Identity Crisis: AI & Spiritual Psychosis
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Sacred Commerce Realizations: Accepting the Soul Assignment
It has been an expansive journey on Earth School for me thus far. I turn 28 on April 18th of 2025 and I feel immense gratitude for the awareness I am bringing with me going into my Saturn return. My financial journey is always expanding, but I feel called to document some background and realizations I find relevant to share since embracing my soul assignment as an advocate for truth, authenticity & empowerment.
Establishing myself as a artistic freelancer and the Mind Coach has granted me the privilege of co-creating a liberating experience on my path to purpose and ultimate fulfillment. I would be remiss if I did not mention that it has also guided me to conduct shadow work that I would certainly not have entertained in an academic classroom. By shadow work, I mean the process of uncovering the cognitive distortions, limiting beliefs/lies and stories we tell ourselves that create blockages to divine flow. For instance, I realized how much fear around success and money I had been entertaining in the form on lack/poverty. (Yes, there may be generational influences, but I personally have decided to take radically responsibility and be the generational cycle breaker, if you will.) I also realized that I was hiding behind these lies and stories, so it was not only a process to shine light on these shadows, but I get to shine light on myself. This kind of visibility sounded easy breezy, but when I looked at my reality, I realized I was not making myself available for visibility nearly as much as I consumed content of others making themselves available by simply showing up and being visible to the public. As I shifted my perspective on money, business and entrepreneurship, I began to realize that the visibility of marketing is nonnegotiable. Sure, I had been a performer on stages doing musical theater, poetry and public speaking, but this kind of visibility training was new.
Once I realized this about marketing, I began to open myself up to mentorship, coaches and soul led entrepreneurs because I knew I needed help and wanted to do my own personal research to discover what was possible. I soon attracted people who marketed themselves as spiritual business owners or who at least offered services based on their gifts. These people also bravely shared their experience navigating business, specifically the marketing aspect, online. The hot topic that made me feel dense and restricted was about the fact that I had to choose a target audience, label them and then figure out how to use language to attract those specific type of people. As a beginner, this may or may not feel overwhelming, confusing or even fair. For me, it felt like work or a challenge that my ego tried to convince me I could do without. Silly, right?
Since I tend to stray away from labels, I created some resistance to labeling my audience as anything besides human for as long as I could, but every time I would reach out for feedback, I would be faced with the truth: I need to tailor my content to a specific audience because I cannot help everyone. From a business POV, I get it, we need fitting language to market ourselves and our services; however, I immediately feel how limiting labels can be and limitation is not something I intend to perpetuate... so I had to reconcile the feelings with practicality.
Clarity: My Target Audience
My heart helped me realize and accept that my target audience is quite literally people who experience the world like me. Why? Well, it's quite simple: we can pretty much only effectively guide, support or facilitate solutions for someone who is experiencing a problem that we have already gone through or have uncovered the solution for and are actively implementing it. Since business/commerce is meant to be about bringing people solutions, this is not only practical but wise.
Thus, I've decided I will not conform by forcing myself to shake the urge to dismiss labels that do not FEEL right for me or the people I am meant to magnetize into my field. Instead, I shall focus on what does feel right & evolve the language as I see fit.
With all of that being said, the language that resonates the most for my target audience is GIFTED.
Gifted humans may have experiences on Earth where they were called:
too sensitive
too deep
autistic
overthinker
shy/introvert
weird
And it is possible that these people are now FEELING more called to identify with terms like:
psychic
intuitive
high functioning
empathic
channeler
lightworker
Clarity: SaVonne's intention for GWEN's legacy
I must admit, I do have an affinity towards women, so for now I aim to support gifted women on their transformation journey. However, I am open to supporting men as well, so let's just say women have a high priority. I would also like to mention that a strong influence on why women are my priority is because I am a woman and the Earth that we live on is the essence of feminine energy, abundance, creativity, nature and a nurturing spirit. From experience, I know how challenging it can be for women to thrive in this world, let alone American society. The experience of feeling disempowered in our lifestyles must be addressed for us to transform in a sustainable way. This is ultimately what inspired me to create the Global Wombmen Empowerment Network (GWEN) with the theme of wombmen empowerment (WE) as the focus.
