New Message between [SoupySounds,BeeEnjoyer, FishingHangouts]
–FH is online!
FH: i'm sorry i ruined things yesterday!!
FH: i don't really know what's going on with me anymore.
FH: some days i get really fucking sad. i've been getting really angry recently and i'm not sure why! and sometimes i'm perfectly fine!
FH: and i don't know what to do really?
FH: but i haven't really been a good friend and i'm really sorry. it's not fair to either of you!
FH: i'm just really stuck. i keep feeling worse and worse!
FH: it really feels like somethings wrong with me and i can't even fix it!!
FH: yeah. thats kinda it.
FH: i just wanted to tell you i'm sorry.
–FH is offline!
–BE is online!
BE: get back here mf
BE: because i have several things to say to you
BE: the main one being that i think you're a good friend and that i don't blame you for having a hard time
BE: the second one being
BE: please dont beat yourself up
BE: i can't really say iv been in your situation
BE: but i can say i know what its like to feel like you hurt or at least inconvenience every person u meet
BE: and get it in your head that all youre capable of is fucking shit up
BE: and for me at least it never really went away
BE: and im not sure what my point is with all this
BE: but youre one of the best friends ive ever had and i refuse to sit here and let you think youre anything other than a really cool guy
BE: i cant do much for you, but me (and ss) can be your friend throughout any hard times
BE: u and ss have made me be far too genuine lately
BE: thats ok though
BE: i like caring about both of you
BE: damn that was cringe
BE: i am cringe but i am free
–BE is offline!
–SS is online!
SS: BE does a far better job at showing support and compassion than I do. For someone who loves reading as much as I do, I should be better with words.
SS: So unfortunately you'll have to read through my blundering messages of support. You're very important to me and I won't let my failures with words be a hindrance.
SS: Ahem.
SS: If you recall last year when we first found ourselves able to communicate through this program, you'll remember how I was absolutely insufferable. I went out of my way to interrupt you and BE's conversations and either correct your grammar or give you some other reason to start an argument with me. I was being unkind to both you and BE out of some misplaced jealousy. It was both immature and unnecessary.
SS: Why do I bring this up, now of all times?
SS: Because even though I was an asshole, and hurt both of you, we became friends. We still are friends. You and BE both are the only people I find myself able to communicate with and understand. Don't ever kid yourself by thinking you've done me some great misfortune by being my friend.
SS: You haven't done anything that has hurt me, in the past or recently. If you ever do though, I will always do my best to understand why you did whatever hurt me, and work to forgive you.
SS: Should you ever need me, I will be there to lend an ear.
–SS is offline!
-BE is online!
BE: ss: im not good with words
BE: also ss: writes something not even directed at me that makes me cry
–BE is offline!