I have always felt uncomfortable in front of a digital camera in comparison to something more hand held like my IPhone.  I wanted to explore where I would start being more comfortable or have as much control in front of the camera and how much the imagery changes from those feelings. How, to me, the camera feels as though there are eyes on me intensely, beating down on me. To help combat those feelings, I used lace as a barrier between me and the camera to make me feel as though I am in a different space while still in. Seeing more of the silhouette of me or the idea of me behind it made me feel more comfortable and powerful in front of the camera because it just wasn't straight on me anymore. 

Overall, I wasn't going for a more direct approach of the “eyes” concept and in a place I feel more comfortable because I felt it would be too on the nose. I wanted to be in the studio experiencing what it feels like to be the model and director of my images so I can feel like I am in control at all times. Therefore, truly feeling empowered by imagery of me, by me. 

These images are representing my struggles with femininity and religion. Growing up I was always told how I should act, look, dress and be. Others telling me how I need to be for them and not for myself.