We are a collective, not just in our homes, towns or cities, but across the globe. I accumulated a global perspective throughout my life, but it was heavily highlighted during my time attending Florida International University where all students are required to take a couple global learning (GL) courses. I bring all this up to say that I know what it feels like to be disempowered financially, mentally, physically and emotionally. The imbalance and disharmony felt is so deep because i am gifted with psychic abilities that allow me to feel my feelings as well as other people around me. So GWEN was initially inspired because I realized I was the one who needed a network of women to support me. I felt lonely, frustrated, and behind in life no matter how much I achieved. At the same time, I have a strong passion for service, so I know whatever resources, knowledge and information I came across and deemed valuable, could be documented and shared for other women to benefit from. GWEN is a passion project that I intend to cocreate with women who align with similar values, gifts and motivation to create a legacy that our peers, our children, their children and generations after us can leverage and elevate as we all evolve.
Original Poetry by SaVonne
One of the poems I created this spring is entitled:
Ready Player One 💚
Lend me your ear, my dear
Open your heart to infinite possibility ♾️
Veils lift when we choose to hear
Especially with curiosity
Imagine a life guided by passion
Stimulated by faith & curiosity
Trust is key 🔑
Hear the call & DONT stall
Erase all doubt and lean in
Acceptance is unconditional
Now, here & beyond time, we PLAY ▶️
Stories once written can always be amended
We let go to create anew; LEGGO!
Evolve and embody with we or
Repeat 🔁
And so it is with you - what do you choose?
What is a blog?
I could ask Google, ChatGPT, or Bing, but I think it doesn't matter what any search engine has to say about this because I want to cultivate my own dictionary of ideas and concepts. What matters most is my natural intelligence and imagination. To me, a blog = documentation of ideas, instructions or creation. So..
I've decided to start my blog because the hardest part is simply starting.
As the founder of W.E, I want to create a community that is a safe space for expression, growth, research and documenting the journey of exploring interests. On the internet, it seems like if you don't have concrete answers, a booming business and identity, you are invisible or marginalized. That's BS. We are all created from LOVE energy. We don't have to conform to the constructs that society perpetuates to control people. How do these constructs serve us? They don't.
I am a divine creative. When I am not creating, expressing or being of service, I get into a depressive state. I also have continuously come to the realization that when I am not a part of a group or community, I feel like I don't have purpose. Sure, I still do, but my being is most thrilled when I am exercising my gifts with a group of people who also have gifts and use them for a purpose.
Exploration
I love to explore different ways to express myself. I have explored various mediums of visual art: drawing, watercolor paint, acrylic paint, paper crafts, ceramics/pottery and now I am exploring generative art through artificial intelligence. People have been exploring innovative tools to create digital art from words/prompts. The image to the left is ai generated art. Dream.ai and Midjourney are 2 tools that I've used to create art the fastest.
One of my previous mentors exposed me to Midjourney and he has made it clear that this technology is great, but what is most important is how we use it. How do I want to use ai art? I mean, I could sell it, which I am, but for someone like me, there has to be a deeper connection. I usually form this connection during the process of creating. However, this type of art is almost instantaneous, so the process is extremely short and I miss out on forming the connection. I also like to enjoy the process of creating because I lose track of time and I get to focus on the details. I can't deny that I am a detail-oriented person, so now I am focused on exploring art that takes "time" again. All in all, I've decided I'm going to participate in both worlds, and I hope to share the journey.
To contemplate whether or not I would personally tune in, it would depend on who this "God" is that would be speaking on the podcast. If it's my true creator, I would tune in fashoooo.
As a person who has identified as spiritual instead of attaching to any particular religion, I have a unique perspective on who/what God is and it is always unfolding as I experience more life. However, I feel more convicted than ever in my grasp of who/what God is today than any other time in my twenty-something years of living. I feel God as love and creative energy. To be clear, I do not intend on convincing or persuading anyone to share my perspective. Actually, I would encourage everyone to embark on their own journey. It may take research, experimentation, open-mindedness and impeccable/intuitive listening. Be ready to strengthen your brain muscles and open your heart. Be ready to heal and transform because you will soon realize that what you are looking for is not outside of you.
Separation is an illusion.
As embodied souls, we experience lifetimes under the illusion that we are separate from God. However you choose to interpret or feel about this is completely up to you. In my opinion, this is a brilliant creative experiment. Let me explain... in high school, took an Advanced Placement (AP) Psychology class that introduced me to the true nature of illusions and why they exist in our reality. Illusions are like scientific games. I find that our perception of illusions are the more interesting aspects because if there is no one to observe the illusion, what's the point? Depending on the person, illusions can be funny, scary, silly or spark expansion of a person's critical thinking patterns. I'm glad that I was introduced to this early in my current lifetime because when I learned that our reality was an illusion, it didn't scare me or make me angry, or make me feel like I was played-- it all felt familiar somehow. This is all a game.
