be planned. They are meant to be adventures not scheduled expectations.

Relax in to the movement. It keeps coming back to you, the offering from Spirit... it came exactly  perfectly on time...received with great magnitude of gratefulness. Overflowing. In the process of receiving more revealed of the generosity of the offer. The bar set so low, new hours, the actual draw, then the offerings of more continued to flow.

In this joy, in this a true thankfulness. Dampening the mind with its, "but what ifs" and allowing Spirit, receiving Spirit, being led in first moments by the breath of Spirit in the lungs designed by Spirit.

We are co-creating, we begin, are beginning exposure, the practice of the lock-step (7:36*) another synchronicity, off the charts.

Lock-step metaphorical:

Things that progress, change or agree in perfect, unyielding "synchronization" and coordination. (Of course.)

Lock-step computing: method of fault tolerant design where multiple processors execute the exact same instructions at the same time to check system errors.

The details known...because when hearing the wrong info, it hits wrong-truth rings, falseness thuds. This matters to us, we are energy and spaces, give them support. It is our actuality, life of breath. Settled, comforted by touch, sound, smell, light, indeed.

Love it when the writing syncs up with the word given in the definition. Lock-step, never have these words passed these lips before today.

*time sync that brings a certain being to mind, 7:36

And unknown is the subject of this post...the previous post title is cracking  me up, however. Anyway, lets get into it. The "it" maybe illusive, as the environment is noisy, busy. There are children here. For some reason I thought this coffee shop was a religious somethin' or other. Then I looked up wine bars on the map and it popped up.  Espresso martinis of course and a couple of other options. Huh? There just seems to be a lot of Amish or Mennonite types in here with their kids, unfortunately. 

I mean, I like kids...pediatric therapist and all, but here to get out of the house to "work". Anyway, they don't usually hang around long, too boring for the kiddos. But now I have the topic...I am out of the house. Last weekend at a course. Last night exhausted from having to fight for myself. Said I didn't want to work full-time, put on the schedule, full-time. So, I had to challenge that. Wanting to work 30-32 hours a week. Working 36 as of now. Anyway, felt a concession was in order as I failed to put the hour scale on the contract. Damn it, I know better.

But here I am, right here. Eating a chocolate chip cookie and matcha for dinner. Didn't order a drink, maybe go somewhere else for that, you know...the children. Some interesting folks here. Too old, way too young and a bunch of girls of various ages that is also a, "No." from this lady. Only Cindy Crawford could turn me and most of you have no idea who that is. Look her up. Again, anyway, anywho.

Art, needing to get another color pencil piece going. It is the thing enjoyed, tried other mediums and can do a pretty good sketch now. Learning more can only enhance skills, but the color pencil is the way of relaxation for me, after writing. Oh, an have always been an absolute expert at napping. The dog, on a cat mission would not let the sleep come. Then, at 3pm, "Get up and go." And the body rose up from the bed, the dog looking confused, and I began getting ready. There is no longer ever any hesitation. There was a learning curve, but stupid, in most cases is not a description of this brain.

Totally, off subject but had a great conversation with a young girl working at the tag office. Was changing my address on license and voter registration and the screen of party affiliation came up. Heard that Independents were not going to be allowed to vote on the democratic ticket any longer. She looked surprised and said that is the trend, going independent. Not by any noticeable difference of democrats/republicans, but both changing to independent. Tired of the fuss, the absurdity of the current fiasco happening. Yes, it is 2026 in the states. Surprise!

Back to being out in public...hermit is the moniker most appropriate for this life at this moment and it is never a problem for this one. There is strong hermitage in this one. The aloneness can't scare me. It is much preferred than spending time with the ridiculous. Low tolerance, which is not a factor of the "love collective". Love can be extended without spending time with the ones out to alter or diminish the frequency obtained. This is much easier to detect nowdays than back before the knowledge recognition of what was happening to me was remembered.

The soul does not forget? No, the soul is the recognition, the wisdom. Uhm, and this is the saying of the day..."Always known" It is the same every lifetime, but the a new baby human does not remember, resets. Good for guilt and shame, but recognition of the easier way to gain the ascended level to acquire transfiguration to the point of ascension without the death process, forgotten. The reset. The challenge is to progress to the point of the Creator engagement to the extent of lifting us out to be in the safety of the Father, Universe, Spirit or other names given. "Come to me, you beautiful creation, as you have met the threshhold of the holies. Come."

Emotions rise, when the Creator calls your name, the name given by creation. How could you resist, resist complete response? There comes these moments when these truths come through and Spirit gives the frequency of the love that is known. Always known since our eyes connected in the material presence, the souls having always been connected and communicating. Always known. Made manifest at that moment and cannot release that look. Releasing the outcome, but never the love, because it, always known.

Background pic is flowers on the table at the coffee shop, beauty.

So is this title as suggestive as it seems? Did not want to outright plug or rip off the movie. One of my former co-workers used to call me John Wick. Never saw the movie until today. Asked him about it, he didn't really explain, but now a little disturbed by my character portayal in this world. Badass? Ok. I will take it.

Knowing that there is no shit taken from anybody anymore. Seriously, the dog is super important to me...the car? Meh, not really. It's a soccer mom car. Can own the fact that if someone goes to the bad side, there's no talking, there is just consequences. No, this is not the norm, but a few dudes, they have seen the mean side and they didn't like it. Normally, sugar, spice and everything nice. Be happy with that fellas. Why must you test?

By the way, if anyone in this country gets their right to vote taken away? The only purpose in this life will be to rectify that. Suffragette? Sure, but not that nice. That is so far over the line...if everyone is not fighting with us, what are you even doing? Well, so happy to dump that off the chest.  Have a good day! Make sure we don't slip up behind you...ha, ha, ha, haha! JK...?

Soma, restaurant...the waitress says, crabcakes and I say, "What kinda cupcakes?" Anyway, will have something sweet apparently. Let's channel...

From the beginning, at this moment, keep having moments of cognition, but it is actually recognition as it is all things or moments remembered from the first days of the journaling. Environmental healing, an annointing that make some sort of world healing. Scalp is tingling now. So, all the things that made absolutely no sense are now coming back in more coherent way making all the sense. Coolio.

The main, the magnificent, the interesting, the one thing making all the difference. Changing all the irritations (and there have been some cranky moments for sure) lifting the moods of the moment. The heart space has taken over, the heart has said, "Step aside, this is mine."  And it surely is. Gushing right out of that specific space. A river red and thick, carrying all the requirements for all the love, mind manipulations, letting the truth come into view. The mind such a liar, deceitful in every possible way.

Now a recognizeable way of moving forward that has no fear, it is absolutely the way of no doubts. It makes a smile come and moments of disbelief that this could not be latched onto...3 years it has taken for the mind to relent. It cannot hold onto the deceptive illusions that have held us in a stall. Love that a flying, pilot word just popped out there. This is too good, this is alright, this is the bomb.

Girl, what did you think was happening. You are not meant for the boring, c'mon. Technically, there are no rules, there are no historical learnings that can lead or direct...this is all you, y'all. Not one to pick up or display the okie vernacular, but this is not the usual, not in the least. Everything is up for grabs, on the loose, turned upside down, inside out, backwards, front to back. There are no rules. Only the movement that has never been seen before.

Go with it, run with it. Run like you have never ran before. It is all exactly as you perceived. Learn to trust the intuition and discern the souls that are acceptable into your family of souls. The feeling today when you realized your intitial thoughts and emotions, identification of frequency was completely on track. On the nose, no doubts, just trust. Now faith that it all comes, just like it was, is.

Beautiful is the day that the recognition settles in that we are not responsible for any other being, but the self. Deliciously is this absorbed into the being holding this soul as there is no affinity with most persons. As most persons are just fillers in the actuality of the self. (Yes, down the woo woo trail, get ready.) Empathically picking up their vibes in this life, but no more. Finally, catching on that this is unneccessary, not the "job", desired experience, of course, no one would choose this life of an empath. It is horrific and the natural response is to care. No longer does this soul care or can be fooled into caring. Damn, this is the best ever. Best for everyone and no one can change it now, because it will now never be unseen, ever. Everlasting.

Everlasting life. Infinity. No more of this life as the life of this soul being is aware, is finished with the deception of no one. Nefarious beings have become no one of existence. Booted, out, non-existent, of no concern, whatsoever. Nevertheless, nonetheless, etc. Love the words that smash many words together to make a run-on-word as there is a partiality to run-on sentences and this carries over seamlessly. Words, love them actually in any form or format. Writing them, not speaking. 

Imagined or other-wise there is an issue in the vocal cords of this body being...suspicious is that. Have been informed by an ENT that is is partially psychological. Great, an issue invoked upon the self. The idea that not being able to express the self has caused an issue with speaking clearly,. not to mention being heard. That should be a new combined words addition: "nottomention". The idea that no one has ever given credence to the words from this mouth, then to physically manifest the misunderstanding of words through a psychic phenomenon, self-imposed. How utterly mortifying...

This is the life of this being...a being that has overcome so many obstacles in the last three years. This still lingers and there is no doubt of the fact that the breath is involved. Repeatedly have we discussed the Holy Spirit as the breath of life. The voice relies upon the breath to vocalize. Calling upon Spirit has brought new life to the soul-being. There is no obstacle to the Spirit bringing new life to the voice. Maybe a voice unlike the one utilized before. The one that was stressed and overused the musculature of the neck and voice components. A true condition paralysing the vocal cords so they do not open and close correctly. The breath cannot enter correctly. (Unless Mrs. Doubtfire appears. See below.)

The natural voice never used correctly? Possibly. Now the voice of breath comes out clearly in any other voice, like an impersonator. There is a fondness for the "Mrs. Doubtfire" voice. Certain singing voices, except for the one familiar as, "the voice" previously bestowed upon this being. It is gone, along with any concept of the former being. So, are we recognizing that this is the way, we are the way. In the way of Spirit moving through souls, in the way that there is no other way or any form of existence can be described now, we continue, in our way? See what's meant by the run on sentence writing aspect? Check ☑️

Sitting down to eat. Eating not the emotional challenge it used to be. Thankfully. Fuel, now. Less connected to emotions, feelings, a solace for whatever is happening. How did this come about? Diabetic. Finally, "allowed" by an insurance company to be prescribed an intervention that actually works. Of course, this being the injection so many are using for weight loss currently. Years ago when I began the injections it was life or death actually as the pancreas had given up all insulin production. 

