black flare podcast

im on this podcast i play this character named hollis and i love them and i think about them all the time. my brain never shuts up so i give it hollis to squeeze like a stress ball while i try to do stuff so it doesnt go off into the unknown abyss of anxiety on me. i am always putting them in situations i put them in an ant farm and shake it up just to make them mad. when i say i love them i mean like in a cruel god way that is very healthy and normal. the podcast is cool too. i hope they dont die too soon

when i wrote hollis's bio and backstory caleb and arin were like we want all of it. and i was like no please you dont understand let me send you a short synopsis. but they were insistent so i added them to the google drive i have. and caleb read it all while on a plane ride. making and developing rich characters is my special interest and im pretty much always having to restrain my passion for it in some way or another. i am THAT kind of problem player and i gave those men so many outs and they said no actually this is amazing. which is incredibly validating and it makes me wanna cry. but the problem now is if hollis gets any more developed they will become real like the velveteen rabbit and leap out of their character journal and kill me on sight.

im like the biggest fan of this podcast. crazy also wild that im in it. i think its pretty good.