Untitled Birthday Party Project, or a Woman’s Guide to Birthday Breakdowns came to me on a whim, starting as a journal entry in a last semester of college freak out. It has been overwhelming beyond words to write something and to realize throughout this process that I am not the only one sitting with these thoughts. I cannot think of a better project to end my college career than being able to explore these fears.
Although “Woman” struggles with an unnamed health condition, millions of women suffer for years and their pain is swept under the rug due to the medical neglect of doctors brushing off pelvic pain of any kind. Thousands of women are taught as children that pain is something to be expected. That mentality allows 1 in 10 women to wait on average 10 years to receive an Endometriosis diagnosis. Endometriosis itself has been portrayed as just a “painful period.” Untitled Birthday Party Project is not written to scare audience members about the effects of this disease, however pelvic pain and increased risks of infertility barely scratch the surface of the long-term physical effects and don’t begin to scratch the surface of the extremely heavy mental effects.
I’m thankful for “Woman” for giving me an outlet to explore the complicated relationship I have with my body, as well as the darkest sides of how this disability has affected me mentally. She has allowed me to see aspects of myself in a new light. She gave me a space to go to the extremist of extremes that the anxiety of my diagnosis has caused me without judgement. For one of the first times in my life since my symptoms began in 2009 and since my diagnosis in 2020, she allowed me to share every fear without censoring myself for the feelings of others.