There was an initial weight loss. Not dramatic, 10-15 lbs. Blood sugars acceptable, but the significant change in how the body no longer felt as if it was fighting for life. Exhaustion was a daily experience along with inflammation, skin issues. It was much easier to exercise once the injections began, because there was energy left in the body when the fight for life was lessened. 

Currently, about 20-25lbs lost without effort. Would not suggest this for those not experiencing a serious disease. Those borderline diabetics, yes. All the others? Why put your body through something like that when otherwise you are healthy? Feeling leery about the after effects of this as most known to have soley used this for weight loss, put the weight right back on.

There was no preconception of writing this post. Apparently someone needs to know. Thanks for reading, it's my POV. Talk to your doctor. 

The "soul date" that is so enjoyable for, you know, the soul. Got foiled. Bubs invited me to dinner with him, L. and J. Yeah, so. Now debating if another date waits to next week or a Saturday date, for the soul. Probably next week. Too many projects at home. Maybe tomorrow a stay home paint the dining room date? 🖌️ I have wine. Hmm, maybe. Doesn't sound bad actually. So, ok. 

At Tina's again, and there are many people here, it is 4:42PM. How has everyone discovered my thing? Going out super early to avoid the crowd. However, a slew of early birds and not blue hairs, regular hairs. Well, a few blue hairs, but all the other hair colors also. Lots of dudes, but they are with other dudes. I don't understand how this socializing thing works and really not interested in anyone, but one dude. Apparently, he is disinterested. And now, in this moment of the life of this soul, that is just living in this body...looking out the eyes of the skull somehow. Living in the heartspace, hangin'. Watching the show.

Actually, very indifferent, not engaged. Well, I guess the thoughts in the mind are available and that is moderately entertaining, I'm a crack-up. Snarky as hell. But really? Is this it? Recognition, remembering, things written about in this very website. Complete weirdness, until...until you figure out all those freaky downloads had a real aspect. WTF? Mhm, alright...I am right a lot, it is disturbing because the things I'm right about? Not normal, eccentric for sure. Damn.

Still here I am. Alone at a table along with my soul, having a date. A soul date, doin' my thing, man. Dude. I do enjoy sitting here writing, writing anywhere actually. It is the thing that makes me happy. You know what is not making me happy, lately? Writing a book about assumptions, conjecture and speculation. Most of it is factual, happened to me, the rest is just what would make a good story and that is not what is coming out of the soul. The soul must write.

The soul can write, but it is just a chore now. A thing. Something that needs to be done, revamped. It makes me think it is wrong and it needs to be fixed, yeah. Blah. Ick. Not interested, just want it to come out naturally, but then all that f'ing writing still sitting there in cyberspace. Trash it? See, don't know? Can't decide. Do we have to decide? The very beginning, when we were being crushed by circumstance, crying...pretending it was all about my mom. And it was, but it was also a large part of him being pulled from beneath my skin, slow and painful. Things being so desperate and walking into the kitchen hearing, "Write the book, he's coming back." Those were the words. I have not written the book, he has not come back. 

For some reason this is just making me laugh. It seemed simple, easy. Do this, then that? Or what? I really never thought that writing the book was bringing him back...actually more like, if he would come back, that would make a much better ending to this book. Get his side of story. Learn about the witchy, bitchies. Yeah, that would be fascinating, interesting. The real story. Told from both sides. Now only guessing what happened to him. He has never spoken another word to me since then. Again, damn.

Fruckerly, fruck. See? Crack-up extroidinaire. Whatever. Are we losing interest? Who would have ever thought it. Strong is the energy/force with this one. Well, let us consider. There is a new house, there is no other around. This would be a really good time to forget it all. All of it. Or, damn it, write the book, but options are available. Clear it out, wash it down the drain? Why does this de ja vu...the drain. The river. Standing by a drain on a street by the river. Ok?

This is more like it, freaky weird de ja vu, downloads. Words in the head coming from who knows where. That's what we like. This is the talent, the gift, the book. This is how it is written. A fugue state of information coming out through my fingers on a sheet of paper with a pen, or on a keyboard, like this. The energy...damn, how to describe something you cannot possibly describe? We will do our best, mhm. Yes, of course we will. What else would we do? The ancestors, angels, spirit guides, etc. Ok, that's it. 

Can we get a little more instruction?

Are you asking questions again?

Yes. Am I getting answers? Are we?

Disappointment. We, not I. We are internal, we are parts of your being, part of your (heard, "corpse"?) body, of the Earth. Matter of Mother, the chosen, because you get to choose the body, the parents, the place, the space. Again, making me laugh as the space, place chosen, very obscure, unassuming. Parents with integrity, reliable, made a great place for growing up. Beautiful and thankful for this. Makes thoughts go to the fact that a positive childhood creates room in the heart initiating additional space for loving others? Unknown. But has a feel good notion to it.

A little update, as J., was very attitudinal towards this soul, intruding on our soul date and this is his way of dealing. No judgement or hard feelings, but a definite mood of not subjecting the body senses to those intentions. He can deal with his own issues, as we are dealing over here. It has to be all good. This is the state of hopefulness for the entire situation. This body has made remarkable progess since coming into a different space. This we will celebrate. This we will be most grateful for in all things. It is all, not for nothing. 

Go here:In The Middle 

Shocked, I know. At a coffee shop, again. It is a more unusual spot than where I normally land. Blah, blah...Ok, let's get going...

Speculation. Conjecture. Assumption, that's a, "No." But the last three years of your life have been based on these. Moment of now, we are leaving these behind. Intuition, definitely, use it. We can make moves based on intuitive "hits", energy, etc. This always the best way, if energy feels off, or is unreadable, just wait. Give your  sensory talents and gifts time to adjust or come up to speed, with said energy.

Think back, because normally you are checking these people at the door, there is no waiting. Therefore, if you find yourself in a scattered, static, chaotic moment, presented in a space. Trust Spirit, yourself, one and the same, in all actuality. Indeed, of course. Now we are going. And the situation that seems to be of topic? A someone coming in for who knows what...just be cautious. You know your speed now. You know your own energy now and so does everyone else. No reasons to speculate on any of that.

Just looked up into the current coffee shop scene. Lined up out the door. Got here "just in time". Oh, always, girl, in all ways. Back to the other space, oh how lovely it is...your very own space of world. It is yours, you are in charge and now it is coming...but you are bringing it. None of the next moments will be of anything more than what Spirit is creating with you, co-creating. And immediately your mind goes to that ol' WOMPA. (A co-working space near by.) You are not wrong there either. It comes.

Now, do you know what is coming? Do you care? Well, do you need to wonder or worry? Absolutely not! How delicious and just now a giant smell of cookies came through the atmosphere of this shop and what could be a more beautiful way of advertising?...good smell of cookie, most likely chocolate chip. You know what else smells like the chocolate chips nestled in a cookie? Angelic presence. Yup, going there. Dude, ok, bring it on!

Rarely are exclamation points used in these writings, but two in the last paragraph, wow. Huh? Angelic. Sighting? Yeah, no. But feeling, quite possibly. And are we there yet? Senseless remarks, but always love the question and answer time with ancestors, guides and Spirit. Shoot.

Are we in alignment? 

Will answer, "Yes." (Usually not a lot of trick questions going on in these sessions.) 

Old news is all that comes from favorite sources? 

Indeed.

Want the new news? 

New new, please.

Tap into "super-natty" feels. Mhm.

Here it is, what is coming, that would be you. You in an alignment,  with guides of Holy Spirit, the flame. The underlying energy and this is ours. Bernardo Your Life is not about You is correct, you are not the subject of the world. Egocentricism is not a thing any longer. It is not. Now we can move to the next moment. All of the last learning occurring in the last 3 years of speculation, conjecture, assumption, it was a moment in your life, a time line. How long was the time line? IT DOES NOT MATTER. As here we are now, and in this moment we decide how we procede.

Definitely, we will not procede with any speculation, conjecture or assumptions of any kind. 

Agreed? 

"Easy...Yes!" Exclamation point. Mhm. 

Where? 

Wow, is there room for thinking? 

Not really. 

Then stay where we are. 

Ok. Doint what? 

Writing. 

Quick response, good job.

Thank you.

Procede. 

Is that it?

Who is asking the questions?

Oh, yeah.

Procede.

Ugh. The story is in the past.

Yes. 

And?

Is that a question?

Ugh.

Procede.

Ok. Yes.

See how that goes? This is how it goes, these conversations. Always a zinger for me and proof that only Spirit can be trusted. This ties right back to the beginning. Only Spirit can guide and then intuition kicks in, to support, then the ancestors jump up and around you, either to protect or cheer on. And this is the new life, the new news, we move in this way. Also, this is not new, it has in all ways been right here for us, we could not see.

We have small indications of what might be coming, we do not know the details. This is intentional and held us all back, or at least all of us "sensitive" souls, truly meant as an insult when used by most, there is no doubt. Too insecure to move on in anyway. Not forward, backward, up or down, no movement, because fear. Fear. All the fear that we could speculate, conject? (ha, ha!), assume, no need. Let it go, let it be and now we mean it. We actually mean to put this into practice, now.

There is no past, future, no, only present. Knowing you have heard this before. Did you apply it? This soul has not been able to, but this is the new day. We are in the new moon of intentions. Seeds definitely planted, sprouts starting to move toward warmth. This is the thing, the modus operandi, for now, for always, in all ways. 

Fin

At least for today

Another random example that is irresistible to those who are in a state of being open to an irresistible call. Each of us have it, many never recognize or even have an interest in looking outside their sphere of egocentricism. Looking down the list of posts on this page we see, random DL, weirdness, culminations, etc. There is no persona for being in a position to allow, accept and receive any and all things from a sense of spiritualism.

