New Cuyama, CA
06/21/2025
Shameless
I trace my fingers over his stretch marks.
Puppy dog eyes.
Stomach full of cock lap, lap, lapping,
Suck, suckling every gyzym left.
Kiss kiss kissing every thigh every slab of meat I own, I belong to.
Nuzzles up to my lips and pulls the sheath back to fuck me with myself.
With fingers fingering it out feeling up and down every fold
this man I choose to spend my life with, with no prior knowledge of his sex I choose.
I let him touch parts that knowingly bite but yield for his what?
Tips that don’t scratch.
He moves so quick yet soft, a behavior I can’t choose but works so close.
So close.
So close. I am so close to this thing called lust that fucks itself into love.
I cum into his hand to hold his mouth with mine.
His green blue eyes that are so blown black stare and once again my puppy comes home.
I hope I deserve this.
Oakland, CA
06/19/2025
Neal Cassady
“Cassady was Kerouac’s dream man. He had to have sex every day and also masturbated several times daily. He was never faithful to his wives and didn’t pretend to be. He loved driving fast cars and burned, burned, burned. Cassady mooched his way through his New York visit as Ginsberg and Kerouac vied for him sexually. Both planned to travel to meet him, and each did. They competed for Neal until he went west again. Both planned to follow him.”
That’s how I felt about Dom. Her free spirit and doing what she wanted when she wanted was alluring.
That’s romanticized suicide.
Yeah.
I don’t like how careless you are with me because you still don’t think you deserve good things.
I don't want to be careless with you because I love you.
I love you.
I guess I was on my path to Kerouac.
Drinking ecessivley every day?
Well yeah and sleeping around with women and men but convincing myself I couldn't be gay.
But here you are with me.
I think though I relate to Ginsberg so hard because when I met you, I met my Peter and my life shifted.
I'm glad you made that shift.
Me too.
*a beat *
Kerouac drank himself to death fun fact. And Ginsberg died from loving too liberally.
Didn't you say he died from hepatitis?
Yeah but he got that from nasty ass sex.