"My Testimony" is a deeply personal and inspiring song that journeys my life, from my early days in school to finding and embracing God. This song shows all of my struggles, growth, and eventual transformation through God’s grace. It’s a story of resistance, acceptance, and ultimately, salvation.
In the beginning, I was the same as everyone else, I didn’t like the church - it felt foreign, a waste of time. But over time, the church grew on me. I asked my mom about the worship team, and she spoke to the Worship Leader. The Worship Leader spoke to me and told me to come on a rehearsal night so I came on the very next one. I began serving and found a community that supported me. Half of the song reflects the most difficult part and that was strengthening my mind to only care about what one person thinks of me and that is God. I was suicidal back in 2018, and with God's guidance, I got my life together and made it through high school. My transformation is captured in the lyrics, aligning with Romans 12:2: "Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind. Then you will be able to test and approve what God's will is—his good, pleasing and perfect will."
The song also speaks to the fear and hesitation I felt about publicly proclaiming my faith. I was scared of backlash and being made fun of by my peers. I referred to the scripture of Matthew 5:11-12, which says, "Blessed are you when people insult you, persecute you and falsely say all kinds of evil against you because of me. Rejoice and be glad, because great is your reward in heaven." These words reminded me that standing firm in my faith, despite opposition, is a path to a great blessing.
"My Testimony" emphasizes the power of salvation through Jesus. Ephesians 2:8-9 resonates with my journey, which says, "For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith—and this is not from yourselves, it is the gift of God—not by works, so that no one can boast." It’s a testament to the fact that no matter how far we’ve strayed, God’s grace is always available to us if we open our hearts and accept Him.
If anyone struggles with the same thing I struggled with and sometimes still struggle with to this day, this song is for you. Use my testimony as an inspiration to not be ashamed of the gospel of Jesus Christ. My story alone shows that someone who was on the brink of suicide found joy through Jesus and now he lives a life full of joy. I chose to accept the great plan that the Lord has for me (Jeremiah 29:11), do you?