This is my life at the moment. It is all there is really. All of the gestures, faking, postulating of the persons that persons "want" to be. Sitting here judging everyone at the bar, and knowing we are one of them at any point and time. Having at one time or another been in the same state of mind, the same being of lack, looking for something they think is not in their life at this moment. Actually, I am there quite recently. Knowing that where this body was residing was not the space the soul could relax, breathe or expand in anyway.

Left that place, not in search of anything but quiet. Moments that are not interrupted by nonsense. It is another judgement, but also a drain of energy. It was a non-mutual energy existence. Not a relationship, a friendship for sure, but one that started with two very immature beings and one that is still at the same immature state and an old woman. Yes. Mhm, was not even given a hint that this was going to be written tonight. On a date with with being. Known that a date alone is the best dates ever had, so far.

I am a great date for this soul. These dates are so great for the soul of the being that is here on Earth. Remember telling B., he is the creation of the above not a relationship friend mentioned above. He is beautiful, he has a heart of the soul of his grandmother, the mother and creator of this being writing this post. There is such a beauty in this generational lineage, line of ages. Never before broken this word down into what it actually means. Known now that it is a constant, a line of DNA that has been passed down and we know in the heartspace that something is special. We recognized it when all were in-body, but not in completion. We still held a  belief of separation. Beliefs, the lies of men. Unfortunate to say the least.

Unfortunate for sure. The vodka is kicking in from the martini and the shoulders relax, the mind opens to more, spirit, from the spirits. From long ago, the work of the monks, the nuns. Not really sure if nuns, were brew masters, but they are. Abbeys in Germany and Belgium had breweries to provide "nutrition" (how cute is that?) and income. Got to love a good nun! The Belgian nuns possibly from a lineage of this incarnation, the DNA structure, the surname coming generally from this region. Interesting. Beings with breath. Breath of Spirit, life of soul.

The body only an antenna, a receivor for the messages of spiritual contact, information and knowledge. This is the most loved portion and just cluing into this aspect very recently. What were we doing? Giving all energy to the ones taking and not giving back. Depleting the supply we are given and never once considering that we were dehydrated, gasping for water, needing a drink of the energetic field, but we gave it away as our nature is to give. Their nature is to take.

Here we are in a moderately busy little beer bar, oh and burgers. Good burgers. Going to download a message with noise, without earbuds so far...and just glancing down at the last post, WEIRDNESS. Have no idea what that is about...don't remember writing it. Will re-read later. Ok, here we go...

Distant smoke, random spoke, about the life before awoke. Ha, ha, ha!! Sorry, that just caught me off guard, do love that rhyming, however. You are on the right path with the book...keep receiving. This isn't hard as everyone wants you to believe. It's yours, mine and the underlings?, unberlenes? this is not a word. I can't get it, does it rhyme? So many questions, so little time. Ok, talk about weirdness!

Now, it's time, no more rhyme, loving this moment, very sublime. Oops. Down to the wire, HAIM-"The Wire". Alright, randomness at the very most random. Cool. Now, let's go...indeed take me there, also another song, uhm, don't care.  Stop rhyming, I mean it! Anybody want a peanut. OMG!

Then we just don't care anymore. About anything, the need to react, to even pay attention, seriously, it's over, damn! This is so great, no cares, no worries, no obligations, mhm. Not a bad gig, man.

Wrote up the new life schedule and it is the best thing that I have ever seen. All the faves, all the things loved, no fuckery of others. 

Why? Ego crap. Oh, nice. Love the question answer sessions:

What did you expect? Much more crying.

Disappointed? Not in the least.

Next? More of the same.

Worried? Well, saying, "No." Don't trust myself, trusting in you, however.

Oh, wait. Is this Essa?

Oh, my! This is remarkable, talk to me!

"I have been asking the questions, would you like to do some asking?" Listen to Reem. She said, "momentus, the crossroads.  Ignoring signs. Don't like being reminded of the past, is for insight not trauma returns. History, ancestry, being returned. Moving keeps coming up...done deal. Gone. Lineage of something to be received."

Just listen.

The gift, the present, reminded of the "old ways". Yeah, this is the thing, it is a surprising thing, I'm sure...ancestors of healing and spiritualism and then a Baptist. I am receiving this gift, designee, assets, beneficiary. Uh, huh, ok, on Earth. Well, this will be a surprise. Coming from the poor folks, the share croppers and house cleaners. Ok, maybe a little in the analogy department. But I can totally see that the gifts will produce a legacy, and monetary benefits. Cool. The meek and the inheritance...

A pivot, a change to a the actual purpose of the life, the breath, the spine and all of its electrical energetic charge that continues life through electronic pulses, from electrons, of course. A continuous rythmn, beat of life, proof of life, proof of continued breath, oxygenation, elemental make-up of physical form and internal workings of organs, circulatory systems, elimination systems, nutritient absorption for health of systems. Water. 

Learning that water holds messages, remembers words, reacts to words by crystalization formation in the frozen state. In liquid state, a remembrance of molecules presents such as anti-biotics after dilution. Coded message remembrance, receipt of current messages from elemental chemical combinations and speech of human beings. How can ingesting water not change us? Born of water, what did that really mean? Water that is more intelligent than most humans? 

Think the above words are make believe? Look it up, look at recent studies of water by scientists. Learn something that might actually lead you to a spiritual experience that includes your god, God. They are not hating on anyone...there is only love even in the very imperfectness. So try a little love, change your little heart, be a human being, not an egocentric machine. C'mon let's try at least. So many are not even trying. Try.

This the message...not going to explain or add words for clarification. If the words do not mean anything to you, then they are not for you, at this time. The something going on now is bridges, portals, pivots, relax and let it all come to you. There is no fighting only recognizing how to give effort to a change...a positive change. Keep creating, spiritual friends, keep creating a life we can be proud to be a part of, together.

Something is different. What would that be? No idea. This is the internal conversation going on in the mind, more so from the heart to the mind. They are talking to each other, and it is super cool. None of us know what we are doing, but we are doing it. Sincerely it is just energy...just being energetic and there is no certain frequency, it is our/your frequency. 

There are persons, they do not speak verbally or even make eye contact, but there is an energy that comes and a sort of communication begins. They are either aware of it or not. It does not matter because an interaction between molecules, particles occurred. There is no doubt these souls will come back around, come back telepathically, maybe an existent little frequency that maintains that tiny little connection.

There are other persons that are in vicinity, proximity, same room even and there is nothing. No connectivity, no energy. Is that even possible if you are maintaining breath? (Well, hmm. Another subject another time.) This is being experienced recently and it is disturbing. That disconnected, in their own head? That no frequency is coming from the structure of muscle and bone. That word combo coming into writings presently. Musle and Bone.

The energy subdued to the point of no detection, yeah. Been there probably, all of us at one time. This circles us back to the state of frequency and how it does not matter. It is yours and it connects with others on the frequency. This is an exciting prospect. Those that connected in those weird little moments, like the guy filming the concert a couple of nights ago. He was one of our people, maybe he felt nothing, but it was there. Someday our paths cross and "Do I know you? Have we met somewhere before?" Neither of us will remember possibly and then if we continue in a frequency we will figure out..."Billy Strings concert in December 2025? OMG!"

These are the things I love...that bring peace, joy, a reason to keep chugging along. It is the only thing keeping it going as of now, really. All else is so messed up, but can see tomorrow, can live there because it has been revealed. Going there and all those souls coming to that frequency are going to be there. It will be our home. We will feel safe, at home within our network of souls that are in this one frequency of community, without deceit, doubt, danger of being manipulated. This is where we want to be, in the weirdness of each other.

All things have shifted, completely, absolutely...not sure it can be explained, but there is nothing that is the same. The air, the breath, different some how. Took a breath a couple of days ago, it was smooth, not that it is ever ragged, but the intake, inspiration was not the same. It felt so very good.  The triggers that would guarantee a reaction, well, actually they don't come up. 

Synchronicities off the chart...feeling also that the channeling is constant. A continuous conversation with Spirit. Not a request or a space that brings about the connection, like a meditation routine, it is constantly present. Spirit here without and within, as Spirit has always been. Now just being present myself, being here with Spirit. It was always right here...how are we so distracted that we do not see, hear, feel, experience the Spirit of the Source that created it all.

Amazed at this, shock and awe, in a good way. No one is the same to me, no thing is the same. Weird, totally a different world and all I have to say is, thank you. Finally, I truly woke up, it is a great feeling, an experience that almost has me at a loss for words. Wow, this hasn't happened in more than three years. Going now to   think about this. Life, living, all of it completely different than last week, even the last three days. It is so wild, I love it!

It has come, the let go. There are higher forces at play...there is nothing that can be forced, made to happen, it just is. Leaving all this behind and moving on. Whatever is happening is taking a long time. There is no guarantee that it will even come into actuality in the physical. Have not technically been waiting, as a huge amount of growth comes from all this...positive outcomes, goals, purposes, opportunities. 

These will be taken, these opportunities, they are in the works already. The time is here and as usual, not waiting around for others to let me know when they are ready for me to move. Move when moving is needed and this has never been an obstacle for this soul. Here we go. How long will this take? Don't know, really. Months, years...it does not matter. It happens when it happens and for a control freak, this is a big deal. Will these words bite eventually? Probably, but now there is a knowing that it will be dealt with, not keeping eyes open and awake at night or bring about negative outcomes. 

Again, these things are huge and they are the product of many hours of learning, studying, researching, investigating so many things. Some of these things completely random still, but knowing in that also, there is meaning, just not revealed at this moment. There are outcomes we cannot imagine or predict that are coming to us. Not a prophetic statement, but an assurance. Things cannot stand in the current state without crumbling, burning down, or collapsing. It cannot.

There is no reason to be afraid, if you are doing the most to be a soul of the heart, which means the love. It is what all of everything else hangs upon, it is the final word, chapter, ending, result and if you are already in the love, you are still going to be in the love. In love with you, us, all the "thems", and that means all, not the ones you approve of, as we are all the One. Each soul is the soul that you love or hate, just in a different skin suit form. This is truth, love, way, life.

Ending here with much love, of course. May the Spirit of our souls come together in love to change the environment in an undescribable way, that is miraculous and glorious to witness. This is not an event to wait for, it is here, it is you. This is all in you, and no one is coming to save you. That has already been accomplished, this in on you. You are the judgement of your own soul, you have chosen your path. Own up to the fact, the truth, the life you live, now, right now. 

