Lyrics

I’m a connoisseur of feeling strange

But this game we’re playing it’s not fair it’s not fair

What were you saying I didn’t catch that

I wasn’t listening but I think I’ve got some

Complaints, yeah I’ve got some complaints

Worries, you bet I’ve got some worries

But I’m not sure if I can trust you

Cause I don’t really know you

Been trying to figure you out

Trying to pick your lock

I see you coming but I am not prepared

Wind me up inside and cut me loose cut me loose

I haven’t got a clue no time to think it through

I got no answers but you better believe I got some

Questions, you bet I've got some questions

Concerns, you know I've got concerns

But I’m not sure if I can trust you

Cause I don’t really know you

Been trying to figure you out out out

Trying to pick your lock

But we’re not sure if we can trust you

Cause we only just met you

Been trying to figure you out

Trying to pick your lock

I find your effect a little suspect

Oh you pay your dues and they double your debts

That engagement was such a sad affair

Do you think we should I guess we could but who really cares

A television that someone left on the curb

A bygone window to another world

Caught in a web of abusive lies (get out of my head get out of my head)

She sees straight through me with her dagger eyes (like a thousand little cuts like a thousand little cuts)

When we landed in Prague I know I fell apart

Wish I could go back and change it but instead I’ll try to turn it into art

Cast about but silence is all you’ve found

When they burry your past six feet in the ground

I’m buying pot from your old man

It’s not my best idea but I get what I can

Caught in a web of abusive lies (get out of my head get out of my head)

She sees straight through me with her dagger eyes (like a thousand little cuts like a thousand little cuts)

Trying to keep it together with emotional suicide (I feel nothing at all)

I’ve grown seasick riding her tides

If there is a God she’s an asshole

That’s what she said to me as we made our way on through

The planned communities of California where the homosapiens make their homes

And there’s a Romeo for every Romeo and two Juliets for every Juliet under the sun

But I still can’t believe that you 

Would ever think I was the one

The only thing I’ve done in my life of significance is loving you from circa 2003 to circa 2008

Isn’t it great those early days of love

They can burn the paper but the history remains

The thought police could never keep you and I restrained

And some people go whole decades without ever being able to speak their truth

Let's not let that become you and me

Did you ever love me?

The only thing I’ve done in my life of significance is loving you from circa 2003 to circa 2015

Oh isn't it strange how quickly the trust can fade

Dying to rekindle old flames we hit the road and headed for the redwood coast

Got lost in the desert had share our water just to realize two hearts beat louder than one

And who is the author of these dark thoughts 

Oh she loves me but maybe she loves me not

The only thing I’ve done in my life of significance is loving you from circa 2003 to circa yesterday

It’s not always easy to stay in the love

Everything I do just feels like a waste

I wish I could get a taste of the good life

Don’t know why you like hanging out with me

Please ignore the things I say cause you know I always mean something else

And you’ve been breathing in my lies for far too long

I wish I knew what I wanted so I could tell you and then things would

Be a little bit clearer in the mirror 

I see myself, I need a haircut

I wish I knew my friends from my foes

And I’ve been working on being vulnerable

I wish that you would stay

So I wouldn’t feel so afraid, all the time

Please excuse my exacerbation but I just need some of your validation

I can’t live alone, I can’t be alone, I can’t be what it is you want

I wanna be better to the people around me but there’s no one left around

I feel okay but that’s just for today so I’m gonna look back

Into the mirror find myself another cheerful memory to reflect on

I still need a haircut, where’s my haircut

I wish I knew my friends from my foes

And I’ve been working on being vulnerable

I wish that you would stay

So I wouldn’t be so afraid, AH!