I must admit, I've been playing this game from my head too often. Overthinking and not taking enough risk, especially in the financial matrix. I am learning to play more, not take stuff so seriously and heal so that I can have more fun and allow my heart to guide me above my intellect. It doesn't help that I have Virgo placements lol.
Questions..?
I have been thinking what questions I would have for God if God had a podcast. Since I dodged a lot of religious indoctrination, I don't have clarifying questions about the various stories told about God and all the other beings who have been created to spread God's messages for humanity. I don't harbor intense anger towards God for all the tragedies and thousands of years of fear, pain and suffering humanity has experienced.
I would likely choose to express my gratitude for existing instead of asking a question tbh. If anything, I would ask, "How am I doing as a human? Am I doing the human things right?" lol.
I have come to innerstand the significance of learning through contrast. Experiencing the extreme/polar opposite of joy, peace, happiness and unconditional love can have a profound effect on the potency of gratitude one can feel for the true experience of these frequencies. I have experienced homelessness, foster care, abusive relationships and deep unfulfillment. In my personal journey, it has been quite useful for me to accept that duality and polarity exists. Regardless of the illusions playing out, it is safe to say this has been the nature of reality and it is a matter of perception that can free you. Since duality/polarity are in the formula of our lived and imagined realities (games, media, fantasy etc), once we can accept it, it shall be easier to navigate truth, distortion and perceptions. Well, this is where I'm at with it currently, so maybe I'll ask God what they think; like, am I on the best track for me? That's what matters most, right? I say absolutely, yes!
What curiosities or questions would you have?
12/02/2023 7:23pm
I am so grateful to be alive. I am so grateful to be embodied as a human woman, womb bearer, divine instrument. The wonder of my existence feels like a stream of colorful creative consciousness.
My affinity is infinity. My choice is a present in time. The gift of choice, yet the affinity to expand simultaneously. In all directions.
She is multidimensional, multidisciplinary. She said "F%ck intersectionality". Redefiniting time. She is redefined with time & as time simultaneously.
Beauty is more than her name. Beauty is the game and she is the field. The field of all creation creating herself and her toys and all di tings.
All along, an instrument. All along a mathematical, yet spontaneous equation creacion. Functioning through the planes as the planes and flying through the planes of existenstence. She is nothing and all things everywhere all at once. Oh the wonder to be she.
In a shell Becoming Me.Blossoming more as we. For she is free.
I was being so selfish. Not sharing me. Lol silly she.
Silly V. Thats me.
Q: What inspired you to pursue a career in creative consultation? ✏️
A: I was 100% dissatisfied with the life I had created for myself. I was faced with the opportunity to continue on that path of unfulfillment or choose to accept full accountability for my future self. I also had a spiritual awakening after being diagnosed with a neurological "disability" that made me feel like my most valuable asset (my brain) was under attack. I began a new layer of healing and asked myself: what would a fulfilling, fun, expansive, empowering & creative life look like for me? What makes me feel free?
Since I am naturally creative and I value being of service, I created a business that would empower me as a creator while serving others simultaneously. Creative Solutions Consulting was born from my heart/soul's truest desires.
I am honored to be of service & continue learning, growing & creating around the world.
❤️ 🌎
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4/20/2024
What is the EGO?
From my current level of conscious awareness/POV, ego is a gift from the Divine. Ego is our baseline identity in our human form. This is the human of our beingness. This is the form who has a name, birthday, family, friends, a job and who holds trauma. The ego judges and projects trauma onto others.
Furthermore, the ego is seemingly limited, but this does not make the ego "bad". Good and bad are labels that are rooted in duality (black & white mentality. This is not bad either. It actually is a fundamental building block of our character.
Individuation: What kind of character are you building in Earth School?
Imagine you are a start. Light in action. And the world is a game that you are playing in your dream state. When you first begin the game, you are given an avatar. This avatar is born into a family with a name and genetic information encoded into the DNA of the human form. The mission is to attend and participate in the Earth School game. In order to do this, you must program & develop your avatar/character in the game matrix.
As infinite beings, we get the opportunity to fractal off from Source energy and build character through a process called Individuation. This is undergone via the ego. The ego is blessed with the opportunity to develop its own unique character traits, behaviors, thoughts patterns and lifestyle within the Oneness of All that is.
Character building is a major key here in comprehending the purpose and divine design of the ego. The higher you ascend, the less individualized you are. The individualization dissolves upon ultimate ascension.