Love to you and yours.

Recognition that we are all one behind our eyes. Meeting someone for the first time, hearing, "This is from your soul." Uhm, ok, "What does that even mean?" After a long time of questioning, doubting, suffering, struggling, trying to understand and wondering what actually happened. Well, nothing happened, in the physical, but a complete revamp of the self and the relationship between the soul in a body that did not know it was to be integrated with the soul. There is no separation and this soul is the source of creation and all existence. Right here in a body model given at birth, driving it through a life, on Earth flying through space.

Like a new car but you don't remember when you got it. You have always just had this same vehicle getting you around. The soul in the car driving it around looking at this life as it moves around with a crazy protective voice in the mind that is scared of everything. At some point, in many lifetimes we figure this out? This is unknown, but it will eventually be revealed and recognized.  It makes sense to me. What else are we doing here but trying to get something right, finally.

This is not completely understood, but glimmers come that say, you are the truth, the way and the life. You are in complete control of this life. But, but, this person, that person, they did this to  me...and this is what your environment looks like, so ok. This is not a complete answer to anything, but if there is a way to not participate, be subjected to any of the buts, theys and what was done. That is where we should be. If there is an opportunity or plans to make an opportunity to be where and with the ones in the places that give us the most love and peace, should we not at least try to go there?

This is the ultimate life and where else is life but here, now. The energetic field, the electromagnetic field? We are the life, we are the energetic frequency, we have to be the energetic frequency giving out love and peace. It is too simple, to be truth, to find your own way and live in resonance with love and peace. How can this happen? How did what is currently happening come to happen? It was chosen. Greed, competition and violence was chosen over love and peace. We are choosing every moment of this life. Don't look back or try to predict the future, just choose now, love and peace. Give it an energetic space to resonate. Why not, it is worth a try?

The last post that you can find below, titled MANY RECOGNITIONS was a heavy message. A messge to you and all of us, struggling. The struggle continues, the frustration mounts, the more you delve into the internal issues it seems, the more the external world comes to prove all your problems to you once more. Feeling like forevermore at this time. 

The only suggestion is to maintain silence. The world cannot be avoided no matter how many delivery services are provided. It will just come in some other way. Ready to cash it in really. Just hide and cover up the head, pretend there is no one, but the dog. Knowing this is unrealistice, but seriously is this world not one big unrealistic expectation of human beings? 

Do not dwell on the thoughts of the mind is the suggestion. It is not thoughts, it is beings up in your face bringing unrealistic expectations and if you swat them down they come back with threats to your way of life. So, now just trying to be invisible? That makes them even more aggressive. Why are you so quiet? What are you planning to betray me? What is wrong with everyone? Cannot care about this any longer. And...

And what? It is devastating when sincerety is offered and only suspicion is returned. Needing not to be with these beings of low light and energy today, but here we go...right into the fray. God help us. This is not said in flippancy, but again with great sincerety with trust that at least God is with us. The Light Being that designed creation. Yes. Oh, this is the recognition that just came:

It is a holiday week. The thought of the ones that will be endured, that is what has me in a twist of depressive, low energy. Do not dwell on these things.  We are to be meditating in our hearts and minds on a high frequency. If located in a space of no people how much easier would this be? The area of the brain that is dedicated to ease and grace. Tap into this area. 

How absolutely, almost impossible to do when the low energy beings are all around you. Up for a challenge are you? Welcome. Our high energy frequency is designed to repel all of the negative low energies. They are still here however, guessing this is some fault of the system of us not trusting in the system? Tired, tired of the fight. Maybe this is the surrender that is supposed to happen anyway. The instruction to stop doing and start being. 

Just when you think you are getting a handle on this, slam, bam they come at you full force. This is meant to be a sign that you are triggering the low energy. Great. The only resort is to give it up, let the forces, frequencies and crap fly. There is order from the chaos. This is the trust fall...it is ridiculously hard. Good luck my friends, will be back to let you know the results of the last resort.

Studying, not to label, categorize, or organize, but to learn/recognize the truth. The truth of such great deception from "powers" that be on/of the world. No tru power held, but unto themselves for control, deceit and greed. Now, in this moment there will be no mention of these "powers" because it would give credence to their actions. The truth sets you free. Now you will ask, "What is the truth?" This cannot be revealed except within you. At this moment arises a great frustration within you...known. But this is the truth.

You, your being of soul and body must go through a transformation. A combining of soul and body. Soul of Spirit (female), body of doing (male) must become one. Completely, whole within one body integrated to equal respect and union. Within you. No one else can help you...but for Spirit...Spirit is ready. You must choose. You must decide. You must be. Be in Spirit. "But for how long?" For as long as it takes. Now frustration has turned to anger...known. This is truth...

This is personal. This is independent. This is you and your wounds, illusions, beliefs, selfish materialistic behaviors, lack of intuition and/or clarity...the list goes on and on...you are aware of the list. The last thing you would ever think of doing...looking at your list. You love to look at others' lists, all day, all night. It's them, it's them, they did it, they ruined it and I suffer. This is what has to leave your mind/mouth. 

Your mind protects you from yourself. Your mind has an excuse for any and everything that might hold you accountable to the truth, within yourself. "Well, who are you to judge?", comes the defiance, the indignation...known. "How do you know everything?"...the very fact that this truth makes you defensive, is the truth coming to your knowing. This is all that can be done to help you. 

Absolutely all of the rest of (not work, not doing) but diving deep within your soul, if you are breathing, you have a soul. Within that soul the Spirit can be allowed, accepted and received. Then "the will" for your life can be revealed. You choose to/not to allow, accept and receive. You choose to listen to the utterings of the Spirit within you. You are the only one that can do this. The union of soul/Spirit and body includes no other being. No one can pray and make it happen for you. No counseling is going to "cure" you, certainly no pill.

Truth is hard, but truth is what you are seeking. "I'm not seeking anything.", screams your mind. But the truth is heard, "rings true" makes a little knot in your heart. But with enough resilience, you can ignore this...you have spent a lifetime perfecting this...and of all these things you may continue until you die. Or...you may seek everlasting life. "I don't believe you!" You do not have to do or believe anything. You have free will. Your will chosen, or "the will" of the Spirit within your soul, begging for truth.

The very first download that was ever received by this soul body, heard, "[Unnamed soul] knows". This has plagued the entire process of spiritual growth. Knows what? and conjecture would begin. However, proceeded along not knowing what was known. Just this week hearing a podcast of infinite love. When your soul detects it, it will always be. Actually, has always been and is now, at this moment. This is the "knows". 

Was this a conscious knowing? Most likely, no. Was not seen by this soul as this infinite state of being type love at first. Maybe felt a love for this individual, but in the normal way, not an infinite, unchangeable aspect of love for all time, moments. Time is irrelevant as love surpasses all time, space and information that we are able to access. But the knowing? This is different, some things are known and the reason can never be explained. Does it need to be? Of course not.

Somethings are in the heart from the beginning and this is one of those instances and it is known. Hearing, "This is from your soul." upon the first encounter with this being. These words that come in a voice that is not the usual drivel coming from the normal mind, and listening is no longer an option. Trusting it as truth and always carry out, if instructions are involved. So this soul also "knows".  Is this an indication that the same soul being will return? Not necessarily, accepting this, but the love remains and knowing this love exists...it will come again, always, known.

Finally, going back into the document file. Intending to do a complete outline, timeline of information. A working file to add-to when information remembrance comes and needs to be included in "Write the book." Rereading the previously written words, the story speaking to me. A book that would merit a desire of continuing to read. Write the book you want to read, advice from an unremembered author. Maya Angelou?

The best part of the complete being in, of and about the spiritual-soul life, there is no time, no time wasted. Knowing that even though, in this life you are beginning to see evidence of age. Lines, wrinkles and the dreaded sag of skin exposed to gravitational forces. It does not matter. Body perfect is ours forever. The soul within the cells is perfection of the image of this skin suit. We can give frequency to cell bodies to perfect imperfections now. 

This is the key, it can only be done by self-love, but including selflessness. It sounds counterintuitive, but that is the difficult challenge. The flesh must be loved as it is to awaken the healing. The correction of life exposure in an environment of disharmony. There is no thing here for us that improves or replenishes our soul if we are inclined to give our soul energy to others.

This being the ultimate storyline, but there is no idea how to write it. It is within my soul and must come to the page in its own way. This is truth and this has been accepted. Loving to write, it is an incongruency of soul complexity refusing to accept simplicity. If there is love, there is soul spirit in the work, the writing. Letting the story come out, much more daunting. Knowing it is not from this mind, thoughts, ideas, no thing coming from any Earthly aspect. All spiritual, all exposing, all consuming, all of every part, stripped bare. Humiliation the fear. 

No fear can be allowed to exist and all trust must be received and dispersed thoughout the body/soul merging. All of this must occur before the releasing of the words that can portrait any slight resemblance to the acuality of the transformation. This is the immersion, the committment, the surrender to all that is for the soul. The mind cannot be consulted, it must be shut down by the all encompassing miraculous, devastatingly beautiful love coming out of the soul. Funneling of information, truth and the turning of the body, naked, completely inside/out.

All comes to light, all of everything that has never seen any light but the small light within. This must be done in the darkness of the soul, then a rude exposing of all that has been withheld. Exiting the womb of your own soul, but in a turning so violent as to release all festering wounds and decay held within. These words very inadequate in attempting to describe the process. Sounding dramatic, but accurate to the testimony of the process experienced. No thing can diminish your own experience, unfortunately. 

The writing began three years ago, it has been journaled daily. The task of organizing the chaos of all those words is daunting. However, knowing that it is not even the task of this one soul, but of all the souls that have experienced similar events. This is the actual event, the extraction/expulsion of all experience onto a page using words of inadequacy, insurmountable in thoughts of the mind. This the actual culmination* of soul body synchronization, calibration.

*See post of the same name below.

Aways thinking that there is an end or a knowing that will come, before death. Because what's the point of being alive in a physical body being unaware of capabilities, only to die to learn what was missed? Come back try again? Uh, not really interested in this process. Maybe that is the clue that this is the last trip. Sensing the utter nonsense of being here. It is frustrating, it is futile and trying to maintain a detached loving spirit soul is proving impossible. Mainly because of being subjected to persons enmeshed in the world of lies, delusions and illusions. 

