'Solstice' - Her Writings

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// Yes, this can be taken. Yes, you can read this if you take it from her ICly. The reason the 'writings' are in a different font is because she scans them onto this file and then stores the physical copy on her person. This is essentially a time capsule of her writings.

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Hello, Solstice. It is 6/8/25 at 12:22 PM, Tuesday.

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ENTRY 1 - 6/8/25 - 3:51 PM

Um.. I think I'm going to start writing here now. I enjoy writing.
Well. I'll just keep my writings short. Who am I kidding. I have to write about this shit.

I'll just start with this. I really like Cipher. I mean, he's a fed and all but .. I'm a terrorist. Sometimes I think if I'm friends with him, I might get in trouble. Because mainly the government has it out for me. So does the French government. I'm AWOL in their eyes anyway. Thalia died. Self-righteous bitch had it coming anyway. Never liked her, never will. I'm.. sad. I don't know how to feel about all this death. Do I really want to be here? Do I really want to lose all of my friends the same way due to the fucking Ambassador? Why did they move me here? Why? What did I ever do to get removed from Chayenne? Is it because I punched that CO for getting my ex-wife killed? Is it because.. FUCK! I can't take this shit anymore. I just want a way out. I don't want to be here, but I want to be here at the same time. I.. have too many friends here. Fuck fuck fuck!!!

ENTRY 2 - 6/9/25 - 11:52 PM

...Cipher's gone. Not dead, I think. He emailed me back and all.. but uh.. he got a new job with PENTAGRAM, some department in the DOD. Department of Defense. He always said he wanted out of TIU. I didn't get a chance to say goodbye in person. Atleast we still have a date scheduled for DC. ...I think I miss him. I don't know. I was always more keen to women, but something about him just makes me feel better about myself. And now he's gone. FUCK Uncle Sam. FUCK this place. Okay- um.. other stuff. Six is still a bitch. Commander Delta had us spar. I beat up Haietlik, some lady who beat the piss out of Alexei. Then I fought an Initiate and he actually beat my ass. I still won though. Commander Delta beat Alexei and.. it was bad. He got thrown around. Then RAIJU HAD TO GO FUCK IT ALL UP AN HOUR LATER!

It's part of the reason Cipher's gone. We just /had/ to get Jester. We just HAD to fucking do it in the GODDAMN UNGOC COURTHOUSE. THE GROUP OF PEOPLE WE DON'T WANT TO FUCK WITH! I bargained with Cipher. I got him to turn from his badge just one time, the ONE guy who swore to never do it. I gave them a chance to turn a blind eye. TIU wouldn't make a move. And then they just had to fucking.. shoot up the town. I had to shoot at Cipher. He didn't take it personally. Why do we want that stupid fucking headset kid anyway? What value does he have to us other than getting to Druid? Why do we care so much? Why can't we just do our job? This wasn't the job I signed up for. I signed up to make humanity better, not torture some fucking piss-boy who essentially wears a VR headset. Sometimes I think about fleeing back to France, turning myself in to the authorities. But I don't want to dance with the devil on a cold cell block- because I'm not apart of the group of people that rape, murder and sell rock.
I just think I want to fight for what's right. What we did wasn't right, and I lost the one guy who I felt was one of my best friends. Fuck this place. Fuck Cell-Omega-2. This is a joke. I want to go live in peace with my friends. Why can't we leave well enough alone. I hate myself. I think I'm gonna talk to Raiju about my future today.