Vibration studies is a project of looking into how we can feel a deep connection to our creativity, to our environment, to our bodies, and to the sounds of our inner space. This is an exploration of what lingering and listening to our insides can bring to how we engage and create. We will engage this through writing, sonic and visual language that stories our practice with what is possible in trusting the inner space as a generative and life giving place to dwell in.
Sitting in the room,
at a desk,
in a room,
in a room,
with other people in many rooms.
Feeling tired, Feeling tired, Feeling tired
whilst in this room,
wanna go back
wanna go back to my room,
we,
need to find room to breathe.
I feel there’s no room, where is my room?
A little corner of safety, this is for safety, sound is safety for me, feeling little crushed not brutalised , am I really what I think I am?, probably not, its only inklings, messages I believe are from places deeper calling me back, to the root, to the source.
I hear them and I don’t , I see them in my actions: the good, conniving, confused, loving, space of being, words can never describe nor hold. how do I hold myself here, how do I push into my aliveness whilst here, how do I hear the frequency I care about, remove fear seems ideological, do it with fear seems exhausting, quitting seems close but I can’t, I wanna spread and share,
My whole life I have been begging myself to just, to just not be as vibrant as I am but also struggling with faltering vibrancy when there is a whole life to live and surely living it is what must be tried, otherwise why?
what makes you feel alive? what does it feel like?
attend to your body in each situation and notice how it reacts to each situation, space and experience. I think we need to focus on the body, not only from a chemical view but a energetic view. The atoms that we are made of are 99,99% space, space that we consider empty but must be charged with ever-changing and ever-moving energy. How do we relate to, connect with and feel that energy? How does it guide us and how can we activate it to guide us where we want to go? the answer must be different for everybody. in one way or the other.
i don't know what to feel
it's as if i'm there
i'm here
looking in from out
it's not a hazy dream
it's more real
how i had no reaction, no flinch,
how i didn't see it that way
my eyes are stretched deeper
as though they look into themselves
quick quick
it passes but stays
you're the continuation in this memory
trust it, see it for what it is,
what the eye has seen
feel the body's experience
ah shit i didn't know that left me feeling that
i grunt my throat in awed disbelief
how could i have not seen it that way?
it's like you're in between
being slammed by the walls of memory
breaking through the walls to reach memory
i almost wanna memorise it this way
not the ways i've always believed it
it's crazy how you could be sitting, reading wanting to rest, listening to the hadedas and then.....
time flips by
and then you flip by, flung
thrown, land,
you land
deep-dipped into the obsessiveness of memory
i'm seeing myself again
i don't know if it's pretty or true
but it's happening to me
i won't control it,
i can feel every word that you wrote and their still present connection to your being
i feel it and i recognise that bond, it’s a deep one, originating in a deep place, and like you said, sometimes scary one
cause the words are holding onto something that you have been carrying and moving with you
without maybe realising it’s tremendous growing weight (or that it has any weight at all), and it’s extended branches reaching to other parts of you
then you said “only if the words come back to me”
and my first thought was: they must
cause
we as human kind are developing and a huge part of that development is through language
life as a ruling energy wants us to develop so life wants language to develop and words, being one way of languages constructions, should find new connections and ways of forming
i think you are you are giving words that chance so
i’m sure
they will come back to you
spending time listening. moving to your inner groove. and being honest with it. daring to bring the inner world out.