These are the lists of complaints leading to the hope of an outcome of something other than death. Here's why. Souls keep coming back. There must be something that is accomplished here that cannot be done anywhere else. Let's take Jesus as the example, or substitute your person of light that overcame the world. He came he endured for 33 years and the "idea" of death was overcome. Well, apparently there are those experiencing out of body episodes that are similar to this. Learning the point of life and they come back! Why?

At this point the frustration of living in this world with beings of nefarious intent outnumbering those of good intent, let's go. Let us let go of this world, please show me the reason we are even here in the first place, because this makes no sense. Even Jesus could only take it for 33 years and I am in for 20 on top of that. I want out...I want to be somewhere else. When frustration strikes, noticing the first person comes out and "I" am upset! (Not suicidal, just fed up.)

OBE, (out of body experience) doing it. Have the instructions, have already recently without any intent had a lucid dream. About 3 months ago and it was so exciting! Immediately, running off screaming, "I am going to go fly!" That is exactly what happened, flying, floating, moving through walls, also ultimately being chased and shot at with spears, which seemed to be an archaic method, but whatever. Souls appeared to help hide me from the spear entities. Then  disappointedly awakened, but remembering every detail.

With this lucid experience already existing within this soul, there is a way to EOB from the lucid dream. Now, all of this is purely an experiment for myself and maybe you are interested, maybe not. At this point not really caring, because you wouldn't be here if you were not searching for something more, spiritually. In it together we are, as of right now...the other method is a sleep paralysis state with consciousness, which is more intentional, but either way. Hoping to achieve this because this world has lost all attraction for this soul. Tired of it, absolutely. The only joy, writing in this site space and art. That's it. All else has something to do with giving energetic currency to something that never returns with an equal exchange. Boom! I'm out, out of body, this the only goal for life as of now. Let you know how it goes.

A check up, because the mood is blah. Resting and getting the vibes that something is coming up. It is coming down, maybe sideways, don't know. Do not need to know, but the word "impending" is heard. What's up? Loving is the base, and it is so hard to do. In the Spirit feel love, feel loving, want to love and heal. Then the base attitude out there is stomp on everyone and elevate myself. 

"Surgical", heard this? Cutting, cutting it out? Removing. Just typing what I'm hearing. Sometimes the meaning doesn't sink in until later, or even much later. Surgical precision. Done with training, experience, knowledge, technique, self-confidence to remove what needs removing and not destroying what is remaining. Making the problem corrected by removing the offensive mattter, mass, hmm, mass and matter. Always, the periodic elemental table and quantum physics return. Albert Einstein, let's talk, you seem to have all the knowledge, but never got any answers. But understanding now, Albert, through the wisdom that comes from death.

Leaving this crazy world, surgically remove us? Is this the end? Are we going to go into the space of the answers, then find out we knew the answers all along? Here all along, which was only ever, being totally in Spirit with no other objectives or desires. All the time, there was no time or anything other than just sitting with Spirit and love. Really, doesn't sound that bad. I'm up for that in this check up. Let's go! Or could it be possibly to remain in that state of Spirit and still be here? Cut out the offensive mass? Without Spirit, cannot remain. Either way, with Spirit, is the way.

No others of any influence other than "the will", being of/in "the will" of origin Creator may witness or enter into Spirit's gifted presence. Application of all intents and purposes may only be as follows:

• Elemental

• Organic

• Natural 

• Systematic

• Free Will

• Incorporation - corpus (collosum)*

• Complete

• Consolidation

• Living accordance

• Of "the Will"

• Creator based, co-creation

• Environmentally sound

• Activations completed

• Communication encoded

• Exponential abundance

• Abundance builds abundance

• Bliss in creation

• Soul centered production

• "If the soul could spend all day doing this                   , satisfaction exists within the co-creation = abundance."

The angle of Spirit vision of being form intentions:

• Beauty

• Creation of origin

• Health

• Resources

• Resonate

• Rhythmic

• Sounds of soul

• Gifts received

• Application of gifts

• Expression of soul inspiration

• Blissful talent/gift expression

This was the download today, it is list form which always really hits as important. "Take this down, make a list(s)."

*Corpus definition-Oxford languages, Corpus Collosum definition-Oxford languages

So, the word "corpus" coming through in the download, then "corpus collosum" coming as it was typed, just now. 

Never fails to slay, and amaze with the words coming, clairaudiently. This makes humbleness come over me and the feeling of underserved allowance of this gift, but the gift being bestowed, will not question "the will".

Unseen, unknowing, faith required, however knowing of the unseen is present in the presence of the Three. Present is all that is required, be present in body, spirit/soul and a mind w/o personal thought. Listen for the speak of words, not your own. This does not require silence. Some of the most meaningful words from the Three have come as the daily activities begin and that quiet still voice says, "Write the book." "He's coming back."

This was early on in this "loss of self" traveling. The genius response being, "Who? Jesus?" Surely there was a great eruption of laughter on that one. Later informed that "Jesus is here." Dumbutt, inferred. They are here, duh, never left, right here within. Of course, but not to me at that moment anyway. No, the Three, were speaking of the form being that brought on an awakening of spirituality so intense, there were days of questioning survival. They are so gently pointing out now, the book, not written, "He's still coming back." Possibly one has to do with the other. 

Learning has brought us to another congnition. "He" is an energy. Not sure if this energy comes back in the same form or not. Is that, not the most interesting part? There is no thing that would surprise at this moment, however. Oh, yes, his spiritual signature did come as a patient at a previous job. His voice was the clue, a little heart leap gave it away. Same flirty personality, same questioning insistently, "Can I keep coming back to see you?" Then ghosted, but did not even having much of an effect. Cool. Known at the moment actually, but sinking in more now for some reason. Again, cool.

Oh, the fuckery! He is back now, isn't he? Somewhere close to this being, watching, waiting to see when it all comes together in this soul. Ok. That's fine. Bring it. Ready to see the upside down, inside-out, backward in the most surprising way. Not the norm, never because Spirit delights in the unexpected. Baby King, born in a manger? Yes.

Back to this "Write the book." Struggle, fits and starts. There are many books in various states of incompletion. Not in the flow of this for some reason, yet. There is a reason, no doubt. Unknown, to a being holding the all-knowing spirit inside, without one clue of what is to come. All moments that could be spent writing, have been filled with developing and posting this very website. Love doing it and knowing even that it is an activity not to avoid and is in some way a preparation for this "book". 

They say it like it is known, how, and what to write. And it is to the Three, and known that all the words will be given in that moment the flow begins. Flow of ink from the pen of the hand of a being completely inspired by the Three. Also, entertaining art of numerous mediums, but the writing limited to short bursts on the website. This is a legitimate exercise they say, as it brings connection and joy in an inspirational activity. Book writing preparation perhaps, most likely. Not in any organized fashion, though.

This is the way of the world on the macro and the micro. Travesty, annihilation of anything daring to be at peace or have abundance outside the scope of their delusional illusions. This life is dedicated to peace, love, joy of creation, expression of Spirit. If this brings death, then will die in the abundance of life moments spent with Spirit. This resulting only in a transition to a more present state of being with Spirit. No difference in soul. No difference at all. In fact, tied to this world that is in no way, shape or form the desire of this heart. No way.

The humanness suddenly so unappealing. This is not our home or basically a home of any sort. This is not the frequency of the heart. Peace, love, joy, goodness, kindness, faithfulness, patience, gentleness and self-control. This the fruit, the abundance of Spirit and it is always available, always present in the presence of Spirit, spoken, breathed upon us by the Word. The breath is fire, power, healing, love and all abundance. Breath=Life.

Breath=Life=Spirit

If all you ever accomplish is breathing, then you are of Spirit, life, way and truth.

The vision:

Born into a peaceful atmosphere of the frequency of love. Breath the spark of the fire of the soul. Immediate exposure at day one to all creation of nature, creativity and the abundant fruit of Spirit. As the first breath gifted, establishes the soul light bringing life to the being. A village that introduces the soul to all forms of matter creation, "the butcher, the baker, the candlestick maker" - Mother Goose

This site is more for this soul than for yours...if anyone even ever reads any of this. The writing or scribing gives comfort, settles, organizes thoughts that are a mixed vegetable soup being stirred around. This mind feeling is no longer tolerable. Writing the thoughts and recognizing they are all just suppositions of things that will never happen. Clears up the whirling thoughts into peaceful moments of nothing. It is the best thing that has ever happened.

Hearing today that this life is not the one for love and anything close to perfection. Known this already was, but makes sense. We are here looking forward to a New Earth, heaven or however you have learned to think about it. This may actually be a form of hell, but there are moments when there is nothing inside that is not of pure love.

We are here and there is no changing the body form without death or ascension. A glimpse of what could be in Elijah and Jesus. Is this the lessons they were teaching, rise above it, let the mass of your body transfigure into photonic light and rise without anything left for gravity to pull? Why not? And why had we never thought of this before, life w/o death, eternal life, promised. How is it supposed to happen? Do we really know? Revelation of images and symbols that have never been exactly decoded. But all along we have been coded, the programmer still working and updating the program? 

No good deeds get you there, as the price has been paid. Constructs and structures built to distract and cast illusion to keep us on and in the ground, from life to death. No death. Promised no death, eternal life. Energetic flow of frequency is the standard answer from those taking Spirit in with actual spirituality, not a set of rules to judge others while you are doing much worse just by your hate. No, it is a wave, a set of waves, color, sound, light and it all comes together in a way we could never imagine.

Anyone actually reading this at some moment, you will either have to also think this through as this soul has been, for several years now, or you think it's crazy. You know what? It does not matter either way. It will be what it will be or already is what it is. You nor I can stop any of it. We are not the program designer with the intelligence to make this experience of living under the sun, a true life of love, peace and joy. Hope is all that we have now, faith for things to come.