Just want to spend the afternoon, not thinking about you

Darkness settles in, I’ve fallen in the lake and I can’t swim

Oh, don’t want to bring you down with me

But you asked how I was doing

Now it’s clear you weren’t sincere

So turn off the light as you go

I tried a thousand times, to tell you what’s on my mind

But you would always find a way, to sink my ship so slowly

Oh, don’t want to bring you down with me

But you asked how I was doing

Now it’s clear you weren’t sincere

So turn off the light as you go

Ah what a beautiful day

Ah what a perfect day

What a lovely day

For wasting away one minute at a time

This is a message of distress from a dying planet called earth

Can anyone hear me screaming into the void

Oh, don’t want to bring you down with me

But you asked how I was doing

Now it’s clear you weren’t sincere

So turn off the light as you go

Don't you know that I know nothing at all

I just try to get my life in line like the rest of us

You gotta know yourself

You gotta know your mind

You gotta try and save your words for when it counts

Friday night drinking by myself

I know I should care what you think but I don't so I won't

Don't you know that it's always the people you know

And I know lots of folks but they don't know my name

So I twist the truth to make myself calm down

Social norms are not my burden to bear

I play my songs for no one else

I know I should care what they think but I don't so I won't

No I won't!

Disappointed with my past self

I know I should care what I think but I don't so I won't 

No I won't

So I won't

Try to keep my mind at bay

Try not to say the things I want to say

Try to keep my thoughts to myself

But it's all a waste of time

Try to tell you how I feel

Try to get a morning meal

Try to get what I deserve

But it's all a waste of time

It's all a waste of time

Cause we're always collaborating with the past

We're always collaborating with the past

We're always collaborating with the past

We're always collaborating with the past

Whether you want to or you don't

Whether she loves you or she won't 

Whether your existence has been condoned

You belong, you belong

I can't save you from your own decisions

You choose your side and I'll collect the winnings

If you believe in emptiness it will welcome you with open arms

When we look at our past we always find things that we should take back

My house on stolen land

The fields are worked but not by my hand

This moment brought to us by the tears of those who came before

There has never been a better time for you to step aside

The arc of history should bend away from people like me

And if you just get out of the way

I think they've got something to say

And what if we are all exactly where we're meant to be

And talking to you has never been good for me

You always had the longest goodbyes and even longer hellos

Well we're on the road to progress but no one knows where it goes

Congratulations you've come to dominate a shitty species

But we don't have the time to deal with your fragility

This moment brought to us by the tears of those who came before

There has never been a better time for you to step aside

The arc of history should bend away from people like me

And if you just get out of the way

I think they've got something to say

Red sky at night

I wonder if you're alright

We all just want to be liked

I like you

Feel like I should say it more

Would anyone miss me

Would anyone care

If I just disappeared into thin air

I miss you 

I hope you're alright

Just want to connect with you but our memories are wrapped in pain

And all my worries and faults my habits and scars are hidden just out of your view

It seems that you've been crying since the last time that we spoke

Sometimes I wish I could say the right thing 

Without speaking the words, saying the sounds

I've given this too much of my time

I let you cross all of my lines

I don't know what it is I need

But I'm quite sure this isn't it

Isn't it, isn't it, isn't it, isn't it, this isn't it

But you're not even listening to me 

So I think I'm gonna take some time

Building up to a scream like a kettle

The taste of Tuesday between my teeth

And I go to your party and drink all the Chianti 

But I'm not sorry, no I'm not sorry

And all my relationships rot 

They tell me it's all just part of the plot

I'd rather not, I didn't know there was a plot

I'd rather not, I didn't know there was a plot

I've given this too much of my time

I let you cross all of my lines

I don't know what it is I need

But I'm quite sure this isn't it

Isn't it, isn't it, isn't it, isn't it, this isn't it

But you're not even listening to me 

So I think I'm gonna take some time

No you're not even listening to me 

So I think I'm gonna take some time

The sweetest dream has come and gone

And vanished like a whisper

If it's not real then why does it feel

Like she's right here talking to me

I feel her breathe and hear her voice

Give anything for a different noise

She never fades, never ages a day

Everything else turns to grey

Dreamers and lovers echo in time

I scribble you on the edges of mind

Your screaming at me to come out and play

Screaming at me do you believe

That people can change, but people are strange

Tired and cold, far from my home

Dreaming of my golden days

Why is it so, that a tortured soul

Is required to break the mold

What can I say, that won't give me away

I used to know myself, but I've changed

Dreamers and lovers echo in time

I scribble you on the edges of mind

Your screaming at me to come out and play

Screaming at me do you believe

That people are strange, but people can change

Breaking bread in a broken home where broken dreams cannot grow

Fearful eyes and worried thoughts

I wish that I could untie all your knots

What can I say, that won't give me away

I used to know myself, but I've changed

Don't sell yourself short, you're a delusional beast

When I'm starving you conjure me up a feast

You're the source of all my insecurity

Do you like cream and sugar with your anxiety (oh yes please)