Gratitude & FREE Will
Gratitude for ego is essential to spiritual growth. Judgement of the ego can stifle growth. The power of witnessing is essential. Nonjudgement and nonattachment are master keys on the journey of ascension.
Free Will is also a divine gift. The ego is gifted free will so it can undergo the individuation process. This process involves character building through a cultivation of preferences. The way you like to dress, the foods you prefer, the music you enjoy listening to- are all ways to build your character in the Earth School.
Nonjudgement, Duality & Polarity= Alignment with Unconditional Love
Simultaneously, it is key to integrate nonjudgement of the opposite of your preference. Since the Earthly realm is built upon duality & polarity, we are surrounded by infinite options. These options entail our true preferences/desires as well as the polar opposite. Unconditional love as absolute/unconditional acceptance of all that is. Realize the power of learning via contrast. This realization leads to alignment with our Divine counterpart.
Transcend, Judge or Integrate the Ego?
The ego may find this challenging since it's fundamental essence is meant to be the avatar for individualization, choosing & fostering conviction in the chosen preferences. The challenge isn't so much of acceptance in the mind as it is acceptance in the heart.
Witnessing & Forgiveness
Witness the mind and FEEL into the heart to transcend egoic judgements, hate, fear and lack (illusions). In my personal experience, I have found it imperative to learn to train myself to witness my thoughts, emotions and behaviors. This realm has been heavily saturated with distortion and heart blocking, but we can activate our hearts through healing. Forgiveness is the solution. The Divine Forgivingness is ever present. We can align with it as we do our heart work via shadow work, deprogramming and reprogramming. I created the Mind Coach (transformational life coaching) to support those who are on the ascension journey.
We all have a choice of our intention and direction. The Divine Presence allots you the FREE will to choose ascension or descension. It is a judgement free ZONE here, so I am not attached to your direction; however, my values align with ascension protocols, so if you are interested in my transformational coaching services, please be aware of that.
What is the Spiritul EGO?
The spiritual ego develops or is created by the ego. If you are interested in innerstanding the spiritual ego, please click the link to read an article written by @MindValley. This article features Dharma Coach, Sahara Rose's, insights.
blog.mindvalley.com/spiritual-ego/
To be honest, I have my personal experiences with the Spiritual Ego that I am continuing to work through. I believe that the Spiritual Ego is co-created to teach us.
What am I learning from the Spiritual Ego?
Over and over again, I am learning to be a student/teacher simultaneously. The Earth🌍 School is truly Heart School💚. No matter what level of consciousness you are currently embodying, the mission/test/assignment shall always be aligning with UNCONDITIONAL LOVE as acceptance of all that is.
From my experience/POV, the Spiritual Ego symbolizes a angsty teenage version of the innocent baby/toddler stage of the egoic persona. This angsty teen thinks it has all the answers and judges harshly. It belittles unconscious or sleepy humans and creates separation. The spiritual ego seems to develop a form of spiritual narcissism that it feels is justified. It is truly still learning and growing like everyone else; however, since it has seemingly transcended human ego & has access to higher wisdom, knowledge & possibly financial success, it begins to operate on a "holier than thou" mentality. This mentality influences behavior and relationships.
No need to fret: The solutions are available
I have personally found that the most effective solution to any perceived problem is to return home to the heart center. 💚The heart is a neutral space (upon clearance/healing).
blog.mindvalley.com/spiritual-ego/
This^^^ Mind Valley article provides profound insights, tips & tools for navigating the spiritual egoic persona. I am integrating these things for myself & I coach others on these practices via Transformational Coaching. If you have any questions regarding my life coaching services, fill out this form or contact me via IG @mindcoach.earth or my Facebook Page.
If you have experienced or witness Spiritual Narcissism or Spiritual Bypassing, you will find powerful insights in this article that can support your intellectual understanding AND your 💚heart centered innerstanding of the Spiritual Ego + how to interact with it.
***Reminders for myself: Integrate with Forgiveness. Ground ($spiritual Hygien3 requires discipline. Faith, trust, surrender/allow & Witness. Ask for help/support when necessary.
Today is 10/2/24 as I am writing the intro to this blog post. This day also marks the last eclipse of the year; a solar eclipse & new moon (I think lol). I'm not an astrology superfan, so don't quote me, but I do take notes of the patterns and fundamental truths that are embedded in it. I am more interested in learning lemurian bearth charting and integrating that into my lifestyle. However, the sun and the moon are elements of our earthly system that I will always be a student of.