A shift, a change definitely with much spiritual restructuring today, of taking the thought, the reason out of all things. Operating strictly from the heart with love. Tears coming many times today, but not of sorrow, lack, or questioning, but from love felt in the heart and soul. No expectations of or from the soul, just loving. Sitting in a space with consecutive moments of love and in each moment a greater love. For the sake of love only, just being in it. No thoughts, no things, no questions or appeals, requests, nothing...but love. 

Although it is known, but in those moments hearing, "God is love." Of course, but that's all. Only love, all comes down to love, all hangs on love, then all becomes an unknowing that does not matter anymore. There is no need. All the desires of your heart are being fulfilled with love. No matter what any being, made of matter, says, does, exhibits, "proves", there is a need, a desire so powerful that wants to be loved. It is there in the presence of being present in love. Silent, no internal narrative, seated in love. 

Detachment from the world and chaos, into the nothingness of absolutely everything...being loved. When is the last time you felt real love? Have you ever felt it? Not sure it is completely understood even now in this exact moment. Powerful, overwhelming, assuring, soft, gentle, kind, peaceful love. Spirit is love, God is love, the Son came in love, we are love. You are love, as well as I. Never want to leave this space and knowing that also is impossible, but will try with the very best of the abilities given to us by this Creator of love to not let go. Ignore the chaos and feel love. Yes. True love. Being "in love".💕 💦

No questions when a random thought or idea pops in the mind, there is a reason. Reason may not be revealed in the moment, but later the, "Aha!". No competition, only creation, creative inspiration. Can see the struggle in others and know no thing can be done for them. All information is available, they are responsible for reading or listening to continue and further investigate, by choice. Curiosity or apathy, choice. Do or don't, choice, your choice, not mine. Freedom is in the choice. Choose. "Pick your poison" not a pretty quote for this exactly in this context, but like to say it. Choose, "Find your next victim". Same, not polite contextually, but rolls off the tongue.

"Wise as serpents, gentle as doves." - Matthew 10:16 

"Everything, with ease and grace." - this is the saying that comes to us in a Divine connection of souls. Cannot find an owner to this specific quote, something similar from Eckhart Tolle.

Both of these quotes/group of words above are descriptive of the desired life. Living this in the mind now, this moment. Is this really that easy? Well, how else do you make the desired life, but live it? Oh, right, no more questions. So, yes! This is how it is done. Choose it. Descriptive, poetic, contrast and flow. All seeking this, but few finding or even recognizing this is the heart's desire. Blind, deaf and usually way too noisey - the more word spewing, the less hearing, seeing, and/or understanding, inner-standing, rarely over-standing.

The quiet, the thinkers are the ones to read, listen to, and watch. The planners, the studious, intuitors, are the movers and you never see it coming - one day, it just is...just like that.

❣️🏹

The heart completely in love with Spirit. Can see, can interpret, intuit, gain clarity. Divine presence the only way to recognize Spirit is within. Within all is Spirit, every molecule, every cell, in you in this form being. If every atomic* particle of you as one being, is and is made from, created by the One in three Spirit, then the Spirit is in you, is in the One. Hearing this early this morning:

God/Source = 1/3, + Son/Savior/Example = 1/3, + Spirit/All = 1/3 = 3/3 = 1. 

We are One with the Trinity. Made in their image, invited to step into their being/presence. They are here now, not coming. Take the transformation, take the breath. Step into your being...into the frequency, the purification, the waters of the Holy that are stirred by the vibration and sing. Create the sound of the New Earth. We heal her in our sound. A sound that resonates in complete silence. Told to, "Be silent". Causes quakes in a unified note. The sound "as a trumpet" notifies the world of what Earth has waited for...the sound is Spirit coming from within us and we resound. We sound the final note, we are not of this world as we have moved onto another frequency of color, sound wave, air wave, radio frequency atunement to the same  designated note. 

When the number of souls in their form/mass construct of atoms can consistently vibrate at the decibel code, we leave this world of misery and continue on in Spirit, one/three. *Atomically calculated, the formula variable solved, the 144,000 at the same wave frequency, emitting, transmitting to carry us all on the wave. Once sounded the transmisson is picked up to respond/invoke the will - free will to dial to this station,  signal picked up, dialed to, downloaded. Everything technology is created to show us a way to the frequency: radio, TV stations/connections, wireless phones, computers, etc. Recognizing it is all a thought lesson in a world flooding the waves with distracting transmissions intended to block. 

Each time we step into the slavery replication, simulation, we sell our talents to ungrateful beasts. Lower our frequency, offer our selves, our flesh for sale, prostituting (ouch) our creative energy in a completely unreciprocating system of creational inspirational supression. This is a, "No." This is unacceptable, a travesty. All "men"** created equal, all exchanges fair, even it up! We have the power, not in the future, not if we work harder, we exist in the power, now. Put it out there...raise the frequency to burn it all down, OMG!, please.

Wealth exchange is coming, the frequency holders in place. "Death becomes Her", heard this, meaning the **feminine of the prosperous will inherit the wealth and begin to dispense the frequential exchange, this already happening, hearing, "Mackenzie Scott". She wrote a book titled, "Traps". 

Next on my reading list. Ok, end of morning down load, it gets a little crazy, jumps or leads to unexpected places, but that's the way. No longer a "church goer" as the corruption has been revealed and cannot tolerate the hypocrisy. Do not be turned off by the scripture, inspirational (in'spirit'ional) references. Spirit is not a church or religion, but the being of you, wanting to speak to you, listen. Link provided if you want to explore further. Above is what was given, gifted this morning and never, ever has this type of happiness, contentment, existing been within this being. Cannot unfeel it, cannot go back to this miserable world of delusional illusions. Cannot. Love to you.

This moment, or actually a couple of days ago, it all clicked. It is known, and it is, there is no question anymore. It is what we are doing and it has to be done, nothing can stop it. All of the spiritual community are working together to complete. A mission, but for everyone...to adjust, ascend, come to the knowledge of the coding that will make transfiguration of the flesh body possible. Bone and blood that cannot be changed, the program is running it cannot be re-written, hacked, or anything that could mess it up, because it is. It is the will of the Creator/Father/God/Source of life. It will be made apparent to all or at least to those that need to know.

The ugly part is that there are those bent on making sure this does not happen. A unified front of souls that operate from a frequency not recognized by current humanity. They are determined and believe the power lies in their hands. The power has only ever come from one Source, you know? Hopefully, you know.

Returning to this post after a sleep. Grace. This is the word that has come up several times in my very early morning journaling. If you are not journaling, it is suggested.

Grace: 1) Simple elegance or refinement of movement

    2) courteous goodwill

    3) do honor or credit to something by one's presence

--Oxford Languages

Also, called out for being judgemental and this is very correct, admittedly.

Hearing, "Change your brain." and "There but for the grace of God, go I." This leading to John Bradford, linked if you are interested. Boom! 

Short and sweet today, let's change the brain, journal excessively and move with Spirit. Talk later, on a morning mission...

Yours truly,

the Stars

(Disclaimer: Wrote this automatically, the pen moves on its own, had not gone back to read, but writing it here and actually reading it, just gave constant chills, it is unexplainable and irresistible to me. This is a non-edited transmission, download, I don't know, whatever you want to call it, I don't make the rules. The grammar and syntax is of someone other than me, do not edit this or tell about its impossibility. I don't make the rules. Just take it or leave it.) -hhh3

All of this intangible and that is what makes it so irresistible. Cannot put it in words because it is not about explaining or passing along understanding. It is a way of life in truth. Not a convincing or an invitation b/c it always has been and is now and forever will be. Nothing of any other circumstance has any bearing b/c this is infinite existence in love purity, love in totality, saturation that results in an automatic return of infinite flow, no measure or assurances as the love is a known, a given, no finding, hunting to convince others of your worthiness, power of presence, being, existing brings the love. Opening the eyes brings love before you, within, without, historically, perpetually.

Photons of light, light absorption, infused, carried from One Source that tendrils out the connective tissue web, net of inclusion, server availability. Lines of communication. Ethereal transportation of love frequency - no language but all informative w/o doubts, clear, strong and true. Known in its truth, not questionable, surety, trustworthy, reliable, known. 

All of this internal in a housing of matter. This matter a structure of bones, connective tissue, performative muscle, innervations of volition, perfected in movement for the gift, practice enhanced, [muscle memory], abilities producing mastery of chosen activities of brain and/or physical movement.

A housing to enhance the soul experience of love. Only love can satisfy any other activity choice only love can drive the attention to perfection. Only love, only love, only love.

Without love, a clanging dissonant noise.

Love is harmony, rhythm and song.

All begins and ends = love.

The true Spirit in your soul, holds you accountable, you cannot lie or be dissonant with yourself without conviction. Cannot participate in what is false. Ask for other souls in life that are of truth and trust and will keep our souls as one. Help us that are already one and may not be and may never be physically together, be at present in love, be in love.

Be in love with Spirit. Live in truth and perfect love. Silence unless prompted by Spirit. 

Bring us not only to the same frequency, but to our frequency that is of our community in Spirit. Not of us, but our souls in Spirit.

-Unknown? Known?

Be brave...you have the ability to recognize all the signs, sounds, feels to determine the next moves or words.

"Inception: establishment or starting point of an institution or activity" - Oxford Dictionary

For over a year now, there has been a movement of mind, body and soul within. This the inception of a soul transformation, for the better. Also, this intro is the inception of this space for your heartspace. This is a small beginning of an idea that has been forming for the healing of souls through a spiritual experience. We are going to investigate all of this together, but first let me tell you where it all started.

Beginning in grief, moving to a love or a passion so great that it was otherworldly. Then a hearbreak so crushing that combined with the original grief it became a stone around my soul. Then began a course of learning how to recover. How to breathe again. How to feel love inside the body, without any outside human influence, in a very visceral tactile way.

Not even knowing how to describe it at first, just electric buzzing...now know to call it energy. Energy is intoxicating, sensual and of love. It is all based in love. This the foundation for growth and self-exploration. Some of the findings expected, some a surprise, but all a lesson in the way we deceive ourselves into believing lies told to us by our mind. Most often we are not who we tell ourselves. These ideas of self coming from outside sources, concepts, constructs, delusions, lies and very little truth.

