My Monolouge
The monologue I've written centers around the speaker feeling emotions for the first time. Writing out certain emotions was challenging but I wanted to do my best to express the way that I feel about these emotions and try to verbalize these complex feelings.
When I was first beginning to write out the monologue itself I got very stumped in many different places. When even coming up for the idea of the monologue I knew I wanted it to include the theme of contrasting but I didn't know how to implement it at all. I had written monologues where a character is happy then becomes sad, or confident into nervous, but I wanted this monologue to be more than that somehow. I wanted to be able to vividly describe these emotions in a way that made sense as well as give the actor performing it the freedom to be able to interpret these feelings in their own way in order to give a more personal performance. I didn't want to tell whoever was reading my monologue how to feel or portray the emotions described while also giving enough directions and prompting that they would understand what to do.
I also tried to use this capstone as a way to share my own personal feelings and emotions in a way. I know that my feelings aren't indicative of everyone's own, especially in relation to the mental illness' I have, however, I tried to use my experience to shape the direction of my monologue.
