According to Taylor, “Back to December” is the first time she ever apologizes to someone in a song. She said she never felt the need to apologize in a song before. But in the last two years she had experienced a lot, including different kinds of learning lessons: “And sometimes you learn a lesson too late and at that point you need to apologize because you were careless.”
«‘Back To December’ is a song that addresses a first for me, in that I’ve never apologized to someone in a song before. This is about a person who was incredible to me – just perfect in a relationship, and I was really careless with him. So, this is a song full of words that I would say to him that he deserves to hear.»
Taylor Swift
[Verse 1]
I’m so glad you made time to see me
How’s life? Tell me how’s your family?
I haven’t seen them in a while
You’ve been good, busier than ever
We small talk, work and the weather
Your guard is up, and I know why
[Pre-chorus 1]
Because the last time you saw me is still burned in the back of your mind
You gave me roses and I left them there to die
[Chorus]
So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying, “I’m sorry for that night”
And I go back to December all the time
It turns out freedom ain’t nothing but missing you
Wishing I’d realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and make it all right
I go back to December all the time
[Verse 2]
These days I haven’t been sleeping
Staying up, playing back myself leaving
When your birthday passed and I didn’t call
Then I think about summer, all the beautiful times
I watched you laughing from the passenger side
And realized I loved you in the fall
[Pre-chorus 2]
And then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love and all I gave you was, “Goodbye”
[Chorus]
So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying, “I’m sorry for that night”
And I go back to December all the time
It turns out freedom ain’t nothing but missing you
Wishing I’d realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time
[Bridge]
I miss your tan skin, your sweet smile, so good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night
The first time you ever saw me cry
Maybe this is wishful thinking
Probably mindless dreaming
But if we loved again, I swear I’d love you right
I’d go back in time and change it, but I can’t
So if the chain is on your door I understand
[Final Chorus]
But this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying, “I’m sorry for that night”
And I go back to December
It turns out freedom ain’t nothing but missing you
Wishing I’d realized what I had when you were mine
I go back to December, turn around and make it all right
I go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time
[Outro]
All the time