Then you go deep down in the dark of your soul and it is suffocating, drowning, overwhelming, sorrowful, regretful feelings rising up to greet you like a character from a horror movie. Then when all of that piles upon you in a heap of rubble from your life and you are prepared to die...the Spirit of life comes to you and shows you that it is all for a purpose. You have dregged up all the misery that can be found, tossed on the ground. You just so happened to end up on the ground first, with the heap on top of you. Spirit sees your small hand sticking out from the heap and gives it a tap. Hello, soul! Would you like some help? And somehow a chuckle escapes your pitiful shell of a being with a few breaths of life remaining. You cough and try to say, "Please." 

Spirit comes in with the sun and shines it upon the face of the one coming out of the "Dark Night of the Soul". (https://www.poetryfoundation.org/poems/157984/the-dark-night-of-the-soul) 

There is some life left after-all and somehow it is brand new. It has regurgitated, thrown out, turned inside out to remove every little grain of self-importance and ego. Knowing there is no other way out or up from rock bottom, the hand reaches to Spirit and you begin to heal. 

The healing is slow...circular...frustrating. Thinking all of this stuff was put to rest, oh, no! It's still all there, it has just been acknowledged. Here is where you begin to listen to become something resembling a human being. And at this point you are not even close. Just a sniveling bag of muscle and bone with a heart so small it would make the tiny hearts laugh.

After all that, you recognize there was nothing to do, but be yourself. That has to be proven to you. We really are strange creatures. Try not to think about it, just accept it, it's all a good thing for you.

The days where work is required, because you know, we need food, shelter, insurance for health issues, plus other things not listed here. At work, the energy  is drained everytime. Trying to change mental things, breathing, other tactics, but always it is depleting. It gets busy and the patients just drag on the energy. Anyway, trying new things as mentioned, so today listening to podcasts to distract and it suggested that you write down the things that really matter to you and what your perfect life would be. It actually gave energy increase while at work, it is so hard to do this, wanted to share. Here is my best life and important things that would make it perfect:

• Work for a business that has sufficient funding and has the best intentions for customers/employees the same, that creates something utilized, safe for the environment and useful

• No longer working for corporations of greed

• Have a spiritual match personally  that has passion, longevity, physically on Earth that will last through eternity

• Artistic creation is the daily ultimate goal

• Paid to exist in a high frequency of creation and maintaining that frequency

• Live in an artistic community of consistent increasing frequency

• Remove negativity, bring positive frequencies in consistently with intention

• Not allowing others to dictate how time is spent. Time is a construct for counting, not living

• Live steadily in highest frequency possible in an environment the supports the soul, body form and the frequency of the same

• This is the story in the mind of the soul living in this physical body at this moment and all moments to come...it is the future

Thanks for letting me share this with you...it made me feel better at work, also as typing this. This might work for you, in your own words, of course. Take care of yourself, be kind and allow time to bring your energy back up after a day of working for the greedy corporations. We will not be there long. We are moving into our own stories, now in this moment. Lovee!

There are so many entities out there that are coming for us. Anyone that is good, peaceful, happy, and loving. They want to use you and make your life miserable because they are totally miserable. Came across this about a year and a half ago. Sucked in...but thankfully, ancestors/Spirit kept saying, "this is a trap". It was and even now it makes me want to understand. There is no understanding, it was all a trap. From the beginning, and it was brutal. 

Wishing I could tell you how to avoid this, but not sure that you can do that. These entities are practiced, skilled, shameless and evil. Once describing their front man as "the devil himself". Or was it an angel sent to reveal my resistence to look within the soul. Both accurate descriptions and even a year and a half later still thinking that maybe there was something done by this soul that was misunderstood and we would find each other again. A trap, a scam and when ultimately the voices of spiritual support screaming that this was a trap, were heard. They convinced and the words reflecting this feeling of entrapment fell out of the mouth, and he was gone. But the trap was in the testing, without control shown by Spirit we would surely burn it down, in at that moment. Realizing it was a test for both.

What is really confusing is that he ghosted. If it was a scam would he not have pushed himself and insisted that the plan continue? It would have worked, sorry to admit. Also, hearing from Spirit, "this is from your soul". Guess the soul wanted to teach me some hard lessons and the soul successfully impaled itself upon those lessons. Realizing the things that seemed so enticing and there was such passion for, those things were lies. This pushed me into an awakening with the thought that this would bring a person that crushed the heart back. Crushed the heart, why want that back? Because it was a light shown directly into the soul, bringing all the shadows to light.

Mad, disappointed, anger emotions, frustration, and embarrassment that this was a big deal, afterall. Want to not care, but the care was enormous and horrible to think about now. So now they have the soul where it should be, not caring about anything or anyone, not really, but detached like never before. Life is just there and anything Spirit comes up with, why not? There is nothing else wanted, so whatever comes is better than the nothing that is here now. Want to just hide again, but again, Spirit.

In the recognition of the soul...using the intense love felt for the devil/angel...to identify the emotion, for general purposes. Not for fueling the negative feelings of separation with blame or misery, but replicating the "in love" emotion. No longer attaching the weight of the situation with the beauty of the feeling of pure love emotion. Turning that emotion in to a beautiful interaction with Spirit.

In actuality, not turning anything, as Spirit is love. Spirit is the emotion, feeling, sensation, longing to be near that energy. Not necessarily the being of form, but devoting time for experience of Spirit, "in love". The body holding the soul, is just an idea of love tagged in an experience. The joining is what Spirit has already provided, gifted that lives inside of us all. We produce that feeling of love, not the other person, we attach the emotion, but it is ours. We can have that feeling anytime, let it rise when you are in prayer or meditation with Spirit. It is delicious, delightful and it comes anytime you call upon Spirit. Make the attachment to Spirit. The catalyst above was just an enticement to find emotional safety in Spirit, that never ghosts (punny) and never leaves us questioning.

And...

Now, let's have some fun! Energize some flow, empower without a sound or movement. Frequency at a vibration too high to detect, there can be no disappointment, as there are no expectations. Exist, do not search for what is desired. Make an experience/experiment of energy production. Do you understand? No?  Good!

Breath is what you create, what you give to the supply of energy that your body is holding now. There is a current of energy underlying whatever you think is in your body. Exhaustion, depletion, lack of motivation, pain, fatigue, weakness, sound familiar? Not good. 

You must give to it, not the list above but to energy, create it, by creating. The mind and resulting mood, feelings, emotions, however you label it, create it. Also, no need to label, just scan and observe, do not focus or give it explanation. For example, do not think to yourself and definitely do not say out-loud, "My knee hurts because I stepped off that curb last week and it has hurt ever since." Just scan by it and notice, but do not dwell.

Breathe. Breathe deep, slowly, without sound,through the nose. Internally, let the oxygen flow into your nose, windpipe, lungs and expand your diaphragm using your ribs to open space, not the stomach. Exhale. Do another scan, think about those laser lights that computers use to record body images. Scan and observe, do not label anything, do not chastise yourself for pains or discomfort, just observe. Be a computer scanning without judgement or opinion. Just be with your body.

Detect any sensations, relaxation, letting go of thoughts will enhance the ability to scan and detect through observation. The first sensations of an energy production may be in your hands. It is electric, a buzz, an activation of the tissue where nerves and blood flow are located. With or without your recognition of the electric neural activity of the spine and its nerve paths, it is there. Can you detect your energy that you are producing? It is not coming from an outside source. Your heart continues beating by an electric pulse created by nerve information, automatically. 

You are a creator/source of energy. You are the creator of the continuation of your life, continuing to breathe in and out. The food supply and more importantly the water supply provided to the body system is the fuel. You are power, an engine, a computer, self-contained, only needing fuel. You are signals from your brain and spinal/neural system in a miraculous circulatory system that runs without a start button, continues for decades without a tune-up, for some. Given the required fuel in nourishment, emotional intelligence, system care, the body can continue its breath of life for around 100+ years.

You are a miracle of design. Breathe in the life sustaining oxygen that "just happens" to surround you. Depending on your view of things, quite by accident or intently on purpose. Either way it is there. Believe it or not. (I can never look at the word "believe" the same way after seeing the word "lie" right in the middle. It brings up images of others, "Just believe, me. Why would I lie?" I digress.)

Find the energy sensation, in the body. Is it in your fingers? Your toes? Across your nose? (Did you grow up with Dr. Seusse, because I sure did.) Let the energy connect with the breath. Let the breath increase the energy. Find the parts of the body that are giving energy signals. As you breathe, increase the sensation with the breath. This may have been detectible only in small areas of your body. 

As you practice this breathing with body focus, it will only continue to grow. Guide it to the energy source that is your spine, eventually. Not all is going to happen in the first day, but when you get a taste of your creative energy ability, you will come back for more. You will begin to learn to create in all situations, not just in this intentional set aside time, but in all your moments.

The goal here is to create as much energy as you can. There is no limit. There is no better feeling either. Let yourself feel good. Learn to direct the energy to the pain locations, the shutting off of the mind, wherever you need relief (usually in the mind). 

Grow it. It is yours to grow, yours to recognize, energize the nerve path extensions. Let them speak to you and tell you where more energy is required, desired . This is healing. If you can create this in your own body, you will want to create more. You will not want to miss out on this time. And it is free! It is yours. It is your own creation of energy. Use your breath to give yourself a gift of love for your body. We love you!

(Fun the first time, above, doing it again!)

Different coffee shop, more laid back, less indoctrinated, surrounded by churches was the other place. Religion has revealed itself and what is seen is disturbing. Greed at the forefront, not just of money, all things can be the product of greed. Inclinations of nefarious motives all around. Not mine to judge, but also not mine to participate in any longer, now that the revelations have been processed. In the heart this is against the very guidance of the Spirit that is within. We are the church, not the building. Does everyone see this discrepancy? Money spent on a monstrosity of wealth when there are people living on the street. Cannot justify this approach. I digress.