The following blog post was inspired by an interaction I had on Instagram that invited me to realize how I can sometimes operate in the energy of wanting to prove something to myself or someone else. I decided to record a video for my Patreon to dive deeper into the details of the situation and my epiphany, so if you're interested in that, check out the Commerce & Support tab to the left.
Besides the video, I also decided to do some automatic writing and see what my inner self would say. Here's how it went:
Tell me more about the energy of wanting to prove something. Where does this come from on Earth?
The wounded Ego feels disconnected from Source and other beings. The ego wants to feel connection; however, its attempts to feel connection are distorted by the belief in the illusion of separation. The attempts to force or coerce connection may be mental (psychological), emotional or physical (space). There is also a deep attachment to outcomes/expectations that these efforts will not be met with resistance or be ignored. Judgement of others may ensue as a result of failed attempts to form an inauthentic connection or a short-lived connection.
What is a sustainable solution for the resolution of this energy?
Self-love. This is the most sustainable solution for this energy because true love conquers all. Not because love is an egomaniac who loves to exert power and control, but because love is rooted in wholeness, unconditional acceptance and nonjudgment. Love knows the truth and is the truth. Each person must embark on their unique journey of self-love. Mindfulness is a powerful tool to integrate into one's lifestyle because it involves the cultivation of awareness. Awareness is powerful. Knowing thyself is powerful, so when we combine awareness and self-love, the energy of wanting to prove essentially dissolves into the phantom of nothingness that it always was.
I love automatic writing as a tool/practice for self-discovery because I am on a spiritual journey of self-mastery. I also want to note that, for me, self-acceptance and being seen/acknowledged has been an interesting journey because I do receive love and encouragement, but I still don't feel seen for my true self. I feel like people see me when it is beneficial for them. In my life, people see me when they need my help or want to show off their association with me/my skills.
In the past, people did not see my wholeness: the dark, the light & everything in between. I realize that a large part of that is because I would isolate, hide or shame myself so I was the one not allowing myself to be seen frfr. I take full accountability for that. I forgive myself and I am grateful for my past selves for being an example that I can learn from.
I say this because I recall being so irritable, envious, jealous and judgmental of other people because I created a story in my head that it wasn't fair that they were celebrated or recognized for things that I labeled as mediocre because "I can do that too" or "I can do that better". The projections and judgements were all created by me, and I believed them for so long.
I decided I am no longer committed to that story or any variation of those stories, and I gracefully let them go. I am now committed to wholeness, harmony, oneness, transformation & growth. I am committed to a story of being witnessed during all parts of my journey and accepted support. I am committed to believing in the highest good for all because we are all one and we are all equal.
I am complete.
💚Heart Alchemy
I speak to the soul
Not the hole in the heart
Say, can you be open like a bowl?
Let me fill you with light
allow it to overflow
and make gold
in the silence of the night 🌙
Eye and eye
I and I
We commune like the stars
We don't gotta try and try
We simply twinkle with the moonlight
By and by
High and higher
We've come far and nowhere
Shining on and on
Like Badu
Lingering in the mind like par fume
No curfew, let's sing this song on tune
Even if it takes all night, I'll sing with you
On and on
And on & on
An Ode to my Heart
Today, I cried beautiful tears
If I may say, it took yeeears
to understand all these feels
bubbling up to my head from my heels
O, my dear
My sweet, dear heart
Where do I start?
(Deep, slow breath)
I adore... your kindness
in the midst of such darkness
and emotional blindness
You remain open
to hope and
care
Even when it feels... unfair
you share
Your light and love♥️
maybe even a healing hug
with those we love
and adore
Who once were strangers, sure
And also those who know pain
and with to gain💰
thinking it will cease their true pain💔
of unrealized dreams and disdain
towards creation
since we have been in the depths of separation
Shall we gain clarity?
Despite the illusion of disparity
And separation
And negation
of our true power.
Affirmations
are [a part] of the solution
no more mental pollution
focus on sustainable solutions
For the mind
For the soul is the heart
with the body
as spirit
embodied
Forgiveness is the master key🔑
And so it is
Today, I cried beautiful tears
If I may say, it took yeeears
to understand all these feels
bubbling up to my head from my heels
Agua
Water heals
through the feels
Like holy water
Cry at thine altar
Flow like shower water
Or a mother whom lost a daughter
Allow the flow
Let go
And you shall feel clear
Like a diamond shining upon thine ear
Thank you for reading!
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