Cause you're my brain and your game

Is making me believe in things 

That just aren't there

But if it's in my brain, is it any less real to me

You placed a mental health wanted ad

But being f-ed in the head in such a cliche fad

Sometimes I really hate you but I know I can't live without you

Sometimes it's hard to tell who's trapped inside of who (who's trapped inside of who!)

Cause you're my brain and your game

Is making me believe in things 

That just aren't there

There's nothing there

There's nothing there

There's nothing there

Summer has come and you’re still in your sweater

And I make mistakes everyday

I change my mind a hundred thousand times

And you push me against the grain

I think we should burn it all down and build something new

You always say exactly the wrong thing

But at exactly the right time

You laugh at the neighbors mowing their lawns

And you are always on my mind

I think we should burn it all down and build something new

I think we should burn it all down and build something new

She says it’s time to start the revolution

As she falls asleep on the couch

The truth is always seen in such low resolution

But give it time it’s dying to get out

I think we should burn it all down and build something new

I think we should burn it all down and build something new

I remember the way we used to laugh

While the town crumbled around us

You swore you'd leave and never come back

But now you've moved away to the west coast

And left me here watching the rain

The songs are always about you

But somehow these days they don't feel the same

So if you're ever back in this town

Look me up, I'm sure I'll be around

Sitting here, waiting for you

Cause waiting for you, is the only thing I do

I saw your pictures on the internet

It looks like you've built a beautiful life

But the feeling is bittersweet

I wish you were here talking to me

I remember the way we used to dance

You shared your dreams with me late one night

Like how you always wanted to live in France

So if you're ever back in this town

Look me up, I'm sure I'll be around

Sitting here, waiting for you

Cause waiting for you, is the only thing I do

Cause waiting for you, is the only thing I do

Behind every mixed up feeling, is just another scared human being

Take those shitty cards you’ve been given, turn them into a life worth living

You say the only reason you don’t kill me is because jesus said it wouldn’t be okay

That’s not all that reassuring, do the right thing for the right reasons

Everybody’s under the influence, you can’t escape its effect on you

Everybody’s under the influence, you can’t see without a point of view

So I been waiting a long time to say this

Why can’t you just make a pop song like the rest

Feel it in your bones it makes you want to move

You don’t know until you catch the grove

Please don’t delay, meet me in the foyer, cause I’ve got something to say

I’m not okay, I’m not okay, I’m not okay

What do you wanna believe in now

Well I don’t know but I’ll do it for you

Everybody’s under the influence, you can’t escape its effect on you

Everybody’s under the influence, you can’t see without a point of view 

Sha la la la la la la

Everybody’s under the influence, you can’t escape its effect on you

Everybody’s under the influence, you can’t see without a point of view

Just another Sunday everything's going great 

Drinking beers playing records and staying up late, oh well, oh well

Life's been a breeze, I never felt the squeeze

Got everything I want and most of the things I need, uh huh, uh huh

I turned a blind eye to those with a struggle

Talk inside my bubble with like minded people, uh huh, we all think the same

But now the tables have turned and nothing I've learned 

Can help prepare for what's gonna happen today, oh the shit that's going down today

Violated expectations

Meaningless salutations

Spurious correlations 

Waste space in my brain

Ahhhhh....I'm gonna lose it!

So forget the pettiness you can win all the fights

And if I don't respond it's because bigger things are going on in my life, then your little ego

Cause everybody's dying but the asshole has spied me 

Failing to use my turn signal, oh I hope he burns in hell, I hope he burns in hell!

Pretend I'm alright keep my feelings locked up tight 

In this masculine prison of emotion that the world built for me, that the world built for me!

Cause I wanna tell you how much you mean to me

But at this very moment the words aren't coming

This is not my forte, never was my forte

Violated expectations

Meaningless salutations

Spurious correlations 

Waste space in my brain