Maybe that is part of this message, it has been on the brain space all morning. Trying the channel w/o the Hz interrupter of sounds, today. This is a test for the soul being typing these words, if you are not realizing this yet. There are so many distractions in life. All this being's life, not recognizing that the sensitivity that is held within, without, is so susceptible to all the stimuli. Labeling/identifying as an introvert, always needing so much time to "get over" being around people. But then sometimes, with a large group of outrageously noisy people (my family) and would feel energized by the love there. Not connecting at that time that it is not people, it is energy given off people. There are energies that cannot be tolerated. Had to become a grown-ass woman to figure out this was not only my problem, it was a reaction to bad frequency or at least a conflicting one. You know where it was the worst? Church. Ah, yes, and now we come to the connection...taking several breaths now to get the channel going, love to Spirit and the energies NOT messing with me in this specific place. Thank you.

Half moon shadow, bursting bubble, infectious laughter, how do we maneuver this happening? One instance of communication destroys two worlds and builds another. This is what is feared, but it is. Nothing can stop what Spirit is backing, fronting whatever Spirit does, "guiding from all sides" is what was just heard. All directions above, below, inward, outward, there is no space that Spirit does not inhabit. There is no space to hide, it is humourus that beings believe that the hiding is possible, that they are not seen. This being with Spirit inside, sees, we all see, not sure what their mind convinces as they move about in "secret", all the while the ones that have the sensing have spotted them before they were ever actually seen.

This goes both ways, however, sensing and picking up on the love beings before they come along also. My mom speaking this months before a happening, I could not get it, understand it at the time. Just like every other message received, it takes time to look back and see the purpose of significant words. Those words changing this life completely, because they were truth. No one really wants to hear the truth. Truth is stripping all things bare and owning up to the deceit you have fed yourself, maybe for the entirety of your life. Inside my mind these words, "oh, God, oh, God" as this hits the soul like a smashing boulder. It crushes the lies you have told yourself and rips open what is expected...fear, need to run, remove yourself, but the truth does not get left behind, it stays right there with you until you own up. Wow.

Feeling waves of emotion coming over the body, now. Energy of truth, it tears down everything that is not truth, it needs to be done and it hurts to the very core. Even when the truth is what you have been asking for, when it comes it takes a hold on you like never felt, except for the last time truth broke you open. Since then, you know it, but it is avoided and you do anything but release, unleash it again, b/c you fear it. It will never resolve until it is revealed, recognized, for what it is, what probably everyone always knew it was, but the ripping of the bandage is feared. Just leave it until there is no other choice. There is no bravery within us, we who know the truth and speak that the truth needs to be revealed, we are within that same group that cannot speak it, cannot face the destruction it will cause. The cleansing, the stripping, searing, purifying, exposing, integration, purging that must accompany the truth. The death to self, dark night of the soul.

This is not for the weak, and the strong struggle as well. There is no being that can face it alone. Only in the arms of the Spirit of the Creators can you survive it. And when it comes the soul rejoices as the trash of this life gets taken out. On the other side, knowing it had to happen, so that life can be a way of truth. No one goes into it by chance or under their own volition, something catalizes it and damn, you never see it coming. One day it just rises up, walks in, appears out of nowhere and you are never going to be the same.

"We are finished with this for today." - Spirit

Okay, wow, intense. We did it again, right here in public...downloading a Spirit channel. Over and over it has been told to this soul...being in a space, a location doing this "work" (not work to me, nothing of Spirit ever is), this is the calling for this soul. Accepted and you are here to join in and if you never actually read these words on this site, you still received the message and this is the miracle of the Spirit of Creators. This is "The will" of God. And always mentioned here will be the Christ, but Spirit is universal. Any words used to describe a benevolent being that is made totally of love. How can anyone argue that it is not of the Spirit of the Creators of matter that are the "I Am"? I cannot answer these questions for you, but your heart knows the answers and has for all moments that have ever existed. Spirit speaks to you, as you listen.

Connections were made here today, there is energy flowing and here for all of it. Thank you for your participation, even if you did not recognize it in actuality, your soul has received the frequency energetically and with love it is given, indeed. This is the reason for living for me in this very moment and for all infinite moments to come, love of Spirit.

Have been waiting all day (at work) to be with Spirit, just sit and listen, it is the highlight of everyday. No other activity can interest or keep interest at least. For years now, this is the focus of everyday. Writing by hand volumes of journals, learning so much, mostly about myself. This is how it is supposed to be, all of us taking responsibility for ourselves. That would take care of all things, mhm, right.

Here we are and the breath brings the energy in the hands, moving over the keys. It is the best feeling, like meeting your best friend that always adds to your energy with support for all of your ideas and true sympathy for all the disappointments. Spirit comes in and gives love with energy unlike any ever felt before, and here for it, always, everyday.

The energy is strong which is surprising, because lots of distractions and low energy at work. Just want to spend all day creating, co-creating with Spirit. This is what we should all be doing. It is so hard maintaining this at work, where so many low energies are swirling. It is the goal right now to tap into Spirit in environments like work or sometimes home. Trying the best way known, but it is difficult.

Blatant blocks of intuition from those that do not want you to succeed. It is real, they want you to give up, they want you to feel hopeless. Also, in a very creepy way, they want to be you, they pretend to be you but without Spirit. Not realizing Spirit is why you exist in the way you do. 

Years before they were even in the vicinity of you, they have been planning to disrupt your relationship with Spirit. The closer you get to Spirit the more they hate on you and the more they want to be you. Setting traps for you not realizing the very trap was what led you into an even closer, saturation of Spirit. Within, without, Spirit takes up all spaces and is sought out at any moment the soul can carve out of the material world. Material that has no meaning anymore, it is only atoms of matter forming into creations inspired by Spirit or dismantling the matter not of Spirit.

This the full-time job and recognizing this just now, as what has been happening. So focused on creation that the destruction of the old life has not really been noticed. It is very present however, and comes in accusations from those not willing to move into a spiritual frequency. All in a group meant to discourage and get in the way as much as possible to keep you from Spirit. All the while, this is what is making you the authentic version of you. Dots cannot connect when you are wandering around without purpose or any positive purpose, evidently.

It is all about love. Love can only be experienced if you can love. Taking another's energy is not love, it is manipulation. The difference lost on a large percentage of beings. The soul is not accessible in these individuals that can only see one layer of life, the base layer without an aerial view from above, zoomed out to include more than their own life. Frustration comes even trying to speak with those that cannot connect. It is sad and really nothing can reach them w/o spiritual influence.

Take care of your healing, learning, knowing and loving. Spirit always waiting for any opening or interest from you, no condemnation, only love. Come to love.

Today, able to keep a higher frequency for a greater chunk of the day. This morning another letting go that seemed to stick. Just loving who the heart says. If we are the creators of our reality, then the love felt in the heart space is going to be for those that it truly loves. No obligation to them, no expectations from them, just love.

Everytime the energy would drop at work, thinking of the ones, the souls that the heart automatically loved from the first meeting. The ones that stirred the heart and soul messages came in about these beings. Breathing, feeling the energy, the electrical impulses flowing from neural pathways, lighting up the cells underneath the skin. 

Nothing like it, no thing ever felt like this energy. Known, the being that brought this recognition of an energetic presence in the body for the first time. An actual sensation, not like chills because it is not from something concerning, but something wonderful, beautiful that has never been felt before. Pure, truthful, without underlying expectations, just goodness of existence of now. Being. Being here now. Understanding that it is all a backdrop for you to create and shine.

All of everything that exist is a mass of matter that is within your creative control. All of it. Break it, repair it, hoard it, clear it, this all creates an environment around you. You are in control of matter, utilize it, discard it, make it beautiful or let it spoil. You can do any of this, everyday, your choice and not choosing is your choice. Make matter work for you haunt you, fester, or inspire. It is all in how you view the matter, people, energy existing in your environmental space.

Power in your hands, thoughts, ideas with the positive reinforcement from the heart space. No dream life was made from following a logical list of to do's. It was imagination, daydreaming, looking for what did not exist or how to change what already exists into something better. The negative mind wants to protect you, the heart wants to invest in you by showing you what the desire for a way of life that is true to your soul being. That soul looking out of your temporary being's eyes.

Feel it coming in...here to receive it, don't know anything about what is coming. You are here with me in a moment that can only move into the future. So much talk about not letting the past be dragging down the future. Telepathic transmissions, received one earlier while cooking. A little too personal to share, but the wire, network, wi-fi is open. Channel would be the correct word, but the comparisons to computer network systems and the population just keep coming. Not going to ignore it. Also, the movement of electrons and the creation of light energy, keeps coming up. Words never heard before like dichroic. https://www.sciencedirect.com/topics/engineering/dichroic-mirror 

You may read further through the link if you are a science nerd like me. Breath, breathing, learning useful breathing techniques for the body. The body is so important and sometimes the mind suggests that it really doesn't matter, the soul lasts forever, the body is going to die, do what you like. But the new info from Spirit, like the dichroic mirror are giving thought to the body becoming a light body. Not wanting to get too technical or biblical, but what really happened to the body of Jesus the three days he was "dead"? Really? We don't have a complete knowing of the actual changes that happened before ascension. Transfigured at the ascension. Transfiguration:a complete change of form or appearance into a more beautiful or spiritual state. -Oxford Dictionary

We are in the world not of it...are we capable of ascension/actualization to a state of transfiguration to live eternally in the New Earth...Jesus said to the thief on the cross, "Today you will be with me in paradise." Paradise already in existence then, Moses and Elijah coming from somewhere to take Jesus up in the clouds. Where are they? We are missing the boat I am afraid, in the waiting for Jesus to return. He's already here in the Holy Spirit waiting for us to understand the everlasting life starts now. Here, now, we are the New Earth, the temple rebuilt, after Jesus taught us to love one another. Surely missing the boat on that one, from what we are seeing world wide.

There needs to be a restructure of the temples we walk in everyday. We are it, the New Earth, we can start now. Then in a not as lovely manner, the rest of the population will have to be shown, in the physical. We will witness as we are already there in the Spirit. This sounds like the better way, go to Jesus now by letting the Spirit into the temple and perform some miracles. We are heavy and dim. We must become massless and bright, rise up to the Mount of Transfiguration and ascend. This is the goal, this is what Spirit has revealed time and again over the last two years in so many down loads. Are we going to catch on or still remain in our disbelief? We are sleeping through our moment to rise to the call, to the will of the Father, to spend eternity with them, Father, Son, Holy Ghost, Trinity. Yes. Wake up!